From 61baf210a9d0d4fffcd82751ba3419dd2feb349d Mon Sep 17 00:00:00 2001 From: Case Duckworth Date: Wed, 1 Apr 2015 16:29:46 -0700 Subject: Revise a few poems in Elegies Also add a .gitignore. How is this so late? --- howtoread.river | 1593 ------------------------------------------------------- 1 file changed, 1593 deletions(-) delete mode 100644 howtoread.river (limited to 'howtoread.river') diff --git a/howtoread.river b/howtoread.river deleted file mode 100644 index d0cc9f9..0000000 --- a/howtoread.river +++ /dev/null @@ -1,1593 +0,0 @@ -this -book -is -an -exploration -of -life -of -all -possible -lives -that -could -be -lived -each -of -the -poems -contained -herein -have -been -written -by -a -different -person -with -his -own -history -culture -and -emotions -true -they -are -all -related -but -no -more -than -any -of -us -is -related -through -our -genetics -our -shared -planet -or -our -yearnings -fernando -pessoa -wrote -poems -under -four -different -identities -he -called -them -heteronyms -that -were -known -during -his -lifetime -though -after -his -death -over -sixty -have -been -found -and -catalogued -he -called -them -heteronyms -as -opposed -to -pseudonyms -because -they -were -much -more -than -names -he -wrote -under -they -were -truly -different -writing -selves -concerned -with -different -ideas -and -writing -with -different -styles -alberto -caeiro -wrote -pastorals -ricardo -reis -wrote -more -formal -odes -lvaro -de -campos -wrote -these -long -whitman-esque -pieces -one -to -whitman -himself -and -pessoa's -own -name -was -used -for -poems -that -are -kind -of -similar -to -all -the -others -it -seems -as -though -pessoa -found -it -inefficient -to -try -and -write -everything -he -wanted -only -in -his -own -self -rather -he -parceled -out -the -different -pieces -and -developed -them -into -full -identities -at -the -cost -of -his -own -i -subsist -as -a -kind -of -medium -of -myself -but -i'm -less -real -than -the -others -less -substantial -less -personal -and -easily -influenced -by -them -all -de -campos -said -of -him -at -one -point -fernando -pessoa -strictly -speaking -does -not -exist -it -is -not -just -pessoa -i -strictly -speaking -do -not -exist -both -as -the -specific -me -that -writes -this -now -and -as -the -concept -of -selfhood -the -ego -heraclitus -famously -said -that -we -ca -not -step -into -the -same -river -twice -and -the -fact -of -the -matter -is -that -we -ca -not -occupy -the -same -self -twice -it -is -constantly -changing -and -adapting -to -new -stimuli -from -the -environment -from -other -selves -from -inside -itself -and -each -time -it -forms -anew -into -something -that's -never -existed -before -the -person -i -am -beginning -a -poem -is -a -separate -being -than -the -one -i -am -finishing -a -poem -and -part -of -it -is -the -poem -i've -written -has -brought -forth -some -other -dish -onto -the -great -table -that -is -myself -in -the -same -way -with -each -poem -you -read -of -this -you -too -could -become -a -different -person -depending -on -which -order -you -read -them -in -you -could -be -any -number -of -possible -people -if -you -follow -the -threads -i've -laid -out -for -you -there -are -so -many -possible -selves -if -you -disregard -those -and -go -a -different -way -there -are -quite -a -few -more -however -at -the -end -of -the -journey -there -is -only -one -self -that -you -will -occupy -the -others -disappearing -from -this -universe -and -going -maybe -somewhere -else -maybe -nowhere -at -all -there -is -a -scene -in -the -neverending -story -where -bastian -is -trying -to -find -his -way -out -of -the -desert -he -opens -a -door -and -finds -himself -in -the -temple -of -a -thousand -doors -which -is -never -seen -from -the -outside -but -only -once -someone -enters -it -it -is -a -series -of -rooms -with -six -sides -each -and -three -doors -one -from -the -room -before -and -two -choices -in -life -each -of -these -rooms -is -a -moment -but -where -bastian -can -choose -which -of -only -two -doors -to -enter -each -time -in -life -there -can -be -any -number -of -doors -and -we -do -not -always -choose -which -to -go -through -in -fact -i -would -argue -that -most -of -the -time -we -are -not -allowed -the -luxury -what -happens -to -those -other -doors -those -other -possibilities -is -there -some -other -version -of -the -self -that -for -whatever -complexities -of -circumstance -and -will -chose -a -different -door -at -an -earlier -moment -the -answer -to -this -of -course -is -that -we -can -never -know -for -sure -though -this -does -not -keep -us -from -trying -through -the -process -of -regret -we -go -back -and -try -that -other -door -in -our -mind -extrapolating -a -possible -present -from -our -own -past -this -is -ultimately -unsatisfying -not -only -because -whatever -world -is -imagined -is -not -the -one -currently -lived -but -because -it -becomes -obvious -that -the -alternate -model -of -reality -is -not -complete -we -can -only -extrapolate -from -the -original -room -absolutely -without -knowledge -of -any -subsequent -possible -choices -this -causes -a -deep -disappointment -a -frustration -with -the -inability -to -know -all -possible -timelines -coupled -with -the -insecurity -that -this -may -not -be -the -best -of -all -possible -worlds -that -we -feel -as -regret -in -this -way -every -moment -we -live -is -an -elegy -to -every -possible -future -that -might -have -stemmed -from -it -annie -dillard -states -this -in -a -biological -manner -when -she -says -in -pilgrim -at -tinker -creek -every -glistening -egg -is -a -memento -mori -nature -is -inefficient -it -spends -a -hundred -lifetimes -to -get -one -that -barely -works -the -fossil -record -is -littered -with -the -failed -experiments -of -evolution -many -of -which -failed -due -only -to -blind -chance -an -asteroid -a -shift -in -weather -patterns -an -inefficient -copulation -method -each -living -person -today -has -twenty -dead -standing -behind -him -and -that -only -counts -the -people -that -actually -lived -how -many -missed -opportunities -stand -behind -any -of -us -the -real -problem -with -all -of -this -is -that -time -is -only -additive -there's -no -way -to -dial -it -back -and -start -over -with -new -choices -or -new -environments -even -when -given -the -chance -to -do -something -again -we -do -it -again -with -the -reality -given -by -our -previous -action -thus -we -are -constantly -creating -and -being -created -by -the -world -the -self -is -never -the -same -from -one -moment -to -the -next -a -poem -is -like -a -snapshot -of -a -self -if -it -is -any -good -it -captures -the -emotional -core -of -the -self -at -the -time -of -writing -for -communication -with -future -selves -either -within -the -same -person -or -outside -of -it -thus -revision -is -possible -and -the -new -poem -created -will -be -yet -another -snapshot -of -the -future -self -as -changed -by -the -original -poem -the -page -becomes -a -window -into -the -past -a -particular -past -as -experienced -by -one -self -the -poem -is -a -remembering -of -a -self -that -no -longer -exists -in -other -words -an -elegy -a -snapshot -does -not -capture -the -entire -subject -however -it -leaves -out -the -background -as -it -is -obscured -by -foreground -objects -it -fails -to -include -anything -that -is -not -contained -in -its -finite -frame -in -order -to -build -a -working -definition -of -identity -we -must -include -all -possible -selves -over -all -possible -timelines -combined -into -one -person -identity -is -the -combined -effect -of -all -possible -selves -over -time -a -poem -leaves -much -of -this -out -it -is -the -one -person -standing -in -front -of -twenty -ghosts -a -poem -is -the -place -where -the -selves -of -the -reader -and -the -speaker -meet -in -their -respective -times -and -places -in -this -way -a -poem -is -outside -of -time -or -place -because -it -changes -its -location -each -time -it -is -read -each -time -it -is -two -different -people -meeting -the -problem -with -a -poem -is -that -it -is -such -a -small -window -if -we -met -in -real -life -the -way -we -met -in -poems -we -would -see -nothing -of -anyone -else -but -a -square -the -size -of -a -postage -stamp -it -has -been -argued -this -is -the -way -we -see -time -and -ourselves -in -it -as -well -vonnegut -uses -the -metaphor -of -a -subject -strapped -to -a -railroad -car -moving -at -a -set -pace -with -a -six-foot-long -metal -tube -placed -in -front -of -the -subject's -eye -the -landscape -in -the -distance -is -time -and -what -we -see -is -the -only -way -in -which -we -interact -with -it -it -is -the -same -with -a -poem -and -the -self -we -can -only -see -and -interact -with -a -small -kernel -this -is -why -it -is -possible -to -write -more -than -one -poem -due -to -this -kernel -nature -of -poetry -a -good -poem -should -focus -itself -to -extract -as -much -meaning -as -possible -from -that -one -kernel -of -identity -to -which -it -has -access -it -should -be -an -atom -of -selfhood -irreducible -and -resistant -to -paraphrase -because -it -tries -to -somehow -echo -the -large -unsayable -part -of -identity -outside -the -frame -of -the -self -it -is -the -kernel -that -contains -a -universe -or -that -speaks -around -one -that's -hidden -if -it -is -a -successful -poem -then -it -makes -the -smallest -circuit -possible -this -is -why -the -commentary -on -poems -is -so -voluminous -a -poem -is -tightly -packed -meaning -that -commentators -try -to -unpack -to -get -at -that -universality -inside -it -a -fortress -of -dialectic -is -constructed -that -ultimately -obstructs -the -meaning -behind -the -poem -it -becomes -the -foreground -in -the -photograph -that -disallows -us -to -view -the -horizon -beyond -it -with -this -in -mind -i -collect -these -poems -that -were -written -over -a -period -of -four -years -into -this -book -where -i -can -i -insert -cross-references -like -the -one -above -in -the -margin -to -other -pieces -in -the -text -where -i -think -the -two -resonate -in -some -way -you -can -read -this -book -in -any -way -you'd -like -you -can -go -front-to-back -or -back-to-front -or -you -can -follow -the -arrows -around -or -you -can -work -out -a -complex -mathematical -formula -with -merseinne -primes -and -logarithms -and -the -2000 -census -information -or -you -can -go -completely -randomly -through -like -a -magazine -or -at -least -the -way -i -flip -through -magazines -i -think -writing -is -a -communication -of -the -self -and -i -think -this -is -the -best -way -to -communicate -mine -in -all -its -multiversity -- cgit 1.4.1-21-gabe81