From 3b37989606c44902d90a3723e197d8c318a302bf Mon Sep 17 00:00:00 2001 From: Case Duckworth Date: Fri, 27 Mar 2015 13:47:42 -0700 Subject: Change verse lines '$' -> '^| ' --- 100-lines.html | 8 +- 100-lines.txt | 198 +++++++++++++++++------------------ README.md | 1 - about-the-author.html | 8 +- about.html | 14 ++- about.river | 3 +- about.txt | 10 +- about_author.html | 8 +- amber-alert.html | 8 +- and.html | 10 +- and.txt | 38 +++---- angeltoabraham.html | 8 +- angeltoabraham.txt | 34 +++--- apollo11.html | 8 +- apollo11.txt | 48 ++++----- arspoetica.html | 8 +- art.html | 8 +- axe.html | 8 +- big-dipper.html | 8 +- big-dipper.txt | 46 ++++----- boar.html | 8 +- boar.txt | 30 +++--- boy_bus.html | 8 +- boy_bus.txt | 38 +++---- building.html | 8 +- call-me-aural-pleasure.html | 12 ++- call-me-aural-pleasure.txt | 70 ++++++------- cereal.html | 8 +- cold-wind.html | 8 +- cold-wind.txt | 26 ++--- collage-instrument.html | 8 +- common-titles.html | 8 +- creation-myth.html | 8 +- 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music-433.txt | 48 ++++----- no-nothing.html | 8 +- notes.html | 8 +- nothing-is-ever-over.html | 8 +- nothing-is-ever-over.txt | 30 +++--- on-genre-dimension.html | 8 +- onformalpoetry.html | 8 +- onformalpoetry.txt | 34 +++--- options.html | 8 +- ouroboros_memory.html | 8 +- paul.html | 8 +- peaches.html | 8 +- philosophy.html | 8 +- phone.html | 8 +- planks.html | 8 +- plant.html | 8 +- plant.txt | 200 ++++++++++++++++++------------------ poetry-time.html | 10 +- poetry-time.txt | 78 +++++++------- prelude.html | 8 +- problems.html | 8 +- proverbs.html | 8 +- punch.html | 8 +- purpose-dogs.html | 8 +- question.html | 8 +- real-writer.html | 8 +- real-writer.txt | 56 +++++----- reports.html | 8 +- riptide_memory.html | 8 +- riptide_memory.txt | 58 +++++------ ronaldmcdonald.html | 8 +- ronaldmcdonald.txt | 46 ++++----- roughgloves.html | 8 +- roughgloves.txt | 28 ++--- sapling.html | 8 +- seasonal-affective-disorder.html | 8 +- seasonal-affective-disorder.txt | 28 ++--- sense-of-it.html | 8 +- sense-of-it.txt | 32 +++--- serengeti.html | 8 +- serengeti.txt | 28 ++--- shed.html | 8 +- shipwright.html | 8 +- shipwright.txt | 36 +++---- sixteenth-chapel.html | 8 +- sixteenth-chapel.txt | 78 +++++++------- snow.html | 8 +- something-simple.html | 8 +- something-simple.txt | 30 +++--- spittle.html | 8 +- spittle.txt | 22 ++-- squirrel.html | 8 +- squirrel.txt | 32 +++--- stagnant.html | 8 +- statements-frag.html | 8 +- stayed-on-the-bus.html | 8 +- stayed-on-the-bus.txt | 24 ++--- stump.html | 8 +- style.css | 4 +- swansong-alt.html | 8 +- swansong-alt.txt | 42 ++++---- swansong.html | 10 +- swansong.txt | 30 +++--- swear.html | 8 +- table_contents.html | 10 +- table_contents.txt | 2 +- tapestry.html | 8 +- telemarketer.html | 8 +- template.html | 8 +- the-night-we-met.html | 8 +- the-night-we-met.txt | 40 ++++---- the-sea_the-beach.html | 8 +- the-sea_the-beach.txt | 44 ++++---- theoceanoverflowswithcamels.html | 8 +- theoceanoverflowswithcamels.txt | 40 ++++---- time-looks-up-to-the-sky.html | 8 +- time-looks-up-to-the-sky.txt | 48 ++++----- todaniel.html | 8 +- todaniel.txt | 28 ++--- toilet.html | 8 +- toothpaste.html | 8 +- treatise.html | 8 +- trunk/first-lines.sh | 17 +++ trunk/hapax.head | 11 ++ trunk/lozenge.js | 2 +- underwear.html | 8 +- walking-in-the-rain.html | 8 +- walking-in-the-rain.txt | 18 ++-- wallpaper.html | 8 +- weplayedthosegamestoo.html | 8 +- weplayedthosegamestoo.txt | 42 ++++---- what-we-are-made-of.html | 8 +- when-im-sorry-i.html | 11 +- when-im-sorry-i.txt | 36 +++---- window.html | 8 +- words-irritable-reaching.html | 8 +- words-meaning.html | 8 +- worse-looking-over.html | 8 +- worse-looking-over.txt | 42 ++++---- writing.html | 8 +- x-ray.html | 8 +- yellow.html | 8 +- 211 files changed, 2558 insertions(+), 1729 deletions(-) delete mode 100644 first-lines.sh delete mode 100644 hapax.head create mode 100644 trunk/first-lines.sh create mode 100644 trunk/hapax.head diff --git a/100-lines.html b/100-lines.html index 35f8370..327b1e6 100644 --- a/100-lines.html +++ b/100-lines.html @@ -40,7 +40,13 @@ diff --git a/100-lines.txt b/100-lines.txt index 8e05b6d..e16a5aa 100644 --- a/100-lines.txt +++ b/100-lines.txt @@ -8,105 +8,105 @@ project: class: autocento ... -Whenever you call me friend \ -I fall down on my knees and cry \ -because I know it's the only thing \ -never to happen before in this \ -life is something you can't see \ -it's a pillow under a [hook shot][] \ -[I want to tell you something anything][tell-you] \ -but you are there and I am here \ -we are [trapped inside ourselves][trapped] \ -and the distance is too far \ -you are something that I would tell \ -[would be nothing][] before too long \ -you are not the finisher of dreams \ -you are the beginning of [nightmares][] \ -or waking but I'm not sure which \ -this [letter is for you][] in the future \ -it will lead you on the path \ -of goodness or of rightness or of \ -wrong people and right meanings \ -or the meaning will be hidden \ -or wrestling the demon I will have become \ -restless under the starlight \ -it's too bright here to think \ -the negatives would be pitch black \ -darkness of a silver mine \ -there are [no trees][] here \ -where have you been where are you now \ -I am no longer here or there \ -you are anywhere or are you \ -up in the clouds is a ghost \ -he is white and blue like a cloud \ -he paints with his teeth \ -he paints the rainbow before midnight \ -that you can see from your window \ -staring out under the sunlight \ -through the gauze curtains \ -[over the high mountain][mountain] far away \ -that is covered over with snow \ -past the rivers and forests \ -that lie awake under Orion \ -hunting the bull that runs forever \ -just out of his reach \ -pointing the way for the two of us \ -to join together in song or dance \ -or that other thing and sing \ -the Grinch down off Mount Crumpet \ -[his heart breaking his chest][heart] \ -thumping with the beat \ -his [little dog too][] running running \ -with the bull full of laughter and blood \ -he can't see it anymore because it's become him \ -we are trapped he says we are \ -trapped in ourselves it turns out \ -that all along it wasn't you or me \ -but he and her or her and him or \ -he and he or she and she or they \ -even they tell us that nothing has happened \ -even they know that it's a big joke \ -one more thing to know before the death \ -we are crying like crocodiles \ -before their loved ones' coffins \ -we are bellowing with grief like buffalo \ -on a berth of wild oxen \ -we are wailing our clothes are in rags \ -[we want][want1] [we want][want2] [we want][want3] \ -but never can we get \ -what is it \ -we don't know what it is \ -but it's something it's anything \ -it's too many people or not enough \ -it's too few trees we need more \ -beavers to build riverdams we need \ -grapes too or [plums][] from the ice box \ -or an ice box even would be nice \ -all I have is this cube isn't that right \ -or is a sphere a cube a donut a coffee \ -cup your hands in mine yes that's right \ -now bring the water to your face \ -clear and cool and \ -full of something \ -what is it wanting \ -or yearning \ -I can see in your eyes they're clear now \ -they are as clear as a running stream \ -or the sky that's clear right \ -or the water that is in the Bahamas \ -because I hear that's clear \ -you're as clear as the sound of a bell \ -you're as clear as the [braying of horses][] \ -you're as clear as the glass in God's eye \ -and I \ -I'm as dull as an ox plowing \ -[through fields in his yoke][yoke] \ -I'm as dull as clouded amber \ -I'm dull as you find me \ -tonight after dinner \ -I'm reading the crossword \ -you're sitting beside me \ -you're watching TV. +| Whenever you call me friend +| I fall down on my knees and cry +| because I know it's the only thing +| never to happen before in this +| life is something you can't see +| it's a pillow under a [hook shot][] +| [I want to tell you something anything][tell-you] +| but you are there and I am here +| we are [trapped inside ourselves][trapped] +| and the distance is too far +| you are something that I would tell +| [would be nothing][] before too long +| you are not the finisher of dreams +| you are the beginning of [nightmares][] +| or waking but I'm not sure which +| this [letter is for you][] in the future +| it will lead you on the path +| of goodness or of rightness or of +| wrong people and right meanings +| or the meaning will be hidden +| or wrestling the demon I will have become +| restless under the starlight +| it's too bright here to think +| the negatives would be pitch black +| darkness of a silver mine +| there are [no trees][] here +| where have you been where are you now +| I am no longer here or there +| you are anywhere or are you +| up in the clouds is a ghost +| he is white and blue like a cloud +| he paints with his teeth +| he paints the rainbow before midnight +| that you can see from your window +| staring out under the sunlight +| through the gauze curtains +| [over the high mountain][mountain] far away +| that is covered over with snow +| past the rivers and forests +| that lie awake under Orion +| hunting the bull that runs forever +| just out of his reach +| pointing the way for the two of us +| to join together in song or dance +| or that other thing and sing +| the Grinch down off Mount Crumpet +| [his heart breaking his chest][heart] +| thumping with the beat +| his [little dog too][] running running +| with the bull full of laughter and blood +| he can't see it anymore because it's become him +| we are trapped he says we are +| trapped in ourselves it turns out +| that all along it wasn't you or me +| but he and her or her and him or +| he and he or she and she or they +| even they tell us that nothing has happened +| even they know that it's a big joke +| one more thing to know before the death +| we are crying like crocodiles +| before their loved ones' coffins +| we are bellowing with grief like buffalo +| on a berth of wild oxen +| we are wailing our clothes are in rags +| [we want][want1] [we want][want2] [we want][want3] +| but never can we get +| what is it +| we don't know what it is +| but it's something it's anything +| it's too many people or not enough +| it's too few trees we need more +| beavers to build riverdams we need +| grapes too or [plums][] from the ice box +| or an ice box even would be nice +| all I have is this cube isn't that right +| or is a sphere a cube a donut a coffee +| cup your hands in mine yes that's right +| now bring the water to your face +| clear and cool and +| full of something +| what is it wanting +| or yearning +| I can see in your eyes they're clear now +| they are as clear as a running stream +| or the sky that's clear right +| or the water that is in the Bahamas +| because I hear that's clear +| you're as clear as the sound of a bell +| you're as clear as the [braying of horses][] +| you're as clear as the glass in God's eye +| and I +| I'm as dull as an ox plowing +| [through fields in his yoke][yoke] +| I'm as dull as clouded amber +| I'm dull as you find me +| tonight after dinner +| I'm reading the crossword +| you're sitting beside me +| you're watching TV. [hook shot]: theoceanoverflowswithcamels.html [tell-you]: lovesong.html diff --git a/README.md b/README.md index cf1780d..7cb0e67 100644 --- a/README.md +++ b/README.md @@ -37,7 +37,6 @@ ekphrastic: # optional image ekphrastic project: title: Original project name - class: class-name-for-css order: 1 # page number, optional prev: # optional - title: Title of previous thing in original project diff --git a/about-the-author.html b/about-the-author.html index d43165f..a473d1f 100644 --- a/about-the-author.html +++ b/about-the-author.html @@ -96,7 +96,13 @@ title="Previous article in Stark Raving"> Riptide of memory - + + +
+ + +
+ diff --git a/about.html b/about.html index 1f31693..84ec6ce 100644 --- a/about.html +++ b/about.html @@ -20,7 +20,7 @@ - +
@@ -66,13 +66,13 @@

Technology

-

Because this project lives online, I’ve used a fair amount of technology to get it there. First, I converted all the articles1 present into plain text files, which are viewable here. Then, I used John McFarlane’s venerable document preparation system pandoc, along with a short script, to compile the text sources to HTML using this template. The compiled HTML is what you’re reading now.2

+

Because this project lives online, I’ve used a fair amount of technology to get it there. First, I converted all the articles1 present into plain text files, which are viewable here. Then, I used John McFarlane’s venerable document preparation system pandoc, along with a makefile to compile the text sources to HTML using this template. The compiled HTML is what you’re reading now.2

To host the project, I’m using Github, an online code-collaboration tool with the version control system git under the hood. This enables me (and you, dear Reader!) to explore the path of revision even more, from beginning to end, based on my commits to the repository. You can view the repository and its changes and files at my Github profile.3

Using this site

All of the articles on this site are linked together hypertextually (i.e., like a webpage). This means that all you need to do to explore the creative threads linking these articles together is to start clicking links. However, if you find you’re looping around to a lot of the same articles, you can head back to the index and click through the titles in order—that article contains the titles of all the other works in this project.

-

Alternatively, you can click the lozenge (◊) at the bottom of each page. It’ll take you to a random article in the project, thanks to this javascript.

+

Alternatively, you can click the lozenge (◊) at the bottom of each page. It’ll take you to a random article in the project, thanks to this javascript.

If you want to experience the earlier projects in something resembling the original orders, previous and next links are provided at the bottom of each page, next to the lozenge. Sometimes, there are more than one of each of these, or there are none, dependant on the structure of their original project.

@@ -104,7 +104,13 @@ title="Previous article in About Autocento"> Index of first lines - + + +
+ + +
+ Index of common titles diff --git a/about.river b/about.river index e1432a2..cb337e8 100644 --- a/about.river +++ b/about.river @@ -485,8 +485,7 @@ pandoc along with a -short -script +makefile to compile the diff --git a/about.txt b/about.txt index 3b5f254..d3defc0 100644 --- a/about.txt +++ b/about.txt @@ -1,6 +1,6 @@ --- title: Autocento of the breakfast table -id: README +id: about subtitle: about this site genre: prose @@ -69,7 +69,7 @@ Technology Because this project lives online, I've used a fair amount of technology to get it there. First, I converted all the articles[^1] present into plain text files, which are viewable [here][text]. -Then, I used John McFarlane's venerable document preparation system [pandoc][], along with a short [script][compile.lua], to compile the text sources to HTML using [this template][]. +Then, I used John McFarlane's venerable document preparation system [pandoc][], along with a [makefile][] to compile the text sources to HTML using [this template][]. The compiled HTML is what you're reading now.[^2] To host the project, I'm using [Github][], an online code-collaboration tool with the version control system [git][] under the hood. @@ -118,14 +118,14 @@ If you'd like to contact me about the state of this work or my writing in genera [text]: src/common-titles.html [pandoc]: http://johnmacfarlane.net/pandoc/ -[compile.lua]: https://github.com/duckwork/autocento/blob/gh-pages/compile.lua -[this template]: https://github.com/duckwork/autocento/blob/gh-pages/.template.html +[makefile]: https://github.com/duckwork/autocento/blob/gh-pages/makefile +[this template]: https://github.com/duckwork/autocento/blob/gh-pages/template.html [Github]: https://github.com/ [git]: http://www.git-scm.com/ [my Github profile]: https://github.com/duckwork/autocento [index]: first-lines.html -[this javascript]: https://github.com/duckwork/autocento/blob/gh-pages/js/lozenge.js +[this javascript]: https://github.com/duckwork/autocento/blob/gh-pages/trunk/lozenge.js [published]: published.html [issues]: https://github.com/duckwork/autocento/issues diff --git a/about_author.html b/about_author.html index a8899e5..335db45 100644 --- a/about_author.html +++ b/about_author.html @@ -42,7 +42,13 @@
diff --git a/amber-alert.html b/amber-alert.html index 34e4b0f..67e70e0 100644 --- a/amber-alert.html +++ b/amber-alert.html @@ -61,7 +61,13 @@ title="Previous article in Stark Raving"> Something about the nature of poetry and time - + + +
+ + +
+ Exasperated diff --git a/and.html b/and.html index ef16088..65fe3d7 100644 --- a/and.html +++ b/and.html @@ -43,7 +43,7 @@
-

And you were there in the start of it all
and you folded your
hands like little doves
that would fly away like an afterthought
and you turned to me the window light on your face
and you asked me something that I did not recognize
like a great throng of people who are not you
and I asked are we in a church
and you answered with the look on your face
of someone grieving something gone for years
but that they had been reminded of
by a catch in the light or in someone’s voice
and I think maybe it could have been mine
and I looked away thickly my head was in jelly
and I didn’t get an answer from you but I got one

+

And you were there in the start of it all
and you folded your hands like little doves
that would fly away like an afterthought
and you turned to me the window light on your face
and you asked me something that I did not recognize
like a great throng of people who are not you
and I asked are we in a church
and you answered with the look on your face
of someone grieving something gone for years
but that they had been reminded of
by a catch in the light or in someone’s voice
and I think maybe it could have been mine
and I looked away thickly my head was in jelly
and I didn’t get an answer from you but I got one

I looked at the man in front of us with glasses
he was speaking and holding a book
and I didn’t understand him he was far away
and I could tell I was missing something important
and you nodded to yourself at something he said

@@ -52,7 +52,13 @@ title="Previous article in Elegies for alternate selves"> How to read this - + + +
+ + +
+ Words and meaning diff --git a/and.txt b/and.txt index 5e40517..b0df11c 100644 --- a/and.txt +++ b/and.txt @@ -22,26 +22,26 @@ project: link: howtoread ... -And you were there in the start of it all \ -and you folded your [hands like little doves][] \ -that would fly away like an afterthought \ -and you turned to me the window light on your face \ -and you asked me something that I did not recognize \ -like a great throng of people who are not you \ -and I asked are we in a [church][] \ -and you answered with the look on your face \ -of someone [grieving something gone][] for years \ - but that they had been reminded of \ -by a catch in the light or in someone's voice \ -and I think maybe it could have been mine \ -and I looked away thickly my head was in jelly \ -and I didn't get an answer from you but I got one +| And you were there in the start of it all +| and you folded your [hands like little doves][] +| that would fly away like an afterthought +| and you turned to me the window light on your face +| and you asked me something that I did not recognize +| like a great throng of people who are not you +| and I asked are we in a [church][] +| and you answered with the look on your face +| of someone [grieving something gone][] for years +| but that they had been reminded of +| by a catch in the light or in someone's voice +| and I think maybe it could have been mine +| and I looked away thickly my head was in jelly +| and I didn't get an answer from you but I got one -I looked at the man in front of us with glasses \ -he was speaking and holding a book \ -and I didn't understand him he was far away \ -and I could tell I was missing something important \ -and you nodded to yourself at something he said +| I looked at the man in front of us with glasses +| he was speaking and holding a book +| and I didn't understand him he was far away +| and I could tell I was missing something important +| and you nodded to yourself at something he said [church]: boar.html [grieving something gone]: roughgloves.html diff --git a/angeltoabraham.html b/angeltoabraham.html index c3dec1b..4765dcb 100644 --- a/angeltoabraham.html +++ b/angeltoabraham.html @@ -47,7 +47,13 @@ title="Previous article in Elegies for alternate selves"> Dead man - + + +
+ + +
+ Feeding the raven diff --git a/angeltoabraham.txt b/angeltoabraham.txt index ac7586c..5318c65 100644 --- a/angeltoabraham.txt +++ b/angeltoabraham.txt @@ -15,26 +15,26 @@ project: link: feedingtheraven ... -Abraham, Abraham, you are old and cannot hear: \ -what if you miss my small voice amongst the creaking \ -of your own grief, kill your son unknowing \ -of what he will be, and commit Israel to nothing? +| Abraham, Abraham, you are old and cannot hear: +| what if you miss my small voice amongst the creaking +| of your own grief, kill your son unknowing +| of what he will be, and commit Israel to nothing? -Abraham, you must know or hope that [God][] \ -will not allow your son to die; you must know \ -that this is a test, but then why \ -are you so bent on Isaac's destruction? \ -Look at your eyes; there is more than fear \ -there. I see in your eyes desperation, \ -a manic passion to do right by your God \ -whom you are not able to see or know. +| Abraham, you must know or hope that [God][] +| will not allow your son to die; you must know +| that this is a test, but then why +| are you so bent on Isaac's destruction? +| Look at your eyes; there is more than fear +| there. I see in your eyes desperation, +| a manic passion to do right by your God +| whom you are not able to see or know. -Am I too late? I [will try][] to stay \ -your old hands, the knife clenched \ -within them, intent on ending life. +| Am I too late? I [will try][] to stay +| your old hands, the knife clenched +| within them, intent on ending life. -Will you hear my small voice amongst the creaking, \ -or will it be the chance bleating of a passing ram? +| Will you hear my small voice amongst the creaking, +| or will it be the chance bleating of a passing ram? [God]: boar.html [will try]: i-am.html diff --git a/apollo11.html b/apollo11.html index ae85342..5cb6842 100644 --- a/apollo11.html +++ b/apollo11.html @@ -57,7 +57,13 @@ title="Previous article in Elegies for alternate selves"> And - + + +
+ + +
+ Ars poetica diff --git a/apollo11.txt b/apollo11.txt index 6ed2d01..a957d83 100644 --- a/apollo11.txt +++ b/apollo11.txt @@ -20,30 +20,30 @@ project: link: and ... -So it's the [fucking moon][]. Big deal. As if \ -you haven't seen it before, hanging in the sky \ -like a piece of [rotten meat][] nailed to the wall, - -a maudlin love letter (the i's dotted with [hearts][]) \ -tacked to the sky's door like ninety-eight theses. \ -Don't stare at it like it means anything. - -Don't give it the chance to collect meaning \ -from your hand like an old pigeon. Don't dare ascribe \ -it a will, or call it fickle, or think it has any say - -in your affairs. It's separated from your life \ -by three hundred eighty-four thousand miles of space, \ -the same distance you stepped away from time that night - -you said your love was broken, a crippled gyroscope \ -knocking in the dark. It was then that time fell apart, \ -had a nervous breakdown and started following you - -everywhere, moonfaced, always asking where you're going. \ -You keep trying to get away from it but it nuzzles closer \ -and sings you songs that sound like the cooing of a dove \ -that will only escape again into an empty sky at dawn. +| So it's the [fucking moon][]. Big deal. As if +| you haven't seen it before, hanging in the sky +| like a piece of [rotten meat][] nailed to the wall, + +| a maudlin love letter (the i's dotted with [hearts][]) +| tacked to the sky's door like ninety-eight theses. +| Don't stare at it like it means anything. + +| Don't give it the chance to collect meaning +| from your hand like an old pigeon. Don't dare ascribe +| it a will, or call it fickle, or think it has any say + +| in your affairs. It's separated from your life +| by three hundred eighty-four thousand miles of space, +| the same distance you stepped away from time that night + +| you said your love was broken, a crippled gyroscope +| knocking in the dark. It was then that time fell apart, +| had a nervous breakdown and started following you + +| everywhere, moonfaced, always asking where you're going. +| You keep trying to get away from it but it nuzzles closer +| and sings you songs that sound like the cooing of a dove +| that will only escape again into an empty sky at dawn. [fucking moon]: deathstrumpet.html [rotten meat]: roughgloves.html diff --git a/arspoetica.html b/arspoetica.html index fe84cdf..0419666 100644 --- a/arspoetica.html +++ b/arspoetica.html @@ -47,7 +47,13 @@ title="Previous article in Elegies for alternate selves"> On seeing the panorama of the Apollo 11 landing site - + + +
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+ The ocean overflows with camels diff --git a/art.html b/art.html index 061c331..8ee70ed 100644 --- a/art.html +++ b/art.html @@ -42,7 +42,13 @@ diff --git a/deathstrumpet.txt b/deathstrumpet.txt index 7ce5f45..44b898e 100644 --- a/deathstrumpet.txt +++ b/deathstrumpet.txt @@ -18,31 +18,31 @@ epigraph: attrib: Larry Levis ... -He didn't have any polish so he spit-shined the whole thing, \ -top to bottom. It gleamed like maybe a tomato on the vine \ -begging to be picked and thrown on some caprese. Death loved caprese. - -He stood up and put the horn to his lips, imagining \ -it was a woman he loved. He blushed as he realized \ -it was a terrible metaphor. \ -He practiced for six hours a day---what else to do? - -Death looks at [himself in the mirror][moongone] as he plays. \ -The trumpet is suspended in midair. Damn vampire rules. \ -Death is always worried he might have missed a spot shaving \ -but he'll never know unless a stranger is polite enough. \ -Not that he ever goes out or meets anyone. - -He wakes up late these days. Stays in bed later. \ -He thinks he might be depressed. The caprese has gotten soggy \ -since he made it, maybe three days ago or maybe just two. \ -The sun streams through his kitchen blinds like smoke. \ -He decides to go to the arcade. When he gets there, - -there's only a [little boy][] with dead eyes. So far so good. \ -He's playing a first-person shooter. Death walks past him \ -and watches out of the corner of his eye. The kid's good. \ -Death wants to congratulate him. His trumpet is in his hand. +| He didn't have any polish so he spit-shined the whole thing, +| top to bottom. It gleamed like maybe a tomato on the vine +| begging to be picked and thrown on some caprese. Death loved caprese. + +| He stood up and put the horn to his lips, imagining +| it was a woman he loved. He blushed as he realized +| it was a terrible metaphor. +| He practiced for six hours a day---what else to do? + +| Death looks at [himself in the mirror][moongone] as he plays. +| The trumpet is suspended in midair. Damn vampire rules. +| Death is always worried he might have missed a spot shaving +| but he'll never know unless a stranger is polite enough. +| Not that he ever goes out or meets anyone. + +| He wakes up late these days. Stays in bed later. +| He thinks he might be depressed. The caprese has gotten soggy +| since he made it, maybe three days ago or maybe just two. +| The sun streams through his kitchen blinds like smoke. +| He decides to go to the arcade. When he gets there, + +| there's only a [little boy][] with dead eyes. So far so good. +| He's playing a first-person shooter. Death walks past him +| and watches out of the corner of his eye. The kid's good. +| Death wants to congratulate him. His trumpet is in his hand. [moongone]: moongone.html [little boy]: angeltoabraham.html diff --git a/dollywood.html b/dollywood.html index 48d880e..2b89ef2 100644 --- a/dollywood.html +++ b/dollywood.html @@ -59,7 +59,13 @@ diff --git a/dream.html b/dream.html index 12de828..fde10a8 100644 --- a/dream.html +++ b/dream.html @@ -52,7 +52,13 @@ title="Previous article in Buildings out of air: Paul in the Woods"> Cereal - + + +
+ + +
+ Axe diff --git a/early.html b/early.html index 7e5d730..e7baab6 100644 --- a/early.html +++ b/early.html @@ -52,7 +52,13 @@ title="Previous article in Buildings out of air: Paul in the Woods"> Dream - + + +
+ + +
+ Toothpaste diff --git a/elegyforanalternateself.html b/elegyforanalternateself.html index 2dad2cd..ceabd3b 100644 --- a/elegyforanalternateself.html +++ b/elegyforanalternateself.html @@ -41,7 +41,13 @@ diff --git a/elegyforanalternateself.txt b/elegyforanalternateself.txt index 52a34a4..ae6f614 100644 --- a/elegyforanalternateself.txt +++ b/elegyforanalternateself.txt @@ -8,23 +8,23 @@ project: class: autocento ... -Say there are no words. Say that we are conjoined \ -from birth, or better still, say we are myself. \ ----But I still talk to myself, I build my world \ -through language, so if we say there are [no words][] \ -this is not enough. Say we are instead some animal, \ -or better yet, [a plant][], or a flagellum motoring \ -aimlessly around. (Say that humans are the only things \ -that reason. Say that we're the [only things that worry][].) +| Say there are no words. Say that we are conjoined +| from birth, or better still, say we are myself. +| ---But I still talk to myself, I build my world +| through language, so if we say there are [no words][] +| this is not enough. Say we are instead some animal, +| or better yet, [a plant][], or a flagellum motoring +| aimlessly around. (Say that humans are the only things +| that reason. Say that we're the [only things that worry][].) -Say that I am separate. To say there's everything else \ -and then there's me is wrong. Each thing is separate: \ -[there is no whole in the world][]. Say this is both good \ -and bad, or rather, say there is no good or bad but only \ -being, more and more of it always added, none taken out \ -though it can be forgotten. Say that forgetting \ -is a function of our remembering. (Say that humans only \ -[worry about separation][]. Say that only humans feel it.) +| Say that I am separate. To say there's everything else +| and then there's me is wrong. Each thing is separate: +| [there is no whole in the world][]. Say this is both good +| and bad, or rather, say there is no good or bad but only +| being, more and more of it always added, none taken out +| though it can be forgotten. Say that forgetting +| is a function of our remembering. (Say that humans only +| [worry about separation][]. Say that only humans feel it.) [no words]: hymnal.html [a plant]: plant.html diff --git a/epigraph.html b/epigraph.html index 95462ef..035a827 100644 --- a/epigraph.html +++ b/epigraph.html @@ -44,7 +44,13 @@ title="Previous article in Elegies for alternate selves"> Death’s Trumpet - + + +
+ + +
+ How to read this diff --git a/ex-machina.html b/ex-machina.html index 03aba24..e25901b 100644 --- a/ex-machina.html +++ b/ex-machina.html @@ -53,7 +53,13 @@ diff --git a/ex-machina.txt b/ex-machina.txt index 8b14e2e..132e974 100644 --- a/ex-machina.txt +++ b/ex-machina.txt @@ -12,41 +12,41 @@ project: class: autocento ... -Bottom of the drink: they had \ -to go. The Coke machine, the snack \ -machine, the deep fryer. Hoisted +| Bottom of the drink: they had +| to go. The Coke machine, the snack +| machine, the deep fryer. Hoisted -and dragged through the halls \ -and out to the curb, they sat with \ -other trash beneath gray, forlorn +| and dragged through the halls +| and out to the curb, they sat with +| other trash beneath gray, forlorn -skies behind the elementary \ -school, wondering what their next \ -move would be. The Coke machine +| skies behind the elementary +| school, wondering what their next +| move would be. The Coke machine -had always wanted to live \ -the life of a [hobo][], jumping trains, \ -eating from garbage, making fire +| had always wanted to live +| the life of a [hobo][], jumping trains, +| eating from garbage, making fire -in old oil drums. It had some \ -strange romantic notions of being homeless, \ -is what the deep fryer thought. +| in old oil drums. It had some +| strange romantic notions of being homeless, +| is what the deep fryer thought. -Its opinion was to head to court, \ -sue the bastards at the school for early \ -termination of contract. It was +| Its opinion was to head to court, +| sue the bastards at the school for early +| termination of contract. It was -the embodiment of [justifiable anger][]. \ -It believed privately that it was an incarnation \ -of Nemesis, the goddess of divine +| the embodiment of [justifiable anger][]. +| It believed privately that it was an incarnation +| of Nemesis, the goddess of divine -retribution. What the snack machine \ -thought, it kept to itself, but it did say \ -that [nothing ever ends][]. The others +| retribution. What the snack machine +| thought, it kept to itself, but it did say +| that [nothing ever ends][]. The others -were confused, then angry, but finally \ -understood, or thought they did. The snack \ -machine's candy melted in the sun. +| were confused, then angry, but finally +| understood, or thought they did. The snack +| machine's candy melted in the sun. [hobo]: prelude.html [justifiable anger]: table_contents.html diff --git a/exasperated.html b/exasperated.html index 935462a..51e9fe4 100644 --- a/exasperated.html +++ b/exasperated.html @@ -54,7 +54,13 @@ title="Previous article in Stark Raving"> The Death Zone - + + +
+ + +
+ The Death Zone diff --git a/exasperated.txt b/exasperated.txt index 67b3242..1ed95bc 100644 --- a/exasperated.txt +++ b/exasperated.txt @@ -19,51 +19,51 @@ project: link: death-zone ... -I didn't write this sestina yesterday. \ -It's the first time I fell behind in my task \ -and hopefully, the only time it will. \ -This means that today I must write two \ -sestinas. If I don't write them today, I \ -will have to write two later down the line. +| I didn't write this sestina yesterday. +| It's the first time I fell behind in my task +| and hopefully, the only time it will. +| This means that today I must write two +| sestinas. If I don't write them today, I +| will have to write two later down the line. -Although I feel I'm slogging through each line \ -I think I'm doing better every day, \ -though maybe this is wishful thinking: I \ -showed my friend my just-completed task \ -two days ago (my God, was it two \ -entire days? I've no idea what I'll +| Although I feel I'm slogging through each line +| I think I'm doing better every day, +| though maybe this is wishful thinking: I +| showed my friend my just-completed task +| two days ago (my God, was it two +| entire days? I've no idea what I'll -do [after thirty-nine days][]. I think I'll \ -feel like [Inigo Montoya][], who'd been in the line \ -of revenging for so long, he didn't know what to \ -do with the rest of his life), and he deigned \ -to be polite, but I could tell the task \ -was hard for him. He told me finally that I +| do [after thirty-nine days][]. I think I'll +| feel like [Inigo Montoya][], who'd been in the line +| of revenging for so long, he didn't know what to +| do with the rest of his life), and he deigned +| to be polite, but I could tell the task +| was hard for him. He told me finally that I -had made a noble effort, but that ultimately I \ -failed. [So my question][]: when will \ -I be a decent sestina writer? For this is my task. \ -Maybe if I just keep cranking out line after line \ -I'll finally figure it out. Maybe one more day \ -or another week will do it, or maybe I'll need two, +| had made a noble effort, but that ultimately I +| failed. [So my question][]: when will +| I be a decent sestina writer? For this is my task. +| Maybe if I just keep cranking out line after line +| I'll finally figure it out. Maybe one more day +| or another week will do it, or maybe I'll need two, -or maybe it'll never happen. Maybe a sestina's too \ -involved, too much [weaving][] of words too fine, and I \ -will never write a good one, even on my best day, \ -even if I employ all my skill and all my will. \ -I'm not used to writing poems with thirty-nine lines, \ -that must be the problem, must be why this task +| or maybe it'll never happen. Maybe a sestina's too +| involved, too much [weaving][] of words too fine, and I +| will never write a good one, even on my best day, +| even if I employ all my skill and all my will. +| I'm not used to writing poems with thirty-nine lines, +| that must be the problem, must be why this task -is Herculean. He only had to finish twelve tasks, \ -and I have one less one thousand, five hundred twenty-two, \ -and it's nothing but complaining lines \ -about [how hard it is to be a person][]. I \ -am getting sick of myself with these poems, and will \ -soon be loathe to get out of bed every day. +| is Herculean. He only had to finish twelve tasks, +| and I have one less one thousand, five hundred twenty-two, +| and it's nothing but complaining lines +| about [how hard it is to be a person][]. I +| am getting sick of myself with these poems, and will +| soon be loathe to get out of bed every day. -But I tasked myself with this, which may be the worst I \ -ever do to myself. I thought a poem NaNoWriMo would \ -be fun, would line my resume, give me something I could publish someday. +| But I tasked myself with this, which may be the worst I +| ever do to myself. I thought a poem NaNoWriMo would +| be fun, would line my resume, give me something I could publish someday. [after thirty-nine days]: http://biblehub.com/2_corinthians/11-24.htm [Inigo Montoya]: death-zone.html diff --git a/father.html b/father.html index 953e117..35b9ed3 100644 --- a/father.html +++ b/father.html @@ -51,7 +51,13 @@ title="Previous article in Buildings out of air: Paul in the Woods"> Early - + + +
+ + +
+ Paul diff --git a/feedingtheraven.html b/feedingtheraven.html index f381403..324661d 100644 --- a/feedingtheraven.html +++ b/feedingtheraven.html @@ -47,7 +47,13 @@ title="Previous article in Elegies for alternate selves"> The angel to Abraham - + + +
+ + +
+ On formal poetry diff --git a/finding-the-lion.html b/finding-the-lion.html index 32bd685..17845d1 100644 --- a/finding-the-lion.html +++ b/finding-the-lion.html @@ -45,7 +45,13 @@ diff --git a/finding-the-lion.txt b/finding-the-lion.txt index 068b18b..09f1f7f 100644 --- a/finding-the-lion.txt +++ b/finding-the-lion.txt @@ -8,29 +8,29 @@ project: class: autocento ... -Tonight, as I look up, the stars \ -hide themselves in shame. [There is no moon][]. \ -The sky is black, like my desk, +| Tonight, as I look up, the stars +| hide themselves in shame. [There is no moon][]. +| The sky is black, like my desk, -[nothing like a raven][]. The streetlights \ -look on the scene disinterested. \ -They have their own [small gossips of the dark][]. +| [nothing like a raven][]. The streetlights +| look on the scene disinterested. +| They have their own [small gossips of the dark][]. -I came here to find the Lion, old \ -friend, but he will not show his flanks, his \ -paws, his shoulders, [his mane][]. I +| I came here to find the Lion, old +| friend, but he will not show his flanks, his +| paws, his shoulders, [his mane][]. I -can hear him laughing from his hiding-place \ -behind the moon, nonexistent, under \ -the cold dead earth. The mountain is in front +| can hear him laughing from his hiding-place +| behind the moon, nonexistent, under +| the cold dead earth. The mountain is in front -of me now, a hole of stars daring me \ -to pierce it with my sight. The lion's still \ -laughing; the streetlamps talk about +| of me now, a hole of stars daring me +| to pierce it with my sight. The lion's still +| laughing; the streetlamps talk about -me amongst themselves, and go out. There \ -never was any lion, they tell me. \ -[You only hear the wind][] [on the mountain][]. +| me amongst themselves, and go out. There +| never was any lion, they tell me. +| [You only hear the wind][] [on the mountain][]. [There is no moon]: moongone.html [nothing like a raven]: feedingtheraven.html diff --git a/fire.html b/fire.html index 580799c..8d884d4 100644 --- a/fire.html +++ b/fire.html @@ -49,7 +49,13 @@ title="Previous article in Buildings out of air: Paul in the Woods"> Father - + + +
+ + +
+ Hands diff --git a/first-lines.html b/first-lines.html index 9422726..6051123 100644 --- a/first-lines.html +++ b/first-lines.html @@ -62,7 +62,13 @@ title="Previous article in About Autocento"> Index of common titles - + + +
+ + +
+ About Autocento diff --git a/first-lines.sh b/first-lines.sh deleted file mode 100644 index 50b0e0c..0000000 --- a/first-lines.sh +++ /dev/null @@ -1,17 +0,0 @@ -#!/bin/bash - -outFile=src/first-lines.txt - -echo "" > $outFile - -for file in src/*.txt; do - echo -n "Getting first line of $file .. " - endOfYAML=$(sed -n '/^\.\.\.$/=' "$file") - firstLineNumber=$((endOfYAML + 2)) - - echo "$file: " >> $outFile - echo " $(head -n $firstLineNumber "$file" | tail -n 1)" >> $outFile - - unset endOfYAML firstLineNumber - echo "Done." -done diff --git a/found-typewriter-poem.html b/found-typewriter-poem.html index 0d73870..15d9d5c 100644 --- a/found-typewriter-poem.html +++ b/found-typewriter-poem.html @@ -41,13 +41,19 @@
-

Look, I say—look here—
at this
old place
where nothing changes
.
Look at the people
who pass by. Look at
the trees. The flowers
full of wanting: look
how full they are with
color. Look how they mock
us, empty people who
must fill themselves
with changes—emptiness.

-

There is nothing to be
but happy. There is no
sadness to fall down
like cherry petals.”

-

The trees don’t under-
stand:
they are too
tall to see the germ
of discontent in us.

+

Look, I say—look here—
at this [old place
where nothing changes]old-place.
Look at the people
who pass by. Look at
the trees. The flowers
full of wanting: look
how full they are with
color. Look how they mock
us, empty people who
must fill themselves
with changes—emptiness.

+

There is nothing to be
but happy. There is no
sadness to fall down
like cherry petals.“

+

The [trees don’t under-
stand:]trees they are too
tall to see the germ
of discontent in us.

diff --git a/found-typewriter-poem.txt b/found-typewriter-poem.txt index d1fce47..ef8ccdb 100644 --- a/found-typewriter-poem.txt +++ b/found-typewriter-poem.txt @@ -16,28 +16,28 @@ project: class: autocento ... -Look, I say---look here--- \ -at this [old place \ -where nothing changes][old-place]. \ -Look at the people \ -who pass by. Look at \ -the trees. The flowers \ -full of wanting: look \ -[how full they are][] with \ -color. Look how they mock \ -us, empty people who \ -must fill themselves \ -with changes---emptiness. +| Look, I say---look here--- +| at this [old place +| where nothing changes][old-place]. +| Look at the people +| who pass by. Look at +| the trees. The flowers +| full of wanting: look +| [how full they are][] with +| color. Look how they mock +| us, empty people who +| must fill themselves +| with changes---emptiness. -"[There is nothing][] to be \ -but happy. [There is no][] \ -sadness to fall down \ -like cherry petals." +| "[There is nothing][] to be +| but happy. [There is no][] +| sadness to fall down +| like cherry petals." -The [trees don't under- \ -stand:][trees] they are too \ -tall to see the germ \ -of discontent in us. +| The [trees don't under- +| stand:][trees] they are too +| tall to see the germ +| of discontent in us. [old-place]: planks.html [how full they are]: squirrel.html diff --git a/hands.html b/hands.html index 1a2a64a..dcf3e08 100644 --- a/hands.html +++ b/hands.html @@ -53,7 +53,13 @@ title="Previous article in Buildings out of air: Paul in the Woods"> Fire - + + +
+ + +
+ Toilet diff --git a/hapax.head b/hapax.head deleted file mode 100644 index 88b23bf..0000000 --- a/hapax.head +++ /dev/null @@ -1,11 +0,0 @@ ---- -title: Autocento of the breakfast table -id: hapax -subtitle: hapax legomena -genre: prose - -project: - title: About autocento - class: meta -... - diff --git a/hapax.html b/hapax.html index 738cf74..e2daad2 100644 --- a/hapax.html +++ b/hapax.html @@ -36,11 +36,17 @@
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communicate communicates communion commute comparable compare compartmentalizes compile compiling complain complaining complexities complicated compose composed composing compresses comprising compromise compromising computers con concentrate conception conceptually concerned concession conch conciousness concrete condemned confectioner’s-sugar confessed confessional congratulate considers consisted consists constantin constructed consumable consumed contempt contemptibly content continued continues continuity contorting contract contraposition conversations convert converted converter cooked cooking cookout cooler coolness cop copulation coronas coroner’s corpus correct correcting correspondence cosmology costumed costumes cotton couches counter counting counts coupled courage court cousin cover coveralls covers covino cowardly cowboy coworkers cozy crabs cracked cracker crackers cracking cradle cradled craned cranking cranky crawfish crawled crawling cream cream-colored creamer creases creation creativity’s creatures credits creeks creeping creepy crevice crew cried cries crime-ridden criminal criminals crippled criteria croaks crocodiles cross-references crossword crosswords crotch crouch crowing crown cruel crumble crumpet crunch crushed crust crusty crux cubicled cubicles culminates curled currently customer’s cycle cyclical dairy dances dangling dappled dapplegray dare daredevil daring darkly date dated daughter daughter’s deadbranch deaf deafening dealing decay decaying decency decent decide decides declaration declaration-of-poetry decompress dedicated deepened deeper defeat define defining definitely deflate deigned delegate demand demanded demolished demon dependant depicted depiction derivation described describes deserve design designation desired desktop destroy destroyed destruction detergent detractors devastating develop developed devices devil devised devotion dewdrop dialectic diary dice differentiated differently difficult dig dimension dimensionality dimes dimly dimming dipped dipping directly dirty disagree disagree1 disallowed disallows disappearing disappears disappointing disassociated disband disciplinary discontent discretion dishes disingenuous disintegrating disinterested dismantled dismay dismember disorder disproving disregard distant distinctions distorts distracting diversions divine doctor’s document docx doe-eyed dog’s doggy dollar-fifty don donate donut doppelgangers dotted dotting doubles doubt doubtful doughboy dove doves downs dragged dragons dreamed dreamt dressed dresser dressing-room dried dried-out dripping driver’s drool dropped dropturned drum drums du duality dub ducts dude duff dumbass dumbly dump dumpster dungeons dusk dwelling e earthworms eaten eclipse economic economically ecstatic eden editor edo edu/cal/english/degrees-programs/graduate/mfa/ ee efficiently effort ego egyptian eight-fold eighty-four electricity elegies element elementary elements elephant elevated eleven em email embarrassment embodiment emotional/heart-based empire employ emptiness enables encased end-rhymes endeared enemy engagement enliven entanglement enterprises enters entirely entirety entities entity entry-level entwined environment environments eously epicenter epigraph epitome equation era eraser erases errant escape ess essays estimate et ethiopian etymology etymonline europe evaporate eve evergreen everyone’s evolved exacerbates examined exchange exciting exclaiming excused exegesis exercise exhausted existed expand expanded expect expectation expel experienced experiencing experiments expertly explained explains explanation expressed expression extract extrapolate extrapolating eye-contact eyelid eyelids face-up facebook facepaint facial factor factories factory facts factual/logical/brain-based fade fails faithfully fallibility fallow false familiar famously fan far-away far-off farming farms fateful father’s favor feared feathers feature features fecundity fed feeds feign feigned feminist ferry festive fever fibonnacci fickle fiddleheads fiercely fighting figment figurine file filled filling filtered filtering final finger-loops finish finisher finishing finite fins firestarter firewood firm first-person fish-eyed fisheye fishing fitting fixtures flagellum flagstaff flailing flame flanks flannel flatten flea fleeting flesh fleshy flew flex flicked flies flip flipping flocks flopping flops flowed flower flung fluorescence foam fold folded folks fondly fool fooling footnotes footprints footrest forcefully forces forestroads forests forgetful forgetting forgot forlorn formation formats formula fortinis fortress fossil fought founding four-wheeler fourth-grade fox fozzie fractal-dimensionality fragile fragment fragments fragrance frail francis franco frank franksgiving frayed freestones freezing french frequency freshly fringe frolic front-to-back frost-cold frosted frosting froth frowning fruit fruits frustrated ftw fulfill full-throated fundamental fundamentally-different fungi further furthers futility gallery gamble gambles gander gang gangs garbage garment gasping gate gather gazebo gee generality generated generations genesis genetics genres gently genuine germ ghazal’s ghosts gilbert’s gilded gills gina giraffes git glance glancing gleamed glib global glowing gluing gnashing gnawer goad goats god-lover goddammit goddamn goddess goldheaded goodness goofy gossips gotta grab grammar grandeur grasp grasping grassland grassmade grayish-blue graze grecian grep grieving grilled grinch grinned grins gritty grotesque grouped groups growl growler growling grown grows guessed guide gut guys gyroscope hairier half-empty half-gallon half-heartedly half-hours half-inch halfway hall halloween halls hallways hammered handed handiwork handle handwritten hang hangs haphazardly happier harboring hardworking hardy harvest hate hating hawk hawks heading headless headstone health heart’s heartache heartwarming heaven heavy hefted heightened hen heraclitus herculean herein heretofore hers hid hide hiding-place hierarchy higher highway highways hijack hills hips hiss hitchcock hitting hoarsely hobo hoggle’s hoisted hoisting hollows home-for-death homecoming homeless hometown honesty honey-golden honking honor hooks hoop hopefully hopes horizontal horn horror horse hotel hovering how’d huge hugging huh human-formed humming hums hunt hurl hurried husks hyperfiction hypertext hypertextual hypertextually hypothesis i’s ibiblio ice-skater icicle id ideal ideals ignorance ill-timed imagery imagination imdb immaculately immediately impatience impatient impenetrable imperceptibly implementations implements improving improvise inability inaccurate inasmuch inborn incarnation incidences incidentally included includes including inclusive increase increasingly independent indescribable index indicating individually-numbered inevitable inexorable infinity inflatable inflate influenced ingots inhaled inherently inherited inigo injunction inkpot insane insecurities insecurity insert inside-out insist insists inspiration insults intended intense intentional interactions interest interested interior interpreted interrelate interstate intervals interview intimately introduction intuition invariably invention inventory invest invests involves ipod ironic irreducible irrelevant isaac’s israel issue issues iv ix jack-of-all-trades jackson japanese jar javascript jay jeans jelly jenkins jerked jerking jerry jerry’s jessica jewel jeweleyed joey jogged join judgement judges judging judgment judgmental juice juicecrush jujubes jukebox jump jumped jumps junction junior junk just-completed just-woken-up justice justifiable justifies justin keats’s kerosene khaki kick kicks kid’s kill killed kindling knee knees knelt knife knitting knob knock knocker knowable knowingly kong kudzu l l’appel la la-z-boy lables labored lacks ladle ladled lady lambs lame lamented lamp lampoons lamps land-features land-like landlocked largely las lasting lately latin laughed laughter launches lava lawnmower layers lazily leading leaking leaned leans leaped learned leaving lectures led leering legends legomena lent lessons lets letters letting lettuce levelly levels lever lick lie life-as-lived lifetime lifetimes lift limbaugh limitations limiting linear linguistic linguistics linking linoleum lion’s lip lists littered living-room load loaded loathe local location locked lofty logarithms loneliness lonely lonesome long-fibered longest longing longish looms looping loopy lot’s louder lousy lovable lover loving loz lumpy lure lvaro lyrically ma’am machinations machine’s machines mad magazines majesty major maker mammals management manager managing mane manic manipulation manner manufacturers manuscript marianas marianne mario mark marked maroon marriages marvell marvelous mary mascots mash-up mass massful masturbation mates mathematical maudlin maurie maw maybe2 mcdonald mcfarlane’s mcnugget meacham meal meandering measured meddling media mediating meditate meek meets melted melting memento memory’s mental mentioned mercury merrily merseinne mess message messick metal metaphors mfa michelangelo midair middle midway mighty mild mildly million millions minded mindful minds mini-drama mini-wheats minimum mirage misattributed miserable misplace misplaced misses mission mistake mistaken mister misty mnemonic moans mobility mock mocking mockingbirds moist molds molested momentarily moments monsoon monsters month-old montoya monuments mood moonfaced morale more-than-a-fortnight mori mortal mostly-empty motes motion motoring motto mount mountainous mounted mourning mouse movies movings mr mr/mrs muffins muffled mug mulberry multiversity mummy mundane murder murmer murmuring museum musk mutter myriad nagging nailed namesake nanowrimo narrowed near-unattainable neck necks needing negation negative negatives neglected neighbor’s neither nemesis nerves nest neuron never-spoken neverending nevertheless nezzer nib nightgown nightly nightmares ninety-eight nirvana noble non-disappointment non-important non-stop nonexistent noon northern nostril not-wings notably notational noted notfurniture noting notions novels novelty now-empty nozzle nozzle’s npr nuances nuclear nurses nuzzles o o’clock oblivion oblivious observant observer obsessive obstructs obtain occasions occupied occurrence occurring odd-numbered ode odes odt off-brand off-shore offbeat offense offering official olds one’s one-of-a-kind one-set-of-footprints-in-the-sand open-mouthed opportunities opposed optics opulent orange-glo oranges orbiting orchid orders org/eldritch/owh/abt org/wiki/wikipedia origin originality origins orion ostentatious out-of-state outfit outputs outta over-expansive overalls overnight overtake overtime owe owned owner ox pace package packed padowan pages painfully paint pairs pale pallbearers pandoc panic paradox paragraph paranoia paraphrase parceled parent parity participate partitioned parts passenger passion pastor’s pastorals pastors patches patchwork pathology patrons patting pause pavese pawed paws payday paying pays pdf peace peaceful peach-habanero peachtree peachtrees peaks peanut peas pee peeing peered penelope penetrated pennies penny peppermints percent perception perchance percolating perfected perfectly performances period personally pessoa’s pet petals petted pew pg phase philosophers philosophical philosophy phineas phoenix phones photo php phrase physical physics pickle picture’s pierce pigs pile piled pilgrim pilgrims pillar pillow pills pillsbury pincers pine pine-sol pink pinstripe pipe pipes pisses piston pit pitchers pithy pizzazz plane planet planets planning plant’s plate-glass plausible plays plexus plight plod plopped plowing plumbing plums plus plyboard plywood poem’s poet/writer poetic pointing poison poked poking policy polish polished pompom pond ponies pool poops poorly popcorn popped porcelain pork posh posited position posix posix-compliant possibilities possibility 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celebrate cemetery census century cept cereals cesare cetera chairback chairs challenge challenges challenging chamber chamberpot champion chances chapel’s chapped charge chasm chats chatting cheaper cheaply cheating checking cheeks chemistry chewing chiding chin chlorophyll chocolate choir choking choose-your-own-adventure choosing chopping chose christ’s christian chuckled chuckling chunk church-steeple churning cigarettes cincinnati cinnamon circles circuit circumstance cirrus citing claim claimed class classifying claus claw clawing claws clay cleaned cleaners cleft clenched clicking client’s cliff climbed clog clothesline clouded clown’s clue clutched cock cocky code-collaboration coffins cola colbert coldened coldness coleridge collapses collarbone collectible collective college column columns com/duckwork/autocento/blob/gh-pages/readme com/index combination combine comely comfortable comfortably comforts command-line commentators commercials commits committed communicably communicate communicates communion commute comparable compare compartmentalizes compile compiling complain complaining complexities complicated compose composed composing compresses comprising compromise compromising computers con concentrate conception conceptually concerned concession conch conciousness concrete condemned confectioner’s-sugar confessed confessional congratulate considers consisted consists constantin constructed consumable consumed contempt contemptibly content continued continues continuity contorting contract contraposition conversations convert converted converter cooked cooking cookout cooler coolness cop copulation coronas coroner’s corpus correct correcting correspondence cosmology costumed costumes cotton couches counter counting counts coupled courage court cousin cover coveralls covers covino cowardly cowboy coworkers cozy crabs cracked cracker crackers cracking cradle cradled craned cranking cranky crawfish crawled crawling cream cream-colored creamer creases creation creativity’s creatures credits creeks creeping creepy crevice crew cried cries crime-ridden criminal criminals crippled criteria croaks crocodiles cross-references crossword crosswords crotch crouch crowing crown cruel crumble crumpet crunch crushed crust crusty crux cubicled cubicles culminates curled currently customer’s cycle cyclical dairy dances dangling dappled dapplegray dare daredevil daring darkly date dated daughter daughter’s deadbranch deaf deafening dealing decay decaying decency decent decide decides declaration declaration-of-poetry decompress dedicated deepened deeper defeat define defining definitely deflate deigned delegate demand demanded demolished demon dependant depicted depiction derivation described describes deserve design designation desired desktop destroy destroyed destruction detergent detractors devastating develop developed devices devil devised devotion dewdrop dialectic diary dice differentiated differently difficult dig dimension dimensionality dimes dimly dimming dipped dipping directly dirty disagree disagree1 disallowed disallows disappearing disappears disappointing disassociated disband disciplinary discontent discretion dishes disingenuous disintegrating disinterested dismantled dismay dismember disorder disproving disregard distant distinctions distorts distracting diversions divine doctor’s document docx doe-eyed dog’s doggy dollar-fifty don donate donut doppelgangers dotted dotting doubles doubt doubtful doughboy dove doves downs dragged dragons dreamed dreamt dressed dresser dressing-room dried dried-out dripping driver’s drool dropped dropturned drum drums du duality dub ducts dude duff dumbass dumbly dump dumpster dungeons dusk dwelling e earthworms eaten eclipse economic economically ecstatic eden editor edo edu/cal/english/degrees-programs/graduate/mfa/ ee efficiently effort ego egyptian eight-fold eighty-four electricity elegies element elementary elements elephant elevated eleven em email embarrassment embodiment emotional/heart-based empire employ emptiness enables encased end-rhymes endeared enemy engagement enliven entanglement enterprises enters entirely entirety entities entity entry-level entwined environment environments eously epicenter epigraph epitome equation era eraser erases errant escape ess essays estimate et ethiopian etymology etymonline europe evaporate eve evergreen everyone’s evolved exacerbates examined exchange exciting exclaiming excused exegesis exercise exhausted existed expand expanded expect expectation expel experienced experiencing experiments expertly explained explains explanation expressed expression extract extrapolate extrapolating eye-contact eyelid eyelids face-up facebook facepaint facial factor factories factory facts factual/logical/brain-based fade fails faithfully fallibility fallow false familiar famously fan far-away far-off farming farms fateful father’s favor feared feathers feature features fecundity fed feeds feign feigned feminist ferry festive fever fibonnacci fickle fiddleheads fiercely fighting figment figurine file filled filling filtered filtering final finger-loops finish finisher finishing finite fins firestarter firewood firm first-person fish-eyed fisheye fishing fitting fixtures flagellum flagstaff flailing flame flanks flannel flatten flea fleeting flesh fleshy flew flex flicked flies flip flipping flocks flopping flops flowed flower flung fluorescence foam fold folded folks fondly fool fooling footnotes footprints footrest forcefully forces forestroads forests forgetful forgetting forgot forlorn formation formats formula fortinis fortress fossil fought founding four-wheeler fourth-grade fox fozzie fractal-dimensionality fragile fragment fragments fragrance frail francis franco frank franksgiving frayed freestones freezing french frequency freshly fringe frolic front-to-back frost-cold frosted frosting froth frowning fruit fruits frustrated ftw fulfill full-throated fundamental fundamentally-different fungi further furthers futility gallery gamble gambles gander gang gangs garbage garment gasping gate gather gazebo gee generality generated generations genesis genetics genres gently genuine germ ghazal’s ghosts gilbert’s gilded gills gina giraffes git glance glancing gleamed glib global glowing gluing gnashing gnawer goad goats god-lover goddammit goddamn goddess goldheaded goodness goofy gossips gotta grab grammar grandeur grasp grasping grassland grassmade grayish-blue graze grecian grep grieving grilled grinch grinned grins gritty grotesque grouped groups growl growler growling grown grows guessed guide gut guys gyroscope hairier half-empty half-gallon half-heartedly half-hours half-inch halfway hall halloween halls hallways hammered handed handiwork handle handwritten hang hangs haphazardly happier harboring hardworking hardy harvest hate hating hawk hawks heading headless headstone health heart’s heartache heartwarming heaven heavy hefted heightened hen heraclitus herculean herein heretofore hers hid hide hiding-place hierarchy higher highway highways hijack hills hips hiss hitchcock hitting hoarsely hobo hoggle’s hoisted hoisting hollows home-for-death homecoming homeless hometown honesty honey-golden honking honor hooks hoop hopefully hopes horizontal horn horror horse hotel hovering how’d huge hugging huh human-formed humming hums hunt hurl hurried husks hyperfiction hypertext hypertextual hypertextually hypothesis i’s ibiblio ice-skater icicle id ideal ideals ignorance ill-timed imagery imagination imdb immaculately immediately impatience impatient impenetrable imperceptibly implementations implements improving improvise inability inaccurate inasmuch inborn incarnation incidences incidentally included includes including inclusive increase increasingly independent indescribable index indicating individually-numbered inevitable inexorable infinity inflatable inflate influenced ingots inhaled inherently inherited inigo injunction inkpot insane insecurities insecurity insert inside-out insist insists inspiration insults intended intense intentional interactions interest interested interior interpreted interrelate interstate intervals interview intimately introduction intuition invariably invention inventory invest invests involves ipod ironic irreducible irrelevant isaac’s israel issue issues iv ix jack-of-all-trades jackson japanese jar javascript jay jeans jelly jenkins jerked jerking jerry jerry’s jessica jewel jeweleyed joey jogged join judgement judges judging judgment judgmental juice juicecrush jujubes jukebox jump jumped jumps junction junior junk just-completed just-woken-up justice justifiable justifies justin keats’s kerosene khaki kick kicks kid’s kill killed kindling knee knees knelt knife knitting knob knock knocker knowable knowingly kong kudzu l l’appel la la-z-boy lables labored lacks ladle ladled lady lambs lame lamented lamp lampoons lamps land-features land-like landlocked largely las lasting lately latin laughed laughter launches lava lawnmower layers lazily leading leaking leaned leans leaped learned leaving lectures led leering legends legomena lent lessons lets letters letting lettuce levelly levels lever lick lie life-as-lived lifetime lifetimes lift limbaugh limitations limiting linear linguistic linguistics linking linoleum lion’s lip lists littered living-room load loaded loathe local location locked lofty logarithms loneliness lonely lonesome long-fibered longest longing longish looms looping loopy lot’s louder lousy lovable lover loving loz lumpy lure lvaro lyrically ma’am machinations machine’s machines mad magazines majesty major makefile maker mammals management manager managing mane manic manipulation manner manufacturers manuscript marianas marianne mario mark marked maroon marriages marvell marvelous mary mascots mash-up mass massful masturbation mates mathematical maudlin maurie maw maybe2 mcdonald mcfarlane’s mcnugget meacham meal meandering measured meddling media mediating meditate meek meets melted melting memento memory’s mental mentioned mercury merrily merseinne mess message messick metal metaphors mfa michelangelo midair middle midway mighty mild mildly million millions minded mindful minds mini-drama mini-wheats minimum mirage misattributed miserable misplace misplaced misses mission mistake mistaken mister misty mnemonic moans mobility mock mocking mockingbirds moist molds molested momentarily moments monsoon monsters month-old montoya monuments mood moonfaced morale more-than-a-fortnight mori mortal mostly-empty motes motion motoring motto mount mountainous mounted mourning mouse movies movings mr mr/mrs muffins muffled mug mulberry multiversity mummy mundane murder murmer murmuring museum musk mutter myriad nagging nailed namesake nanowrimo narrowed near-unattainable neck necks needing negation negative negatives neglected neighbor’s neither nemesis nerves nest neuron never-spoken neverending nevertheless nezzer nib nightgown nightly nightmares ninety-eight nirvana noble non-disappointment non-important non-stop nonexistent noon northern nostril not-wings notably notational noted notfurniture noting notions novels novelty now-empty nozzle nozzle’s npr nuances nuclear nurses nuzzles o o’clock oblivion oblivious observant observer obsessive obstructs obtain occasions occupied occurrence occurring odd-numbered ode odes odt off-brand off-shore offbeat offense offering official olds one’s one-of-a-kind one-set-of-footprints-in-the-sand open-mouthed opportunities opposed optics opulent orange-glo oranges orbiting orchid orders org/eldritch/owh/abt org/wiki/wikipedia origin originality origins orion ostentatious out-of-state outfit outputs outta over-expansive overalls overnight overtake overtime owe owned owner ox pace package packed padowan pages painfully paint pairs pale pallbearers pandoc panic paradox paragraph paranoia paraphrase parceled parent parity participate partitioned parts passenger passion pastor’s pastorals pastors patches patchwork pathology patrons patting pause pavese pawed paws payday paying pays pdf peace peaceful peach-habanero peachtree peachtrees peaks peanut peas pee peeing peered penelope penetrated pennies penny peppermints percent perception perchance percolating perfected perfectly performances period personally pessoa’s pet petals petted pew pg phase philosophers philosophical philosophy phineas phoenix phones photo php phrase physical physics pickle picture’s pierce pigs pile piled pilgrim pilgrims pillar pillow pills pillsbury pincers pine pine-sol pink pinstripe pipe pipes pisses piston pit pitchers pithy pizzazz plane planet planets planning plant’s plate-glass plausible plays plexus plight plod plopped plowing plumbing plums plus plyboard plywood poem’s poet/writer poetic pointing poison poked poking policy polish polished pompom pond ponies pool poops poorly popcorn popped porcelain pork posh posited position posix posix-compliant possibilities possibility possum post postage posterity potential pound pounding pounds pouring powdered practiced practices prague prairie pray prayer pre pre-approved predator prejudices premeasured prenatal preoccupation preoccupations preparation prepositions prescription pressure-release pretended pretending prevalent prices priest primed primes prince princess printable privately probabilistic probability problems produced production professor profile progress progresses progression projecting prom proper prophecy-slash-advice propose prospective protagonist protective proved proven proves prybar pseudonyms psych publish puffy punched punches punctuation punished pupils puppet purses puzzle pvc pyramids quaking quality queer querulous questionable quick quicken quickness quietness quitting quivering race races radiate rags railroad rainbow rainfall rains ram rampage randomness ranges rasping ratio ratty raving raw razor reaching-out reader/listener/consumer readjust readme reads realer realizable realization reasoned reasons reasons/instructions receded receding receipt receive received receiver recent recently receptacle recipe recirculating reclassifying reclining recognize recoils recommend reconsidered recording records recycle redder reduced reeds reeling reese’s referenced refers reflect reflecting regex regular reis relation relative relax relaxed relaxing relic remain remark remarkable remarks remind reminding reminds remix remnants removed rendering rent rental reordering rep repeating repertoire repitition replaced replacement replaces replacing replies repo report representative’s represented represents repulsed requesting resemblance resembles resist resistant resonance resonances resonate resorted resorts respect respective resplendent responded restate resume retain retribution return returning revealed revenging revolves reward rewrote rhyming rhythm ribcage ricardo richard ride rides ridges right-side-out rightly rightness rigid ring rings ripe 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diff --git a/hapax.txt b/hapax.txt index cdd9100..ab400f8 100644 --- a/hapax.txt +++ b/hapax.txt @@ -1512,6 +1512,7 @@ project: [magazines](howtoread.html) [majesty](plant.html) [major](fire.html) +[makefile](about.html) [maker](yellow.html) [mammals](something-simple.html) [management](dollywood.html) diff --git a/hard-game.html b/hard-game.html index 2bd479c..fc8e276 100644 --- a/hard-game.html +++ b/hard-game.html @@ -47,7 +47,13 @@ diff --git a/hard-game.txt b/hard-game.txt index 7ad6d65..443c58f 100644 --- a/hard-game.txt +++ b/hard-game.txt @@ -10,23 +10,23 @@ project: class: autocento ... -You think building Hoggle's a hard game? \ -You know bunk. Writing a ghazal's a hard game. +| You think building Hoggle's a hard game? +| You know bunk. Writing a ghazal's a hard game. -Let's meet in a place where words & fabric play--- \ -but not [plastic][] words. (Boggle's a hard game.) +| Let's meet in a place where words & fabric play--- +| but not [plastic][] words. (Boggle's a hard game.) -A cookout where we can hash our differences \ -over steak, though making it sizzle's a hard game. +| A cookout where we can hash our differences +| over steak, though making it sizzle's a hard game. -Let's go to a brothel, [rub shoulders][] with bare \ -shoulders, or a bar. Being wastrel's a hard game. +| Let's go to a brothel, [rub shoulders][] with bare +| shoulders, or a bar. Being wastrel's a hard game. -Maybe we could switch professions, you and I, \ -you write the poems, I'll puppet Fozzie---a hard game. +| Maybe we could switch professions, you and I, +| you write the poems, I'll puppet Fozzie---a hard game. -When you call me, you never say my name. \ -Creativity's [a hose][]---shutting the nozzle's the hard game. +| When you call me, you never say my name. +| Creativity's [a hose][]---shutting the nozzle's the hard game. [a hose]: fire.html [plastic]: sense-of-it.html diff --git a/hardware.html b/hardware.html index 9a3430c..b18a4e5 100644 --- a/hardware.html +++ b/hardware.html @@ -51,7 +51,13 @@ title="Previous article in Buildings out of air: Paul in the Woods"> Hands - + + +
+ + +
+ Treatise diff --git a/howithappened.html b/howithappened.html index d547584..7428bf9 100644 --- a/howithappened.html +++ b/howithappened.html @@ -44,7 +44,13 @@ title="Previous article in Elegies for alternate selves"> I am - + + +
+ + +
+ Love Song diff --git a/howtoread.html b/howtoread.html index 376e004..442aad8 100644 --- a/howtoread.html +++ b/howtoread.html @@ -56,7 +56,13 @@ title="Previous article in Elegies for alternate selves"> epigraph - + + +
+ + +
+ And diff --git a/hymnal.html b/hymnal.html index e5fca9a..8085993 100644 --- a/hymnal.html +++ b/hymnal.html @@ -54,7 +54,13 @@ title="Previous article in Buildings out of air: Paul in the Woods"> Hardware - + + +
+ + +
+ Underwear diff --git a/i-am.html b/i-am.html index 218eee4..6022a97 100644 --- a/i-am.html +++ b/i-am.html @@ -44,7 +44,13 @@ title="Previous article in Elegies for alternate selves"> On formal poetry - + + +
+ + +
+ How it happened diff --git a/i-am.txt b/i-am.txt index c9d949f..4dcaa7d 100644 --- a/i-am.txt +++ b/i-am.txt @@ -15,24 +15,24 @@ project: link: howithappened ... -I am a great pillar of [white smoke][]. \ -I am Lot's nameless wife encased in salt. \ -I am the wound on Christ's back as he moans \ -with the pounding of a hammer on his wrist. \ -I am the nail that holds my house together. \ -It is a strong house, built on a good foundation. \ -In the winter, it is warm and crawling things \ -cannot get in. This house will never burn down. \ -It is the house that I built, with my body \ -and with my strength. I am the only one who lives \ -here. I am both father and mother to a race \ -of [dust motes that worship me as a god][]. I have \ -monuments built daily in my honor in dark \ -corners around the house. I destroy all of them \ -before I go to bed, but in the morning \ -there are still more. I don't think I know \ -where all of them are. I [don't think][not think] I can get \ -to all of them anymore. There are too many. +| I am a great pillar of [white smoke][]. +| I am Lot's nameless wife encased in salt. +| I am the wound on Christ's back as he moans +| with the pounding of a hammer on his wrist. +| I am the nail that holds my house together. +| It is a strong house, built on a good foundation. +| In the winter, it is warm and crawling things +| cannot get in. This house will never burn down. +| It is the house that I built, with my body +| and with my strength. I am the only one who lives +| here. I am both father and mother to a race +| of [dust motes that worship me as a god][]. I have +| monuments built daily in my honor in dark +| corners around the house. I destroy all of them +| before I go to bed, but in the morning +| there are still more. I don't think I know +| where all of them are. I [don't think][not think] I can get +| to all of them anymore. There are too many. [white smoke]: deathstrumpet.html [not think]: howithappened.html diff --git a/i-think-its-you.html b/i-think-its-you.html index 285c5b4..81baadf 100644 --- a/i-think-its-you.html +++ b/i-think-its-you.html @@ -54,7 +54,13 @@ title="Previous article in Stark Raving"> L’appel du vide - + + +
+ + +
+ Initial conditions diff --git a/i-think-its-you.txt b/i-think-its-you.txt index 8f90151..8f1a49f 100644 --- a/i-think-its-you.txt +++ b/i-think-its-you.txt @@ -23,20 +23,20 @@ project: link: lappel-du-vide ... -I thought I saw you walking \ -to the bus stop but it was only \ -a [raven][]. His croaks sounded nothing \ -like your footsteps (as they pound \ -down the hallway toward my bedroom) \ -his [wings][] looked nothing like your \ -legs (running on the wrong side \ -of the road away from my house) \ -I think the one resemblance was the eyes +| I thought I saw you walking +| to the bus stop but it was only +| a [raven][]. His croaks sounded nothing +| like your footsteps (as they pound +| down the hallway toward my bedroom) +| his [wings][] looked nothing like your +| legs (running on the wrong side +| of the road away from my house) +| I think the one resemblance was the eyes -But that's too easy \ -It's just that I was thinking \ -of you and a raven flew by \ -(maybe it was a [crow][]) +| But that's too easy +| It's just that I was thinking +| of you and a raven flew by +| (maybe it was a [crow][]) [raven]: feedingtheraven.html [crow]: stump.html diff --git a/i-want-to-say.html b/i-want-to-say.html index 3dfa1e2..f7595c2 100644 --- a/i-want-to-say.html +++ b/i-want-to-say.html @@ -42,7 +42,13 @@ diff --git a/i-want-to-say.txt b/i-want-to-say.txt index 52763fd..1fb5ad8 100644 --- a/i-want-to-say.txt +++ b/i-want-to-say.txt @@ -8,40 +8,40 @@ project: class: autocento ... -I want to say I take it all back \ -I want \ -I want to take it back I want it none of it \ -to be ever have happened not \ -when I saw you step over the rope \ -when we went to New York for a week \ -but stayed upstate when you punched me \ -hard in the solar plexus in Prague \ -when I looked in your face and [saw myself][] \ -looking back smiling when we went on another trip \ -and another all the trips I want to have \ -stayed home I want to have seen the clouds \ -drifting past [my car window][] to have listened \ -to that sound the bridge makes driving over it \ -without thinking of you always it was you +| I want to say I take it all back +| I want +| I want to take it back I want it none of it +| to be ever have happened not +| when I saw you step over the rope +| when we went to New York for a week +| but stayed upstate when you punched me +| hard in the solar plexus in Prague +| when I looked in your face and [saw myself][] +| looking back smiling when we went on another trip +| and another all the trips I want to have +| stayed home I want to have seen the clouds +| drifting past [my car window][] to have listened +| to that sound the bridge makes driving over it +| without thinking of you always it was you -I want +| I want -I [want to be fresh][] I want to roll out of bed \ -as though it were my [first morning in a new state][] \ -I want nothing more than absolution of sins \ -[a negation but there is no way to subtract here][] \ -I cannot remove this growth that appeared \ -seemingly overnight I cannot [cut you away from myself][] \ -I cannot forget what has already and will always have been \ -I cannot get out of a [new bed][] ever \ -New York will always be as it was when I saw it first \ -with you my breathing will always be labored outside \ -of the cafe I will always see you when [I look in a mirror][] \ -of someone's face the reflection of missed thoughts missed \ -[words will cease to give meaning][] the center will come out \ -of me I will make a new center yes I will drag what is \ -your center around with me and [repeat and repeat][] again \ -I cannot want cannot want want not +| I [want to be fresh][] I want to roll out of bed +| as though it were my [first morning in a new state][] +| I want nothing more than absolution of sins +| [a negation but there is no way to subtract here][] +| I cannot remove this growth that appeared +| seemingly overnight I cannot [cut you away from myself][] +| I cannot forget what has already and will always have been +| I cannot get out of a [new bed][] ever +| New York will always be as it was when I saw it first +| with you my breathing will always be labored outside +| of the cafe I will always see you when [I look in a mirror][] +| of someone's face the reflection of missed thoughts missed +| [words will cease to give meaning][] the center will come out +| of me I will make a new center yes I will drag what is +| your center around with me and [repeat and repeat][] again +| I cannot want cannot want want not [new bed]: in-bed.html [saw myself]: deathstrumpet.html diff --git a/i-wanted-to-tell-you-something.html b/i-wanted-to-tell-you-something.html index a4c11e6..ce8740e 100644 --- a/i-wanted-to-tell-you-something.html +++ b/i-wanted-to-tell-you-something.html @@ -38,15 +38,21 @@

I wanted to tell you something in order to
explain the way I feel about the Universe,
its workings, etc. But I couldn’t yesterday
—I’m sorry—I wanted only to ball
myself up and cry all day. It was the sixteenth
day in a row this happened to me, and to be

more than two weeks waiting to cry is,
especially when, the whole time, I wasn’t able to,
absolutely horrible. It was no sweet sixteen,
I’ll tell you that much. Unless at yours, the Universe
kept telling you to quit having such a ball
and that you should have died, like, yesterday.

-

At first, it feels like you’re winning—that yesterday
you really were meant to die, but since you still are,
you beat the system somehow. But the Universe bawls,
“No, I meant you should’ve crawled into
a hole and fucking died!” And then the Universe
punches you right in the gut, something like sixteen

-

times, and all you can think is, “Some sixteenth
birthday! Maybe I will go die in a hole.” Yesterday,
at times like this, is a luxury the cruel Universe
refuses to give you. This is when it’s a pain just to be,
when that Marvell line about “rolling our stuff into one ball
just seems glib, when you don’t want one body, let alone two.

+

At first, it feels like you’re winning—that yesterday
you really were meant to die, but since you still are,
you beat the system somehow. But the Universe bawls,
“No, I meant you should’ve crawled into
a hole and fucking died!" And then the Universe
punches you right in the gut, something like sixteen

+

times, and all you can think is, “Some sixteenth
birthday! Maybe I will go die in a hole." Yesterday,
at times like this, is a luxury the cruel Universe
refuses to give you. This is when it’s a pain just to be,
when that Marvell line about “rolling our stuff into one ball
just seems glib, when you don’t want one body, let alone two.

Something else that may come as a surprise to
you: over the past more-than-a-fortnight, these sixteen
days, I’ve had nothing to eat but crackers and a cheese ball.
(That’s not entirely true—yesterday
I had some candy, peppermints and Jujubes.)
Maybe this is why I’m so mad at the Universe—

because all it has ever wanted, this Universe
that gave me life, fed me from its breast til I was two,
and even before that, made a place in which I could be—
all it’s wanted was for me to take the sixteen
steps to sobriety, fold the Eight-Fold Path over yesterday
and step around it lightly, as I would an exercise ball,

but the problem is, dear Universe, there’s no way I could be
something as hard as all that, to wake up yesterday
morning, stretch over my sixteen selves, bound out like a ball.

diff --git a/i-wanted-to-tell-you-something.txt b/i-wanted-to-tell-you-something.txt index 3f6423e..197778b 100644 --- a/i-wanted-to-tell-you-something.txt +++ b/i-wanted-to-tell-you-something.txt @@ -8,51 +8,51 @@ project: class: autocento ... -I wanted to tell you something in order [to][] \ -explain the way I feel about the [Universe][], \ -its workings, etc. But I couldn't [yesterday][] \ ----I'm sorry---I wanted only to [ball][] \ -myself up and cry all day. It was the [sixteenth][] \ -day in a row this happened to me, and to [be][] +| I wanted to tell you something in order [to][] +| explain the way I feel about the [Universe][], +| its workings, etc. But I couldn't [yesterday][] +| ---I'm sorry---I wanted only to [ball][] +| myself up and cry all day. It was the [sixteenth][] +| day in a row this happened to me, and to [be][] -more than two weeks waiting to cry is, \ -especially when, the whole time, I wasn't able to, \ -absolutely horrible. It was no sweet sixteen, \ -I'll tell you that much. Unless at yours, the Universe \ -kept telling you to quit having such a ball \ -and that you should have died, like, yesterday. +| more than two weeks waiting to cry is, +| especially when, the whole time, I wasn't able to, +| absolutely horrible. It was no sweet sixteen, +| I'll tell you that much. Unless at yours, the Universe +| kept telling you to quit having such a ball +| and that you should have died, like, yesterday. -At first, it feels like you're winning---that yesterday \ -you really were meant to die, but since you still _are_, \ -you beat the system somehow. But the Universe bawls, \ -"No, I meant you should've crawled into \ -a hole and fucking _died_!" And then the Universe \ -punches you right in the gut, something like sixteen +| At first, it feels like you're winning---that yesterday +| you really were meant to die, but since you still _are_, +| you beat the system somehow. But the Universe bawls, +| "No, I meant you should've crawled into +| a hole and fucking _died_!" And then the Universe +| punches you right in the gut, something like sixteen -times, and all you can think is, "Some sixteenth \ -birthday! Maybe I will go die in a hole." Yesterday, \ -at times like this, is a luxury the cruel Universe \ -refuses to give you. This is when it's a pain just to _be_, \ -when that Marvell line about "[rolling our stuff into one ball][Marvell]" \ -just seems glib, when you don't want one body, let alone two. +| times, and all you can think is, "Some sixteenth +| birthday! Maybe I will go die in a hole." Yesterday, +| at times like this, is a luxury the cruel Universe +| refuses to give you. This is when it's a pain just to _be_, +| when that Marvell line about "[rolling our stuff into one ball][Marvell]" +| just seems glib, when you don't want one body, let alone two. -Something else that may come as a surprise to \ -you: over the past more-than-a-fortnight, these sixteen \ -days, I've had nothing to eat but crackers and a cheese ball. \ -(That's not entirely true---yesterday \ -I had some candy, peppermints and Jujubes.) \ -Maybe this is why I'm so mad at the Universe--- +| Something else that may come as a surprise to +| you: over the past more-than-a-fortnight, these sixteen +| days, I've had nothing to eat but crackers and a cheese ball. +| (That's not entirely true---yesterday +| I had some candy, peppermints and Jujubes.) +| Maybe this is why I'm so mad at the Universe--- -because all it has ever wanted, this Universe \ -that gave me life, fed me from its breast til I was two, \ -and even before that, made a place in which I could be--- \ -all it's wanted was for me to take the sixteen \ -steps to sobriety, fold the Eight-Fold Path over yesterday \ -and step around it lightly, as I would an exercise ball, +| because all it has ever wanted, this Universe +| that gave me life, fed me from its breast til I was two, +| and even before that, made a place in which I could be--- +| all it's wanted was for me to take the sixteen +| steps to sobriety, fold the Eight-Fold Path over yesterday +| and step around it lightly, as I would an exercise ball, -but the problem is, dear Universe, there's no way I could be \ -something as hard as all that, to wake up yesterday \ -morning, stretch over my sixteen selves, bound out like a ball. +| but the problem is, dear Universe, there's no way I could be +| something as hard as all that, to wake up yesterday +| morning, stretch over my sixteen selves, bound out like a ball. [to]: poetry-time.html [Universe]: initial-conditions.html diff --git a/in-bed.html b/in-bed.html index e8b6361..77aca17 100644 --- a/in-bed.html +++ b/in-bed.html @@ -74,7 +74,7 @@

VII

-

You run through me
like rats
down an alley.
You are in my blood.

+

[You run through me
like rats]rats down an alley.
You are in my blood.

You scared me once
remember? Jumped out
of the bathroom door.

I fell screaming onto
the linoleum. Did you
apologize? Did you need to?

@@ -93,7 +93,13 @@ diff --git a/in-bed.txt b/in-bed.txt index 300891f..ec57501 100644 --- a/in-bed.txt +++ b/in-bed.txt @@ -10,131 +10,131 @@ project: ## I -I hear [the rats][] run \ -in the walls like water \ -through a tree. My blood +| I hear [the rats][] run +| in the walls like water +| through a tree. My blood -thickens. As I dream \ -the masturbation dream \ -the shelf above my bed +| thickens. As I dream +| the masturbation dream +| the shelf above my bed -falls covering me in \ -dirt and decaying beetles. \ -[I see my reflection is headless][]. +| falls covering me in +| dirt and decaying beetles. +| [I see my reflection is headless][]. ## II -When the waves stop \ -[and the moon grins down][] \ -to overtake me: the car +| When the waves stop +| [and the moon grins down][] +| to overtake me: the car -ran up the street that night \ -when you were nearly \ -molested in your neighbor's house: +| ran up the street that night +| when you were nearly +| molested in your neighbor's house: -is this why we don't have \ -neighbors? For this the trees \ -[rot only for us][]? +| is this why we don't have +| neighbors? For this the trees +| [rot only for us][]? ## III -I woke screaming and you \ -came to sit next to me. I felt \ -my eyes were open too wide +| I woke screaming and you +| came to sit next to me. I felt +| my eyes were open too wide -that I could not shut them \ -from the horror movie sitting \ -on your lap in the easy chair +| that I could not shut them +| from the horror movie sitting +| on your lap in the easy chair -in the dream the other dream \ -in the living room under \ -the tree. Why do I feel guilty? +| in the dream the other dream +| in the living room under +| the tree. Why do I feel guilty? ## IV -I wake up in a pool of water \ -[closed over me like an eyelid][]. \ -There is no longer comfort +| I wake up in a pool of water +| [closed over me like an eyelid][]. +| There is no longer comfort -in staring at the ceiling. \ -Its pitch blackness beckons \ -into a future of blankness. +| in staring at the ceiling. +| Its pitch blackness beckons +| into a future of blankness. -My body lay still quaking. \ -My mind is chained fast \ -to the beating of my heart. +| My body lay still quaking. +| My mind is chained fast +| to the beating of my heart. ## V -I sit up slowly creaking. \ -I find myself alone buried \ -[in an ocean][]. Far off +| I sit up slowly creaking. +| I find myself alone buried +| [in an ocean][]. Far off -[there is an eagle][] flying \ -toward me. She lands on \ -my knee and lays an egg. +| [there is an eagle][] flying +| toward me. She lands on +| my knee and lays an egg. -I think *not this again* \ -something I've never \ -thought in my life. +| I think *not this again* +| something I've never +| thought in my life. ## VI -I think *not this again* \ -something I've never \ -thought in my life. Not +| I think *not this again* +| something I've never +| thought in my life. Not -after losing my car keys \ -in the easy chair. Not after \ -scratching myself on a branch. +| after losing my car keys +| in the easy chair. Not after +| scratching myself on a branch. -Not after finding the thing \ -in your dresser drawer that \ -night. [I remember you suddenly.][] +| Not after finding the thing +| in your dresser drawer that +| night. [I remember you suddenly.][] ## VII -[You run through me \ -like rats][rats] down an alley. \ -You are in my [blood][]. +| [You run through me +| like rats][rats] down an alley. +| You are in my [blood][]. -You scared me once \ -remember? Jumped out \ -of the bathroom door. +| You scared me once +| remember? Jumped out +| of the bathroom door. -I fell screaming onto \ -the linoleum. Did you \ -apologize? Did you need to? +| I fell screaming onto +| the linoleum. Did you +| apologize? Did you need to? ## VIII -The ocean that surrounds me \ -creaks like a rocking \ -cradle. Your face bright +| The ocean that surrounds me +| creaks like a rocking +| cradle. Your face bright -as the moon at eclipse \ -and as [red][]. Low song \ -my tide stretching +| as the moon at eclipse +| and as [red][]. Low song +| my tide stretching -to the horizon. Ripples \ -on the surface belie \ -something bigger beneath. +| to the horizon. Ripples +| on the surface belie +| something bigger beneath. ## IX -In bed I am alone for \ -the only time. In bed \ -I am a grown man. +| In bed I am alone for +| the only time. In bed +| I am a grown man. -Below the blankets I \ -know you for who you are. \ -In bed I see your face +| Below the blankets I +| know you for who you are. +| In bed I see your face -pressed against the window. \ -I look out and see you \ -and I am not afraid. +| pressed against the window. +| I look out and see you +| and I am not afraid. [the rats]: last-bastion.html [I see my reflection is headless]: deathstrumpet.html diff --git a/index.html b/index.html index d96b074..f2c3715 100644 --- a/index.html +++ b/index.html @@ -42,6 +42,9 @@ first lines and common titles. +
  • Index of + hapax legomena. +
  • About this project.
  • diff --git a/initial-conditions.html b/initial-conditions.html index 1a7b581..13b5d18 100644 --- a/initial-conditions.html +++ b/initial-conditions.html @@ -54,7 +54,13 @@ title="Previous article in Stark Raving"> Last Bastion - + + +
    + + +
    + Love as God diff --git a/initial-conditions.txt b/initial-conditions.txt index f22ebfc..603f1e2 100644 --- a/initial-conditions.txt +++ b/initial-conditions.txt @@ -19,51 +19,51 @@ project: link: last-bastion ... -There is a theory which states the Universe \ -if it began with the same initial conditions \ -( [same gravity][] same strong weak nuclear force same \ -size and shape ) would unfold in exactly \ -the way it has : with the same planets [orbiting suns][] \ -same people making same mistakes : like this morning +| There is a theory which states the Universe +| if it began with the same initial conditions +| ( [same gravity][] same strong weak nuclear force same +| size and shape ) would unfold in exactly +| the way it has : with the same planets [orbiting suns][] +| same people making same mistakes : like this morning -( It's actually past two but I will call it [morning][] ) \ -while turning on the shower : I as the Universe \ -intended ( although I was expecting the heat of suns ) \ -[had the ice of inner space][] : those pre existing conditions \ -before the Big Bang : the shower was almost exactly \ -freezing for a split second : every day it's the same : +| ( It's actually past two but I will call it [morning][] ) +| while turning on the shower : I as the Universe +| intended ( although I was expecting the heat of suns ) +| [had the ice of inner space][] : those pre existing conditions +| before the Big Bang : the shower was almost exactly +| freezing for a split second : every day it's the same : -[I turn on the tap][] hop in pull the knob have the same \ -moment of utter panic then pain then a relaxing morning \ -shower where I spend between five to ten ( I'm not sure exactly ) \ -minutes : I have good thoughts : [this poem about the Universe][] \ -for example : I had the idea while I was conditioning \ -my hair : it came to me like accidentally looking at the sun : +| [I turn on the tap][] hop in pull the knob have the same +| moment of utter panic then pain then a relaxing morning +| shower where I spend between five to ten ( I'm not sure exactly ) +| minutes : I have good thoughts : [this poem about the Universe][] +| for example : I had the idea while I was conditioning +| my hair : it came to me like accidentally looking at the sun : -the pain and the wonder that something as large as suns \ -could appear so small and yet so hot all at the same \ -time : so hot in the summer we require air conditioning \ -( although now in the winter it's cold in the morning ) \ -and I can't wait to hop in the shower that tiny universe \ -of water and steam and soap and [body][] : that and only that exactly +| the pain and the wonder that something as large as suns +| could appear so small and yet so hot all at the same +| time : so hot in the summer we require air conditioning +| ( although now in the winter it's cold in the morning ) +| and I can't wait to hop in the shower that tiny universe +| of water and steam and soap and [body][] : that and only that exactly -or rather exclusively ( it's hard to get the words exactly \ -right : the meanings bleed into each other like the sun's \ -shadows on pavement ) ready for me to [dream][] another universe \ -into it on top of it again and again until they all look the same : \ -I can't tell whether it's my morning or the shower's morning \ -or where I put the conditioner or what the initial conditions +| or rather exclusively ( it's hard to get the words exactly +| right : the meanings bleed into each other like the sun's +| shadows on pavement ) ready for me to [dream][] another universe +| into it on top of it again and again until they all look the same : +| I can't tell whether it's my morning or the shower's morning +| or where I put the conditioner or what the initial conditions -could have been that decided I would misplace my conditioner \ -today : and why and how much planning was involved exactly \ -that would cause so far down the production line of this morning \ -\: me to [wake up so long after the rising][] of the sun \ -\: me to stay inside all day even after showering to look at the same \ -[computer screen][] : to give up the actual universe to the universe +| could have been that decided I would misplace my conditioner +| today : and why and how much planning was involved exactly +| that would cause so far down the production line of this morning +| \: me to [wake up so long after the rising][] of the sun +| \: me to stay inside all day even after showering to look at the same +| [computer screen][] : to give up the actual universe to the universe -in there with its conditions : where [the screen serves][] as sickly sun : \ -where there is apparently exactly what I need : no more : the same \ -three sites I visited this morning comprising my entire Universe +| in there with its conditions : where [the screen serves][] as sickly sun : +| where there is apparently exactly what I need : no more : the same +| three sites I visited this morning comprising my entire Universe [same gravity]: the-sea_the-beach.html [orbiting suns]: big-dipper.html diff --git a/january.html b/january.html index 64ff07f..1efb13d 100644 --- a/january.html +++ b/january.html @@ -42,11 +42,17 @@

    seasoning
    your conversation with demands for better weather.
    (While I find it
    nearly impossible, it’s my mission to be patient
    while waiting for the end of January.)
    Oh, but how the long nights do so
    tax one!

    One
    warm spot in an otherwise shitty season—
    all I ask, January,
    is one warm day. Do you care whether
    I’m a person who becomes a patient
    in some psych ward? This just about does it.

    I.T.,
    although I never thought I’d call one,
    is fair and patient
    when I call. They talk with me, season
    my conversation of demands for better weather
    with an argument for the white beauty of January.

    -

    They know it’s hard; they say each season
    has its detractors. One day, they say, the weather
    will be controlled—until then, patience in January
    .

    +

    They know it’s hard; they say each season
    has its detractors. One day, they say, _the weather
    will be controlled—until then, patience in January_.

    diff --git a/january.txt b/january.txt index 71fe3be..a7bfa54 100644 --- a/january.txt +++ b/january.txt @@ -8,51 +8,51 @@ project: class: autocento ... -January. \ -It's cold, and I don't like it. \ -I prefer warm weather, \ -although I like sweaters. They are the one \ -warm spot in an otherwise [shitty][] season. \ -But fall is better sweater weather. So be patient, - -_patient_, \ -while waiting for the end of January. \ -A change of season \ -brings a change of mood along with it, \ -although I never thought I'd be one \ -to believe that [SAD][] junk about effects of weather--- - -weather!--- \ -on a person. Who becomes a patient \ -just because of one \ -[month of snow][]? I did say of January: \ -"It's cold, and I don't like it," \ -but I hardly think it's fair, knocking whole seasons, - -seasoning \ -your conversation with demands for better weather. \ -(While I find it \ -nearly impossible, it's my mission to be patient \ -while waiting for the end of January.) \ -Oh, but how the long nights do so [tax][] one! - -One \ -[warm spot][] in an otherwise shitty season--- \ -all I ask, January, \ -is one warm day. Do you care whether \ -I'm a person who becomes a patient \ -in some psych ward? This just about does it. - -I.T., \ -although I never thought I'd call one, \ -is fair and patient \ -when I call. They talk with me, season \ -my conversation of demands for better weather \ -with an argument for the white beauty of January. - -They know it's hard; they say each season \ -has its detractors. _One day_, they say, _the weather \ -will be controlled---until then, patience in January_. +| January. +| It's cold, and I don't like it. +| I prefer warm weather, +| although I like sweaters. They are the one +| warm spot in an otherwise [shitty][] season. +| But fall is better sweater weather. So be patient, + +| _patient_, +| while waiting for the end of January. +| A change of season +| brings a change of mood along with it, +| although I never thought I'd be one +| to believe that [SAD][] junk about effects of weather--- + +| weather!--- +| on a person. Who becomes a patient +| just because of one +| [month of snow][]? I did say of January: +| "It's cold, and I don't like it," +| but I hardly think it's fair, knocking whole seasons, + +| seasoning +| your conversation with demands for better weather. +| (While I find it +| nearly impossible, it's my mission to be patient +| while waiting for the end of January.) +| Oh, but how the long nights do so [tax][] one! + +| One +| [warm spot][] in an otherwise shitty season--- +| all I ask, January, +| is one warm day. Do you care whether +| I'm a person who becomes a patient +| in some psych ward? This just about does it. + +| I.T., +| although I never thought I'd call one, +| is fair and patient +| when I call. They talk with me, season +| my conversation of demands for better weather +| with an argument for the white beauty of January. + +| They know it's hard; they say each season +| has its detractors. _One day_, they say, _the weather +| will be controlled---until then, patience in January_. [shitty]: tapestry.html [SAD]: seasonal-affective-disorder.html diff --git a/joke.html b/joke.html index 98e75d2..18ff5d2 100644 --- a/joke.html +++ b/joke.html @@ -52,7 +52,13 @@ title="Previous article in Buildings out of air: Paul in the Woods"> Hymnal - + + +
    + + +
    + Stump diff --git a/lappel-du-vide.html b/lappel-du-vide.html index 183b325..04110cf 100644 --- a/lappel-du-vide.html +++ b/lappel-du-vide.html @@ -66,7 +66,13 @@ title="Previous article in Stark Raving"> Love as God - + + +
    + + +
    + Boy on the bus diff --git a/largest-asteroid.html b/largest-asteroid.html index 08c4c45..467e3b1 100644 --- a/largest-asteroid.html +++ b/largest-asteroid.html @@ -40,7 +40,13 @@ diff --git a/largest-asteroid.txt b/largest-asteroid.txt index 5b245ac..e1a10ee 100644 --- a/largest-asteroid.txt +++ b/largest-asteroid.txt @@ -8,32 +8,32 @@ project: class: autocento ... -What secrets does it hold? \ -Can it tell us who kissed Sara \ -that night on the veranda, or \ -who Joey is really in love with? \ -We all know it isn't Sara, we \ -mean look at them Christmas eve \ -and he's staring whistfully \ -at the stars, or the largest \ -asteroid in the asteroid belt. \ -She's staring at him, sure, but \ -she sees the twinkle in his eye \ -is not aimed in her direction. \ -The reflection of that reflection \ -will beam into space, lightyears \ -of space, dimming slowly each \ -second, until it dies out like \ -all of Sara's hopes for something \ -resembling love in this life, real \ -love that takes hold of her by \ -the throat and refuses to let go, \ -love that makes men travel for her \ -and only for her, love that launches \ -space ships to that asteroid, the \ -largest in the asteroid belt, that \ -jewel of dead rock and ice, harboring \ -something that could've been life \ -[and nothing that actually is][]. +| What secrets does it hold? +| Can it tell us who kissed Sara +| that night on the veranda, or +| who Joey is really in love with? +| We all know it isn't Sara, we +| mean look at them Christmas eve +| and he's staring whistfully +| at the stars, or the largest +| asteroid in the asteroid belt. +| She's staring at him, sure, but +| she sees the twinkle in his eye +| is not aimed in her direction. +| The reflection of that reflection +| will beam into space, lightyears +| of space, dimming slowly each +| second, until it dies out like +| all of Sara's hopes for something +| resembling love in this life, real +| love that takes hold of her by +| the throat and refuses to let go, +| love that makes men travel for her +| and only for her, love that launches +| space ships to that asteroid, the +| largest in the asteroid belt, that +| jewel of dead rock and ice, harboring +| something that could've been life +| [and nothing that actually is][]. [and nothing that actually is]: http://www.writing.upenn.edu/~afilreis/88/stevens-snowman.html diff --git a/last-bastion.html b/last-bastion.html index d9570ef..f3ab4f7 100644 --- a/last-bastion.html +++ b/last-bastion.html @@ -36,9 +36,10 @@
    -

    Dimly remembered celebrity chefs shuffle
    down the cold and darkened highways of the heart.
    They are the last personality left. They are the meek
    who inherited the heart
    , what was left of it.
    Without food to cook in new or exciting ways
    nor audience to gasp and cackle, the chefs
    of the heart quietly waste away while staring
    doe-eyed into now-empty Safeway windows
    checking under the dusty produce shelves
    for something they pray the rats haven’t found yet.

    +

    Dimly remembered celebrity chefs shuffle
    down the cold and darkened highways of the heart.
    They are the last personality left. They are [the meek
    who inherited the heart]meek, what was left of it.

    +

    Without food to cook in new or exciting ways
    nor audience to gasp and cackle, the chefs
    of the heart quietly waste away while staring
    doe-eyed into now-empty Safeway windows
    checking under the dusty produce shelves
    for something they pray the rats haven’t found yet.

    Years ago, the economy of the heart boomed
    and there was food everywhere. Produce
    piled high in pyramids of devotion, meat in
    gilded glass cases opulent under fluorescence,
    dairy which ran like the mythical river toward
    cereals hot and cold. Under it all, thrumming
    like great stone wheels on sand under a hot sun
    near a river where reeds sang in the wind
    the heart produced and gave reward for hard labor.

    -

    No one knows when it all ended. No one can say
    if it was the heart that dried up or the heart’s supply.
    Either way, food of the heart became scarcer and scarcer.
    People began dying, not of starvation
    but of a certain facial expression that could only
    be described as desperation. Now
    all that are left are the celebrity chefs, last bastion
    of a once mighty empire of the heart
    are reduced to husks
    blown dry by wind.

    +

    No one knows when it all ended. No one can say
    if it was the heart that dried up or the heart’s supply.
    Either way, food of the heart became scarcer and scarcer.
    People began dying, not of starvation
    but of a certain facial expression that could only
    be described as desperation. Now
    all that are left are the celebrity chefs, last bastion
    of a once mighty empire of the [heart
    are reduced to husks]heart blown dry by wind.

    diff --git a/listen.html b/listen.html index f1f9ea7..e95558c 100644 --- a/listen.html +++ b/listen.html @@ -41,7 +41,13 @@ diff --git a/listen.txt b/listen.txt index 1a6b05a..5ce5837 100644 --- a/listen.txt +++ b/listen.txt @@ -8,13 +8,13 @@ project: class: autocento ... -If you swallow hard enough \ -you'll [feel the stone][] \ -the one we all have waiting +| If you swallow hard enough +| you'll [feel the stone][] +| the one we all have waiting -Once I [found the stone][] in \ -the sea it kissed me as \ -[the sea pawed at my back][] +| Once I [found the stone][] in +| the sea it kissed me as +| [the sea pawed at my back][] [the sea pawed at my back]: the-sea_the-beach.html [feel the stone]: serengeti.html diff --git a/love-as-god.html b/love-as-god.html index 1639a74..117364c 100644 --- a/love-as-god.html +++ b/love-as-god.html @@ -42,7 +42,7 @@

    How to define two loves as one is the mystery.
    It’s obvious to many there is a thing called God,
    and just as obvious that there is one called love.
    Maybe we fool ourselves, we who can’t be alone;
    maybe we don’t know what either God or love is.
    Maybe, and perhaps; but I for one propose

    that we as only humans are not supposed
    to know or understand capital-L Life, that mystery.
    Isn’t it enough to know that God is
    love, and love is God,
    no matter which one
    does or does not exist? What is life, if no love,

    if no God? Maybe this saying, “God is love,”
    is less a definition of God what what love is supposed
    to be. Of these two terms, maybe2 the one
    we should capitalize is Love, that great mystery
    of chemistry and longing. Maybe “Love is god”
    is a more fitting epigraph for what life is

    -

    made of: Love, that most delicate, most misty
    of all emotions, is supposed to be their god,
    as the one that binds us, that was, that will be, that is.

    +

    made of: Love, that most delicate, most misty
    of all emotions, is supposed to be their god,
    as the one that binds us, that was, that will be, that is.