There is a theory which states the Universe
if it began with the same initial conditions
( same gravity same strong weak nuclear force same
size and shape ) would unfold in exactly
the way it has : with the same planets orbiting suns
same people making same mistakes : like this morning
( It’s actually past two but I will call it morning )
while turning on the shower : I as the Universe
intended ( although I was expecting the heat of suns )
had the ice of inner space : those pre existing conditions
before the Big Bang : the shower was almost exactly
freezing for a split second : every day it’s the same :
I turn on the tap hop in pull the knob have the same
moment of utter panic then pain then a relaxing morning
shower where I spend between five to ten ( I’m not sure exactly )
minutes : I have good thoughts : this poem about the Universe
for example : I had the idea while I was conditioning
my hair : it came to me like accidentally looking at the sun :
the pain and the wonder that something as large as suns
could appear so small and yet so hot all at the same
time : so hot in the summer we require air conditioning
( although now in the winter it’s cold in the morning )
and I can’t wait to hop in the shower that tiny universe
of water and steam and soap and body : that and only that exactly
or rather exclusively ( it’s hard to get the words exactly
right : the meanings bleed into each other like the sun’s
shadows on pavement ) ready for me to dream another universe
into it on top of it again and again until they all look the same :
I can’t tell whether it’s my morning or the shower’s morning
or where I put the conditioner or what the initial conditions
could have been that decided I would misplace my conditioner
today : and why and how much planning was involved exactly
that would cause so far down the production line of this morning
: me to wake up so long after the rising of the sun
: me to stay inside all day even after showering to look at the same
computer screen : to give up the actual universe to the universe
in there with its conditions : where the screen serves as sickly sun :
where there is apparently exactly what I need : no more : the same
three sites I visited this morning comprising my entire Universe