title something id dollywood subtitle about my tenure as a bear genre prose project title autocento of the breakfast table class autocento i turned off the tv as soon as the end credits began i stretched in the la-z-boy trade i grew up in pushing its back until i lay horizontal feet slightly elevated i stared at the light at the bugs silhouetted inside it i relaxed thought about sleeping in the chair with the light on i decided against it pulled the lever to pull the chairback up and the footrest down stood up went around the corner turned off the light stripped to my underwear and got in bed i made sure my alarm was set for 8 00 and lay face-up in the dark eventually i slept i still consider this to be the best summer i ever had in terms of my sleep schedule every night i went to bed at midnight after stewart and colbert every morning i woke up at eight took a shower ate my frosted mini-wheats trade and brushed my teeth i took my time because i didn't have to leave for work until 9 30 my shift at dollywood started at 10 00 it was my second summer there i worked as larry the cucumber trade mostly though sometimes i would pick up the shift for one of the official dollywood mascots when they had their day off i went outside when the wall clock read 9 32 the day was already beginning to warm up i walked across the road to my car a saturn reg my first started it pulled into the road and looked up at my window the only one on the second floor of my house i said so long in my head to my room the house and my two sisters still sleeping inside and drove down the road my morning commute was rural through farms creeks hills and hollows past tourist cabin resorts and used christian bookstores nearly getting to pigeon forge but stopping before any of the strip was visible like las vegas pigeon forge has a strip it was second only to vegas in terms of marriages performed it was first in the country including vegas to feature two cracker barrels reg i went into pigeon forge only if i couldn't help it which was rare usually it was only if family from out-of-state were visiting or the one time i and two friends went to the buy-one-pair-get-two-pair-free boot store and got a deal i turned left before i got to any of pigeon forge into the employee entrance of dollywood i drove down a small road to my left a hill covered in kudzu to my right a fence past which i could hear people riding the river rampage trade or rockin roadway trade i turned left again drove past hr and the dollywood doctor's office and checked for parking at the bottom of the hill there wasn't any so i drove up the hill found a parking spot and got out of my car i thought about waiting for an employee shuttle until i realized it was 9 55 so i trotted down the hill and past hr i crossed the road in front of the gazebo walked down a little path and met tim the security guard as i was crossing the main road he asked to see my id which i had ready for him i showed it to him he looked me up and down i wasn't in costume usually a no at dollywood but since my costume was green expensive and required at least two people to put on i didn't have to wear it onto the park and finally let me through i walked through the employee entrance and clocked in at 9 58 i had only figured out how to clock in my second summer the first summer i worked at dollywood was also the first summer i worked a job and due to the placement of the atmosphere characters in the hierarchy of park management we got paid by the day this confused me into thinking that i didn't need to clock in and out especially since i still got paid my confusion deepened when i walked onto park one day with chance who also worked veggie tales trade and he clocked in but this was midway through the summer and i was too nervous to ask anyone about what i should do i was worried that if i started clocking in it would cause suspicion and i was terrified that my not clocking in would be caught and punished somehow for about a month i lived in mild terror each morning and afternoon avoiding my coworkers as they entered or left so they wouldn't see me walk past the red time clocks each day wondering if the hammer would fall i found out later that my manager charlie had been paying me based on the days he'd scheduled me clocking me in and out himself from his computer he said it wasn't a big deal but to clock in next summer this summer so i clocked in and out every day and these short sessions with the red time clock became favorite moments i walked onto the park past jukebox junction trade over the bridge under the rope that disallowed guests to visit the area until the park opened at 10 00 down showstreet and into the back of showstreet palace theater where we characters shared a dressing room with the veggie tales trade actors our dressing-room was a part of backstage partitioned off by curtains where the empty shells of bob the tomato trade and larry the cucumber trade lay inside-out so the sweat inside could evaporate between shifts i grabbed my off-brand underarmour trade slicks from the laundry basket and went to the bathroom to change after i changed i came out of the bathroom and knocked on the women's dressing room door to see if nina or stacy were in yet nina opened the door hey case she said how's it going i'm good am i larry today i had been off the day before so i wasn't sure of the rotation yeah i think so said stacy putting on makeup in the mirror so she was handling with chance while nina and i were the vegetables i liked this arrangement i preferred to be larry trade because i didn't have to talk to anyone and i could make faces in the costume while families took pictures nina preferred the same thing although she was slightly too tall to fit comfortably inside bob trade stacy actually preferred to handle her personality was bubbly and talkative i don't think chance liked any part of the job really and handling was less hot than being in the suit when's our first run i asked well the first show is at 10 20 so we were thinking about 11 i nodded where's chance i think he went out back to smoke nina said i'll go with you the actors for the veggie tales show were coming in to use their dressing room so we left stacy with them we walked through backstage behind all the curtains and through the side door into a sort of garage with ratty couches a refrigerator and an old tv mounted high up on the wall chance was sitting smoking and watching jeopardy while thumbing through a magazine hi chance i said hey guys he flicked his smile always somewhere between genuine and mocking at us think it'll rain today he asked indicating the direction of the sky it wasn't really visible from within the garage due to the high fence keeping the guests on the path toward timber tower trade and mystery mine trade and the tree just outside the garage i don't think there's a cloud in the sky i said but walked out of the garage and looked up to be sure there were wisps of cirrus like stray brush strokes on a blue canvas but that was all i think we'll have to do all of our runs today damn said chance and stubbed out his cigarette we watched jeopardy in silence for a few minutes chance checked his watch it's 10 19 he said we should get inside before the show starts we went back to the dressing room behind the curtains backstage past the skins of larry trade and bob trade their feet and their battery packs past the water fountain where i drank and into the women's dressing room stacy had finished applying her makeup and was already in overalls flannel boots and cowboy hat seeing her chance said i'd better go put my outfit on he left and came back costumed we killed time nina turned her wrist and looked at her watch it's 10 50 she said looking at me and jerking her head toward the door let's get ready we went out and down the hall the veggie tales were singing about mr nezzer trade loving the bunny nina went to bob trade and i to larry trade we set to work pulling them right-side-out when this was done we put on the backpacks that served as interior shells for the characters and held the battery packs as nina pulled on bob trade s legs i pulled on larry trade s i put my shoes in larry trade s feet a concession made to the forms of us humans inside the suits bob trade and larry trade on the show had no arms or legs we clipped each other's batteries into the packs we put our hands through the vegetables arms at this point the vegetables faces were sagging from our waists like deflated balloons we waddled over to the hallway outside the dressing rooms chance helped me put larry's hands on which were three-fingered like a cartoon although in the cartoon the veggie tales characters don't have hands he snapped them onto the arm he helped me pull the head up and over my pack and clipped the battery to the fan inside the suit he zipped the back zipper and the suit started to inflate bob trade and larry trade were inflatable to cut down on their weight stacy had done the same with nina and bob trade she asked ready we said ready chance got ahead of us opening the door i had to push my hands into my chest to deflate the suit so it could fit through the door we stepped into the dappled sunlight of dollywood the first few minutes of the run were fairly peaceful a few families walking by saw us and walk over forming a small line for their children to say hello get a hug and a picture one of the kids about three got about five feet from me pass some sort of magic barrier and suddenly become terrified she screamed and run back to her parents i tried to get eye-contact it was hard to tell exactly where larry trade was looking since his eyes were about a foot above my head and were fixed forward get small and hold out my hand but she had seen quite enough she shook her head and hid behind her mother's leg i waved with my fingers and stepped back to receive the next child sometimes doing this job i felt like a priest giving some sort of communion sometimes i felt like a celebrity especially when children asked for an autograph this happened fairly often and chance had to guide my hand with the sharpie trade in it sometimes i felt like santa claus or some other mythical creature come to earth mostly i felt a little hot and slightly bored the boredom crystallized into stress when the veggie tales show let out showstreet palace held something like four hundred people and for a show like veggie tales around half were children for this run our post was around the side of the theater so we didn't get the full press of the crowd but there were quite a few people streaming out of the side door fresh from seeing larry trade bob trade and friends performing in a show of course they were excited to see them giving out hugs in the street chance and stacy became busy trying to form the crowd into some semblance of a line while i and nina were hugging children trying to take our time with each but painfully aware of the next in line this was the worst part of the job i felt like i was on a factory line gluing widgets onto a product all day i was always looking ahead always at the next kid barely noticing what the ones old enough to talk were saying to me trying to show me i felt callous and aloof from humanity and a deep unease passed over me with all of this on my mind of course i didn't see the teenager running toward me from my left chance and stacy can't be blamed they were busy with crowd control i don't know what happened to the kid afterward all i know is what happened to me suddenly a great weight on my left side the hiss of air being forced out of larry trade me almost falling over the weight fell off i turned around too stunned to yell though chance had caught it out of the corner of his eye hey don't do that he said his eyes on the fallen teenager the kid was maybe fifteen tall with a white t-shirt and dark hair he had an indescribable look on his face surprise satisfaction and something else i couldn't identify before chance could reach him he ran off you okay he turned to me and asked i said in a low voice yeah i'm fine we're going in he said to stacy she checked her watch said yeah it's been twenty minutes to the crowd we have time for just two more pictures a wave of disappointment went through the people there most stayed hoping for an extension of the rule but we took two more pictures turned around and began walking inside some family tried to follow us in chance hollered over his shoulder i'm sorry folks we have to go in bob trade and larry trade need a break the father asked when will you be back out after the next show chance said as stacy opened the door i deflated larry trade s face again to get in the door and was safe in the darkness of the hallway chance unzipped me allowing real cool air to wash over my body nina and i waddled down the hallway to peel the vegetables off ourselves and to repeat the process of waiting dressing and standing again stripped to my underwear underwear 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