there is a theory which states the universe if it began with the same initial conditions same gravity same strong weak nuclear force same size and shape would unfold in exactly the way it has with the same planets orbiting suns same people making same mistakes like this morning it is actually past two but i will call it morning while turning on the shower i as the universe intended although i was expecting the heat of suns had the ice of inner space those pre existing conditions before the big bang the shower was almost exactly freezing for a split second every day it is the same i turn on the tap hop in pull the knob have the same moment of utter panic then pain then a relaxing morning shower where i spend between five to ten i'm not sure exactly minutes i have good thoughts this poem about the universe for example i had the idea while i was conditioning my hair it came to me like accidentally looking at the sun the pain and the wonder that something as large as suns could appear so small and yet so hot all at the same time so hot in the summer we require air conditioning although now in the winter it is cold in the morning and i ca not wait to hop in the shower that tiny universe of water and steam and soap and body that and only that exactly or rather exclusively it is hard to get the words exactly right the meanings bleed into each other like the sun's shadows on pavement ready for me to dream another universe into it on top of it again and again until they all look the same i ca not tell whether it is my morning or the shower's morning or where i put the conditioner or what the initial conditions could have been that decided i would misplace my conditioner today and why and how much planning was involved exactly that would cause so far down the production line of this morning me to wake up so long after the rising of the sun me to stay inside all day even after showering to look at the same computer screen to give up the actual universe to the universe in there with its conditions where the screen serves as sickly sun where there is apparently exactly what i need no more the same three sites i visited this morning comprising my entire universe