while swimming in the river i saw underneath it a river of stars only there was no river it was noon you can say the sun is a river you can argue the stars back it like shirts behind a closet door you can say the earth holds us up with its weight or that it means well or it means anything there is no closet nor door there are no shirts hanging anywhere there is no false wall that leads deep into the earth's bowels growing warmer with each step warmth as a con cept has ceased to make any sense in contraposition to cold it might but cold as well stepped out last night and has not returned last i heard it went out swimming and might've drowned trees were the pallbearers at the funeral the train was long and wailful there was much wailing and gnashing of all teeth though there were no teeth no train no funeral or prayer or trees at all nor a river underneath any thing there was nothing to be underneath anymore look around and tell me you see something look around and tell me something that i do not know i know more than anything that the world is always ending behind that there is nothing save that there is no nothing either nothing somehow still turns and flows past us past all time and beyond it a river returning to its forgotten origins deep within itself