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10 | 10 | ||
11 | ## I | 11 | ## I |
12 | 12 | ||
13 | I hear [the rats][] run \ | 13 | | I hear [the rats][] run |
14 | in the walls like water \ | 14 | | in the walls like water |
15 | through a tree. My blood | 15 | | through a tree. My blood |
16 | 16 | ||
17 | thickens. As I dream \ | 17 | | thickens. As I dream |
18 | the masturbation dream \ | 18 | | the masturbation dream |
19 | the shelf above my bed | 19 | | the shelf above my bed |
20 | 20 | ||
21 | falls covering me in \ | 21 | | falls covering me in |
22 | dirt and decaying beetles. \ | 22 | | dirt and decaying beetles. |
23 | [I see my reflection is headless][]. | 23 | | [I see my reflection is headless][]. |
24 | 24 | ||
25 | ## II | 25 | ## II |
26 | 26 | ||
27 | When the waves stop \ | 27 | | When the waves stop |
28 | [and the moon grins down][] \ | 28 | | [and the moon grins down][] |
29 | to overtake me: the car | 29 | | to overtake me: the car |
30 | 30 | ||
31 | ran up the street that night \ | 31 | | ran up the street that night |
32 | when you were nearly \ | 32 | | when you were nearly |
33 | molested in your neighbor's house: | 33 | | molested in your neighbor's house: |
34 | 34 | ||
35 | is this why we don't have \ | 35 | | is this why we don't have |
36 | neighbors? For this the trees \ | 36 | | neighbors? For this the trees |
37 | [rot only for us][]? | 37 | | [rot only for us][]? |
38 | 38 | ||
39 | ## III | 39 | ## III |
40 | 40 | ||
41 | I woke screaming and you \ | 41 | | I woke screaming and you |
42 | came to sit next to me. I felt \ | 42 | | came to sit next to me. I felt |
43 | my eyes were open too wide | 43 | | my eyes were open too wide |
44 | 44 | ||
45 | that I could not shut them \ | 45 | | that I could not shut them |
46 | from the horror movie sitting \ | 46 | | from the horror movie sitting |
47 | on your lap in the easy chair | 47 | | on your lap in the easy chair |
48 | 48 | ||
49 | in the dream the other dream \ | 49 | | in the dream the other dream |
50 | in the living room under \ | 50 | | in the living room under |
51 | the tree. Why do I feel guilty? | 51 | | the tree. Why do I feel guilty? |
52 | 52 | ||
53 | 53 | ||
54 | ## IV | 54 | ## IV |
55 | 55 | ||
56 | I wake up in a pool of water \ | 56 | | I wake up in a pool of water |
57 | [closed over me like an eyelid][]. \ | 57 | | [closed over me like an eyelid][]. |
58 | There is no longer comfort | 58 | | There is no longer comfort |
59 | 59 | ||
60 | in staring at the ceiling. \ | 60 | | in staring at the ceiling. |
61 | Its pitch blackness beckons \ | 61 | | Its pitch blackness beckons |
62 | into a future of blankness. | 62 | | into a future of blankness. |
63 | 63 | ||
64 | My body lay still quaking. \ | 64 | | My body lay still quaking. |
65 | My mind is chained fast \ | 65 | | My mind is chained fast |
66 | to the beating of my heart. | 66 | | to the beating of my heart. |
67 | 67 | ||
68 | ## V | 68 | ## V |
69 | 69 | ||
70 | I sit up slowly creaking. \ | 70 | | I sit up slowly creaking. |
71 | I find myself alone buried \ | 71 | | I find myself alone buried |
72 | [in an ocean][]. Far off | 72 | | [in an ocean][]. Far off |
73 | 73 | ||
74 | [there is an eagle][] flying \ | 74 | | [there is an eagle][] flying |
75 | toward me. She lands on \ | 75 | | toward me. She lands on |
76 | my knee and lays an egg. | 76 | | my knee and lays an egg. |
77 | 77 | ||
78 | I think *not this again* \ | 78 | | I think *not this again* |
79 | something I've never \ | 79 | | something I've never |
80 | thought in my life. | 80 | | thought in my life. |
81 | 81 | ||
82 | ## VI | 82 | ## VI |
83 | 83 | ||
84 | I think *not this again* \ | 84 | | I think *not this again* |
85 | something I've never \ | 85 | | something I've never |
86 | thought in my life. Not | 86 | | thought in my life. Not |
87 | 87 | ||
88 | after losing my car keys \ | 88 | | after losing my car keys |
89 | in the easy chair. Not after \ | 89 | | in the easy chair. Not after |
90 | scratching myself on a branch. | 90 | | scratching myself on a branch. |
91 | 91 | ||
92 | Not after finding the thing \ | 92 | | Not after finding the thing |
93 | in your dresser drawer that \ | 93 | | in your dresser drawer that |
94 | night. [I remember you suddenly.][] | 94 | | night. [I remember you suddenly.][] |
95 | 95 | ||
96 | 96 | ||
97 | ## VII | 97 | ## VII |
98 | 98 | ||
99 | [You run through me \ | 99 | | [You run through me |
100 | like rats][rats] down an alley. \ | 100 | | like rats][rats] down an alley. |
101 | You are in my [blood][]. | 101 | | You are in my [blood][]. |
102 | 102 | ||
103 | You scared me once \ | 103 | | You scared me once |
104 | remember? Jumped out \ | 104 | | remember? Jumped out |
105 | of the bathroom door. | 105 | | of the bathroom door. |
106 | 106 | ||
107 | I fell screaming onto \ | 107 | | I fell screaming onto |
108 | the linoleum. Did you \ | 108 | | the linoleum. Did you |
109 | apologize? Did you need to? | 109 | | apologize? Did you need to? |
110 | 110 | ||
111 | ## VIII | 111 | ## VIII |
112 | 112 | ||
113 | The ocean that surrounds me \ | 113 | | The ocean that surrounds me |
114 | creaks like a rocking \ | 114 | | creaks like a rocking |
115 | cradle. Your face bright | 115 | | cradle. Your face bright |
116 | 116 | ||
117 | as the moon at eclipse \ | 117 | | as the moon at eclipse |
118 | and as [red][]. Low song \ | 118 | | and as [red][]. Low song |
119 | my tide stretching | 119 | | my tide stretching |
120 | 120 | ||
121 | to the horizon. Ripples \ | 121 | | to the horizon. Ripples |
122 | on the surface belie \ | 122 | | on the surface belie |
123 | something bigger beneath. | 123 | | something bigger beneath. |
124 | 124 | ||
125 | ## IX | 125 | ## IX |
126 | 126 | ||
127 | In bed I am alone for \ | 127 | | In bed I am alone for |
128 | the only time. In bed \ | 128 | | the only time. In bed |
129 | I am a grown man. | 129 | | I am a grown man. |
130 | 130 | ||
131 | Below the blankets I \ | 131 | | Below the blankets I |
132 | know you for who you are. \ | 132 | | know you for who you are. |
133 | In bed I see your face | 133 | | In bed I see your face |
134 | 134 | ||
135 | pressed against the window. \ | 135 | | pressed against the window. |
136 | I look out and see you \ | 136 | | I look out and see you |
137 | and I am not afraid. | 137 | | and I am not afraid. |
138 | 138 | ||
139 | [the rats]: last-bastion.html | 139 | [the rats]: last-bastion.html |
140 | [I see my reflection is headless]: deathstrumpet.html | 140 | [I see my reflection is headless]: deathstrumpet.html |