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@@ -32,17 +32,23 @@
     <h1 id="things-still-to-do-for-autocento.me">THINGS STILL TO DO FOR AUTOCENTO.ME</h1>
     <ul>
     <li>Link old poems to new poems</li>
-    <li>add colors to projects’ css
+    <li>add colors &amp; background-colors to projects’ css</li>
+    <li>add a “notes” or “about” page</li>
+    <li>do something about verse:
     <ul>
-    <li>and background colors</li>
+    <li><code>s,&lt;p&gt;\(.*&lt;br /&gt;\),&lt;div class=&quot;stanza&quot;&gt;&lt;p class=&quot;line&quot;&gt;\1,</code> ?</li>
+    <li><code>s,&lt;br /&gt;,&lt;/p&gt;&lt;p class=&quot;line&quot;&gt;,</code> ?</li>
     </ul></li>
-    <li>add index page with all pieces</li>
-    <li>add a “notes” or “about” page</li>
-    <li>think about –html-q-tags option for pandoc
+    <li>think about –html-q-tags option for pandoc</li>
+    <li>think about changing nav links::after to borders
     <ul>
-    <li>and –ascii option</li>
+    <li>and change :hover thing to contrast hovered navlinks</li>
     </ul></li>
     </ul>
+    <h2 id="done">Done</h2>
+    <ul>
+    <li><del>add index page with all pieces</del></li>
+    </ul>
     </section>
 
     <nav>
@@ -0,0 +1,98 @@
+#!/usr/bin/env lua
+-- A compiler for Autocento of the breakfast table
+-- written in Lua (because we can, and because
+-- it's good practice for Functional Programming)
+-- ((OR WHATEVER YOU CALL IT, GAHD))
+-- vim: fdm=indent
+
+dir = "/d/Copy/writing/autocento/"
+
+function filterout (list, filter)
+    local output = {}
+    for _,v in ipairs(list) do
+        if not string.match(v, filter) then
+            -- table.insert Y U NO WORK?
+            output[#output + 1] = v
+        end
+    end
+    return output
+end
+function intable (table, item)
+    for k,v in pairs(table) do
+        if v == item then return k end
+    end
+    return false
+end
+function tabsub (table, pattern, replace)
+    local output = {}
+    for k,v in pairs(table) do
+        output[k] = v:gsub(pattern, replace)
+    end
+    return output
+end
+
+function compile (files, output_fmt, extension, template, args)
+    local errors = {}
+    if template then table.insert(args, 'template="'..template..'"') end
+    for _, file in pairs(files) do
+        local pandoc_run = {
+            'pandoc',
+            '-f markdown',
+            '-t '..output_fmt,
+            table.concat(tabsub(args, "^", "--"), ' '),
+            '-o '..file:gsub('^.*/(.-)%.%a+', '%1.'..extension),
+            file
+        }
+        print("Compiling "..file.." to ".. extension)
+        -- print(table.concat(pandoc_run, ' '))
+        os.execute(table.concat(pandoc_run, ' '))
+    end
+end
+
+function move (files, new_dir)
+    local exe = {}
+    for _,file in pairs(files) do
+        print("Moving "..file.." to "..new_dir.."/ ..")
+        table.insert(exe, 'mv '..file..' '..new_dir..'/')
+    end
+    os.execute(table.concat(exe, ' && '))
+    -- print(table.concat(exe, '; '))
+end
+
+function lozenge (files)
+    local output = 'var files=['
+    for _,file in pairs(files) do
+        output = output .. file:gsub('.*', '"%0",')
+    end
+    output = output:gsub(',$', ']')
+    return output
+end
+
+local files = filterout(arg, '^%-')
+if not files or #files == 0 then
+    print("> No file list. WUT?")
+    os.exit(1)
+end
+local args = filterout(arg, '^[^%-]')
+if not args or #args == 0 or args == {'-all'} then
+    args = {
+        '-html',
+        '-river',
+        '-lozenge',
+    }
+end
+
+if intable(args, '-html') then
+    print("Compiling HTML ... ")
+    compile(files, "html5", "html", ".template.html", { "smart", "mathml" })
+    -- move(tabsub(files,'^.*/(.*)%.txt','%1.html'), ".")
+end
+if intable(args, '-river') then
+    print("Compiling RIVER ... ")
+    compile(files, "lua/river.lua", "river", nil, {})
+    move(tabsub(files,'^.*/(.*)%.txt','%1.river'), "river")
+end
+if intable(args, '-lozenge') then
+    print("Updating lozenge.js with file list ... ")
+    -- TODO
+end
@@ -22,10 +22,10 @@ echo
 echo "Moving files to build directory ..."
 mv src/{.[!.]*,*}.html ./
 echo "Moving RIVERs to river/ ..."
-mv src/{.[!.]*,*}.river river/
+mv src/*.river river/
+rm src/*.river
 echo "Concatenating and counting rivers ..."
 cat river/*.river | \
-    sed -e "s/^\s\+//" -e "s/\s\+$//" -e 's/--\+/\n/g' | \
     sort | uniq -c | sort >river/COUNTS.txt
 echo "Finished compiling $num files."
 ###############################################
@@ -33,7 +33,7 @@
             </header>
 
     <section class="thing prose">
-    <p><em>It’s all <a href="joke.html">jokes</a></em> Paul wrote in what he was now calling his Hymnal. He had been writing non-stop all day, because he didn’t count pee- or cigarette- breaks. <em>All art is an inside joke. The symbology involved must be</em>—and here he put down his pen and held his head in his hands. He could never think of the word—he said often that he had no words. He opened to a new page in his Hymnal. On the top of it was written in bold script <em><strong>HYMN 386: JOKES</strong></em>.</p>
+    <p><em>It’s all <a href="joke.html">jokes</a></em> Paul wrote in what he was now calling his Hymnal. He had been writing non-stop all day, because he didn’t count pee or cigarette breaks. <em>All art is an inside joke. The symbology involved must be</em>—and here he put down his pen and held his head in his hands. He could never think of the word—he said often that he had no words. He opened to a new page in his Hymnal. On the top of it was written in bold script <em><strong>HYMN 386: JOKES</strong></em>.</p>
     <p>Paul scowled. Who had written in his Hymnal? he wondered. He said it out loud a moment after: “Who has written in my Hymnal?” He realized he was alone in his Writing Shack, which was really a shed in the back of his mother’s garden. He wondered why he had to say his thoughts before they became real to him (if this was a habit or an inborn trait). He realized simultaneously that</p>
     <ol type="a">
     <li>he could ask someone and</li>
@@ -7,7 +7,7 @@
 function lozenge() {
 var lozenge = document.getElementById('lozenge');
 // array with all files {{{
-var files=["100-lines.html", "TODO.html", "about-the-author.html", "amber-alert.html", "and.html", "angeltoabraham.html", "apollo11.html", "arspoetica.html", "art.html", "axe.html", "big-dipper.html", "boar.html", "boy_bus.html", "building.html", "call-me-aural-pleasure.html", "cereal.html", "cold-wind.html", "creation-myth.html", "deadman.html", "death-zone.html", "deathstrumpet.html", "dream.html", "early.html", "elegyforanalternateself.html", "epigraph.html", "ex-machina.html", "exasperated.html", "father.html", "feedingtheraven.html", "finding-the-lion.html", "fire.html", "found-typewriter-poem.html", "hands.html", "hard-game.html", "hardware.html", "howithappened.html", "howtoread.html", "hymnal.html", "i-am.html", "i-think-its-you.html", "i-wanted-to-tell-you-something.html", "in-bed.html", "index.html", "initial-conditions.html", "january.html", "joke.html", "lappel-du-vide.html", "largest-asteroid.html", "last-bastion.html", "last-passenger.html", "leaf.html", "leg.html", "likingthings.html", "listen.html", "love-as-god.html", "lovesong.html", "man.html", "moon-drowning.html", "moongone.html", "mountain.html", "movingsideways.html", "music-433.html", "no-nothing.html", "notes.html", "nothing-is-ever-over.html", "onformalpoetry.html", "options.html", "ouroboros_memory.html", "paul.html", "philosophy.html", "phone.html", "planks.html", "plant.html", "poetry-time.html", "prelude.html", "problems.html", "proverbs.html", "punch.html", "purpose-dogs.html", "question.html", "real-writer.html", "reports.html", "riptide_memory.html", "ronaldmcdonald.html", "roughgloves.html", "sapling.html", "seasonal-affective-disorder.html", "sense-of-it.html", "serengeti.html", "shed.html", "shipwright.html", "sixteenth-chapel.html", "snow.html", "something-simple.html", "spittle.html", "squirrel.html", "stagnant.html", "statements-frag.html", "stayed-on-the-bus.html", "stump.html", "swansong-alt.html", "swansong.html", "swear.html", "table_contents.html", "tapestry.html", "telemarketer.html", "the-night-we-met.html", "the-sea_the-beach.html", "theoceanoverflowswithcamels.html", "time-looks-up-to-the-sky.html", "todaniel.html", "toilet.html", "toothpaste.html", "treatise.html", "underwear.html", "wallpaper.html", "weplayedthosegamestoo.html", "when-im-sorry-i.html", "window.html", "words-meaning.html", "worse-looking-over.html", "writing.html", "x-ray.html", "yellow.html"]
+var files=["100-lines.html", "about-the-author.html", "amber-alert.html", "and.html", "angeltoabraham.html", "apollo11.html", "arspoetica.html", "art.html", "axe.html", "big-dipper.html", "boar.html", "boy_bus.html", "building.html", "call-me-aural-pleasure.html", "cereal.html", "cold-wind.html", "creation-myth.html", "deadman.html", "death-zone.html", "deathstrumpet.html", "dream.html", "early.html", "elegyforanalternateself.html", "epigraph.html", "ex-machina.html", "exasperated.html", "father.html", "feedingtheraven.html", "finding-the-lion.html", "fire.html", "found-typewriter-poem.html", "hands.html", "hard-game.html", "hardware.html", "howithappened.html", "howtoread.html", "hymnal.html", "i-am.html", "i-think-its-you.html", "i-wanted-to-tell-you-something.html", "in-bed.html", "index.html", "initial-conditions.html", "january.html", "joke.html", "lappel-du-vide.html", "largest-asteroid.html", "last-bastion.html", "last-passenger.html", "leaf.html", "leg.html", "likingthings.html", "listen.html", "love-as-god.html", "lovesong.html", "man.html", "moon-drowning.html", "moongone.html", "mountain.html", "movingsideways.html", "music-433.html", "no-nothing.html", "notes.html", "nothing-is-ever-over.html", "onformalpoetry.html", "options.html", "ouroboros_memory.html", "paul.html", "philosophy.html", "phone.html", "planks.html", "plant.html", "poetry-time.html", "prelude.html", "problems.html", "proverbs.html", "punch.html", "purpose-dogs.html", "question.html", "real-writer.html", "reports.html", "riptide_memory.html", "ronaldmcdonald.html", "roughgloves.html", "sapling.html", "seasonal-affective-disorder.html", "sense-of-it.html", "serengeti.html", "shed.html", "shipwright.html", "sixteenth-chapel.html", "snow.html", "something-simple.html", "spittle.html", "squirrel.html", "stagnant.html", "statements-frag.html", "stayed-on-the-bus.html", "stump.html", "swansong-alt.html", "swansong.html", "swear.html", "table_contents.html", "tapestry.html", "telemarketer.html", "the-night-we-met.html", "the-sea_the-beach.html", "theoceanoverflowswithcamels.html", "time-looks-up-to-the-sky.html", "todaniel.html", "toilet.html", "toothpaste.html", "treatise.html", "underwear.html", "wallpaper.html", "weplayedthosegamestoo.html", "when-im-sorry-i.html", "window.html", "words-meaning.html", "worse-looking-over.html", "writing.html", "x-ray.html", "yellow.html"]
 // }}}
 
 var index = Math.floor(Math.random() * files.length);
@@ -23,3 +23,5 @@ if (current != files[index]) {
 window.onload = function () {
     lozenge()
 };
+
+
@@ -0,0 +1,17 @@
+function allwords ()
+    local line = io.read()
+    local pos = 1
+    return function ()
+        while line do
+            local s, e = string.find(line, "%w+", pos)
+            if s then
+                pos = e + 1
+                return string.sub(line, s, e)
+            else
+                line = io.read()
+                pos = 1
+            end
+        end
+        return nil
+    end
+end
@@ -0,0 +1,193 @@
+-- Pandoc "Just the text, Ma'am"
+-- (JTTM): a custom writer that
+-- strips everything except for
+-- the TEXT from a pandoc source
+-- vim: fdm=marker
+-- invoke with: pandoc -t jttm/jttm.lua
+
+-- Table to store footnotes so they are at the END of the document
+local notes = {}
+
+-- This function is called once for the whole document. Parameters:
+-- body is a string, metadata is a table, variables is a table.
+-- One could use some kind of templating
+-- system here; this just gives you a simple standalone HTML file.
+function Doc(body, metadata, variables)
+    local buffer = {}
+    local function add(s)
+        table.insert(buffer, s)
+    end
+    if metadata['title'] and metadata['title'] ~= "" then
+        add(string.upper(metadata['title']))
+    end
+    if metadata['subtitle'] and metadata['subtitle'] ~= "" then
+        add(": " .. metadata['subtitle'])
+    end
+    add("\n")
+    -- TODO: epigraph.content, epigraph.attrib, dedication, other metadata?
+    add(body)
+    -- TODO: add notes at the end.
+    return table.concat(buffer, '\n')
+end
+
+-- TODOs {{{
+function align(align)
+    -- TODO: is this necessary?
+end
+
+function Note(s)
+    -- TODO
+end
+
+-- convert Tables to csv? or tab-separated?
+function Table(caption, aligns, widths, headers, rows)
+    local buffer = {}
+    local function add(s)
+        table.insert(buffer, s)
+    end
+    add("\n\n")
+    if caption ~= "" then
+        add("[" .. caption .. "]")
+    end
+    -- TODO: finish
+end
+
+-- }}}
+-- Remove all formatting {{{
+function Blocksep()
+    return "\n\n"
+end
+function Emph(s)
+    return s
+end
+
+function Strong(s)
+    return s
+end
+
+function Subscript(s)
+    return s
+end
+
+function Superscript(s)
+    return s
+end
+
+function SmallCaps(s)
+    return s
+end
+
+function Strikeout(s)
+    return s
+end
+
+function Code(s, attr)
+    return s
+end
+
+function CodeBlock(s, attr)
+    return s
+end
+
+function InlineMath(s)
+    return s
+end
+
+function DisplayMath(s)
+    return s
+end
+
+function Span(s, attr)
+    return s
+end
+
+function Cite(s)
+    return s
+end
+
+function Plain(s)
+    return s
+end
+
+-- Links only include the link text
+function Link(s, src, tit)
+    return s
+end
+
+-- Images have nothing to give us
+-- (but add a space just in case)
+function Image(s, src, tit)
+    return " "
+end
+
+function Str(s)
+    return s
+end
+
+function Div(s, attr)
+    return s
+end
+
+function Space(s)
+    return " "
+end
+
+function LineBreak()
+    return "\n"
+end
+
+function Para(s)
+    -- add paragraphing
+    return s .. "\n\n"
+end
+-- }}}
+-- Leave just a little formatting {{{
+function Header(lev, s, attr)
+    if lev == 1 then
+        return "\n\n    " .. string.upper(s) .. "\n\n"
+    elseif lev == 2 then
+        return "\n    " .. string.upper(s) .. "\n"
+    else
+        return s
+    end
+end
+
+function Blockquote(s)
+    return "\n\n" .. string.gsub(s, "*\n", "    %0")
+end
+
+function HorizontalRule(s)
+    return "\n\n\n"
+end
+
+function BulletList(items)
+    local buffer = {}
+    for _, item in pairs(items) do
+        table.insert(buffer, "- " .. item .. "\n")
+    end
+    return "\n\n" .. table.concat(buffer, "\n") .. "\n\n"
+end
+
+function DefinitionList(items)
+    local buffer = {}
+    for _, item in pairs(items) do
+        for k, v in pairs(item) do
+            table.insert(buffer, "\n" .. k .. ":\n    " ..
+                         table.concat(v, "\n    "))
+        end
+    end
+    return "\n\n" .. table.concat(buffer, "\n") .. "\n\n"
+end
+-- }}}
+
+-- The following code will produce runtime warnings when you haven't defined
+-- all of the functions you need for the custom writer, so it's useful
+-- to include when you're working on a writer.
+local meta = {}
+meta.__index =
+  function(_, key)
+    io.stderr:write(string.format("WARNING: Undefined function '%s'\n",key))
+    return function() return "" end
+  end
+setmetatable(_G, meta)
+
@@ -0,0 +1,226 @@
+-- Pandoc River writer
+-- it takes out all formatting, leaving only a river of text
+-- running down the page: one word per line
+-- vim: fdm=marker
+-- invoke with: pandoc -t river.lua
+
+local function flow(s)
+    return s:gsub("%s+", "\n")
+end
+
+local function nude(s)
+    -- Expand contractions
+    s = s:gsub("'%a+%s", function (x)
+        if x == "'ll" then
+            return " will "
+        elseif x == "'ve" then
+            return " have "
+        elseif x == "'re" then
+            return " are "
+        else
+            return x
+        end
+    end)
+    -- Get rid of quotes around words
+    s = s:gsub('"', ' ')
+    s = s:gsub("%s+'", ' ')
+    s = s:gsub("'%s+", ' ')
+    -- Remove HTML entities
+    s = s:gsub('&.-;', ' ')
+    s = s:gsub('%b<>', ' ')
+    -- Remove end-of-line backslashes
+    s = s:gsub('%s+\\$', ' ')
+    -- Remove dashes (not hyphens)
+    s = s:gsub('%-%-+', ' ')
+    s = s:gsub('%-%s', ' ')
+    -- Remove general punctuation
+    s = s:gsub('[%.!%?:;,%[%]%(%)<>]', ' ')
+    -- Remove extra spaces
+    s = s:gsub('%s+', ' ')
+    return s:lower()
+end
+
+-- This function is called once for the whole document. Parameters:
+-- body is a string, metadata is a table, variables is a table.
+-- One could use some kind of templating
+-- system here; this just gives you a simple standalone HTML file.
+function Doc(body, metadata, variables)
+    local buffer = ""
+    local function add(s)
+        buffer = buffer .. nude(s) .. "\n"
+    end
+    if metadata['title'] then
+        add(metadata['title'])
+    end
+    if metadata['subtitle'] then
+        add(metadata['subtitle'])
+    end
+    -- TODO: epigraph.content, epigraph.attrib, dedication, other metadata?
+    add(body)
+    return flow(buffer)
+end
+
+-- Remove all formatting {{{
+function Note(s)
+    return nude(s)
+end
+
+function Blocksep()
+    return "\n"
+end
+function Emph(s)
+    return nude(s)
+end
+
+function Strong(s)
+    return nude(s)
+end
+
+function Subscript(s)
+    return nude(s)
+end
+
+function Superscript(s)
+    return nude(s)
+end
+
+function SmallCaps(s)
+    return nude(s)
+end
+
+function Strikeout(s)
+    return nude(s)
+end
+
+function Code(s, attr)
+    return nude(s)
+end
+
+function CodeBlock(s, attr)
+    return nude(s)
+end
+
+function InlineMath(s)
+    return nude(s)
+end
+
+function DisplayMath(s)
+    return nude(s)
+end
+
+function Span(s, attr)
+    return nude(s)
+end
+
+function Cite(s)
+    return nude(s)
+end
+
+function Plain(s)
+    return nude(s)
+end
+
+-- Links only include the link text
+function Link(s, src, tit)
+    return nude(s)
+end
+
+-- Images have nothing to give us
+-- (but add a space just in case)
+function Image(s, src, tit)
+    return "\n"
+end
+
+function CaptionedImage(s, src, tit)
+    return "\n"
+end
+
+function Str(s)
+    return nude(s)
+end
+
+function Div(s, attr)
+    return nude(s)
+end
+
+function Space(s)
+    return "\n"
+end
+
+function LineBreak()
+    return "\n"
+end
+
+function Para(s)
+    return nude(s)
+end
+
+function Header(lev, s, attr)
+    return nude(s)
+end
+
+function BlockQuote(s)
+    return nude(s)
+end
+
+function HorizontalRule()
+    return "\n"
+end
+
+function BulletList(items)
+    local buffer = ""
+    for _, item in pairs(items) do
+        buffer = buffer .. nude(item) .. "\n"
+    end
+    return buffer .. "\n"
+end
+
+function OrderedList(items)
+    local buffer = ""
+    for _, item in pairs(items) do
+        buffer = buffer .. nude(item) .. "\n"
+    end
+    return buffer .. "\n"
+end
+
+function DefinitionList(items)
+    local buffer = ""
+    for _, item in pairs(items) do
+        for k, v in pairs(item) do
+            buffer = buffer .. nude(k) .. "\n" .. nude(v) .. "\n"
+        end
+    end
+    return buffer .. "\n"
+end
+
+function Table(caption, aligns, widths, headers, rows)
+    local buffer = ""
+    local function add(s)
+        buffer = buffer .. nude(s) .. "\n"
+    end
+    if caption ~= "" then
+        add(caption)
+    end
+    for _,h in pairs(headers) do
+        add(h)
+    end
+    for _, row in pairs(rows) do
+        for _, cell in pairs(row) do
+            add(cell)
+        end
+    end
+    return buffer
+end
+-- }}}
+
+-- The following code will produce runtime warnings when you haven't defined
+-- all of the functions you need for the custom writer, so it's useful
+-- to include when you're working on a writer.
+local meta = {}
+meta.__index =
+  function(_, key)
+    io.stderr:write(string.format("WARNING: Undefined function '%s'\n",key))
+    return function() return "" end
+  end
+setmetatable(_G, meta)
+
@@ -0,0 +1,324 @@
+-- This is a sample custom writer for pandoc.  It produces output
+-- that is very similar to that of pandoc's HTML writer.
+-- There is one new feature: code blocks marked with class 'dot'
+-- are piped through graphviz and images are included in the HTML
+-- output using 'data:' URLs.
+--
+-- Invoke with: pandoc -t sample.lua
+--
+-- Note:  you need not have lua installed on your system to use this
+-- custom writer.  However, if you do have lua installed, you can
+-- use it to test changes to the script.  'lua sample.lua' will
+-- produce informative error messages if your code contains
+-- syntax errors.
+
+-- Character escaping
+local function escape(s, in_attribute)
+  return s:gsub("[<>&\"']",
+    function(x)
+      if x == '<' then
+        return '&lt;'
+      elseif x == '>' then
+        return '&gt;'
+      elseif x == '&' then
+        return '&amp;'
+      elseif x == '"' then
+        return '&quot;'
+      elseif x == "'" then
+        return '&#39;'
+      else
+        return x
+      end
+    end)
+end
+
+-- Helper function to convert an attributes table into
+-- a string that can be put into HTML tags.
+local function attributes(attr)
+  local attr_table = {}
+  for x,y in pairs(attr) do
+    if y and y ~= "" then
+      table.insert(attr_table, ' ' .. x .. '="' .. escape(y,true) .. '"')
+    end
+  end
+  return table.concat(attr_table)
+end
+
+-- Run cmd on a temporary file containing inp and return result.
+local function pipe(cmd, inp)
+  local tmp = os.tmpname()
+  local tmph = io.open(tmp, "w")
+  tmph:write(inp)
+  tmph:close()
+  local outh = io.popen(cmd .. " " .. tmp,"r")
+  local result = outh:read("*all")
+  outh:close()
+  os.remove(tmp)
+  return result
+end
+
+-- Table to store footnotes, so they can be included at the end.
+local notes = {}
+
+-- Blocksep is used to separate block elements.
+function Blocksep()
+  return "\n\n"
+end
+
+-- This function is called once for the whole document. Parameters:
+-- body is a string, metadata is a table, variables is a table.
+-- One could use some kind of templating
+-- system here; this just gives you a simple standalone HTML file.
+function Doc(body, metadata, variables)
+  local buffer = {}
+  local function add(s)
+    table.insert(buffer, s)
+  end
+  add('<!DOCTYPE html>')
+  add('<html>')
+  add('<head>')
+  add('<title>' .. (metadata['title'] or '') .. '</title>')
+  add('</head>')
+  add('<body>')
+  if metadata['title'] and metadata['title'] ~= "" then
+    add('<h1 class="title">' .. metadata['title'] .. '</h1>')
+  end
+  for _, author in pairs(metadata['author'] or {}) do
+    add('<h2 class="author">' .. author .. '</h2>')
+  end
+  if metadata['date'] and metadata['date'] ~= "" then
+    add('<h3 class="date">' .. metadata.date .. '</h3>')
+  end
+  add(body)
+  if #notes > 0 then
+    add('<ol class="footnotes">')
+    for _,note in pairs(notes) do
+      add(note)
+    end
+    add('</ol>')
+  end
+  add('</body>')
+  add('</html>')
+  return table.concat(buffer,'\n')
+end
+
+-- The functions that follow render corresponding pandoc elements.
+-- s is always a string, attr is always a table of attributes, and
+-- items is always an array of strings (the items in a list).
+-- Comments indicate the types of other variables.
+
+function Str(s)
+  return escape(s)
+end
+
+function Space()
+  return " "
+end
+
+function LineBreak()
+  return "<br/>"
+end
+
+function Emph(s)
+  return "<em>" .. s .. "</em>"
+end
+
+function Strong(s)
+  return "<strong>" .. s .. "</strong>"
+end
+
+function Subscript(s)
+  return "<sub>" .. s .. "</sub>"
+end
+
+function Superscript(s)
+  return "<sup>" .. s .. "</sup>"
+end
+
+function SmallCaps(s)
+  return '<span style="font-variant: small-caps;">' .. s .. '</span>'
+end
+
+function Strikeout(s)
+  return '<del>' .. s .. '</del>'
+end
+
+function Link(s, src, tit)
+  return "<a href='" .. escape(src,true) .. "' title='" ..
+         escape(tit,true) .. "'>" .. s .. "</a>"
+end
+
+function Image(s, src, tit)
+  return "<img src='" .. escape(src,true) .. "' title='" ..
+         escape(tit,true) .. "'/>"
+end
+
+function Code(s, attr)
+  return "<code" .. attributes(attr) .. ">" .. escape(s) .. "</code>"
+end
+
+function InlineMath(s)
+  return "\\(" .. escape(s) .. "\\)"
+end
+
+function DisplayMath(s)
+  return "\\[" .. escape(s) .. "\\]"
+end
+
+function Note(s)
+  local num = #notes + 1
+  -- insert the back reference right before the final closing tag.
+  s = string.gsub(s,
+          '(.*)</', '%1 <a href="#fnref' .. num ..  '">&#8617;</a></')
+  -- add a list item with the note to the note table.
+  table.insert(notes, '<li id="fn' .. num .. '">' .. s .. '</li>')
+  -- return the footnote reference, linked to the note.
+  return '<a id="fnref' .. num .. '" href="#fn' .. num ..
+            '"><sup>' .. num .. '</sup></a>'
+end
+
+function Span(s, attr)
+  return "<span" .. attributes(attr) .. ">" .. s .. "</span>"
+end
+
+function Cite(s)
+  return "<span class=\"cite\">" .. s .. "</span>"
+end
+
+function Plain(s)
+  return s
+end
+
+function Para(s)
+  return "<p>" .. s .. "</p>"
+end
+
+-- lev is an integer, the header level.
+function Header(lev, s, attr)
+  return "<h" .. lev .. attributes(attr) ..  ">" .. s .. "</h" .. lev .. ">"
+end
+
+function BlockQuote(s)
+  return "<blockquote>\n" .. s .. "\n</blockquote>"
+end
+
+function HorizontalRule()
+  return "<hr/>"
+end
+
+function CodeBlock(s, attr)
+  -- If code block has class 'dot', pipe the contents through dot
+  -- and base64, and include the base64-encoded png as a data: URL.
+  if attr.class and string.match(' ' .. attr.class .. ' ',' dot ') then
+    local png = pipe("base64", pipe("dot -Tpng", s))
+    return '<img src="data:image/png;base64,' .. png .. '"/>'
+  -- otherwise treat as code (one could pipe through a highlighter)
+  else
+    return "<pre><code" .. attributes(attr) .. ">" .. escape(s) ..
+           "</code></pre>"
+  end
+end
+
+function BulletList(items)
+  local buffer = {}
+  for _, item in pairs(items) do
+    table.insert(buffer, "<li>" .. item .. "</li>")
+  end
+  return "<ul>\n" .. table.concat(buffer, "\n") .. "\n</ul>"
+end
+
+function OrderedList(items)
+  local buffer = {}
+  for _, item in pairs(items) do
+    table.insert(buffer, "<li>" .. item .. "</li>")
+  end
+  return "<ol>\n" .. table.concat(buffer, "\n") .. "\n</ol>"
+end
+
+-- Revisit association list STackValue instance.
+function DefinitionList(items)
+  local buffer = {}
+  for _,item in pairs(items) do
+    for k, v in pairs(item) do
+      table.insert(buffer,"<dt>" .. k .. "</dt>\n<dd>" ..
+                        table.concat(v,"</dd>\n<dd>") .. "</dd>")
+    end
+  end
+  return "<dl>\n" .. table.concat(buffer, "\n") .. "\n</dl>"
+end
+
+-- Convert pandoc alignment to something HTML can use.
+-- align is AlignLeft, AlignRight, AlignCenter, or AlignDefault.
+function html_align(align)
+  if align == 'AlignLeft' then
+    return 'left'
+  elseif align == 'AlignRight' then
+    return 'right'
+  elseif align == 'AlignCenter' then
+    return 'center'
+  else
+    return 'left'
+  end
+end
+
+-- Caption is a string, aligns is an array of strings,
+-- widths is an array of floats, headers is an array of
+-- strings, rows is an array of arrays of strings.
+function Table(caption, aligns, widths, headers, rows)
+  local buffer = {}
+  local function add(s)
+    table.insert(buffer, s)
+  end
+  add("<table>")
+  if caption ~= "" then
+    add("<caption>" .. caption .. "</caption>")
+  end
+  if widths and widths[1] ~= 0 then
+    for _, w in pairs(widths) do
+      add('<col width="' .. string.format("%d%%", w * 100) .. '" />')
+    end
+  end
+  local header_row = {}
+  local empty_header = true
+  for i, h in pairs(headers) do
+    local align = html_align(aligns[i])
+    table.insert(header_row,'<th align="' .. align .. '">' .. h .. '</th>')
+    empty_header = empty_header and h == ""
+  end
+  if empty_header then
+    head = ""
+  else
+    add('<tr class="header">')
+    for _,h in pairs(header_row) do
+      add(h)
+    end
+    add('</tr>')
+  end
+  local class = "even"
+  for _, row in pairs(rows) do
+    class = (class == "even" and "odd") or "even"
+    add('<tr class="' .. class .. '">')
+    for i,c in pairs(row) do
+      add('<td align="' .. html_align(aligns[i]) .. '">' .. c .. '</td>')
+    end
+    add('</tr>')
+  end
+  add('</table')
+  return table.concat(buffer,'\n')
+end
+
+function Div(s, attr)
+  return "<div" .. attributes(attr) .. ">\n" .. s .. "</div>"
+end
+
+-- The following code will produce runtime warnings when you haven't defined
+-- all of the functions you need for the custom writer, so it's useful
+-- to include when you're working on a writer.
+local meta = {}
+meta.__index =
+  function(_, key)
+    io.stderr:write(string.format("WARNING: Undefined function '%s'\n",key))
+    return function() return "" end
+  end
+setmetatable(_G, meta)
+
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+-- This is a sample custom writer for pandoc.  It produces output
+-- that is very similar to that of pandoc's HTML writer.
+-- There is one new feature: code blocks marked with class 'dot'
+-- are piped through graphviz and images are included in the HTML
+-- output using 'data:' URLs.
+--
+-- Invoke with: pandoc -t sample.lua
+--
+-- Note:  you need not have lua installed on your system to use this
+-- custom writer.  However, if you do have lua installed, you can
+-- use it to test changes to the script.  'lua sample.lua' will
+-- produce informative error messages if your code contains
+-- syntax errors.
+
+-- Character escaping
+local function escape(s, in_attribute)
+  return s:gsub("[<>&\"']",
+    function(x)
+      if x == '<' then
+        return '&lt;'
+      elseif x == '>' then
+        return '&gt;'
+      elseif x == '&' then
+        return '&amp;'
+      elseif x == '"' then
+        return '&quot;'
+      elseif x == "'" then
+        return '&#39;'
+      else
+        return x
+      end
+    end)
+end
+
+-- Helper function to convert an attributes table into
+-- a string that can be put into HTML tags.
+local function attributes(attr)
+  local attr_table = {}
+  for x,y in pairs(attr) do
+    if y and y ~= "" then
+      table.insert(attr_table, ' ' .. x .. '="' .. escape(y,true) .. '"')
+    end
+  end
+  return table.concat(attr_table)
+end
+
+-- Run cmd on a temporary file containing inp and return result.
+local function pipe(cmd, inp)
+  local tmp = os.tmpname()
+  local tmph = io.open(tmp, "w")
+  tmph:write(inp)
+  tmph:close()
+  local outh = io.popen(cmd .. " " .. tmp,"r")
+  local result = outh:read("*all")
+  outh:close()
+  os.remove(tmp)
+  return result
+end
+
+-- Table to store footnotes, so they can be included at the end.
+local notes = {}
+
+-- Blocksep is used to separate block elements.
+function Blocksep()
+  return "\n\n"
+end
+
+-- This function is called once for the whole document. Parameters:
+-- body is a string, metadata is a table, variables is a table.
+-- One could use some kind of templating
+-- system here; this just gives you a simple standalone HTML file.
+function Doc(body, metadata, variables)
+    local buffer = {}
+    for k, v in pairs(metadata) do
+        if type(v) == "string" then
+            table.insert(buffer, string.upper(k) .. ': ' .. v)
+        else
+            table.insert(buffer, string.upper(k) .. ': ' .. table.concat(v))
+        end
+    end
+    return table.concat(buffer, "\n")
+end
+
+-- The functions that follow render corresponding pandoc elements.
+-- s is always a string, attr is always a table of attributes, and
+-- items is always an array of strings (the items in a list).
+-- Comments indicate the types of other variables.
+
+function Str(s)
+  return escape(s)
+end
+
+function Space()
+  return " "
+end
+
+function LineBreak()
+  return "<br/>"
+end
+
+function Emph(s)
+  return "<em>" .. s .. "</em>"
+end
+
+function Strong(s)
+  return "<strong>" .. s .. "</strong>"
+end
+
+function Subscript(s)
+  return "<sub>" .. s .. "</sub>"
+end
+
+function Superscript(s)
+  return "<sup>" .. s .. "</sup>"
+end
+
+function SmallCaps(s)
+  return '<span style="font-variant: small-caps;">' .. s .. '</span>'
+end
+
+function Strikeout(s)
+  return '<del>' .. s .. '</del>'
+end
+
+function Link(s, src, tit)
+  return "<a href='" .. escape(src,true) .. "' title='" ..
+         escape(tit,true) .. "'>" .. s .. "</a>"
+end
+
+function Image(s, src, tit)
+  return "<img src='" .. escape(src,true) .. "' title='" ..
+         escape(tit,true) .. "'/>"
+end
+
+function Code(s, attr)
+  return "<code" .. attributes(attr) .. ">" .. escape(s) .. "</code>"
+end
+
+function InlineMath(s)
+  return "\\(" .. escape(s) .. "\\)"
+end
+
+function DisplayMath(s)
+  return "\\[" .. escape(s) .. "\\]"
+end
+
+function Note(s)
+  local num = #notes + 1
+  -- insert the back reference right before the final closing tag.
+  s = string.gsub(s,
+          '(.*)</', '%1 <a href="#fnref' .. num ..  '">&#8617;</a></')
+  -- add a list item with the note to the note table.
+  table.insert(notes, '<li id="fn' .. num .. '">' .. s .. '</li>')
+  -- return the footnote reference, linked to the note.
+  return '<a id="fnref' .. num .. '" href="#fn' .. num ..
+            '"><sup>' .. num .. '</sup></a>'
+end
+
+function Span(s, attr)
+  return "<span" .. attributes(attr) .. ">" .. s .. "</span>"
+end
+
+function Cite(s)
+  return "<span class=\"cite\">" .. s .. "</span>"
+end
+
+function Plain(s)
+  return s
+end
+
+function Para(s)
+  return "<p>" .. s .. "</p>"
+end
+
+-- lev is an integer, the header level.
+function Header(lev, s, attr)
+  return "<h" .. lev .. attributes(attr) ..  ">" .. s .. "</h" .. lev .. ">"
+end
+
+function BlockQuote(s)
+  return "<blockquote>\n" .. s .. "\n</blockquote>"
+end
+
+function HorizontalRule()
+  return "<hr/>"
+end
+
+function CodeBlock(s, attr)
+  -- If code block has class 'dot', pipe the contents through dot
+  -- and base64, and include the base64-encoded png as a data: URL.
+  if attr.class and string.match(' ' .. attr.class .. ' ',' dot ') then
+    local png = pipe("base64", pipe("dot -Tpng", s))
+    return '<img src="data:image/png;base64,' .. png .. '"/>'
+  -- otherwise treat as code (one could pipe through a highlighter)
+  else
+    return "<pre><code" .. attributes(attr) .. ">" .. escape(s) ..
+           "</code></pre>"
+  end
+end
+
+function BulletList(items)
+  local buffer = {}
+  for _, item in pairs(items) do
+    table.insert(buffer, "<li>" .. item .. "</li>")
+  end
+  return "<ul>\n" .. table.concat(buffer, "\n") .. "\n</ul>"
+end
+
+function OrderedList(items)
+  local buffer = {}
+  for _, item in pairs(items) do
+    table.insert(buffer, "<li>" .. item .. "</li>")
+  end
+  return "<ol>\n" .. table.concat(buffer, "\n") .. "\n</ol>"
+end
+
+-- Revisit association list STackValue instance.
+function DefinitionList(items)
+  local buffer = {}
+  for _,item in pairs(items) do
+    for k, v in pairs(item) do
+      table.insert(buffer,"<dt>" .. k .. "</dt>\n<dd>" ..
+                        table.concat(v,"</dd>\n<dd>") .. "</dd>")
+    end
+  end
+  return "<dl>\n" .. table.concat(buffer, "\n") .. "\n</dl>"
+end
+
+-- Convert pandoc alignment to something HTML can use.
+-- align is AlignLeft, AlignRight, AlignCenter, or AlignDefault.
+function html_align(align)
+  if align == 'AlignLeft' then
+    return 'left'
+  elseif align == 'AlignRight' then
+    return 'right'
+  elseif align == 'AlignCenter' then
+    return 'center'
+  else
+    return 'left'
+  end
+end
+
+-- Caption is a string, aligns is an array of strings,
+-- widths is an array of floats, headers is an array of
+-- strings, rows is an array of arrays of strings.
+function Table(caption, aligns, widths, headers, rows)
+  local buffer = {}
+  local function add(s)
+    table.insert(buffer, s)
+  end
+  add("<table>")
+  if caption ~= "" then
+    add("<caption>" .. caption .. "</caption>")
+  end
+  if widths and widths[1] ~= 0 then
+    for _, w in pairs(widths) do
+      add('<col width="' .. string.format("%d%%", w * 100) .. '" />')
+    end
+  end
+  local header_row = {}
+  local empty_header = true
+  for i, h in pairs(headers) do
+    local align = html_align(aligns[i])
+    table.insert(header_row,'<th align="' .. align .. '">' .. h .. '</th>')
+    empty_header = empty_header and h == ""
+  end
+  if empty_header then
+    head = ""
+  else
+    add('<tr class="header">')
+    for _,h in pairs(header_row) do
+      add(h)
+    end
+    add('</tr>')
+  end
+  local class = "even"
+  for _, row in pairs(rows) do
+    class = (class == "even" and "odd") or "even"
+    add('<tr class="' .. class .. '">')
+    for i,c in pairs(row) do
+      add('<td align="' .. html_align(aligns[i]) .. '">' .. c .. '</td>')
+    end
+    add('</tr>')
+  end
+  add('</table')
+  return table.concat(buffer,'\n')
+end
+
+function Div(s, attr)
+  return "<div" .. attributes(attr) .. ">\n" .. s .. "</div>"
+end
+
+-- The following code will produce runtime warnings when you haven't defined
+-- all of the functions you need for the custom writer, so it's useful
+-- to include when you're working on a writer.
+local meta = {}
+meta.__index =
+  function(_, key)
+    io.stderr:write(string.format("WARNING: Undefined function '%s'\n",key))
+    return function() return "" end
+  end
+setmetatable(_G, meta)
+
+
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+100
+lines
+whenever
+you
+call
+me
+friend
+i
+fall
+down
+on
+my
+knees
+and
+cry
+because
+i
+know
+it's
+the
+only
+thing
+never
+to
+happen
+before
+in
+this
+life
+is
+something
+you
+can't
+see
+it's
+a
+pillow
+under
+a
+hook
+shot
+i
+want
+to
+tell
+you
+something
+anything
+but
+you
+are
+there
+and
+i
+am
+here
+we
+are
+trapped
+inside
+ourselves
+and
+the
+distance
+is
+too
+far
+you
+are
+something
+that
+i
+would
+tell
+would
+be
+nothing
+before
+too
+long
+you
+are
+not
+the
+finisher
+of
+dreams
+you
+are
+the
+beginning
+of
+nightmares
+or
+waking
+but
+i'm
+not
+sure
+which
+this
+letter
+is
+for
+you
+in
+the
+future
+it
+will
+lead
+you
+on
+the
+path
+of
+goodness
+or
+of
+rightness
+or
+of
+wrong
+people
+and
+right
+meanings
+or
+the
+meaning
+will
+be
+hidden
+or
+wrestling
+the
+demon
+i
+will
+have
+become
+restless
+under
+the
+starlight
+it's
+too
+bright
+here
+to
+think
+the
+negatives
+would
+be
+pitch
+black
+darkness
+of
+a
+silver
+mine
+there
+are
+no
+trees
+here
+where
+have
+you
+been
+where
+are
+you
+now
+i
+am
+no
+longer
+here
+or
+there
+you
+are
+anywhere
+or
+are
+you
+up
+in
+the
+clouds
+is
+a
+ghost
+he
+is
+white
+and
+blue
+like
+a
+cloud
+he
+paints
+with
+his
+teeth
+he
+paints
+the
+rainbow
+before
+midnight
+that
+you
+can
+see
+from
+your
+window
+staring
+out
+under
+the
+sunlight
+through
+the
+gauze
+curtains
+over
+the
+high
+mountain
+far
+away
+that
+is
+covered
+over
+with
+snow
+past
+the
+rivers
+and
+forests
+that
+lie
+awake
+under
+orion
+hunting
+the
+bull
+that
+runs
+forever
+just
+out
+of
+his
+reach
+pointing
+the
+way
+for
+the
+two
+of
+us
+to
+join
+together
+in
+song
+or
+dance
+or
+that
+other
+thing
+and
+sing
+the
+grinch
+down
+off
+mount
+crumpet
+his
+heart
+breaking
+his
+chest
+thumping
+with
+the
+beat
+his
+little
+dog
+too
+running
+running
+with
+the
+bull
+full
+of
+laughter
+and
+blood
+he
+can't
+see
+it
+anymore
+because
+it's
+become
+him
+we
+are
+trapped
+he
+says
+we
+are
+trapped
+in
+ourselves
+it
+turns
+out
+that
+all
+along
+it
+wasn't
+you
+or
+me
+but
+he
+and
+her
+or
+her
+and
+him
+or
+he
+and
+he
+or
+she
+and
+she
+or
+they
+even
+they
+tell
+us
+that
+nothing
+has
+happened
+even
+they
+know
+that
+it's
+a
+big
+joke
+one
+more
+thing
+to
+know
+before
+the
+death
+we
+are
+crying
+like
+crocodiles
+before
+their
+loved
+ones
+coffins
+we
+are
+bellowing
+with
+grief
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+     14 top
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+     23 hard
+     23 morning
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+     27 himself
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+     27 than
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+     37 good
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+     41 made
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+    114 me
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+about
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+not
+pictured
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+was
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+on
+a
+few
+separate
+occasions
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+traffic
+lights
+at
+night
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+his
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+saved
+for
+those
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+dumpster
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+you
+at
+walgreen's
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+founding
+of
+his
+little
+city
+deep
+inside
+by
+the
+small
+builders
+alien
+as
+they
+were
+and
+still
+somehow
+intimately
+familiar
+a
+pink
+dress
+in
+the
+alley
+behind
+your
+house
+like
+any
+city
+it
+had
+its
+ups
+and
+downs
+the
+fever
+of
+1994
+was
+especially
+devastating
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+they
+were
+a
+hardy
+folk
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+much
+given
+to
+flight
+me
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+reese's
+peanut
+butter
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+safeway
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+must
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+little
+city
+began
+slowly
+to
+decay
+the
+old
+ones
+claimed
+the
+young
+had
+no
+respect
+for
+culture
+anymore
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+at
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+their
+skeletons
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+a
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+amber
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+a
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+the
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+the
+found
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+them
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+we
+should
+try
+another
+door
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+and
+and
+you
+were
+there
+in
+the
+start
+of
+it
+all
+and
+you
+folded
+your
+hands
+like
+little
+doves
+that
+would
+fly
+away
+like
+an
+afterthought
+and
+you
+turned
+to
+me
+the
+window
+light
+on
+your
+face
+and
+you
+asked
+me
+something
+that
+i
+did
+not
+recognize
+like
+a
+great
+throng
+of
+people
+who
+are
+not
+you
+and
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+asked
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+we
+in
+a
+church
+and
+you
+answered
+with
+the
+look
+on
+your
+face
+of
+someone
+grieving
+something
+gone
+for
+years
+but
+that
+they
+had
+been
+reminded
+of
+by
+a
+catch
+in
+the
+light
+or
+in
+someone's
+voice
+and
+i
+think
+maybe
+it
+could
+have
+been
+mine
+and
+i
+looked
+away
+thickly
+my
+head
+was
+in
+jelly
+and
+i
+didn't
+get
+an
+answer
+from
+you
+but
+i
+got
+one
+i
+looked
+at
+the
+man
+in
+front
+of
+us
+with
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+he
+was
+speaking
+and
+holding
+a
+book
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+didn't
+understand
+him
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+was
+far
+away
+and
+i
+could
+tell
+i
+was
+missing
+something
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+yourself
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+something
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+abraham
+you
+must
+know
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+god
+will
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+your
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+to
+die
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+must
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+that
+this
+is
+a
+test
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+are
+you
+so
+bent
+on
+isaac's
+destruction
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+at
+your
+eyes
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+more
+than
+fear
+there
+i
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+in
+your
+eyes
+desperation
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+manic
+passion
+to
+do
+right
+by
+your
+god
+whom
+you
+are
+not
+able
+to
+see
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+am
+i
+too
+late
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+will
+try
+to
+stay
+your
+old
+hands
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+knife
+clenched
+within
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+on
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+the
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+at
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+it
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+the
+chance
+to
+collect
+meaning
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+your
+hand
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+an
+old
+pigeon
+don't
+dare
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+will
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+call
+it
+fickle
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+it
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+any
+say
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+your
+affairs
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+separated
+from
+your
+life
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+miles
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+same
+distance
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+stepped
+away
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+that
+night
+you
+said
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+love
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+a
+crippled
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+dark
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+asking
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+trying
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+get
+away
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+songs
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+sound
+like
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+cooing
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+a
+dove
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+will
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+escape
+again
+into
+an
+empty
+sky
+at
+dawn
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+ars
+poetica
+what
+is
+poetry
+poetry
+is
+inasmuch
+as
+life
+is
+so
+is
+poetry
+here
+is
+the
+problem
+life
+is
+very
+big
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+complex
+human
+beings
+are
+neither
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+are
+small
+simple
+beings
+that
+don't
+want
+to
+know
+all
+of
+the
+myriad
+interactions
+happening
+all
+around
+us
+within
+us
+as
+a
+part
+of
+us
+all
+the
+hours
+of
+every
+day
+we
+much
+prefer
+knowing
+only
+that
+which
+is
+just
+in
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+of
+our
+faces
+staring
+us
+back
+with
+a
+look
+of
+utter
+contempt
+this
+is
+why
+many
+people
+are
+depressed
+poetry
+is
+an
+attempt
+made
+by
+some
+to
+open
+up
+our
+field
+of
+view
+to
+maybe
+check
+on
+something
+else
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+isn't
+staring
+us
+in
+the
+face
+so
+contemptibly
+maybe
+something
+else
+is
+smiling
+at
+us
+we
+think
+so
+we
+write
+poetry
+to
+force
+ourselves
+to
+look
+away
+from
+the
+mirror
+of
+our
+existence
+to
+see
+something
+else
+this
+is
+generally
+painful
+to
+make
+it
+less
+painful
+poetry
+compresses
+reality
+a
+lot
+to
+make
+it
+more
+consumable
+it
+takes
+life
+that
+seawater
+and
+boils
+it
+down
+and
+boils
+it
+down
+until
+only
+the
+salt
+remains
+the
+important
+parts
+that
+we
+can
+focus
+on
+and
+make
+some
+sense
+of
+the
+senselessness
+of
+life
+poetry
+is
+life
+bouillon
+and
+to
+thoroughly
+enjoy
+a
+poem
+we
+must
+put
+that
+bouillon
+back
+into
+the
+seawater
+of
+life
+and
+make
+a
+delicious
+soup
+out
+of
+it
+to
+make
+this
+soup
+to
+decompress
+the
+poem
+into
+an
+emotion
+or
+life
+requires
+a
+lot
+of
+brainpower
+a
+good
+reader
+will
+have
+this
+brainpower
+a
+good
+poem
+will
+not
+require
+it
+what
+this
+means
+is
+a
+poem
+should
+be
+self-extracting
+it
+should
+be
+a
+rare
+vanilla
+in
+the
+bottle
+waiting
+only
+for
+someone
+to
+open
+it
+and
+sniff
+it
+and
+suddenly
+there
+they
+are
+in
+the
+orchid
+that
+vanilla
+came
+from
+in
+the
+tropical
+land
+where
+it
+grew
+next
+to
+its
+brothers
+and
+sister
+vanilla
+plants
+they
+feel
+the
+pain
+of
+having
+their
+children
+taken
+from
+them
+a
+good
+poem
+leaves
+a
+feeling
+of
+loss
+and
+of
+intense
+beauty
+the
+reader
+does
+nothing
+to
+achieve
+this
+they
+are
+merely
+the
+receptacle
+of
+the
+feeling
+that
+the
+poem
+forces
+onto
+them
+in
+a
+way
+poetry
+is
+a
+crime
+but
+it
+is
+the
+most
+beautiful
+crime
+on
+this
+crime-ridden
+earth
@@ -0,0 +1,174 @@
+art
+paul
+was
+writing
+in
+his
+diary
+about
+art
+this
+is
+my
+brain
+he
+wrote
+this
+is
+my
+brain
+and
+all
+it
+contains
+i
+contain
+multitudes
+said
+legion
+i
+think
+it
+was
+legion
+the
+big
+heading
+he
+had
+written
+at
+the
+top
+of
+the
+page
+art
+it
+read
+but
+only
+when
+looking
+at
+it
+from
+his
+point
+of
+view
+sat
+cold
+and
+alone
+neglected
+in
+the
+white
+space
+surrounding
+it
+he
+noticed
+this
+presently
+but
+not
+after
+he
+had
+written
+a
+little
+more
+about
+multitudes
+paused
+frowned
+and
+began
+to
+write
+again
+art
+stands
+alone
+at
+the
+top
+of
+a
+blank
+page
+he
+wrote
+it
+follows
+itself
+in
+circles
+its
+own
+footprints
+in
+a
+circle
+around
+its
+own
+name
+it
+leads
+nowhere
+but
+is
+present
+everywhere
+it
+contains
+it
+contains
+multitudes
+every
+painting
+ever
+made
+is
+a
+painting
+of
+every
+other
+painting
+every
+song
+is
+a
+remix
+a
+cover
+version
+he
+crossed
+out
+the
+part
+about
+songs
+for
+getting
+off
+topic
+he
+made
+a
+note
+to
+himself
+in
+the
+margin
+music
+is
+not
+art
@@ -0,0 +1,191 @@
+axe
+paul
+took
+his
+axe
+and
+went
+out
+into
+the
+woods
+to
+chop
+trees
+or
+rather
+he
+went
+into
+the
+trees
+to
+chop
+wood
+he
+wasn't
+sure
+either
+way
+it
+helped
+him
+think
+last
+time
+he'd
+gone
+out
+he'd
+had
+an
+idea
+for
+a
+shoe-insert
+company
+he
+could
+start
+called
+paul's
+bunyons
+he
+chuckled
+to
+himself
+as
+he
+shouldered
+his
+axe
+and
+went
+into
+the
+forest
+deep
+into
+the
+woods
+he
+admired
+the
+organization
+of
+the
+trees
+they
+grow
+wherever
+they
+fall
+he
+said
+but
+still
+none
+is
+too
+close
+to
+another
+he
+sounded
+like
+solomon
+to
+himself
+he
+imagined
+he
+had
+a
+beard
+he
+walked
+for
+a
+long
+time
+in
+the
+shadows
+of
+the
+forest
+in
+its
+coolness
+it
+sounded
+like
+snow
+had
+fallen
+but
+it
+was
+still
+october
+the
+first
+time
+the
+trees
+seemed
+to
+radiate
+out
+from
+him
+in
+straight
+lines
+he
+stopped
+and
+turned
+around
+four
+times
+after
+he
+walked
+on
+he
+noticed
+it
+happened
+fairly
+often
+still
+after
+he
+felled
+his
+first
+tree
+that
+day
+he
+realized
+they
+grew
+from
+the
+epicenter
+of
+his
+axe
+he
+paused
+in
+the
+small
+dark
+sound
+of
+the
+forest
+quiet
@@ -0,0 +1,178 @@
+the
+big
+dipper
+after
+searching
+for
+days
+or
+even
+months
+i
+finally
+find
+it
+reclining
+lazily
+above
+the
+peaks
+above
+the
+city
+as
+if
+to
+ask
+did
+you
+miss
+me
+yes
+very
+much
+i
+reply
+and
+rush
+to
+embrace
+it
+but
+it
+smiles
+and
+recoils
+and
+tells
+me
+no
+no
+you
+have
+to
+try
+harder
+than
+that
+it
+says
+i
+do
+not
+give
+myself
+up
+so
+easily
+i
+try
+a
+different
+tack
+i
+sing
+to
+it
+bring
+it
+flowers
+nightly
+i
+compare
+its
+eyes
+to
+the
+morning
+dew
+it
+has
+not
+seen
+the
+morning
+dew
+i
+say
+its
+mouth
+is
+the
+sunset
+over
+mountains
+it
+knows
+mountains
+but
+the
+sunset
+is
+only
+a
+rumor
+from
+the
+evening
+star
+i
+tell
+the
+big
+dipper
+that
+it
+moves
+like
+a
+quiet
+river
+across
+the
+earth
+rivers
+i
+have
+seen
+says
+the
+big
+dipper
+they
+sparkle
+in
+the
+light
+from
+my
+stars
+your
+stars
+like
+eyes
+i
+say
+and
+it
+smiles
+no
+it
+says
+that
+is
+too
+easy
+it
+turns
+its
+back
+it
+walks
+home
+along
+the
+back
+of
+the
+mountain
@@ -0,0 +1,99 @@
+the
+boar
+now
+the
+ticking
+clocks
+scare
+me
+the
+empty
+rooms
+clock
+towers
+belfries
+i
+am
+terrified
+by
+them
+all
+i
+really
+used
+to
+enjoy
+going
+to
+church
+singing
+in
+the
+choir
+listening
+to
+the
+sermon
+now
+the
+chairs
+squeal
+like
+dying
+pigs
+it
+was
+the
+boar
+that
+did
+it
+fifteen
+feet
+from
+me
+that
+night
+in
+the
+grass
+rooting
+for
+god
+knows
+what
+finding
+me
+instead
+i
+ran
+not
+knowing
+where
+or
+how
+not
+looking
+for
+his
+pursuit
+of
+me
+i
+ran
+to
+god's
+front
+door
+found
+it
+locked
+found
+the
+house
+empty
+with
+a
+note
+saying
+condemned
@@ -0,0 +1,172 @@
+boy
+on
+the
+bus
+when
+he
+said
+bible
+i
+heard
+his
+southern
+accent
+and
+he
+had
+a
+face
+i
+expect
+all
+pastors
+must
+have
+a
+round
+open
+honest
+face
+that
+will
+always
+be
+a
+boy's
+face
+though
+its
+owner
+may
+rightly
+call
+himself
+a
+man
+near
+my
+age
+though
+i
+hardly
+call
+myself
+a
+man
+i
+have
+seen
+this
+face
+before
+whether
+in
+life
+or
+a
+dream
+i
+can't
+tell
+i
+might've
+seen
+him
+on
+the
+street
+once
+twice
+who
+knows
+and
+his
+pastor's
+moon
+face
+reminds
+me
+of
+something
+some
+distant
+light
+my
+life
+used
+to
+own
+one
+night
+on
+my
+birthday
+the
+moon
+was
+so
+strong
+it
+cast
+shadows
+i
+could
+see
+to
+the
+far
+hill
+and
+back
+it
+was
+all
+clear
+to
+me
+the
+moon
+hasn't
+done
+that
+in
+a
+long
+time
+its
+face
+has
+been
+obscured
+by
+clouds
+for
+weeks
+and
+that
+boy
+on
+the
+bus
+his
+face
+i've
+forgotten
+i
+thought
+i
+recognized
+a
+good
+number
+of
+people
+on
+that
+bus
+who
+i
+didn't
+know
+at
+all
@@ -0,0 +1,228 @@
+building
+art
+and
+craft
+are
+only
+the
+inside
+and
+outside
+of
+the
+same
+building
+the
+ceiling
+is
+here
+he
+put
+his
+eraser
+to
+his
+bottom
+lip
+thinking
+he
+crossed
+out
+the
+ceiling
+is
+the
+floor
+is
+reality
+and
+the
+ceiling
+is
+aspiration
+desire
+that
+which
+is
+desired
+craft
+is
+building
+a
+chair
+from
+wood
+art
+is
+using
+the
+wood
+as
+a
+substrate
+for
+an
+emotional
+message
+to
+a
+future
+person
+the
+reader
+/
+viewer
+the
+important
+thing
+is
+they
+are
+both
+made
+of
+wood
+the
+important
+thing
+is
+they
+were
+both
+at
+one
+point
+alive
+natural
+things
+that
+grew
+and
+changed
+and
+pushed
+their
+way
+out
+of
+the
+dirt
+into
+the
+air
+they
+formed
+buildings
+out
+of
+the
+air
+they
+didn't
+even
+try
+what
+separates
+us
+from
+them
+the
+trees
+we
+have
+to
+try
+we
+must
+labor
+to
+create
+our
+art
+our
+buildings
+of
+air
+we
+lay
+them
+out
+brick
+by
+brick
+we
+build
+them
+up
+by
+disintegrating
+trees
+and
+forming
+them
+again
+into
+what
+they
+were
+before
+why
+must
+we
+do
+this
+are
+there
+any
+advantages
+to
+this
+human
+method
+our
+advantage
+is
+memory
+our
+advantage
+is
+the
+reaching-out
+over
+space
+and
+time
+to
+others
+with
+our
+words
+our
+art
+our
+buildings
+last
+for
+generations
+and
+after
+they
+are
+demolished
+they
+are
+written
+about
+photographs
+are
+taken
+we
+remember
+the
+act
+of
+memory
+is
+our
+only
+art
@@ -0,0 +1,255 @@
+call
+me
+aural
+pleasure
+like
+40
+as
+i
+challenge
+anyone
+to
+come
+too
+it's
+like
+you're
+the
+epitome
+of
+lame
+she's
+all
+i
+am
+soooo
+confused
+aw
+yeah
+she
+got
+word
+from
+yarn
+but
+technically
+it's
+a
+pretty
+sweet
+huh
+dude
+we
+were
+going
+and
+delicate
+fragrance
+of
+arguments
+get
+based
+off
+of
+are
+not
+try
+dropping
+glasses
+in
+such
+an
+emotional
+rollercoaster
+you
+and
+yes
+i'm
+cocky
+enough
+to
+do
+anything
+i
+am
+as
+good
+as
+phineas
+and
+make
+another
+picture
+symphony
+this
+is
+a
+modification
+of
+a
+young
+woman
+to
+try
+groups
+disband
+after
+they
+get
+your
+meacham
+stuff
+please
+let
+it
+rj
+covino
+own
+statuses
+that'll
+be
+a
+great
+my
+own
+afterbirth
+can
+do
+that
+i
+am
+2
+we
+can
+be
+kissed
+on
+the
+page
+you
+know
+i'm
+not
+sure
+that
+ben
+&
+jerry's
+ftw
+4/10
+would
+not
+be
+able
+to
+vote
+because
+i
+gotta
+do
+it
+this
+is
+going
+to
+be
+sad
+about
+what
+rush
+limbaugh
+comes
+forward
+with
+sunglasses
+but
+at
+least
+i
+wasn't
+wearing
+a
+messenger
+bag
+or
+skinny
+jeans
+the
+cooler
+than
+facebook
+wine
+is
+the
+best
+yes
+i
+was
+surprised
+at
+first
+but
+the
+train
+one
+definitely
+also
+valhalla
+is
+a
+dumbass
+but
+we
+can
+get
+based
+off
+of
+course
+jon
+we
+watched
+this
+celebrate
+franksgiving
+too
+that
+didn't
+get
+started
+on
+that
+francis
+of
+verulam
+reasoned
+thus
+with
+the
+courage
+to
+reply
+anyone
+wanna
+watch
+out
+i
+am
+cranky
+from
+bro
+a
+good
+as
+a
+way
+to
+hijack
+my
+hand
+afterbend
+was
+not
+to
+produce
+photographs
@@ -0,0 +1,255 @@
+cereal
+he
+woke
+up
+after
+eleven
+and
+didn't
+go
+outside
+all
+day
+not
+even
+to
+his
+writing
+shack
+what
+did
+he
+do
+he
+watched
+late
+morning
+cartoons
+meant
+for
+children
+too
+young
+to
+go
+to
+school
+he
+ate
+bowls
+of
+cereal
+he
+watched
+his
+mother
+play
+dominoes
+he
+played
+dominoes
+with
+her
+for
+a
+little
+while
+until
+she
+was
+winning
+by
+such
+a
+margin
+it
+wasn't
+fun
+for
+either
+of
+them
+he
+went
+down
+to
+the
+basement
+to
+do
+his
+laundry
+he
+pulled
+the
+chain
+for
+the
+light
+and
+it
+turned
+on
+like
+magic
+electricity
+is
+like
+magic
+he
+said
+to
+himself
+he
+thought
+he
+would
+like
+to
+write
+that
+down
+but
+his
+implements
+were
+in
+the
+shack
+he'd
+already
+built
+up
+so
+much
+momentum
+inside
+inertia
+he
+thought
+what's
+the
+difference
+between
+inertia
+and
+momentum
+he
+asked
+himself
+as
+he
+hefted
+dirty
+clothes
+into
+the
+washer
+maybe
+inertia
+is
+the
+momentum
+of
+not
+moving
+he
+thought
+as
+he
+measured
+and
+poured
+the
+blue
+detergent
+into
+the
+drum
+momentum
+is
+the
+inertia
+of
+moving
+forward
+through
+time
+as
+he
+selected
+warm-cold
+on
+the
+dial
+and
+pulled
+it
+out
+to
+start
+the
+machine
+what
+do
+you
+think
+is
+the
+difference
+between
+inertia
+and
+momentum
+he
+asked
+his
+mother
+when
+he
+opened
+the
+door
+at
+the
+top
+of
+the
+stairs
+when
+you
+switch
+over
+your
+laundry
+could
+you
+bring
+up
+my
+underwear
+from
+the
+dryer
+she
+asked
+not
+looking
+up
+from
+her
+dominoes
+a
+thread
+of
+smoke
+curled
+from
+her
+cigarette
+and
+spread
+out
+on
+the
+ceiling
@@ -0,0 +1,71 @@
+cold
+wind
+man
+of
+autumn
+cold
+wind
+blow
+down
+the
+trees
+leaves
+fire
+on
+the
+ground
+the
+sky
+perfect
+water
+frost-cold
+rippled
+only
+by
+flocks
+of
+black
+birds
+flying
+gone
+their
+brightness
+can
+blind
+an
+uncareful
+watcher
+work
+him
+in
+a
+froth
+of
+hands
+not-wings
+that
+ache
+with
+the
+loss
+of
+flight
+a
+tear
+is
+flung
+faithfully
+to
+the
+ocean
+of
+air
+slipping
+in
+slowly
+is
+as
+gone
+as
+the
+birds
@@ -0,0 +1,265 @@
+creation
+myth
+so
+two
+hyperintelligent
+pandimensional
+beings
+walk
+into
+a
+bar
+one
+turns
+to
+the
+other
+and
+says
+did
+you
+remember
+to
+check
+the
+end
+state
+of
+that
+simulation
+we
+were
+running
+the
+other
+says
+no
+i
+thought
+that
+you
+did
+to
+which
+the
+first
+replies
+oh
+shit
+we
+missed
+it
+i
+suppose
+we
+must
+do
+all
+of
+this
+again
+barkeep
+two
+beers
+please
+the
+bartender
+nods
+in
+that
+way
+that
+bartenders
+do
+pours
+the
+two
+beers
+expertly
+by
+the
+way
+just
+so
+and
+hands
+them
+to
+the
+first
+hyperintelligent
+pandimensional
+being
+the
+second
+one
+pulls
+a
+few
+singles
+out
+of
+his
+wallet
+places
+them
+on
+the
+bar
+and
+the
+pair
+turn
+around
+and
+begin
+walking
+toward
+a
+table
+in
+the
+middle
+of
+the
+mostly-empty
+bar
+the
+bar
+tender
+picks
+up
+the
+money
+fans
+it
+out
+frowns
+and
+calls
+to
+his
+patrons
+backs
+hey
+this
+isn't
+enough
+the
+two
+turn
+around
+simultan
+eously
+with
+parity
+and
+stare
+at
+him
+a
+beat
+one
+of
+them
+the
+one
+without
+the
+beer
+breaks
+the
+silence
+by
+exclaiming
+oh
+dear
+god
+i'm
+sorry
+i
+didn't
+know
+your
+prices
+went
+up
+since
+last
+time
+what
+do
+i
+owe
+you
+the
+bartender
+says
+oh
+just
+another
+dollar-fifty
+the
+being
+reaches
+in
+his
+back
+pocket
+slides
+out
+his
+wallet
+looks
+in
+smiling
+and
+frowns
+when
+he
+sees
+it's
+empty
+he
+looks
+to
+the
+other
+and
+says
+you
+got
+a
+buck-fifty
+i
+can
+borrow
+the
+second
+hyperintelligent
+pandimensional
+being
+considers
+this
+he
+sets
+the
+beers
+down
+on
+the
+table
+pulls
+out
+his
+own
+wallet
+opens
+it
+and
+frowns
+i'm
+broke
+too
+he
+says
@@ -0,0 +1,142 @@
+dead
+man
+a
+dead
+man
+finds
+his
+way
+into
+our
+hearts
+simply
+by
+opening
+the
+door
+and
+walking
+in
+he
+pours
+himself
+a
+drink
+speaks
+aimlessly
+about
+hunting
+or
+some
+bats
+he
+saw
+on
+the
+way
+over
+wheeling
+around
+each
+other
+look
+how
+they
+spin
+he
+says
+it's
+like
+the
+ripples
+atoms
+make
+as
+they
+hurl
+past
+each
+other
+in
+the
+space
+between
+their
+bodies
+we
+mention
+the
+eels
+at
+the
+aquarium
+how
+their
+bodies
+knot
+while
+mating
+the
+dead
+man
+was
+a
+boyscout
+once
+and
+tied
+a
+lot
+of
+knots
+his
+favorite
+was
+the
+one
+with
+the
+rabbit
+and
+the
+hole
+and
+the
+rabbit
+going
+in
+and
+out
+and
+around
+the
+tree
+the
+dead
+man
+liked
+it
+because
+he
+liked
+to
+pretend
+that
+the
+rabbit
+was
+running
+from
+a
+fox
+and
+the
+rabbit
+always
+ended
+up
+safe
+back
+in
+his
+hole
@@ -0,0 +1,152 @@
+the
+death
+zone
+when
+i
+think
+of
+death
+i
+think
+of
+peter
+falk
+in
+the
+princess
+bride
+patting
+his
+pockets
+as
+he
+leaves
+the
+room
+life
+is
+a
+series
+of
+doors
+or
+so
+they
+say
+but
+i
+ask
+them
+this
+where
+does
+that
+last
+door
+lead
+for
+falk
+maybe
+it
+leads
+backstage
+a
+black-walled
+catered
+affair
+with
+stage
+lights
+slowly
+baking
+stale
+muffins
+sweaty
+cheese
+leaking
+onto
+dried-out
+grapes
+a
+chocolate
+fountain
+clogged
+by
+some
+errant
+strawberry
+crown
+but
+this
+is
+not
+where
+it
+leads
+for
+you
+or
+for
+me
+that
+door
+opens
+onto
+darkness
+marked
+only
+by
+a
+trellis
+or
+the
+lid
+of
+a
+casket
+the
+door
+of
+the
+earth's
+womb
+opening
+finally
+to
+accept
+us
+and
+with
+us
+the
+dirt
+not
+to
+grow
+more
+strawberries
+for
+falk
+but
+to
+pad
+his
+feet
+as
+he
+walks
+overhead
+to
+visit
+someone
+he
+certainly
+cares
+about
+but
+whose
+name
+is
+lost
+to
+posterity
@@ -0,0 +1,221 @@
+death's
+trumpet
+he
+didn't
+have
+any
+polish
+so
+he
+spit-shined
+the
+whole
+thing
+top
+to
+bottom
+it
+gleamed
+like
+maybe
+a
+tomato
+on
+the
+vine
+begging
+to
+be
+picked
+and
+thrown
+on
+some
+caprese
+death
+loved
+caprese
+he
+stood
+up
+and
+put
+the
+horn
+to
+his
+lips
+imagining
+it
+was
+a
+woman
+he
+loved
+he
+blushed
+as
+he
+realized
+it
+was
+a
+terrible
+metaphor
+he
+practiced
+for
+six
+hours
+a
+day
+what
+else
+to
+do
+death
+looks
+at
+himself
+in
+the
+mirror
+as
+he
+plays
+the
+trumpet
+is
+suspended
+in
+midair
+damn
+vampire
+rules
+death
+is
+always
+worried
+he
+might
+have
+missed
+a
+spot
+shaving
+but
+he'll
+never
+know
+unless
+a
+stranger
+is
+polite
+enough
+not
+that
+he
+ever
+goes
+out
+or
+meets
+anyone
+he
+wakes
+up
+late
+these
+days
+stays
+in
+bed
+later
+he
+thinks
+he
+might
+be
+depressed
+the
+caprese
+has
+gotten
+soggy
+since
+he
+made
+it
+maybe
+three
+days
+ago
+or
+maybe
+just
+two
+the
+sun
+streams
+through
+his
+kitchen
+blinds
+like
+smoke
+he
+decides
+to
+go
+to
+the
+arcade
+when
+he
+gets
+there
+there's
+only
+a
+little
+boy
+with
+dead
+eyes
+so
+far
+so
+good
+he's
+playing
+a
+first-person
+shooter
+death
+walks
+past
+him
+and
+watches
+out
+of
+the
+corner
+of
+his
+eye
+the
+kid's
+good
+death
+wants
+to
+congratulate
+him
+his
+trumpet
+is
+in
+his
+hand
@@ -0,0 +1,173 @@
+dream
+it
+had
+gotten
+cold
+he
+went
+to
+lay
+down
+in
+bed
+with
+a
+pad
+and
+paper
+he
+began
+to
+write
+although
+he
+hadn't
+tried
+it
+much
+in
+bed
+before
+he
+liked
+it
+mostly
+his
+arm
+got
+tired
+journeying
+across
+the
+page
+like
+a
+series
+of
+switchbacks
+down
+the
+wall
+of
+the
+grand
+canyon
+he
+wrote
+this
+down
+in
+the
+margin
+for
+later
+arm
+journeying
+across
+the
+pg
+like
+a
+series
+of
+switch
+backs
+down
+the
+wall
+of
+the
+grand
+canyon
+his
+arm
+began
+to
+pain
+him
+he
+adjusted
+his
+position
+in
+the
+bed
+it
+didn't
+help
+much
+with
+the
+pain
+it
+still
+hurt
+as
+he
+wrote
+he
+began
+to
+be
+distracted
+by
+his
+mother's
+music
+playing
+in
+the
+next
+room
+could
+you
+turn
+that
+down
+please
+he
+hollered
+across
+the
+wall
+to
+his
+mother
+she
+made
+no
+reply
+music
+too
+loud
+he
+gave
+his
+arm
+a
+break
+to
+look
+at
+what
+he'd
+written
+he
+couldn't
+make
+heads
+or
+tails
+of
+it
+it
+looked
+like
+arabic
+he
+woke
+up
+gasping
+in
+a
+sweat
@@ -0,0 +1,234 @@
+early
+you
+cannot
+discover
+art
+art
+must
+be
+created
+he
+sat
+on
+the
+couch
+at
+home
+while
+his
+mother
+watched
+tv
+and
+smoked
+dinner
+had
+been
+chicken
+and
+peas
+with
+milk
+and
+afterward
+paul
+and
+his
+mother
+sat
+on
+opposite
+ends
+of
+the
+couch
+at
+intervals
+she
+would
+look
+sideways
+at
+paul
+writing
+he
+pretended
+not
+to
+notice
+art
+=
+artifice
+he
+wrote
+artifice
+means
+unnatural
+artifice
+means
+built
+to
+build
+means
+to
+find
+a
+pattern
+&
+find
+a
+pattern
+is
+what
+we
+are
+good
+at
+he
+thought
+about
+this
+while
+someone
+else
+won
+a
+car
+do
+you
+think
+humans
+are
+good
+at
+finding
+patterns
+because
+we
+are
+hunters
+he
+asked
+his
+mother
+she
+looked
+sideways
+at
+him
+and
+said
+sure
+paul
+early
+on
+in
+our
+evolution
+we
+were
+hunters
+right
+and
+to
+hunt
+we
+had
+to
+see
+the
+patterns
+in
+seemingly
+random
+events
+like
+where
+the
+gazelle
+went
+each
+year
+paul
+i'm
+trying
+to
+watch
+tv
+if
+you're
+going
+to
+write
+this
+stuff
+go
+do
+it
+in
+your
+room
+you're
+distracting
+paul
+got
+up
+and
+went
+to
+his
+room
+and
+lay
+down
+on
+his
+bed
+if
+the
+gazelle
+went
+to
+the
+same
+place
+every
+year
+he
+thought
+did
+they
+know
+the
+pattern
+too
+or
+was
+it
+random
+for
+them
+did
+they
+think
+each
+year
+this
+seems
+like
+a
+good
+spot
+let's
+graze
+here
+without
+knowing
+he
+wrote
+pattern
+=
+memory
+in
+his
+notebook
@@ -0,0 +1,165 @@
+elegy
+for
+an
+alternate
+self
+say
+there
+are
+no
+words
+say
+that
+we
+are
+conjoined
+from
+birth
+or
+better
+still
+say
+we
+are
+myself
+but
+i
+still
+talk
+to
+myself
+i
+build
+my
+world
+through
+language
+so
+if
+we
+say
+there
+are
+no
+words
+this
+is
+not
+enough
+say
+we
+are
+instead
+some
+animal
+or
+better
+yet
+a
+plant
+or
+a
+flagellum
+motoring
+aimlessly
+around
+say
+that
+humans
+are
+the
+only
+things
+that
+reason
+say
+that
+we're
+the
+only
+things
+that
+worry
+say
+that
+i
+am
+separate
+to
+say
+there's
+everything
+else
+and
+then
+there's
+me
+is
+wrong
+each
+thing
+is
+separate
+there
+is
+no
+whole
+in
+the
+world
+say
+this
+is
+both
+good
+and
+bad
+or
+rather
+say
+there
+is
+no
+good
+or
+bad
+but
+only
+being
+more
+and
+more
+of
+it
+always
+added
+none
+taken
+out
+though
+it
+can
+be
+forgotten
+say
+that
+forgetting
+is
+a
+function
+of
+our
+remembering
+say
+that
+humans
+only
+worry
+about
+separation
+say
+that
+only
+humans
+feel
+it
@@ -0,0 +1,198 @@
+epigraph
+an
+epigraph
+i
+saw
+my
+life
+branching
+out
+before
+me
+like
+the
+green
+fig
+tree
+in
+the
+story
+from
+the
+tip
+of
+every
+branch
+like
+a
+fat
+purple
+fig
+a
+wonderful
+future
+beckoned
+and
+winked
+one
+fig
+was
+a
+husband
+and
+a
+happy
+home
+and
+children
+and
+another
+fig
+was
+a
+famous
+poet
+and
+another
+fig
+was
+a
+brilliant
+professor
+and
+another
+fig
+was
+ee
+gee
+the
+amazing
+editor
+and
+another
+fig
+was
+europe
+and
+africa
+and
+south
+america
+and
+another
+fig
+was
+constantin
+and
+socrates
+and
+attila
+and
+a
+pack
+of
+other
+lovers
+and
+queer
+names
+and
+offbeat
+professions
+and
+another
+fig
+was
+an
+olympic
+lady
+crew
+champion
+and
+beyond
+and
+above
+these
+figs
+were
+many
+more
+figs
+i
+couldn't
+quite
+make
+out
+i
+saw
+myself
+sitting
+in
+the
+crotch
+of
+this
+fig
+tree
+starving
+to
+death
+just
+because
+i
+couldn't
+make
+up
+my
+mind
+which
+of
+the
+figs
+i
+would
+choose
+i
+wanted
+each
+and
+every
+one
+of
+them
+but
+choosing
+one
+meant
+losing
+all
+the
+rest
+and
+as
+i
+sat
+there
+unable
+to
+decide
+the
+figs
+began
+to
+wrinkle
+and
+go
+black
+and
+one
+by
+one
+they
+plopped
+to
+the
+ground
+at
+my
+feet
@@ -0,0 +1,167 @@
+ex
+machina
+bottom
+of
+the
+drink
+they
+had
+to
+go
+the
+coke
+machine
+the
+snack
+machine
+the
+deep
+fryer
+hoisted
+and
+dragged
+through
+the
+halls
+and
+out
+to
+the
+curb
+they
+sat
+with
+other
+trash
+beneath
+gray
+forlorn
+skies
+behind
+the
+elementary
+school
+wondering
+what
+their
+next
+move
+would
+be
+the
+coke
+machine
+had
+always
+wanted
+to
+live
+the
+life
+of
+a
+hobo
+jumping
+trains
+eating
+from
+garbage
+making
+fire
+in
+old
+oil
+drums
+it
+had
+some
+strange
+romantic
+notions
+of
+being
+homeless
+is
+what
+the
+deep
+fryer
+thought
+its
+opinion
+was
+to
+head
+to
+court
+sue
+the
+bastards
+at
+the
+school
+for
+early
+termination
+of
+contract
+it
+was
+the
+embodiment
+of
+justifiable
+anger
+it
+believed
+privately
+that
+it
+was
+an
+incarnation
+of
+nemesis
+the
+goddess
+of
+divine
+retribution
+what
+the
+snack
+machine
+thought
+it
+kept
+to
+itself
+but
+it
+did
+say
+that
+nothing
+ever
+ends
+the
+others
+were
+confused
+then
+angry
+but
+finally
+understood
+or
+thought
+they
+did
+the
+snack
+machine's
+candy
+melted
+in
+the
+sun
@@ -0,0 +1,353 @@
+exasperated
+i
+didn't
+write
+this
+sestina
+yesterday
+it's
+the
+first
+time
+i
+fell
+behind
+in
+my
+task
+and
+hopefully
+the
+only
+time
+it
+will
+this
+means
+that
+today
+i
+must
+write
+two
+sestinas
+if
+i
+don't
+write
+them
+today
+i
+will
+have
+to
+write
+two
+later
+down
+the
+line
+although
+i
+feel
+i'm
+slogging
+through
+each
+line
+i
+think
+i'm
+doing
+better
+every
+day
+though
+maybe
+this
+is
+wishful
+thinking
+i
+showed
+my
+friend
+my
+just-completed
+task
+two
+days
+ago
+my
+god
+was
+it
+two
+entire
+days
+i've
+no
+idea
+what
+i'll
+do
+after
+thirty-nine
+days
+i
+think
+i'll
+feel
+like
+inigo
+montoya
+who'd
+been
+in
+the
+line
+of
+revenging
+for
+so
+long
+he
+didn't
+know
+what
+to
+do
+with
+the
+rest
+of
+his
+life
+and
+he
+deigned
+to
+be
+polite
+but
+i
+could
+tell
+the
+task
+was
+hard
+for
+him
+he
+told
+me
+finally
+that
+i
+had
+made
+a
+noble
+effort
+but
+that
+ultimately
+i
+failed
+so
+my
+question
+when
+will
+i
+be
+a
+decent
+sestina
+writer
+for
+this
+is
+my
+task
+maybe
+if
+i
+just
+keep
+cranking
+out
+line
+after
+line
+i'll
+finally
+figure
+it
+out
+maybe
+one
+more
+day
+or
+another
+week
+will
+do
+it
+or
+maybe
+i'll
+need
+two
+or
+maybe
+it'll
+never
+happen
+maybe
+a
+sestina's
+too
+involved
+too
+much
+weaving
+of
+words
+too
+fine
+and
+i
+will
+never
+write
+a
+good
+one
+even
+on
+my
+best
+day
+even
+if
+i
+employ
+all
+my
+skill
+and
+all
+my
+will
+i'm
+not
+used
+to
+writing
+poems
+with
+thirty-nine
+lines
+that
+must
+be
+the
+problem
+must
+be
+why
+this
+task
+is
+herculean
+he
+only
+had
+to
+finish
+twelve
+tasks
+and
+i
+have
+one
+less
+one
+thousand
+five
+hundred
+twenty-two
+and
+it's
+nothing
+but
+complaining
+lines
+about
+how
+hard
+it
+is
+to
+be
+a
+person
+i
+am
+getting
+sick
+of
+myself
+with
+these
+poems
+and
+will
+soon
+be
+loathe
+to
+get
+out
+of
+bed
+every
+day
+but
+i
+tasked
+myself
+with
+this
+which
+may
+be
+the
+worst
+i
+ever
+do
+to
+myself
+i
+thought
+a
+poem
+nanowrimo
+would
+be
+fun
+would
+line
+my
+resume
+give
+me
+something
+i
+could
+publish
+someday
@@ -0,0 +1,201 @@
+father
+is
+man
+the
+natural
+thing
+that
+makes
+unnatural
+things
+he
+thought
+to
+himself
+as
+he
+looked
+out
+the
+kitchen
+window
+at
+the
+shed
+he
+wondered
+who
+built
+the
+shed
+for
+the
+first
+time
+since
+he'd
+been
+going
+out
+there
+mom
+who
+built
+the
+shed
+out
+back
+he
+asked
+that
+was
+your
+father
+she
+said
+his
+father
+paul
+had
+never
+met
+him
+his
+mother
+had
+said
+when
+he
+was
+a
+kid
+that
+his
+father
+was
+caught
+by
+a
+riptide
+while
+swimming
+in
+the
+ocean
+he
+hadn't
+noticed
+what
+was
+happening
+until
+the
+land
+was
+a
+thin
+line
+on
+the
+horizon
+he
+became
+exhausted
+swimming
+back
+and
+drowned
+his
+body
+was
+found
+a
+week
+later
+by
+the
+coroner's
+estimate
+paul
+never
+really
+believed
+this
+story
+because
+his
+mother's
+face
+was
+sad
+in
+the
+wrong
+way
+when
+she
+told
+it
+she
+said
+he
+looked
+like
+his
+father
+but
+she
+also
+said
+all
+men
+look
+alike
+paul
+realized
+he'd
+been
+standing
+at
+the
+kitchen
+window
+for
+a
+long
+time
+looking
+out
+at
+the
+shed
+without
+realizing
+it
+he
+went
+out
+to
+take
+an
+inventory
+of
+everything
+inside
+where
+you
+going
+asked
+his
+mother
+to
+the
+shed
+i'll
+be
+back
+in
+a
+bit
+he
+said
@@ -0,0 +1,346 @@
+feeding
+the
+raven
+you
+never
+can
+tell
+just
+when
+charlie
+sheen
+will
+enter
+your
+life
+for
+me
+it
+was
+last
+thursday
+i
+was
+reading
+some
+translation
+of
+a
+japanese
+translation
+of
+the
+raven
+in
+which
+the
+poe
+and
+the
+raven
+become
+friends
+at
+one
+point
+the
+raven
+gets
+very
+sick
+and
+poe
+feeds
+him
+at
+his
+bedside
+and
+nurses
+him
+back
+to
+health
+the
+story
+was
+very
+heartwarming
+and
+sad
+at
+the
+same
+time
+and
+my
+tears
+were
+welling
+up
+when
+suddenly
+i
+heard
+a
+knock
+on
+my
+door
+i
+shuffled
+over
+sniffling
+but
+managing
+to
+keep
+my
+cheeks
+dry
+to
+open
+it
+of
+course
+charlie
+was
+beaming
+on
+the
+other
+side
+with
+a
+bag
+of
+flowers
+and
+a
+grin
+like
+a
+dog's
+he
+bounded
+in
+the
+room
+without
+saying
+hello
+and
+threw
+the
+flowers
+in
+the
+sink
+opened
+the
+refrigerator
+and
+started
+poking
+around
+i
+said
+it's
+nice
+to
+see
+you
+too
+and
+went
+to
+my
+room
+to
+get
+a
+camera
+as
+well
+as
+a
+notebook
+for
+him
+to
+sign
+when
+i
+came
+back
+he
+was
+on
+the
+floor
+hunched
+and
+groaning
+i
+looked
+on
+the
+table
+to
+see
+a
+month-old
+half-gallon
+of
+milk
+now
+cottage
+cheese
+half-empty
+and
+dripping
+the
+remnants
+were
+on
+his
+mouth
+and
+at
+once
+i
+saw
+my
+chance
+to
+become
+poe
+in
+this
+translation
+of
+a
+translation
+of
+a
+translation
+i
+knelt
+next
+to
+charlie
+cradled
+his
+head
+in
+my
+lap
+he
+looked
+up
+at
+me
+with
+a
+stare
+full
+of
+terror
+i
+returned
+it
+levelly
+making
+cooing
+noises
+at
+him
+until
+he
+calmed
+down
+when
+he
+was
+calm
+he
+excused
+himself
+to
+be
+sick
+on
+my
+toilet
+he
+wouldn't
+let
+me
+follow
+but
+said
+he
+would
+sign
+whatever
+i
+liked
+when
+he
+got
+back
+after
+half
+an
+hour
+passed
+and
+all
+i'd
+had
+for
+company
+was
+the
+ticking
+of
+the
+clock
+i
+went
+to
+the
+bathroom
+door
+i
+knocked
+carefully
+once
+then
+twice
+to
+no
+beaming
+face
+no
+flowers
+i
+opened
+the
+door
+there
+was
+shit
+on
+the
+floor
+and
+the
+window
+was
+open
+there
+was
+a
+breeze
+blowing
@@ -0,0 +1,134 @@
+finding
+the
+lion
+tonight
+as
+i
+look
+up
+the
+stars
+hide
+themselves
+in
+shame
+there
+is
+no
+moon
+the
+sky
+is
+black
+like
+my
+desk
+nothing
+like
+a
+raven
+the
+streetlights
+look
+on
+the
+scene
+disinterested
+they
+have
+their
+own
+small
+gossips
+of
+the
+dark
+i
+came
+here
+to
+find
+the
+lion
+old
+friend
+but
+he
+will
+not
+show
+his
+flanks
+his
+paws
+his
+shoulders
+his
+mane
+i
+can
+hear
+him
+laughing
+from
+his
+hiding-place
+behind
+the
+moon
+nonexistent
+under
+the
+cold
+dead
+earth
+the
+mountain
+is
+in
+front
+of
+me
+now
+a
+hole
+of
+stars
+daring
+me
+to
+pierce
+it
+with
+my
+sight
+the
+lion's
+still
+laughing
+the
+streetlamps
+talk
+about
+me
+amongst
+themselves
+and
+go
+out
+there
+never
+was
+any
+lion
+they
+tell
+me
+you
+only
+hear
+the
+wind
+on
+the
+mountain
@@ -0,0 +1,316 @@
+fire
+his
+mother
+ran
+out
+of
+the
+house
+in
+her
+nightgown
+what
+the
+hell
+do
+you
+think
+you're
+doing
+she
+hollered
+as
+paul
+watched
+the
+shed
+i'm
+burning
+the
+shed
+down
+he
+said
+smiling
+isn't
+it
+warm
+it's
+warm
+enough
+out
+here
+without
+that
+burning
+down
+she
+said
+go
+get
+the
+hose
+and
+put
+this
+thing
+out
+but
+mom
+do
+it
+she
+said
+in
+the
+tone
+of
+voice
+that
+meant
+do
+it
+now
+he
+went
+around
+the
+side
+of
+the
+house
+screwed
+the
+nozzle
+on
+grabbed
+the
+end
+of
+the
+hose
+pulled
+it
+around
+the
+house
+and
+waited
+for
+water
+to
+come
+out
+the
+end
+when
+it
+did
+it
+was
+not
+in
+a
+very
+strong
+stream
+i
+don't
+think
+this
+is
+going
+to
+work
+paul
+said
+to
+his
+mother
+god
+damn
+it
+i
+have
+to
+call
+the
+fire
+department
+she
+said
+and
+went
+inside
+the
+house
+the
+shed
+continued
+in
+its
+burning
+after
+the
+fire
+department
+put
+out
+the
+fire
+one
+of
+the
+men
+said
+your
+mother
+says
+you
+set
+this
+building
+on
+fire
+you
+know
+arson
+is
+a
+major
+offense
+i
+set
+it
+on
+fire
+paul
+said
+why
+because
+art
+wants
+to
+be
+random
+it
+wants
+to
+be
+natural
+but
+it
+isn't
+humans
+create
+art
+because
+we
+can't
+help
+but
+see
+patterns
+in
+randomness
+but
+we
+feel
+guilty
+about
+it
+the
+man
+nodded
+to
+another
+man
+in
+a
+blue
+uniform
+we
+want
+the
+art
+to
+feel
+natural
+to
+feel
+random
+but
+we
+can't
+stop
+seeing
+the
+patterns
+as
+the
+man
+in
+blue
+walked
+over
+and
+put
+a
+hand
+on
+paul's
+shoulder
+art
+is
+unnatural
+by
+its
+very
+nature
+i
+took
+my
+art
+and
+gave
+it
+back
+to
+nature
+as
+the
+man
+led
+him
+over
+to
+a
+black
+and
+white
+car
+and
+put
+him
+inside
+he
+was
+saying
+something
+about
+paul's
+right
+no
+it's
+my
+left
+that
+was
+hurt
+said
+paul
+but
+it's
+all
+better
+now
@@ -0,0 +1,88 @@
+look
+a
+found
+typewriter
+poem
+look
+i
+say
+look
+here
+at
+this
+old
+place
+where
+nothing
+changes
+look
+at
+the
+people
+who
+pass
+by
+look
+at
+the
+trees
+the
+flowers
+full
+of
+wanting
+look
+how
+full
+they
+are
+with
+color
+look
+how
+they
+mock
+us
+empty
+people
+who
+must
+fill
+themselves
+with
+changes
+emptiness
+there
+is
+nothing
+to
+be
+but
+happy
+there
+is
+no
+sadness
+to
+fall
+down
+like
+cherry
+petals
+the
+trees
+don't
+under
+stand
+they
+are
+too
+tall
+to
+see
+the
+germ
+of
+discontent
+in
+us
@@ -0,0 +1,168 @@
+hands
+he
+looked
+down
+at
+his
+hands
+idly
+while
+he
+was
+typing
+they
+were
+dry
+and
+cracked
+in
+places
+he
+thought
+he
+might
+start
+bleeding
+so
+he
+went
+inside
+for
+some
+lotion
+do
+we
+have
+any
+lotion
+he
+asked
+his
+mother
+in
+the
+medicine
+cabinet
+she
+said
+without
+looking
+up
+from
+the
+tv
+he
+walked
+into
+the
+bathroom
+and
+looked
+at
+himself
+in
+the
+mirror
+i
+look
+strange
+he
+said
+to
+himself
+i
+look
+like
+a
+teenager
+he
+stared
+into
+his
+right
+eye
+then
+his
+left
+he
+saw
+nothing
+but
+his
+own
+reflection
+fish-eyed
+in
+his
+pupils
+he
+opened
+the
+medicine
+cabinet
+back
+in
+his
+writing
+shack
+he
+started
+to
+type
+what
+is
+it
+about
+hands
+that
+gives
+them
+such
+power
+it
+is
+that
+their
+power
+is
+hidden
+in
+the
+arm
+push
+on
+the
+inside
+of
+the
+wrist
+the
+hand
+closes
+reach
+under
+the
+skin
+and
+pull
+on
+the
+outside
+tendons
+the
+hand
+opens
+again
+hands
+are
+only
+machines
+for
+grasping
+controlled
+by
+the
+arm
+not
+the
+mind
@@ -0,0 +1,108 @@
+a
+hard
+game
+you
+think
+building
+hoggle's
+a
+hard
+game
+you
+know
+bunk
+writing
+a
+ghazal's
+a
+hard
+game
+let's
+meet
+in
+a
+place
+where
+words
+&
+fabric
+play
+but
+not
+plastic
+words
+boggle's
+a
+hard
+game
+a
+cookout
+where
+we
+can
+hash
+our
+differences
+over
+steak
+though
+making
+it
+sizzle's
+a
+hard
+game
+let's
+go
+to
+a
+brothel
+rub
+shoulders
+with
+bare
+shoulders
+or
+a
+bar
+being
+wastrel's
+a
+hard
+game
+maybe
+we
+could
+switch
+professions
+you
+and
+i
+you
+write
+the
+poems
+i'll
+puppet
+fozzie
+a
+hard
+game
+when
+you
+call
+me
+you
+never
+say
+my
+name
+creativity's
+a
+hose
+shutting
+the
+nozzle's
+the
+hard
+game
@@ -0,0 +1,174 @@
+hardware
+his
+mother
+drove
+him
+to
+the
+hardware
+store
+on
+a
+tuesday
+i'm
+glad
+to
+see
+you've
+taken
+my
+advice
+for
+once
+she
+said
+what
+do
+you
+mean
+applying
+to
+work
+at
+the
+hardware
+store
+i'm
+proud
+of
+you
+paul
+oh
+right
+sure
+thing
+they
+pulled
+into
+the
+parking
+lot
+just
+be
+a
+minute
+he
+said
+as
+he
+opened
+the
+car
+door
+he
+walked
+under
+the
+door
+resplendent
+in
+its
+king
+william
+orange
+and
+white
+he
+saw
+the
+towering
+rows
+of
+shelves
+like
+mountain
+ridges
+in
+hell
+he
+strolled
+among
+the
+fixtures
+pipes
+planks
+sheets
+plants
+why
+plants
+he
+thought
+switches
+he
+realized
+he
+didn't
+know
+the
+first
+thing
+about
+building
+furniture
+i
+don't
+know
+the
+first
+thing
+he
+muttered
+to
+himself
+about
+building
+furniture
+i
+know
+the
+last
+thing
+would
+be
+a
+couch
+or
+chair
+or
+stool
+but
+the
+first
+thing
+is
+a
+mystery
+he
+turned
+around
+and
+walked
+straight
+out
+of
+the
+store
+and
+to
+his
+mother's
+car
+without
+looking
+up
+how'd
+it
+go
+she
+asked
+starting
+the
+car
+great
+he
+said
@@ -0,0 +1,141 @@
+how
+it
+happened
+i
+was
+away
+on
+vacation
+when
+i
+heard
+someone
+sat
+at
+my
+desk
+while
+i
+was
+away
+they
+took
+my
+pen
+while
+i
+was
+taking
+surf
+lessons
+and
+wrote
+the
+sun
+into
+the
+sky
+they
+pre-approved
+the
+earth
+and
+the
+waters
+and
+all
+of
+the
+living
+things
+without
+even
+having
+the
+decency
+to
+text
+me
+it
+was
+not
+i
+who
+was
+behind
+the
+phrase
+creeping
+things
+when
+i
+got
+back
+of
+course
+i
+was
+pissed
+but
+it
+was
+already
+written
+into
+the
+policy
+i'm
+just
+saying
+don't
+blame
+me
+for
+cain
+killing
+abel
+that
+was
+a
+murder
+i'm
+not
+a
+cop
+the
+tower
+of
+babel
+fell
+on
+its
+own
+the
+ark
+never
+saw
+a
+single
+drop
+of
+rain
+i'm
+the
+drunk
+sitting
+on
+the
+curb
+who
+just
+pissed
+his
+pants
+holding
+up
+a
+sign
+asking
+where
+i
+am
@@ -0,0 +1,1578 @@
+how
+to
+read
+this
+this
+book
+is
+an
+exploration
+of
+life
+of
+all
+possible
+lives
+that
+could
+be
+lived
+each
+of
+the
+poems
+contained
+herein
+have
+been
+written
+by
+a
+different
+person
+with
+his
+own
+history
+culture
+and
+emotions
+true
+they
+are
+all
+related
+but
+no
+more
+than
+any
+of
+us
+is
+related
+through
+our
+genetics
+our
+shared
+planet
+or
+our
+yearnings
+fernando
+pessoa
+wrote
+poems
+under
+four
+different
+identities
+he
+called
+them
+heteronyms
+that
+were
+known
+during
+his
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+over
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+names
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+concerned
+with
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+ideas
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+wrote
+more
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+lvaro
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+wrote
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+whitman-esque
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+poems
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+write
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+his
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+he
+parceled
+out
+the
+different
+pieces
+and
+developed
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+into
+full
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+at
+the
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+of
+his
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+i
+subsist
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+a
+kind
+of
+medium
+of
+myself
+but
+i'm
+less
+real
+than
+the
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+less
+substantial
+less
+personal
+and
+easily
+influenced
+by
+them
+all
+de
+campos
+said
+of
+him
+at
+one
+point
+fernando
+pessoa
+strictly
+speaking
+doesn't
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+it's
+not
+just
+pessoa
+i
+strictly
+speaking
+don't
+exist
+both
+as
+the
+specific
+me
+that
+writes
+this
+now
+and
+as
+the
+concept
+of
+selfhood
+the
+ego
+heraclitus
+famously
+said
+that
+we
+can't
+step
+into
+the
+same
+river
+twice
+and
+the
+fact
+of
+the
+matter
+is
+that
+we
+can't
+occupy
+the
+same
+self
+twice
+it's
+constantly
+changing
+and
+adapting
+to
+new
+stimuli
+from
+the
+environment
+from
+other
+selves
+from
+inside
+itself
+and
+each
+time
+it
+forms
+anew
+into
+something
+that's
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+existed
+before
+the
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+am
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+a
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+than
+the
+one
+i
+am
+finishing
+a
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+part
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+it
+is
+the
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+has
+brought
+forth
+some
+other
+dish
+onto
+the
+great
+table
+that
+is
+myself
+in
+the
+same
+way
+with
+each
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+read
+of
+this
+you
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+a
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+on
+which
+order
+you
+read
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+you
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+be
+any
+number
+of
+possible
+people
+if
+you
+follow
+the
+threads
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+laid
+out
+for
+you
+there
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+you
+disregard
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+go
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+way
+there
+are
+quite
+a
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+more
+however
+at
+the
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+the
+journey
+there
+is
+only
+one
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+disappearing
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+this
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+and
+going
+maybe
+somewhere
+else
+maybe
+nowhere
+at
+all
+there
+is
+a
+scene
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+the
+neverending
+story
+where
+bastian
+is
+trying
+to
+find
+his
+way
+out
+of
+the
+desert
+he
+opens
+a
+door
+and
+finds
+himself
+in
+the
+temple
+of
+a
+thousand
+doors
+which
+is
+never
+seen
+from
+the
+outside
+but
+only
+once
+someone
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+it
+it
+is
+a
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+with
+six
+sides
+each
+and
+three
+doors
+one
+from
+the
+room
+before
+and
+two
+choices
+in
+life
+each
+of
+these
+rooms
+is
+a
+moment
+but
+where
+bastian
+can
+choose
+which
+of
+only
+two
+doors
+to
+enter
+each
+time
+in
+life
+there
+can
+be
+any
+number
+of
+doors
+and
+we
+don't
+always
+choose
+which
+to
+go
+through
+in
+fact
+i
+would
+argue
+that
+most
+of
+the
+time
+we
+aren't
+allowed
+the
+luxury
+what
+happens
+to
+those
+other
+doors
+those
+other
+possibilities
+is
+there
+some
+other
+version
+of
+the
+self
+that
+for
+whatever
+complexities
+of
+circumstance
+and
+will
+chose
+a
+different
+door
+at
+an
+earlier
+moment
+the
+answer
+to
+this
+of
+course
+is
+that
+we
+can
+never
+know
+for
+sure
+though
+this
+doesn't
+keep
+us
+from
+trying
+through
+the
+process
+of
+regret
+we
+go
+back
+and
+try
+that
+other
+door
+in
+our
+mind
+extrapolating
+a
+possible
+present
+from
+our
+own
+past
+this
+is
+ultimately
+unsatisfying
+not
+only
+because
+whatever
+world
+is
+imagined
+is
+not
+the
+one
+currently
+lived
+but
+because
+it
+becomes
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+that
+the
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+of
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+is
+not
+complete
+we
+can
+only
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+from
+the
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+absolutely
+without
+knowledge
+of
+any
+subsequent
+possible
+choices
+this
+causes
+a
+deep
+disappointment
+a
+frustration
+with
+the
+inability
+to
+know
+all
+possible
+timelines
+coupled
+with
+the
+insecurity
+that
+this
+may
+not
+be
+the
+best
+of
+all
+possible
+worlds
+that
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+feel
+as
+regret
+in
+this
+way
+every
+moment
+we
+live
+is
+an
+elegy
+to
+every
+possible
+future
+that
+might
+have
+stemmed
+from
+it
+annie
+dillard
+states
+this
+in
+a
+biological
+manner
+when
+she
+says
+in
+pilgrim
+at
+tinker
+creek
+every
+glistening
+egg
+is
+a
+memento
+mori
+nature
+is
+inefficient
+it
+spends
+a
+hundred
+lifetimes
+to
+get
+one
+that
+barely
+works
+the
+fossil
+record
+is
+littered
+with
+the
+failed
+experiments
+of
+evolution
+many
+of
+which
+failed
+due
+only
+to
+blind
+chance
+an
+asteroid
+a
+shift
+in
+weather
+patterns
+an
+inefficient
+copulation
+method
+each
+living
+person
+today
+has
+twenty
+dead
+standing
+behind
+him
+and
+that
+only
+counts
+the
+people
+that
+actually
+lived
+how
+many
+missed
+opportunities
+stand
+behind
+any
+of
+us
+the
+real
+problem
+with
+all
+of
+this
+is
+that
+time
+is
+only
+additive
+there's
+no
+way
+to
+dial
+it
+back
+and
+start
+over
+with
+new
+choices
+or
+new
+environments
+even
+when
+given
+the
+chance
+to
+do
+something
+again
+we
+do
+it
+again
+with
+the
+reality
+given
+by
+our
+previous
+action
+thus
+we
+are
+constantly
+creating
+and
+being
+created
+by
+the
+world
+the
+self
+is
+never
+the
+same
+from
+one
+moment
+to
+the
+next
+a
+poem
+is
+like
+a
+snapshot
+of
+a
+self
+if
+it's
+any
+good
+it
+captures
+the
+emotional
+core
+of
+the
+self
+at
+the
+time
+of
+writing
+for
+communication
+with
+future
+selves
+either
+within
+the
+same
+person
+or
+outside
+of
+it
+thus
+revision
+is
+possible
+and
+the
+new
+poem
+created
+will
+be
+yet
+another
+snapshot
+of
+the
+future
+self
+as
+changed
+by
+the
+original
+poem
+the
+page
+becomes
+a
+window
+into
+the
+past
+a
+particular
+past
+as
+experienced
+by
+one
+self
+the
+poem
+is
+a
+remembering
+of
+a
+self
+that
+no
+longer
+exists
+in
+other
+words
+an
+elegy
+a
+snapshot
+doesn't
+capture
+the
+entire
+subject
+however
+it
+leaves
+out
+the
+background
+as
+it's
+obscured
+by
+foreground
+objects
+it
+fails
+to
+include
+anything
+that
+isn't
+contained
+in
+its
+finite
+frame
+in
+order
+to
+build
+a
+working
+definition
+of
+identity
+we
+must
+include
+all
+possible
+selves
+over
+all
+possible
+timelines
+combined
+into
+one
+person
+identity
+is
+the
+combined
+effect
+of
+all
+possible
+selves
+over
+time
+a
+poem
+leaves
+much
+of
+this
+out
+it
+is
+the
+one
+person
+standing
+in
+front
+of
+twenty
+ghosts
+a
+poem
+is
+the
+place
+where
+the
+selves
+of
+the
+reader
+and
+the
+speaker
+meet
+in
+their
+respective
+times
+and
+places
+in
+this
+way
+a
+poem
+is
+outside
+of
+time
+or
+place
+because
+it
+changes
+its
+location
+each
+time
+it's
+read
+each
+time
+it's
+two
+different
+people
+meeting
+the
+problem
+with
+a
+poem
+is
+that
+it's
+such
+a
+small
+window
+if
+we
+met
+in
+real
+life
+the
+way
+we
+met
+in
+poems
+we
+would
+see
+nothing
+of
+anyone
+else
+but
+a
+square
+the
+size
+of
+a
+postage
+stamp
+it
+has
+been
+argued
+this
+is
+the
+way
+we
+see
+time
+and
+ourselves
+in
+it
+as
+well
+vonnegut
+uses
+the
+metaphor
+of
+a
+subject
+strapped
+to
+a
+railroad
+car
+moving
+at
+a
+set
+pace
+with
+a
+six-foot-long
+metal
+tube
+placed
+in
+front
+of
+the
+subject's
+eye
+the
+landscape
+in
+the
+distance
+is
+time
+and
+what
+we
+see
+is
+the
+only
+way
+in
+which
+we
+interact
+with
+it
+it's
+the
+same
+with
+a
+poem
+and
+the
+self
+we
+can
+only
+see
+and
+interact
+with
+a
+small
+kernel
+this
+is
+why
+it's
+possible
+to
+write
+more
+than
+one
+poem
+due
+to
+this
+kernel
+nature
+of
+poetry
+a
+good
+poem
+should
+focus
+itself
+to
+extract
+as
+much
+meaning
+as
+possible
+from
+that
+one
+kernel
+of
+identity
+to
+which
+it
+has
+access
+it
+should
+be
+an
+atom
+of
+selfhood
+irreducible
+and
+resistant
+to
+paraphrase
+because
+it
+tries
+to
+somehow
+echo
+the
+large
+unsayable
+part
+of
+identity
+outside
+the
+frame
+of
+the
+self
+it
+is
+the
+kernel
+that
+contains
+a
+universe
+or
+that
+speaks
+around
+one
+that's
+hidden
+if
+it's
+a
+successful
+poem
+then
+it
+makes
+the
+smallest
+circuit
+possible
+this
+is
+why
+the
+commentary
+on
+poems
+is
+so
+voluminous
+a
+poem
+is
+tightly
+packed
+meaning
+that
+commentators
+try
+to
+unpack
+to
+get
+at
+that
+universality
+inside
+it
+a
+fortress
+of
+dialectic
+is
+constructed
+that
+ultimately
+obstructs
+the
+meaning
+behind
+the
+poem
+it
+becomes
+the
+foreground
+in
+the
+photograph
+that
+disallows
+us
+to
+view
+the
+horizon
+beyond
+it
+with
+this
+in
+mind
+i
+collect
+these
+poems
+that
+were
+written
+over
+a
+period
+of
+four
+years
+into
+this
+book
+where
+i
+can
+i
+insert
+cross-references
+like
+the
+one
+above
+in
+the
+margin
+to
+other
+pieces
+in
+the
+text
+where
+i
+think
+the
+two
+resonate
+in
+some
+way
+you
+can
+read
+this
+book
+in
+any
+way
+you'd
+like
+you
+can
+go
+front-to-back
+or
+back-to-front
+or
+you
+can
+follow
+the
+arrows
+around
+or
+you
+can
+work
+out
+a
+complex
+mathematical
+formula
+with
+merseinne
+primes
+and
+logarithms
+and
+the
+2000
+census
+information
+or
+you
+can
+go
+completely
+randomly
+through
+like
+a
+magazine
+or
+at
+least
+the
+way
+i
+flip
+through
+magazines
+i
+think
+writing
+is
+a
+communication
+of
+the
+self
+and
+i
+think
+this
+is
+the
+best
+way
+to
+communicate
+mine
+in
+all
+its
+multiversity
@@ -0,0 +1,194 @@
+hymnal
+it's
+all
+jokes
+paul
+wrote
+in
+what
+he
+was
+now
+calling
+his
+hymnal
+he
+had
+been
+writing
+non-stop
+all
+day
+because
+he
+didn't
+count
+pee
+or
+cigarette
+breaks
+all
+art
+is
+an
+inside
+joke
+the
+symbology
+involved
+must
+be
+and
+here
+he
+put
+down
+his
+pen
+and
+held
+his
+head
+in
+his
+hands
+he
+could
+never
+think
+of
+the
+word
+he
+said
+often
+that
+he
+had
+no
+words
+he
+opened
+to
+a
+new
+page
+in
+his
+hymnal
+on
+the
+top
+of
+it
+was
+written
+in
+bold
+script
+hymn
+386
+jokes
+paul
+scowled
+who
+had
+written
+in
+his
+hymnal
+he
+wondered
+he
+said
+it
+out
+loud
+a
+moment
+after
+who
+has
+written
+in
+my
+hymnal
+he
+realized
+he
+was
+alone
+in
+his
+writing
+shack
+which
+was
+really
+a
+shed
+in
+the
+back
+of
+his
+mother's
+garden
+he
+wondered
+why
+he
+had
+to
+say
+his
+thoughts
+before
+they
+became
+real
+to
+him
+if
+this
+was
+a
+habit
+or
+an
+inborn
+trait
+he
+realized
+simultaneously
+that
+he
+could
+ask
+someone
+and
+that
+this
+was
+something
+he
+wondered
+every
+time
+he
+spoke
+his
+thoughts
+out
+loud
+he
+resolved
+to
+put
+the
+issue
+to
+rest
+by
+asking
+someone
@@ -0,0 +1,171 @@
+i
+am
+i
+am
+a
+great
+pillar
+of
+white
+smoke
+i
+am
+lot's
+nameless
+wife
+encased
+in
+salt
+i
+am
+the
+wound
+on
+christ's
+back
+as
+he
+moans
+with
+the
+pounding
+of
+a
+hammer
+on
+his
+wrist
+i
+am
+the
+nail
+that
+holds
+my
+house
+together
+it
+is
+a
+strong
+house
+built
+on
+a
+good
+foundation
+in
+the
+winter
+it
+is
+warm
+and
+crawling
+things
+cannot
+get
+in
+this
+house
+will
+never
+burn
+down
+it
+is
+the
+house
+that
+i
+built
+with
+my
+body
+and
+with
+my
+strength
+i
+am
+the
+only
+one
+who
+lives
+here
+i
+am
+both
+father
+and
+mother
+to
+a
+race
+of
+dust
+motes
+that
+worship
+me
+as
+a
+god
+i
+have
+monuments
+built
+daily
+in
+my
+honor
+in
+dark
+corners
+around
+the
+house
+i
+destroy
+all
+of
+them
+before
+i
+go
+to
+bed
+but
+in
+the
+morning
+there
+are
+still
+more
+i
+don't
+think
+i
+know
+where
+all
+of
+them
+are
+i
+don't
+think
+i
+can
+get
+to
+all
+of
+them
+anymore
+there
+are
+too
+many
@@ -0,0 +1,88 @@
+i
+think
+it's
+you
+but
+it's
+not
+i
+thought
+i
+saw
+you
+walking
+to
+the
+bus
+stop
+but
+it
+was
+only
+a
+raven
+his
+croaks
+sounded
+nothing
+like
+your
+footsteps
+as
+they
+pound
+down
+the
+hallway
+toward
+my
+bedroom
+his
+wings
+looked
+nothing
+like
+your
+legs
+running
+on
+the
+wrong
+side
+of
+the
+road
+away
+from
+my
+house
+i
+think
+the
+one
+resemblance
+was
+the
+eyes
+but
+that's
+too
+easy
+it's
+just
+that
+i
+was
+thinking
+of
+you
+and
+a
+raven
+flew
+by
+maybe
+it
+was
+a
+crow
@@ -0,0 +1,374 @@
+i
+wanted
+to
+tell
+you
+something
+i
+wanted
+to
+tell
+you
+something
+in
+order
+to
+explain
+the
+way
+i
+feel
+about
+the
+universe
+its
+workings
+etc
+but
+i
+couldn't
+yesterday
+i'm
+sorry
+i
+wanted
+only
+to
+ball
+myself
+up
+and
+cry
+all
+day
+it
+was
+the
+sixteenth
+day
+in
+a
+row
+this
+happened
+to
+me
+and
+to
+be
+more
+than
+two
+weeks
+waiting
+to
+cry
+is
+especially
+when
+the
+whole
+time
+i
+wasn't
+able
+to
+absolutely
+horrible
+it
+was
+no
+sweet
+sixteen
+i'll
+tell
+you
+that
+much
+unless
+at
+yours
+the
+universe
+kept
+telling
+you
+to
+quit
+having
+such
+a
+ball
+and
+that
+you
+should
+have
+died
+like
+yesterday
+at
+first
+it
+feels
+like
+you're
+winning
+that
+yesterday
+you
+really
+were
+meant
+to
+die
+but
+since
+you
+still
+are
+you
+beat
+the
+system
+somehow
+but
+the
+universe
+bawls
+no
+i
+meant
+you
+should've
+crawled
+into
+a
+hole
+and
+fucking
+died
+and
+then
+the
+universe
+punches
+you
+right
+in
+the
+gut
+something
+like
+sixteen
+times
+and
+all
+you
+can
+think
+is
+some
+sixteenth
+birthday
+maybe
+i
+will
+go
+die
+in
+a
+hole
+yesterday
+at
+times
+like
+this
+is
+a
+luxury
+the
+cruel
+universe
+refuses
+to
+give
+you
+this
+is
+when
+it's
+a
+pain
+just
+to
+be
+when
+that
+marvell
+line
+about
+rolling
+our
+stuff
+into
+one
+ball
+just
+seems
+glib
+when
+you
+don't
+want
+one
+body
+let
+alone
+two
+something
+else
+that
+may
+come
+as
+a
+surprise
+to
+you
+over
+the
+past
+more-than-a-fortnight
+these
+sixteen
+days
+i've
+had
+nothing
+to
+eat
+but
+crackers
+and
+a
+cheese
+ball
+that's
+not
+entirely
+true
+yesterday
+i
+had
+some
+candy
+peppermints
+and
+jujubes
+maybe
+this
+is
+why
+i'm
+so
+mad
+at
+the
+universe
+because
+all
+it
+has
+ever
+wanted
+this
+universe
+that
+gave
+me
+life
+fed
+me
+from
+its
+breast
+til
+i
+was
+two
+and
+even
+before
+that
+made
+a
+place
+in
+which
+i
+could
+be
+all
+it's
+wanted
+was
+for
+me
+to
+take
+the
+sixteen
+steps
+to
+sobriety
+fold
+the
+eight-fold
+path
+over
+yesterday
+and
+step
+around
+it
+lightly
+as
+i
+would
+an
+exercise
+ball
+but
+the
+problem
+is
+dear
+universe
+there's
+no
+way
+i
+could
+be
+something
+as
+hard
+as
+all
+that
+to
+wake
+up
+yesterday
+morning
+stretch
+over
+my
+sixteen
+selves
+bound
+out
+like
+a
+ball
@@ -0,0 +1,409 @@
+in
+bed
+i
+i
+hear
+the
+rats
+run
+in
+the
+walls
+like
+water
+through
+a
+tree
+my
+blood
+thickens
+as
+i
+dream
+the
+masturbation
+dream
+the
+shelf
+above
+my
+bed
+falls
+covering
+me
+in
+dirt
+and
+decaying
+beetles
+i
+see
+my
+reflection
+is
+headless
+ii
+when
+the
+waves
+stop
+and
+the
+moon
+grins
+down
+to
+overtake
+me
+the
+car
+ran
+up
+the
+street
+that
+night
+when
+you
+were
+nearly
+molested
+in
+your
+neighbor's
+house
+is
+this
+why
+we
+don't
+have
+neighbors
+for
+this
+the
+trees
+rot
+only
+for
+us
+iii
+i
+woke
+screaming
+and
+you
+came
+to
+sit
+next
+to
+me
+i
+felt
+my
+eyes
+were
+open
+too
+wide
+that
+i
+could
+not
+shut
+them
+from
+the
+horror
+movie
+sitting
+on
+your
+lap
+in
+the
+easy
+chair
+in
+the
+dream
+the
+other
+dream
+in
+the
+living
+room
+under
+the
+tree
+why
+do
+i
+feel
+guilty
+iv
+i
+wake
+up
+in
+a
+pool
+of
+water
+closed
+over
+me
+like
+an
+eyelid
+there
+is
+no
+longer
+comfort
+in
+staring
+at
+the
+ceiling
+its
+pitch
+blackness
+beckons
+into
+a
+future
+of
+blankness
+my
+body
+lay
+still
+quaking
+my
+mind
+is
+chained
+fast
+to
+the
+beating
+of
+my
+heart
+v
+i
+sit
+up
+slowly
+creaking
+i
+find
+myself
+alone
+buried
+in
+an
+ocean
+far
+off
+there
+is
+an
+eagle
+flying
+toward
+me
+she
+lands
+on
+my
+knee
+and
+lays
+an
+egg
+i
+think
+not
+this
+again
+something
+i've
+never
+thought
+in
+my
+life
+vi
+i
+think
+not
+this
+again
+something
+i've
+never
+thought
+in
+my
+life
+not
+after
+losing
+my
+car
+keys
+in
+the
+easy
+chair
+not
+after
+scratching
+myself
+on
+a
+branch
+not
+after
+finding
+the
+thing
+in
+your
+dresser
+drawer
+that
+night
+i
+remember
+you
+suddenly
+vii
+you
+run
+through
+me
+like
+rats
+down
+an
+alley
+you
+are
+in
+my
+blood
+you
+scared
+me
+once
+remember
+jumped
+out
+of
+the
+bathroom
+door
+i
+fell
+screaming
+onto
+the
+linoleum
+did
+you
+apologize
+did
+you
+need
+to
+viii
+the
+ocean
+that
+surrounds
+me
+creaks
+like
+a
+rocking
+cradle
+your
+face
+bright
+as
+the
+moon
+at
+eclipse
+and
+as
+red
+low
+song
+my
+tide
+stretching
+to
+the
+horizon
+ripples
+on
+the
+surface
+belie
+something
+bigger
+beneath
+ix
+in
+bed
+i
+am
+alone
+for
+the
+only
+time
+in
+bed
+i
+am
+a
+grown
+man
+below
+the
+blankets
+i
+know
+you
+for
+who
+you
+are
+in
+bed
+i
+see
+your
+face
+pressed
+against
+the
+window
+i
+look
+out
+and
+see
+you
+and
+i
+am
+not
+afraid
@@ -0,0 +1,413 @@
+initial
+conditions
+there
+is
+a
+theory
+which
+states
+the
+universe
+if
+it
+began
+with
+the
+same
+initial
+conditions
+same
+gravity
+same
+strong
+weak
+nuclear
+force
+same
+size
+and
+shape
+would
+unfold
+in
+exactly
+the
+way
+it
+has
+with
+the
+same
+planets
+orbiting
+suns
+same
+people
+making
+same
+mistakes
+like
+this
+morning
+it's
+actually
+past
+two
+but
+i
+will
+call
+it
+morning
+while
+turning
+on
+the
+shower
+i
+as
+the
+universe
+intended
+although
+i
+was
+expecting
+the
+heat
+of
+suns
+had
+the
+ice
+of
+inner
+space
+those
+pre
+existing
+conditions
+before
+the
+big
+bang
+the
+shower
+was
+almost
+exactly
+freezing
+for
+a
+split
+second
+every
+day
+it's
+the
+same
+i
+turn
+on
+the
+tap
+hop
+in
+pull
+the
+knob
+have
+the
+same
+moment
+of
+utter
+panic
+then
+pain
+then
+a
+relaxing
+morning
+shower
+where
+i
+spend
+between
+five
+to
+ten
+i'm
+not
+sure
+exactly
+minutes
+i
+have
+good
+thoughts
+this
+poem
+about
+the
+universe
+for
+example
+i
+had
+the
+idea
+while
+i
+was
+conditioning
+my
+hair
+it
+came
+to
+me
+like
+accidentally
+looking
+at
+the
+sun
+the
+pain
+and
+the
+wonder
+that
+something
+as
+large
+as
+suns
+could
+appear
+so
+small
+and
+yet
+so
+hot
+all
+at
+the
+same
+time
+so
+hot
+in
+the
+summer
+we
+require
+air
+conditioning
+although
+now
+in
+the
+winter
+it's
+cold
+in
+the
+morning
+and
+i
+can't
+wait
+to
+hop
+in
+the
+shower
+that
+tiny
+universe
+of
+water
+and
+steam
+and
+soap
+and
+body
+that
+and
+only
+that
+exactly
+or
+rather
+exclusively
+it's
+hard
+to
+get
+the
+words
+exactly
+right
+the
+meanings
+bleed
+into
+each
+other
+like
+the
+sun's
+shadows
+on
+pavement
+ready
+for
+me
+to
+dream
+another
+universe
+into
+it
+on
+top
+of
+it
+again
+and
+again
+until
+they
+all
+look
+the
+same
+i
+can't
+tell
+whether
+it's
+my
+morning
+or
+the
+shower's
+morning
+or
+where
+i
+put
+the
+conditioner
+or
+what
+the
+initial
+conditions
+could
+have
+been
+that
+decided
+i
+would
+misplace
+my
+conditioner
+today
+and
+why
+and
+how
+much
+planning
+was
+involved
+exactly
+that
+would
+cause
+so
+far
+down
+the
+production
+line
+of
+this
+morning
+me
+to
+wake
+up
+so
+long
+after
+the
+rising
+of
+the
+sun
+me
+to
+stay
+inside
+all
+day
+even
+after
+showering
+to
+look
+at
+the
+same
+computer
+screen
+to
+give
+up
+the
+actual
+universe
+to
+the
+universe
+in
+there
+with
+its
+conditions
+where
+the
+screen
+serves
+as
+sickly
+sun
+where
+there
+is
+apparently
+exactly
+what
+i
+need
+no
+more
+the
+same
+three
+sites
+i
+visited
+this
+morning
+comprising
+my
+entire
+universe
@@ -0,0 +1,244 @@
+january
+january
+it's
+cold
+and
+i
+don't
+like
+it
+i
+prefer
+warm
+weather
+although
+i
+like
+sweaters
+they
+are
+the
+one
+warm
+spot
+in
+an
+otherwise
+shitty
+season
+but
+fall
+is
+better
+sweater
+weather
+so
+be
+patient
+patient
+while
+waiting
+for
+the
+end
+of
+january
+a
+change
+of
+season
+brings
+a
+change
+of
+mood
+along
+with
+it
+although
+i
+never
+thought
+i'd
+be
+one
+to
+believe
+that
+sad
+junk
+about
+effects
+of
+weather
+weather
+on
+a
+person
+who
+becomes
+a
+patient
+just
+because
+of
+one
+month
+of
+snow
+i
+did
+say
+of
+january
+it's
+cold
+and
+i
+don't
+like
+it
+but
+i
+hardly
+think
+it's
+fair
+knocking
+whole
+seasons
+seasoning
+your
+conversation
+with
+demands
+for
+better
+weather
+while
+i
+find
+it
+nearly
+impossible
+it's
+my
+mission
+to
+be
+patient
+while
+waiting
+for
+the
+end
+of
+january
+oh
+but
+how
+the
+long
+nights
+do
+so
+tax
+one
+one
+warm
+spot
+in
+an
+otherwise
+shitty
+season
+all
+i
+ask
+january
+is
+one
+warm
+day
+do
+you
+care
+whether
+i'm
+a
+person
+who
+becomes
+a
+patient
+in
+some
+psych
+ward
+this
+just
+about
+does
+it
+i
+t
+although
+i
+never
+thought
+i'd
+call
+one
+is
+fair
+and
+patient
+when
+i
+call
+they
+talk
+with
+me
+season
+my
+conversation
+of
+demands
+for
+better
+weather
+with
+an
+argument
+for
+the
+white
+beauty
+of
+january
+they
+know
+it's
+hard
+they
+say
+each
+season
+has
+its
+detractors
+one
+day
+they
+say
+the
+weather
+will
+be
+controlled
+until
+then
+patience
+in
+january
@@ -0,0 +1,257 @@
+joke
+he
+wrote
+jokes
+on
+the
+top
+of
+a
+page
+in
+his
+notebook
+he
+had
+run
+out
+of
+notecards
+and
+hadn't
+been
+able
+to
+convince
+his
+mother
+to
+go
+to
+the
+office
+supply
+store
+for
+him
+he
+left
+a
+space
+underneath
+it
+and
+wrote
+tell
+us
+a
+joke
+the
+listeners
+say
+to
+the
+clown
+they
+have
+gather
+together
+in
+the
+clearing
+because
+they
+have
+heard
+he
+would
+be
+there
+and
+they
+have
+heard
+he
+knew
+very
+funny
+jokes
+that
+were
+also
+true
+tell
+us
+a
+joke
+that
+is
+true
+they
+say
+the
+clown
+does
+not
+move
+from
+the
+stump
+he
+doesn't
+move
+at
+all
+the
+listeners
+watch
+gap-mouthed
+as
+a
+butterfly
+lands
+on
+his
+hat
+a
+breeze
+ruffles
+his
+coat
+and
+the
+butterfly
+flies
+away
+hours
+pass
+the
+listeners
+grow
+impatient
+some
+begin
+yelling
+insults
+at
+the
+clown
+eventually
+they
+begin
+to
+walk
+away
+into
+the
+woods
+the
+moon
+rises
+on
+the
+clearing
+the
+only
+people
+left
+are
+the
+clown
+and
+a
+listener
+the
+last
+listener
+she
+has
+been
+waiting
+for
+the
+joke
+a
+long
+time
+the
+clown
+opens
+his
+mouth
+and
+she
+leans
+in
+closer
+to
+hear
+he
+closes
+it
+as
+a
+tear
+falls
+onto
+his
+coat
+then
+another
+he
+opens
+his
+mouth
+again
+in
+a
+sob
+the
+listener
+walks
+over
+to
+him
+and
+puts
+a
+hand
+on
+his
+shoulder
+i'm
+sorry
+says
+the
+clown
+sorry
+for
+what
+she
+asks
+i
+don't
+know
+i
+don't
+know
+any
+jokes
+he
+disappears
+the
+last
+listener
+sits
+on
+the
+log
+and
+looks
+at
+the
+sky
+there
+are
+no
+stars
@@ -0,0 +1,362 @@
+l'appel
+du
+vide
+i
+walter
+walter
+rides
+the
+bus
+into
+work
+on
+wednesday
+morning
+when
+he
+realizes
+with
+the
+force
+and
+surprise
+of
+a
+rogue
+current
+that
+he
+is
+in
+the
+home-for-death
+phase
+of
+life
+that
+era
+in
+which
+the
+next
+time
+he
+goes
+under
+to
+the
+fields
+of
+seaweed
+waving
+gently
+the
+anemones
+slowly
+filtering
+seawater
+it
+will
+most
+likely
+be
+for
+a
+death
+in
+the
+family
+he
+is
+able
+to
+idly
+speculate
+on
+who
+it
+might
+be
+and
+this
+surprises
+him
+not
+much
+does
+surprise
+him
+after
+these
+few
+months
+above
+the
+waves
+because
+so
+many
+things
+did
+surprise
+him
+those
+first
+few
+months
+the
+plants
+standing
+still
+the
+quickness
+of
+the
+fluid
+these
+creatures
+walk
+in
+the
+lack
+of
+pressure
+that
+still
+makes
+him
+feel
+so
+alone
+and
+cold
+as
+if
+all
+of
+his
+life
+he
+had
+been
+in
+an
+embrace
+by
+the
+ocean
+and
+now
+for
+some
+reason
+it's
+pulled
+away
+from
+him
+and
+it
+doesn't
+love
+him
+anymore
+his
+speculations
+lead
+him
+to
+picture
+his
+grandmother
+small
+and
+frail
+and
+forgetful
+he
+always
+assumed
+she'd
+be
+next
+since
+last
+year
+when
+the
+other
+one
+died
+and
+gina
+said
+i
+wonder
+who'll
+be
+next
+she
+said
+what
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+after
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+he'd
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+up
+to
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+to
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+the
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+and
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+an
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+while
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+staring
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+in
+the
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+at
+the
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+his
+scales
+and
+fins
+and
+breathing
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+made
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+the
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+out
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+the
+problem
+was
+that
+the
+best
+wasn't
+good
+enough
+ii
+l'appel
+du
+vide
+and
+i'll
+get
+in
+my
+car
+and
+drive
+and
+i'll
+want
+to
+keep
+driving
+straight
+into
+the
+next
+state
+or
+even
+the
+next
+country
+or
+even
+even
+the
+ocean
+and
+go
+down
+deeper
+keep
+exploring
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+find
+out
+what's
+down
+there
+go
+to
+the
+marianas
+trench
+miss
+the
+air
+world
+and
+come
+back
+up
+itself
+a
+kind
+of
+unknown
+the
+homecoming
+after
+what
+happened
+to
+the
+home
+i
+was
@@ -0,0 +1,169 @@
+the
+largest
+asteroid
+in
+the
+asteroid
+belt
+what
+secrets
+does
+it
+hold
+can
+it
+tell
+us
+who
+kissed
+sara
+that
+night
+on
+the
+veranda
+or
+who
+joey
+is
+really
+in
+love
+with
+we
+all
+know
+it
+isn't
+sara
+we
+mean
+look
+at
+them
+christmas
+eve
+and
+he's
+staring
+whistfully
+at
+the
+stars
+or
+the
+largest
+asteroid
+in
+the
+asteroid
+belt
+she's
+staring
+at
+him
+sure
+but
+she
+sees
+the
+twinkle
+in
+his
+eye
+is
+not
+aimed
+in
+her
+direction
+the
+reflection
+of
+that
+reflection
+will
+beam
+into
+space
+lightyears
+of
+space
+dimming
+slowly
+each
+second
+until
+it
+dies
+out
+like
+all
+of
+sara's
+hopes
+for
+something
+resembling
+love
+in
+this
+life
+real
+love
+that
+takes
+hold
+of
+her
+by
+the
+throat
+and
+refuses
+to
+let
+go
+love
+that
+makes
+men
+travel
+for
+her
+and
+only
+for
+her
+love
+that
+launches
+space
+ships
+to
+that
+asteroid
+the
+largest
+in
+the
+asteroid
+belt
+that
+jewel
+of
+dead
+rock
+and
+ice
+harboring
+something
+that
+could've
+been
+life
+and
+nothing
+that
+actually
+is
@@ -0,0 +1,231 @@
+last
+bastion
+dimly
+remembered
+celebrity
+chefs
+shuffle
+down
+the
+cold
+and
+darkened
+highways
+of
+the
+heart
+they
+are
+the
+last
+personality
+left
+they
+are
+the
+meek
+who
+inherited
+the
+heart
+what
+was
+left
+of
+it
+without
+food
+to
+cook
+in
+new
+or
+exciting
+ways
+nor
+audience
+to
+gasp
+and
+cackle
+the
+chefs
+of
+the
+heart
+quietly
+waste
+away
+while
+staring
+doe-eyed
+into
+now-empty
+safeway
+windows
+checking
+under
+the
+dusty
+produce
+shelves
+for
+something
+they
+pray
+the
+rats
+haven't
+found
+yet
+years
+ago
+the
+economy
+of
+the
+heart
+boomed
+and
+there
+was
+food
+everywhere
+produce
+piled
+high
+in
+pyramids
+of
+devotion
+meat
+in
+gilded
+glass
+cases
+opulent
+under
+fluorescence
+dairy
+which
+ran
+like
+the
+mythical
+river
+toward
+cereals
+hot
+and
+cold
+under
+it
+all
+thrumming
+like
+great
+stone
+wheels
+on
+sand
+under
+a
+hot
+sun
+near
+a
+river
+where
+reeds
+sang
+in
+the
+wind
+the
+heart
+produced
+and
+gave
+reward
+for
+hard
+labor
+no
+one
+knows
+when
+it
+all
+ended
+no
+one
+can
+say
+if
+it
+was
+the
+heart
+that
+dried
+up
+or
+the
+heart's
+supply
+either
+way
+food
+of
+the
+heart
+became
+scarcer
+and
+scarcer
+people
+began
+dying
+not
+of
+starvation
+but
+of
+a
+certain
+facial
+expression
+that
+could
+only
+be
+described
+as
+desperation
+now
+all
+that
+are
+left
+are
+the
+celebrity
+chefs
+last
+bastion
+of
+a
+once
+mighty
+empire
+of
+the
+heart
+are
+reduced
+to
+husks
+blown
+dry
+by
+wind
@@ -0,0 +1,171 @@
+last
+passenger
+memory
+works
+strangely
+spooling
+its
+thread
+over
+the
+nails
+of
+events
+barely
+related
+creating
+finally
+some
+picture
+if
+we're
+lucky
+of
+a
+life
+but
+more
+likely
+it
+knots
+itself
+catches
+on
+a
+nail
+or
+in
+our
+throats
+that
+gasp
+as
+it
+binds
+our
+necks
+for
+air
+an
+example
+today
+marks
+one
+hundred
+years
+since
+your
+namesake
+the
+last
+living
+passenger
+pigeon
+died
+in
+cincinnati
+it
+also
+marks
+a
+year
+since
+we
+last
+spoke
+although
+around
+the
+world
+zoos
+mourn
+her
+loss
+i'm
+done
+with
+you
+i
+mourn
+no
+more
+your
+voice
+the
+first
+sound
+i
+heard
+outside
+my
+body
+that
+reached
+into
+my
+throat
+and
+set
+me
+ringing
+but
+that
+string
+memory
+that
+feels
+sometimes
+more
+like
+a
+tide
+has
+yoked
+together
+bound
+your
+voice
+to
+that
+bird
+the
+frozen
+stuffed
+forgotten
+pigeon
+my
+heart
+is
+too
+easy
+but
+it
+must
+do
+to
+blink
+to
+flex
+its
+unused
+toes
+slowly
+thaw
+to
+the
+wetness
+of
+beating
+wings
+fly
+to
+me
+again
+and
+alight
+singing
+full-throated
+on
+my
+broken
+shoulder
@@ -0,0 +1,163 @@
+leaf
+he
+shrugged
+the
+wood
+off
+his
+shoulder
+letting
+it
+fall
+with
+a
+clog
+onto
+the
+earth
+floor
+of
+his
+writing
+shack
+he
+exhaled
+looking
+out
+of
+the
+window
+he
+hoped
+to
+see
+a
+bird
+fly
+by
+maybe
+a
+blue
+jay
+or
+raven
+no
+bird
+did
+he
+inhaled
+he
+exhaled
+again
+in
+a
+way
+that
+could
+only
+be
+classified
+as
+a
+sigh
+he
+sat
+down
+at
+his
+writing
+desk
+he
+began
+shuffling
+through
+what
+he'd
+written
+trying
+to
+find
+some
+sort
+of
+pattern
+each
+piece
+of
+paper
+each
+leaf
+at
+this
+he
+smiled
+is
+like
+a
+tree
+in
+the
+forest
+he
+was
+writing
+as
+he
+thought
+aloud
+i
+as
+the
+artist
+as
+the
+writer
+must
+select
+which
+to
+use
+chop
+down
+those
+trees
+bring
+them
+back
+to
+my
+shed
+and
+and
+he
+frowned
+as
+he
+realized
+the
+only
+end
+to
+this
+metaphor
+was
+fire
+he
+ran
+his
+fingers
+through
+his
+hair
+in
+a
+self-soothing
+gesture
+i
+need
+to
+build
+some
+furniture
+he
+thought
@@ -0,0 +1,176 @@
+leg
+his
+first
+chair
+was
+a
+stool
+it
+was
+an
+uneven
+wobbly
+stool
+that
+would
+not
+support
+even
+forty
+pounds
+so
+my
+first
+chair
+is
+a
+broken
+stool
+he
+said
+after
+nearly
+breaking
+his
+tailbone
+on
+the
+dirt
+floor
+maybe
+i
+should
+start
+again
+but
+this
+time
+only
+with
+legs
+he
+began
+again
+but
+this
+time
+only
+with
+legs
+he
+built
+one
+leg
+which
+means
+he
+cut
+a
+straight
+piece
+of
+wood
+down
+to
+four
+feet
+in
+length
+whittled
+the
+bark
+off
+and
+sanded
+it
+down
+smooth
+in
+what
+he
+was
+now
+calling
+his
+woodworking
+shack
+he
+typed
+up
+a
+note
+on
+how
+to
+make
+chair
+legs
+making
+chair
+legs
+get
+longish
+piece
+of
+wood
+cut
+it
+to
+length
+4
+feet
+i'd
+recommend
+whittle
+off
+bark
+sand
+smooth
+the
+leg
+after
+he
+tried
+remembered
+tried
+standing
+the
+leg
+up
+failing
+and
+after
+much
+thought
+realizing
+that
+the
+ends
+needed
+to
+be
+flat
+he
+typed
+one
+more
+line
+on
+his
+notecard
+make
+ends
+flat
+he
+had
+no
+tools
+with
+which
+to
+flatten
+the
+ends
+of
+his
+leg
@@ -0,0 +1,501 @@
+liking
+things
+the
+definition
+of
+happiness
+is
+doing
+stuff
+that
+you
+really
+like
+that
+stuff
+can
+be
+eating
+soup
+going
+to
+the
+bathroom
+walking
+the
+dog
+playing
+dungeons
+and
+dragons
+whatever
+keeps
+your
+mind
+off
+the
+fact
+that
+you're
+so
+goddamn
+unhappy
+all
+the
+time
+that
+incidentally
+is
+the
+definition
+of
+like
+that
+feeling
+you
+get
+when
+you
+forget
+how
+miserable
+you
+are
+for
+just
+a
+little
+bit
+thus
+people
+like
+doing
+stuff
+they
+like
+all
+the
+time
+as
+often
+as
+possible
+because
+if
+they
+remember
+how
+horrible
+they
+really
+feel
+at
+not
+having
+a
+background
+to
+put
+themselves
+against
+they
+will
+want
+to
+hurt
+themselves
+and
+those
+around
+them
+the
+funny
+thing
+is
+that
+something
+we
+people
+really
+like
+to
+do
+is
+hurt
+ourselves
+and
+those
+around
+us
+we
+do
+this
+by
+thinking
+other
+people
+are
+more
+unhappy
+than
+we
+are
+we
+convince
+themselves
+that
+we
+are
+truly
+happy
+ecstatic
+even
+while
+they
+merely
+plod
+around
+life
+half-heartedly
+or
+if
+they're
+lucky
+incorrectly
+we
+take
+it
+upon
+ourselves
+seeing
+as
+we
+are
+so
+happy
+and
+can
+spare
+a
+little
+bit
+of
+happiness
+to
+help
+them
+become
+happy
+as
+well
+we
+fail
+to
+realize
+that
+the
+people
+will
+probably
+not
+appreciate
+our
+thinking
+that
+we're
+better
+than
+they
+are
+somehow
+for
+that
+is
+what
+we
+do
+even
+if
+we
+don't
+mean
+it
+we
+forget
+that
+we
+are
+also
+unhappy
+and
+that
+we
+are
+just
+doing
+things
+we
+like
+in
+order
+to
+cheer
+ourselves
+up
+a
+little
+bit
+which
+really
+means
+that
+this
+cheering
+is
+working
+but
+there
+is
+such
+a
+thing
+as
+working
+too
+well
+so
+in
+a
+sense
+what
+i'm
+doing
+here
+is
+cheering
+myself
+up
+by
+reminding
+you
+that
+you
+are
+unhappy
+i'm
+trying
+to
+keep
+you
+honest
+in
+your
+unhappiness
+and
+i
+admit
+this
+is
+usually
+called
+a
+dick
+move
+in
+fact
+the
+best
+way
+to
+overcome
+happy-hungering
+this
+is
+the
+term
+as
+i
+dub
+it
+is
+commit
+as
+many
+dick
+moves
+as
+possible
+to
+keep
+people
+remembering
+that
+unhappiness
+abounds
+if
+you
+see
+someone
+smiling
+like
+a
+little
+dog
+who
+knows
+it's
+about
+to
+get
+pet
+or
+get
+a
+treat
+or
+go
+to
+the
+vet
+to
+donate
+doggy
+sperm
+smile
+back
+grin
+toothily
+a
+little
+too
+toothily
+for
+a
+little
+too
+long
+their
+smile
+will
+start
+to
+fade
+if
+you're
+doing
+it
+right
+saunter
+to
+them
+slide
+as
+if
+you're
+an
+olympic
+quality
+ice-skater
+as
+if
+you're
+a
+really
+good
+bowler
+who
+knows
+he's
+playing
+against
+twelve
+year
+olds
+and'll
+win
+by
+a
+hundred
+get
+really
+close
+far
+too
+close
+for
+what
+most
+people
+would
+call
+comfort
+and
+remind
+them
+of
+how
+awful
+life
+can
+be
+i
+really
+like
+your
+shirt
+really
+only
+children
+chained
+to
+looms
+can
+get
+that
+tight
+of
+a
+weave
+you
+can
+say
+or
+you're
+not
+really
+going
+to
+recycle
+that
+coffee
+cup
+are
+you
+they
+will
+probably
+get
+angry
+but
+that's
+what's
+supposed
+to
+happen
+by
+making
+dick
+moves
+you
+can
+overcome
+what
+may
+be
+the
+biggest
+evil
+on
+this
+earth
+happy-hungering
@@ -0,0 +1,34 @@
+listen
+if
+you
+swallow
+hard
+enough
+you'll
+feel
+the
+stone
+the
+one
+we
+all
+have
+waiting
+once
+i
+found
+the
+stone
+in
+the
+sea
+it
+kissed
+me
+as
+the
+sea
+pawed
+at
+my
+back
@@ -0,0 +1,333 @@
+love
+as
+god
+god
+is
+love
+they
+say
+but
+there
+is
+no
+god
+therefore
+how
+can
+there
+be
+love
+and
+if
+there
+is
+no
+love
+how
+can
+there
+be
+god
+there
+are
+things
+in
+life
+i
+suppose
+that
+are
+simply
+unanswerable
+mysteries
+of
+existence
+maybe
+this
+god
+and
+love
+are
+one
+maybe
+there
+are
+many
+loves
+instead
+of
+one
+the
+difference
+between
+what
+isn't
+and
+what
+is
+could
+merely
+be
+one
+of
+scope
+the
+mystery
+is
+how
+we
+speak
+only
+of
+one
+love
+to
+act
+as
+though
+we
+know
+we
+are
+supposed
+to
+love
+only
+one
+other
+or
+that
+one
+other
+and
+god
+but
+supposing
+that
+one
+other
+is
+god
+what
+then
+is
+the
+god-lover
+to
+walk
+alone
+supported
+by
+god
+only
+when
+he
+feels
+he
+is
+supposed
+to
+support
+her
+what
+kind
+of
+love
+is
+this
+i
+would
+argue
+in
+fact
+this
+isn't
+love
+this
+one-set-of-footprints-in-the-sand
+mystery
+how
+to
+define
+two
+loves
+as
+one
+is
+the
+mystery
+it's
+obvious
+to
+many
+there
+is
+a
+thing
+called
+god
+and
+just
+as
+obvious
+that
+there
+is
+one
+called
+love
+maybe
+we
+fool
+ourselves
+we
+who
+can't
+be
+alone
+maybe
+we
+don't
+know
+what
+either
+god
+or
+love
+is
+maybe
+and
+perhaps
+but
+i
+for
+one
+propose
+that
+we
+as
+only
+humans
+are
+not
+supposed
+to
+know
+or
+understand
+capital-l
+life
+that
+mystery
+isn't
+it
+enough
+to
+know
+that
+god
+is
+love
+and
+love
+is
+god
+no
+matter
+which
+one
+does
+or
+does
+not
+exist
+what
+is
+life
+if
+no
+love
+if
+no
+god
+maybe
+this
+saying
+god
+is
+love
+is
+less
+a
+definition
+of
+god
+what
+what
+love
+is
+supposed
+to
+be
+of
+these
+two
+terms
+maybe2
+the
+one
+we
+should
+capitalize
+is
+love
+that
+great
+mystery
+of
+chemistry
+and
+longing
+maybe
+love
+is
+god
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@@ -0,0 +1,244 @@
+love
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+walking
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+you
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+to
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+what
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+to
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+telling
+you
+can
+you
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+you
+see
+into
+me
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+reach
+in
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+pull
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+an
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+to
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+that
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+want
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+you
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+man
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+man
+refused
+to
+open
+his
+eyes
+paul
+read
+this
+on
+an
+old
+mugshot
+in
+the
+library
+he
+had
+taken
+the
+bus
+into
+town
+to
+check
+out
+a
+few
+books
+on
+woodworking
+and
+got
+distracted
+by
+the
+true
+crime
+section
+he
+found
+this
+mugshot
+in
+a
+book
+titled
+crooks
+like
+us
+that
+was
+published
+in
+sydney
+he
+liked
+how
+cities
+were
+named
+after
+women
+or
+how
+women
+were
+named
+after
+cities
+whichever
+was
+true
+the
+man
+in
+the
+picture's
+eyes
+were
+tightly
+shut
+as
+though
+he'd
+just
+come
+into
+the
+brightness
+of
+day
+after
+being
+dark
+inside
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+a
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+his
+head
+was
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+up
+and
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+to
+the
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+was
+wearing
+a
+short
+light
+tie
+with
+hash
+marks
+and
+a
+pinstripe
+suit
+paul
+wished
+the
+photograph
+was
+in
+color
+he
+was
+standing
+in
+front
+of
+a
+plain
+brown
+wall
+covered
+in
+fabric
+the
+man's
+eyes
+were
+not
+so
+tightly
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+as
+paul
+first
+thought
+his
+eyebrows
+lifted
+away
+from
+the
+eyes
+giving
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+a
+bemused
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+slightly
+opened
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+why
+the
+ears
+made
+the
+man
+look
+happier
+he
+wondered
+what
+crime
+he
+had
+committed
+above
+the
+man's
+head
+was
+written
+t
+bede
+22
+11
+28
+/
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+a
+this
+man
+refused
+to
+open
+his
+eyes
+was
+written
+over
+his
+suit
+directly
+below
+his
+ribcage
@@ -0,0 +1,141 @@
+the
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+them
+under
+into
+the
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+you
+shadow
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+darkness
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+little
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+are
+fleeting
+like
+foam
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+a
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+sea
+my
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+the
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+death
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+strength
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+headlights
+like
+an
+ocean
+might
+want
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+moon
+as
+a
+seducer
+as
+a
+lover
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+the
+moon
+is
+gone
+and
+in
+its
+place
+a
+mirror
+the
+moon
+is
+gone
+and
+in
+its
+place
+a
+mirror
+looking
+at
+the
+night
+sky
+now
+yields
+nothing
+but
+the
+viewer's
+own
+face
+as
+viewed
+from
+a
+million
+miles
+surrounded
+by
+the
+landscape
+he
+is
+only
+vaguely
+aware
+of
+being
+surrounded
+by
+he
+believes
+that
+he
+is
+alone
+surrounded
+by
+desert
+and
+mountain
+but
+behind
+him
+he
+now
+sees
+it
+someone
+is
+sneaking
+up
+on
+him
+he
+spins
+around
+fast
+but
+no
+one
+is
+there
+on
+earth
+he
+looks
+back
+up
+and
+they
+are
+yet
+closer
+in
+the
+night
+sky
+again
+he
+looks
+over
+his
+shoulder
+but
+there
+is
+nothing
+not
+even
+a
+desert
+mouse
+as
+he
+looks
+up
+again
+he
+realizes
+it's
+a
+cloud
+above
+him
+which
+due
+to
+optics
+has
+looked
+like
+someone
+else
+the
+cloud
+blocks
+out
+the
+moon
+which
+is
+now
+a
+mirror
+and
+the
+viewer
+is
+completely
+alone
@@ -0,0 +1,106 @@
+the
+mountain
+the
+other
+side
+of
+this
+mountain
+is
+not
+the
+mountain
+this
+side
+is
+honey-golden
+sticky-sweet
+full
+of
+phone
+conversations
+with
+mother
+the
+other
+side
+is
+a
+bell
+ringing
+in
+the
+church-steeple
+the
+day
+mother
+died
+the
+other
+side
+of
+the
+mountain
+is
+not
+a
+mountain
+it
+is
+a
+dark
+valley
+crossed
+by
+a
+river
+there
+is
+a
+ferry
+at
+the
+bottom
+this
+mountain
+is
+not
+a
+mountain
+i
+walked
+to
+the
+top
+but
+it
+turned
+and
+was
+only
+a
+shelf
+halfway
+up
+i
+felt
+like
+an
+unused
+bible
+sitting
+on
+a
+dusty
+pew
+a
+hawk
+soars
+over
+the
+mountain
+she
+is
+looking
+for
+home
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+moving
+sideways
+a
+dog
+moving
+sideways
+is
+sick
+a
+man
+moving
+sideways
+is
+drunk
+thus
+if
+you
+want
+to
+be
+mindful
+of
+the
+movings
+of
+the
+universe
+sideways
+become
+either
+drunk
+or
+sick
+by
+doing
+this
+you
+remove
+yourself
+from
+the
+equation
+and
+are
+able
+to
+observe
+without
+being
+observed
+the
+universe
+as
+it
+dances
+sideways
+drunkenly
+shit
+wait
+the
+problem
+is
+not
+that
+by
+observing
+you
+are
+observed
+although
+quantum
+mechanics
+may
+disagreequantum
+mechanics
+as
+is
+well
+known
+are
+the
+most
+hornery
+and
+least
+agreeable
+of
+all
+mechanics
+the
+cost
+to
+get
+one
+quantum
+serviced
+is
+usually
+at
+least
+eight
+times
+more
+expensive
+than
+the
+cost
+of
+an
+average
+automobile
+tune-up
+for
+reasons
+not
+clearly
+known
+the
+quantum
+mechanics
+themselves
+claim
+it's
+the
+smallness
+of
+their
+work
+that
+justifies
+the
+price
+but
+it
+doesn't
+really
+look
+like
+they're
+doing
+anything
+and
+besides
+my
+quantum
+always
+seems
+to
+break
+again
+within
+six
+months
+maybe
+i'm
+just
+driving
+it
+too
+hard
+because
+obviously
+dogs
+don't
+know
+we're
+observing
+them
+when
+we
+watch
+them
+through
+cameras
+in
+their
+little
+yard
+while
+they
+play
+and
+eat
+and
+poop
+who
+poops
+knowingly
+on
+camera
+the
+problem
+is
+the
+actual
+act
+of
+observing
+that
+distorts
+the
+world
+into
+what
+we
+want
+it
+to
+be
+what
+i
+want
+to
+know
+is
+this
+why
+is
+this
+necessarily
+a
+problem
+the
+dog
+is
+made
+by
+mankind
+to
+frolic
+and
+poop
+and
+sniff
+and
+growl
+and
+dig
+why
+cannot
+the
+man
+be
+made
+to
+observe
+the
+world
+incorrectly
+around
+him
+and
+worry
+about
+it
+men
+have
+always
+wandered
+about
+the
+earth
+does
+it
+not
+make
+sense
+that
+also
+they
+should
+wonder
+in
+their
+minds
+what
+makes
+it
+all
+work
+i
+attempted
+to
+strike
+this
+terrible
+pun
+from
+the
+account
+but
+hezekiah
+demanded
+i
+keep
+it
+if
+he
+were
+to
+continue
+the
+relation
+of
+his
+prophecy-slash-advice
+column
+in
+fact
+this
+is
+the
+very
+center
+of
+the
+creative
+being
+the
+ability
+to
+move
+sideways
+to
+dance
+with
+reality
+and
+judge
+it
+as
+it
+judges
+you
+much
+like
+teenagers
+at
+the
+junior
+prom
+of
+course
+reality
+doesn't
+judge
+us
+back
+but
+that
+doesn't
+mean
+that
+it
+doesn't
+if
+you
+think
+it's
+judging
+you
+then
+observe
+in
+your
+surroundings
+your
+own
+insecurities
+it
+is
+obvious
+that
+this
+way
+of
+doing
+things
+is
+far
+from
+vogue
+usually
+projecting
+inner
+pain
+onto
+the
+outer
+world
+is
+classified
+as
+pathology
+however
+this
+is
+because
+it
+is
+assumed
+that
+the
+outer
+world
+is
+on
+its
+own
+terms
+which
+it
+obviously
+isn't
+as
+far
+as
+we
+know
+it
+follows
+that
+as
+there
+is
+no
+backdrop
+against
+which
+to
+judge
+our
+quirks
+the
+quirks
+must
+not
+exist
+thus
+all
+is
+right
+with
+the
+world
@@ -0,0 +1,178 @@
+notes
+paul
+began
+typing
+on
+notecards
+somehow
+this
+felt
+right
+to
+his
+sensibilities
+it
+was
+difficult
+to
+get
+the
+little
+cards
+into
+the
+typewriter
+it
+was
+a
+pain
+to
+readjust
+the
+typewriter
+for
+regular
+paper
+when
+he
+wasn't
+writing
+he
+started
+typing
+everything
+on
+those
+little
+notecards
+grocery
+lists
+letters
+to
+his
+grandmother
+even
+reports
+for
+work
+which
+is
+what
+got
+him
+in
+trouble
+but
+this
+was
+all
+later
+for
+now
+he
+was
+writing
+his
+ideas
+notes
+he
+now
+called
+them
+something
+for
+him
+to
+combine
+later
+into
+something
+he
+didn't
+like
+to
+think
+about
+it
+on
+this
+particular
+cold
+winter
+morning
+he
+wrote
+woke
+up
+from
+a
+dream
+i
+was
+famous
+one
+of
+the
+more
+famous
+people
+in
+fact
+i
+had
+written
+something
+everyone
+could
+relate
+to
+and
+at
+the
+same
+time
+proved
+my
+parents
+wrong
+because
+i
+made
+a
+lot
+of
+money
+or
+not
+a
+lot
+but
+enough
+and
+more
+than
+they
+thought
+i
+would
+it
+was
+a
+good
+day
+woke
+up
+this
+morning
+and
+i
+was
+still
+cold
+still
+paul
+still
+not
+good
+at
+furniture
@@ -0,0 +1,94 @@
+nothing
+is
+ever
+over
+nothing
+is
+ever
+over
+nothing
+is
+ever
+even
+begun
+the
+foundation
+hasn't
+been
+laid
+how
+can
+we
+hope
+to
+put
+in
+the
+plumbing
+the
+bed
+is
+unmade
+not
+even
+made
+the
+wood
+hasn't
+been
+cleft
+from
+the
+tree
+the
+seed
+hasn't
+been
+cast
+out
+of
+water
+and
+growth
+and
+sun
+which
+itself
+hasn't
+started
+shining
+the
+cock
+has
+never
+stopped
+crowing
+because
+he
+never
+started
+peter
+betrays
+us
+again
+and
+again
+with
+silence
+christ
+wakes
+up
+at
+night
+choking
+from
+a
+bad
+dream
+wrists
+aching
+from
+a
+dreamt
+torturous
+pain
@@ -0,0 +1,123 @@
+on
+formal
+poetry
+i
+think
+that
+i
+could
+write
+formal
+poems
+exclusively
+or
+at
+least
+inclusive
+with
+all
+the
+other
+stuff
+i
+write
+i
+guess
+of
+course
+i've
+already
+written
+a
+few
+this
+one
+included
+though
+formal
+is
+maybe
+a
+stretch
+is
+blank
+verse
+a
+form
+what
+is
+form
+anyway
+i
+picture
+old
+women
+counting
+stitches
+on
+their
+knitting
+keeping
+iambs
+next
+to
+iambs
+in
+lines
+as
+straight
+and
+sure
+as
+arrows
+but
+my
+sock
+is
+lumpy
+poorly
+made
+it's
+beginning
+to
+unravel
+stresses
+don't
+line
+up
+syl
+lables
+forced
+to
+fit
+like
+mcnugget
+molds
+that
+clich
+on
+the
+arrow
+i'm
+aware
+my
+prepositions
+too
+god
+where's
+it
+stop
+the
+answer
+never
+i
+will
+never
+stop
+writing
+poems
+or
+hating
+what
+i
+write
@@ -0,0 +1,303 @@
+options
+what
+did
+he
+do
+when
+he
+was
+in
+the
+woods
+where
+did
+he
+go
+was
+there
+always
+one
+spot
+one
+clearing
+deep
+within
+the
+heart
+of
+them
+that
+he
+would
+visit
+did
+he
+talk
+to
+the
+trees
+or
+only
+to
+himself
+when
+he
+chopped
+down
+trees
+did
+he
+leave
+them
+there
+to
+rot
+in
+the
+quiet
+or
+did
+he
+drag
+them
+out
+of
+the
+woods
+behind
+his
+shack
+and
+dismember
+them
+did
+he
+use
+any
+for
+firewood
+or
+did
+the
+pieces
+rot
+behind
+his
+shack
+forgotten
+when
+was
+the
+last
+time
+he
+built
+any
+furniture
+did
+he
+get
+any
+better
+at
+building
+it
+or
+did
+he
+just
+quit
+at
+some
+point
+let
+the
+desire
+to
+create
+fall
+behind
+him
+like
+a
+forgotten
+felled
+tree
+a
+tree
+fell
+in
+the
+forest
+did
+it
+make
+a
+noise
+paul
+typed
+his
+thoughts
+on
+cards
+or
+wrote
+them
+in
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+did
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+read
+it
+if
+anyone
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+was
+his
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+changed
+for
+the
+better
+or
+the
+worse
+did
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+glance
+at
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+mess
+in
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+top
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+desk
+as
+he
+cleaned
+the
+shack
+out
+long
+after
+paul
+had
+quit
+using
+it
+did
+he
+put
+tools
+in
+there
+or
+leave
+it
+empty
+what
+did
+he
+do
+with
+the
+desk
+did
+he
+add
+it
+to
+the
+pile
+of
+rotting
+wood
+out
+back
+or
+did
+he
+chop
+it
+up
+for
+a
+bonfire
+with
+friends
+or
+a
+cozy
+fire
+with
+his
+wife
+and
+children
+or
+did
+he
+take
+it
+to
+the
+dump
+three
+miles
+away
+to
+rot
+there
+are
+these
+all
+the
+options
+did
+paul
+ever
+think
+about
+any
+of
+this
+walking
+in
+the
+woods
+one
+afternoon
+after
+becoming
+frustrated
+with
+his
+writing
+did
+he
+sit
+on
+a
+stump
+and
+cry
+did
+he
+wonder
+whether
+he
+should
+have
+made
+other
+choices
+did
+he
+consider
+quitting
+smoking
@@ -0,0 +1,543 @@
+ouroboros
+of
+memory
+he
+said
+at
+the
+beginning
+it's
+like
+rolling
+yarn
+into
+a
+too-small
+ball
+sure
+you
+can
+roll
+the
+memories
+around
+for
+a
+while
+and
+maybe
+even
+use
+some
+of
+them
+eventually
+though
+you'll
+wind
+them
+all
+the
+way
+out
+and
+you'll
+be
+left
+with
+nothing
+but
+a
+small
+loop
+you
+can
+tie
+this
+loop
+around
+your
+finger
+and
+start
+wrapping
+your
+body
+but
+this
+is
+an
+extension
+of
+the
+same
+problem
+you'll
+turn
+into
+a
+mummy
+of
+memory
+there'll
+be
+nothing
+left
+underneath
+but
+a
+dead
+body
+but
+what
+does
+it
+mean
+to
+remember
+the
+body
+with
+the
+body
+i
+imagine
+a
+creature
+made
+of
+memory
+putting
+its
+feet
+in
+its
+mouth
+turning
+into
+a
+ball
+in
+this
+way
+it
+could
+roll
+all
+around
+the
+landscape
+of
+its
+memory
+i've
+tried
+explaining
+this
+to
+other
+people
+but
+it
+doesn't
+make
+any
+sense
+to
+them
+the
+task
+of
+eating
+one's
+feet
+is
+to
+them
+an
+unsolvable
+problem
+they
+seem
+to
+forgotten
+that
+as
+babies
+they
+were
+able
+to
+make
+themselves
+into
+loops
+so
+i
+increase
+the
+count
+to
+two
+two
+snakes
+eating
+each
+other's
+tales
+forming
+a
+loop
+in
+this
+way
+they
+are
+able
+to
+put
+two
+heads
+on
+one
+body
+this
+doubles
+the
+number
+of
+memories
+which
+really
+only
+exacerbates
+the
+problem
+it's
+like
+trying
+to
+roll
+two
+different
+materials
+up
+into
+a
+ball
+the
+people
+i
+tell
+this
+to
+don't
+understand
+this
+either
+they
+say
+using
+two
+animals
+makes
+sense
+to
+them
+they
+say
+there
+must
+be
+different
+types
+of
+memory
+i
+disagree
+with
+this
+theory
+of
+memory
+i
+think
+there
+is
+at
+bottom
+only
+one
+type
+of
+anything
+with
+subtypes
+grouped
+together
+along
+the
+edge
+of
+a
+loop
+color
+becomes
+a
+good
+metaphor
+look
+how
+many
+of
+them
+yet
+they
+are
+all
+consumed
+by
+the
+same
+part
+of
+the
+body
+maybe
+two
+different
+materials
+are
+still
+made
+of
+material
+and
+maybe
+they
+can
+be
+rolled
+into
+a
+ball
+maybe
+there
+actually
+never
+was
+a
+problem
+or
+maybe
+and
+this
+is
+more
+likely
+i
+need
+to
+restate
+the
+problem
+i
+think
+it
+all
+boils
+down
+to
+the
+fact
+that
+i
+have
+a
+truly
+lousy
+memory
+i've
+tried
+different
+mnemonic
+devices
+like
+imagining
+each
+thing
+i
+need
+to
+remember
+being
+visited
+by
+a
+bouncing
+ball
+i've
+tried
+trying
+string
+into
+finger-loops
+i've
+even
+tried
+writing
+the
+things
+i
+need
+to
+remember
+on
+my
+body
+if
+you
+asked
+me
+do
+any
+of
+these
+work
+i
+would
+have
+to
+answer
+none
+of
+them
+sometimes
+in
+the
+morning
+i
+realize
+dumbly
+i've
+forgotten
+my
+words
+all
+of
+them
+they
+generally
+come
+back
+by
+around
+ten
+o'clock
+but
+the
+frequency
+with
+which
+this
+is
+occurring
+is
+becoming
+a
+problem
+i
+feel
+that
+my
+brain
+is
+being
+separated
+from
+my
+body
+is
+there
+a
+place
+in
+the
+universe
+for
+a
+misplaced
+memory
+does
+it
+eat
+its
+own
+tail
+and
+roll
+around
+the
+universe
+as
+it
+loops
+does
+it
+shrink
+down
+and
+become
+lost
+as
+a
+tiny
+ball
+no
+matter
+what
+happens
+eventually
+i
+will
+become
+them
+as
+i
+lose
+the
+last
+of
+my
+memory
+i
+won't
+be
+able
+to
+solve
+the
+problem
+of
+my
+being
+and
+my
+being
+will
+become
+my
+problem
+in
+an
+eternal
+loop
+i
+will
+roll
+my
+body
+into
+a
+prenatal
+ball
@@ -0,0 +1,119 @@
+paul
+contents
+of
+the
+shed
+typewriter
+writing
+desk
+notecards
+top
+drawer
+of
+desk
+pen
+fountain
+inkpot
+empty
+wood
+a
+lot
+more
+out
+back
+bare
+lightbulb
+candle
+wooden
+shelf
+with
+tools
+claw
+hammer
+screwdriver
+prybar
+2x
+wrench
+different
+kinds
+tiller
+machine
+push
+lawnmower
+hatchet
+axe
+he
+typed
+the
+list
+in
+the
+typewriter
+and
+looked
+around
+some
+more
+he
+wanted
+to
+make
+sure
+he
+didn't
+miss
+anything
+finally
+it
+hit
+him
+and
+he
+smiled
+he
+typed
+one
+more
+line
+stood
+up
+and
+went
+out
+of
+the
+shed
+paul
+bunyon
+he
+got
+some
+kerosene
+from
+under
+the
+house
+poured
+it
+around
+the
+base
+of
+the
+shed
+lit
+a
+cigarette
+he
+smoked
+half
+of
+it
+and
+threw
+it
+down
+to
+start
+the
+fire
@@ -0,0 +1,227 @@
+philosophy
+importance
+is
+important
+but
+meaning
+is
+meaningful
+here
+we
+are
+at
+the
+crux
+of
+the
+matter
+for
+both
+meaning
+and
+importance
+are
+also
+human-formed
+so
+it
+would
+seem
+that
+nothing
+is
+important
+or
+meaningful
+if
+importance
+and
+meaning
+are
+of
+themselves
+only
+products
+of
+the
+fallible
+human
+intellect
+but
+here
+is
+the
+great
+secret
+so
+is
+the
+fallibility
+of
+the
+human
+intellect
+a
+mere
+product
+of
+the
+fallible
+human
+intellect
+the
+question
+here
+arises
+is
+anything
+real
+and
+not
+a
+mere
+invention
+of
+a
+mistaken
+human
+mind
+by
+real
+of
+course
+i
+mean
+that
+which
+is
+on
+its
+own
+terms
+that
+is
+without
+any
+modification
+on
+the
+part
+of
+mankind
+by
+observing
+it
+but
+such
+a
+thing
+is
+impossible
+to
+be
+known
+for
+if
+it
+be
+known
+it
+has
+certainly
+been
+observed
+by
+someone
+and
+so
+it
+is
+not
+on
+its
+own
+terms
+but
+on
+the
+terms
+of
+the
+observer
+so
+it
+cannot
+be
+known
+if
+anything
+exists
+on
+its
+own
+terms
+for
+it
+exists
+on
+its
+own
+terms
+we
+certainly
+will
+not
+know
+anything
+about
+it
+by
+this
+it
+is
+possible
+to
+see
+that
+nothing
+is
+knowable
+without
+the
+mediating
+factor
+of
+our
+mind
+fucking
+up
+the
+raw
+the
+real
+world
+but
+by
+this
+time
+it
+would
+seem
+that
+this
+chapter
+is
+far
+far
+too
+philosophical
+not
+to
+mention
+pretentious
+so
+i
+must
+try
+again
@@ -0,0 +1,246 @@
+phone
+hello
+paul
+this
+is
+jill
+jill
+noe
+remember
+me
+the
+voice
+on
+the
+phone
+was
+a
+woman's
+he
+nodded
+into
+the
+receiver
+hello
+jill
+asked
+again
+hello
+paul
+remembered
+that
+phones
+work
+by
+talking
+and
+said
+hello
+jill
+do
+you
+remember
+me
+she
+asked
+we
+were
+in
+school
+together
+how
+have
+you
+been
+pretty
+well
+said
+paul
+i've
+been
+writing
+and
+making
+furniture
+oh
+that's
+nice
+said
+the
+woman's
+voice
+tinny
+in
+the
+phone
+listen
+i
+ran
+into
+your
+mother
+at
+the
+supermarket
+the
+other
+day
+and
+she
+said
+you
+need
+a
+job
+you
+still
+need
+one
+paul
+had
+to
+tell
+the
+truth
+his
+mother
+was
+watching
+him
+out
+of
+the
+corner
+of
+her
+eye
+as
+she
+was
+playing
+dominoes
+at
+the
+kitchen
+table
+yes
+he
+said
+sighing
+although
+woodworking
+takes
+up
+much
+of
+my
+time
+ok
+she
+laughed
+uncomortably
+i
+actually
+have
+something
+you
+could
+do
+for
+me
+if
+you
+think
+you
+can
+get
+away
+from
+woodworking
+a
+bit
+it's
+just
+data
+entry
+really
+basic
+stuff
+entry-level
+what's
+it
+pay
+he
+asked
+minimum
+but
+there
+is
+room
+for
+movement
+ok
+he
+said
+start
+on
+monday
+okay
+sure
+he
+said
+bye
+and
+the
+tin
+voice
+in
+the
+phone
+said
+goodbye
+paul
+see
+you
+by
+the
+time
+he
+put
+it
+back
+on
+the
+hook
+who
+was
+that
+asked
+his
+mother
+jill
+noe
+he
+said
+oh
+her
+was
+she
+calling
+about
+a
+job
+for
+you
+yes
+starts
+monday
+he
+said
+she
+smiled
+behind
+her
+glasses
+reflecting
+dominoes
@@ -0,0 +1,147 @@
+planks
+everything
+changes
+or
+everything
+stays
+the
+same
+this
+sat
+alone
+on
+a
+blank
+notecard
+in
+paul's
+typewriter
+he
+stared
+at
+it
+sipping
+at
+his
+too-hot
+coffee
+this
+made
+sense
+to
+him
+he
+looked
+at
+the
+spot
+on
+the
+wall
+where
+he
+wanted
+a
+window
+to
+be
+at
+the
+rough
+planks
+above
+his
+desk
+as
+they
+were
+lit
+by
+the
+bare
+hanging
+lightbulb
+he
+sipped
+his
+coffee
+again
+it
+was
+still
+too
+hot
+his
+woodworking
+shack
+was
+becoming
+full
+of
+wood
+that
+was
+not
+furniture
+he
+feared
+it
+would
+never
+become
+so
+he
+threw
+open
+the
+door
+to
+the
+snow
+and
+the
+ground
+below
+it
+he
+reached
+for
+his
+axe
+on
+the
+wall
+he
+reconsidered
+he
+took
+a
+few
+tentative
+steps
+onto
+the
+blankness
+on
+his
+own
+he
+wasn't
+cold
+not
+yet
+he
+walked
+into
+the
+forest
+the
+snow
+crunched
+under
+his
+feet
+and
+did
+not
+echo
@@ -0,0 +1,639 @@
+litany
+for
+a
+plant
+i
+need
+a
+plant
+i
+need
+a
+thing
+to
+take
+care
+of
+i
+need
+a
+little
+green
+brownspotted
+blackdirt
+growing
+quietness
+i
+need
+a
+sunlit
+dawn
+knowing
+my
+name
+filtered
+through
+a
+thin
+green
+window
+i
+need
+chlorophyll
+working
+its
+magic
+on
+beams
+of
+grassmade
+early
+morning
+dewdrop
+sweetmaking
+green
+i
+need
+the
+dark
+earth
+sucking
+water
+from
+a
+black
+crevice
+its
+black
+magic
+churning
+wormilled
+rockturned
+starblind
+darkness
+and
+cold
+into
+the
+opposite
+of
+dust
+i
+need
+the
+heat
+to
+blind
+me
+i
+need
+the
+dumb
+making
+to
+charge
+my
+coldened
+blood
+i
+need
+the
+dropturned
+leaves
+to
+turn
+again
+their
+faces
+to
+the
+windblown
+sun
+i
+need
+millions
+of
+tiny
+years
+summed
+up
+and
+burning
+out
+some
+unknown
+new
+growth
+into
+the
+air
+i
+need
+four
+hundred
+feet
+of
+dark
+red
+gnarled
+wood
+and
+needles
+glistening
+wetly
+on
+goldheaded
+branches
+hoisting
+themselves
+to
+the
+sky
+i
+need
+ten
+strong
+men
+to
+fail
+to
+bring
+you
+down
+old
+one
+i
+need
+the
+peace
+that
+comes
+with
+knowing
+something
+sacred
+holds
+still
+in
+the
+world
+i
+need
+your
+green
+tongues
+of
+flame
+to
+lick
+at
+old
+wounds
+stitching
+us
+together
+away
+from
+ourselves
+i
+need
+your
+brownbranching
+grasp
+to
+keep
+me
+from
+drifting
+off
+into
+unknowing
+terrible
+sleep
+i
+need
+to
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+the
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+hanging
+from
+your
+branches
+i
+need
+to
+watch
+the
+dropping
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+flesh
+massful
+onto
+the
+ground
+from
+a
+height
+i
+need
+the
+gnawer
+at
+your
+root
+to
+strike
+a
+vein
+to
+quicken
+old
+brown
+stone
+to
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+jeweleyed
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+i
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+a
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+dark
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+hidden
+in
+the
+dark
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+hiding
+a
+smallstone
+smoldering
+pearl
+in
+the
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+that
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+held
+out
+in
+a
+hand
+like
+an
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+the
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+to
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+hand
+i
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+a
+plant
+i
+need
+a
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+groaning
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+thin
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+covered
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+bubbling
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+into
+cabins
+of
+wood
+fought
+for
+by
+labor
+i
+need
+snow
+on
+the
+ground
+with
+shoots
+dotting
+the
+melting
+patches
+i
+need
+two
+leaves
+on
+a
+thin
+stalk
+shivering
+in
+moonlight
+i
+need
+robinsong
+warbling
+over
+the
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+of
+small
+seeds
+sprouting
+to
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+woody
+material
+widening
+to
+push
+the
+ground
+out
+of
+their
+way
+i
+need
+new
+greennesses
+pushing
+out
+from
+the
+brown
+dark
+bark
+gnarled
+i
+need
+the
+robin
+to
+build
+its
+songfilled
+nest
+in
+a
+branchcrotch
+i
+need
+the
+fecundity
+of
+fungi
+on
+the
+branches
+i
+need
+quiet
+of
+the
+sunlight
+shooting
+through
+thousands
+of
+branched
+leaves
+quivering
+i
+need
+whisper
+at
+dawn
+i
+need
+burrows
+underground
+foxholes
+i
+need
+duff
+layers
+eaten
+through
+by
+worms
+i
+need
+brooks
+murmuring
+through
+crooks
+of
+roots
+i
+need
+small
+fish
+swimming
+in
+their
+schools
+at
+midnight
+i
+need
+oldnesses
+giving
+way
+to
+youngnesses
+giving
+way
+to
+oldnesses
+i
+need
+dapplegray
+yellowshot
+ashbark
+i
+need
+the
+crunch
+of
+dead
+leaves
+underfoot
+i
+need
+snowquiet
+deadbranch
+mourning
+i
+need
+those
+purple
+mountains
+majesty
+i
+need
+a
+walk
+between
+trees
+in
+the
+dark
+i
+need
+that
+moment
+when
+stopping
+to
+rest
+it
+suddenly
+seems
+that
+all
+the
+weary
+forestroads
+in
+all
+their
+meandering
+come
+to
+rest
+their
+heads
+at
+my
+astonished
+feet
+none
+of
+them
+needing
+more
+than
+me
@@ -0,0 +1,351 @@
+something
+about
+the
+nature
+of
+poetry
+and
+time
+i'm
+writing
+this
+now
+because
+i
+have
+to
+not
+in
+some
+my
+soul
+yearns
+for
+this
+and
+i
+can't
+help
+it
+way
+but
+in
+the
+way
+that
+this
+moment
+is
+structured
+as
+such
+that
+it
+is
+crystallized
+this
+way
+me
+writing
+this
+and
+later
+you
+reading
+it
+now
+for
+you
+later
+for
+me
+and
+this
+tenuous
+connection
+mates
+me
+and
+you
+forever
+combined
+with
+each
+other
+two
+electrons
+momentarily
+entwined
+later
+when
+i'm
+dead
+or
+far
+too
+famous
+for
+you
+and
+you're
+in
+school
+reading
+my
+words
+because
+it
+is
+required
+reading
+i
+want
+you
+to
+remember
+this
+connection
+we've
+always
+had
+this
+spider's
+thread
+hanging
+between
+you
+and
+me
+which
+of
+us
+is
+the
+spider
+and
+which
+is
+the
+fly
+still
+remains
+to
+be
+seen
+to
+eat
+perchance
+to
+fly
+all
+of
+that
+and
+more
+we
+can
+settle
+all
+of
+this
+later
+yes
+it
+is
+you
+i'm
+thinking
+of
+in
+your
+later
+time
+you
+specifically
+not
+another
+this
+is
+true
+for
+all
+x
+such
+that
+x
+0
+and
+x
+is
+a
+real
+person
+though
+it
+doesn't
+bother
+me
+to
+write
+to
+a
+fictional
+figure
+or
+to
+a
+figment
+maybe
+of
+my
+imagination
+this
+is
+what
+you
+are
+right
+now
+anyway
+dear
+reader
+is
+it
+not
+i'm
+talking
+about
+my
+now
+of
+course
+not
+later
+which
+is
+your
+now
+later
+will
+be
+my
+now
+too
+and
+maybe
+i'm
+ultimately
+writing
+to
+a
+future
+part
+of
+this
+self
+you
+could
+very
+well
+be
+me
+in
+fact
+you
+probably
+are
+me
+some
+other
+version
+and
+i
+am
+you
+in
+the
+past
+or
+what
+you
+could've
+been
+and
+at
+the
+same
+time
+this
+isn't
+true
+everything
+is
+and
+nothing
+isn't
+the
+difference
+between
+you
+and
+me
+is
+in
+name
+only
+maybe
+you'll
+get
+this
+later
+when
+you're
+older
+when
+i'm
+older
+when
+all
+of
+this
+is
+something
+we'll
+look
+fondly
+back
+to
+because
+i
+do
+hope
+to
+meet
+you
+although
+much
+later
+and
+i
+hope
+your
+feeling
+is
+the
+same
+all
+this
+talk
+on
+me
+and
+you
+and
+you
+and
+me
+we'll
+keep
+between
+us
+two
@@ -0,0 +1,46 @@
+prelude
+of
+course
+there
+is
+a
+god
+of
+course
+there
+is
+no
+god
+of
+course
+what's
+really
+important
+is
+that
+these
+aren't
+important
+no
+they
+are
+but
+not
+really
+important
+all
+that's
+important
+is
+the
+relative
+importance
+of
+non-important
+things
+shit
+never
+mind
+let's
+start
+over
@@ -0,0 +1,528 @@
+problems
+the
+problem
+with
+people
+is
+this
+we
+cannot
+be
+happy
+no
+matter
+how
+hard
+or
+easy
+we
+try
+it
+is
+not
+to
+be
+it
+seems
+sometimes
+that
+just
+as
+the
+dog
+was
+made
+for
+jumping
+in
+mud
+and
+sniffing
+out
+foxholes
+and
+having
+a
+good
+time
+all
+around
+man
+was
+made
+for
+sadness
+loneliness
+and
+heartache
+being
+the
+observant
+and
+judgmental
+people
+they
+are
+people
+have
+for
+a
+long
+time
+tried
+to
+figure
+out
+why
+they
+aren't
+happy
+some
+say
+it's
+because
+we're
+obviously
+doing
+something
+wrong
+some
+say
+it's
+because
+we
+think
+too
+much
+some
+insist
+that
+it's
+because
+other
+people
+have
+more
+stuff
+than
+we
+do
+these
+people
+don't
+have
+a
+clue
+any
+more
+than
+any
+of
+the
+rest
+of
+us
+at
+least
+i
+don't
+think
+they
+do
+and
+that's
+good
+enough
+for
+me
+this
+seems
+to
+be
+an
+attempt
+on
+hezzy's
+part
+to
+set
+an
+example
+for
+mankind
+it
+should
+be
+noted
+that
+he
+is
+an
+alcoholic
+and
+not
+in
+any
+shape
+to
+be
+an
+example
+to
+anyone
+i
+think
+that
+the
+reason
+why
+people
+are
+unhappy
+and
+this
+is
+a
+personal
+opinion
+is
+that
+they
+realize
+on
+some
+level
+for
+some
+it's
+a
+pretty
+shallow
+level
+others
+it's
+way
+down
+there
+next
+to
+their
+love
+for
+women's
+stockingsit
+is
+thought
+that
+only
+the
+leg
+coverings
+of
+the
+female
+sex
+are
+here
+referenced
+that
+there
+is
+no
+background
+to
+put
+themselves
+against
+no
+big
+picture
+to
+get
+painted
+into
+this
+makes
+sense
+because
+on
+one
+level
+the
+level
+of
+everyday
+life
+the
+level
+of
+observation
+there
+is
+always
+a
+background
+look
+in
+a
+pair
+of
+binoculars
+sometime
+but
+on
+another
+level
+that
+of
+shit
+wait
+there
+are
+no
+other
+levels
+you
+have
+hereby
+found
+the
+super
+special
+secret
+cheat
+code
+room
+yes
+this
+is
+just
+like
+super
+mario
+brothers
+you
+can
+skip
+right
+to
+the
+end
+go
+and
+face
+the
+final
+boss
+already
+what's
+more
+people
+try
+to
+explain
+how
+to
+get
+happy
+again
+although
+it's
+doubtful
+they
+were
+ever
+happy
+in
+the
+first
+place
+people
+are
+very
+good
+at
+fooling
+some
+say
+standing
+or
+sitting
+in
+a
+building
+with
+a
+lot
+of
+other
+unhappy
+people
+helps
+some
+say
+that
+you
+can't
+stop
+there
+you
+also
+need
+to
+sing
+with
+those
+other
+unhappy
+people
+about
+how
+unhappy
+you
+are
+and
+how
+you
+wish
+someone
+would
+come
+along
+and
+help
+you
+out
+i
+guess
+by
+giving
+you
+money
+or
+something
+i
+say
+all
+you
+really
+need
+to
+be
+happy
+is
+a
+good
+stiff
+drink
+see
+footnote
+above
+in
+any
+case
+people
+have
+for
+some
+reason
+or
+another
+and
+to
+some
+end
+or
+another
+always
+been
+unhappy
+and
+people
+have
+always
+tried
+to
+figure
+out
+ways
+to
+be
+less
+unhappy
+one
+of
+the
+most
+important
+things
+to
+people
+everywhere
+is
+called
+the
+pursuit
+of
+happiness
+i
+think
+that
+calling
+it
+a
+pursuit
+makes
+people
+feel
+more
+like
+dogs
+who
+are
+the
+most
+happy
+beings
+most
+people
+can
+think
+of
+by
+pursuing
+happiness
+they're
+like
+a
+dog
+pursuing
+a
+possum
+or
+a
+bone
+on
+a
+fishing
+rod
+two
+activities
+that
+sound
+like
+a
+lot
+of
+fun
+to
+most
+people
+i
+think
+most
+people
+wish
+they
+were
+dogs
@@ -0,0 +1,319 @@
+proverbs
+nothing
+matters
+everything
+is
+sacred
+everything
+matters
+nothing
+is
+sacred
+thank
+you
+tom
+stoppard
+ha
+ha
+ho
+ho
+and
+hee
+hee
+this
+is
+the
+only
+way
+we
+can
+move
+forward
+by
+moving
+sideways
+life
+is
+a
+great
+big
+rugby
+game
+and
+the
+entire
+field
+has
+to
+be
+run
+for
+a
+goal
+the
+fact
+that
+the
+beginning
+two
+verses
+of
+this
+chapter
+have
+the
+same
+number
+of
+characters
+proves
+that
+they
+are
+a
+tautological
+pair
+that
+is
+they
+complete
+each
+other
+sometimes
+life
+seems
+like
+a
+dog
+wagging
+its
+tail
+smiling
+up
+at
+you
+and
+wanting
+you
+to
+love
+it
+just
+wanting
+that
+simple
+simple
+love
+oblivious
+to
+the
+fact
+that
+it
+just
+ran
+through
+your
+immaculately
+groomed
+flower
+garden
+and
+tracked
+all
+the
+mud
+in
+onto
+your
+freshly
+steamed
+carpet
+life
+is
+not
+life
+in
+a
+suburb
+there
+are
+no
+rosebushes
+groomed
+never
+there
+is
+no
+carpet
+steamed
+at
+any
+time
+the
+dog
+looks
+at
+you
+wanting
+you
+to
+love
+it
+it
+wants
+to
+know
+that
+you
+know
+that
+it's
+there
+it
+wants
+to
+be
+observed
+ah
+ha
+i
+knew
+this
+was
+going
+to
+happen
+at
+some
+point
+now
+things
+are
+going
+to
+get
+more
+interesting
+because
+the
+dog
+wants
+what
+we
+thought
+was
+a
+bad
+thing
+right
+right
+didn't
+we
+go
+through
+that
+part
+about
+how
+observing
+made
+it
+impossible
+to
+really
+know
+anything
+and
+i
+had
+to
+start
+over
+because
+it's
+really
+hard
+to
+figure
+out
+what
+you're
+talking
+about
+when
+reality
+slips
+out
+of
+your
+hands
+like
+a
+fish
+but
+you're
+not
+a
+cat
+with
+claws
+so
+it
+just
+flops
+right
+outta
+your
+hand
+back
+into
+the
+lake
+by
+the
+way
+nirvana
+is
+thought
+to
+be
+what
+a
+drop
+of
+water
+feels
+upon
+flopping
+into
+a
+lake
+doesn't
+that
+seem
+important
+doesn't
+it
+seem
+like
+a
+fish
+and
+a
+drop
+of
+water
+here
+are
+connected
+it
+helps
+of
+course
+that
+the
+fish
+represents
+reality
+here
@@ -0,0 +1,214 @@
+punch
+when
+he
+finally
+got
+back
+to
+work
+he
+was
+surprised
+they
+threw
+him
+a
+party
+welcome
+back
+paul
+was
+written
+on
+a
+big
+banner
+across
+the
+back
+wall
+someone
+had
+ordered
+a
+confectioner's-sugar
+cake
+with
+frosting
+flowers
+on
+the
+corners
+it
+said
+the
+same
+thing
+as
+the
+banner
+welcome
+back
+paul
+said
+jill
+as
+he
+was
+at
+the
+punch
+bowl
+the
+cup
+was
+on
+the
+table
+as
+he
+ladled
+punch
+in
+with
+his
+right
+hand
+his
+left
+was
+wrapped
+in
+gauze
+let
+me
+help
+you
+with
+that
+said
+jill
+paul
+had
+a
+strange
+feeling
+this
+had
+happened
+before
+she
+took
+the
+ladle
+and
+their
+hands
+touched
+she
+picked
+the
+cup
+up
+in
+her
+right
+hand
+and
+used
+her
+left
+to
+lift
+the
+spoon
+you
+know
+she
+said
+we
+were
+worried
+about
+you
+when
+jerry
+heard
+about
+your
+hand
+he
+said
+there
+goes
+one
+of
+our
+best
+data
+entry
+men
+i
+still
+can't
+really
+move
+my
+left
+hand
+said
+paul
+that's
+alright
+you
+can
+take
+your
+time
+with
+the
+entry
+i'm
+sorry
+sorry
+for
+what
+she
+looked
+at
+his
+eyes
+he
+imagined
+her
+seeing
+fisheye
+versions
+of
+herself
+in
+them
+i
+don't
+know
+he
+said
+because
+it
+was
+true
+it's
+alright
+anyway
+she
+said
+and
+placed
+the
+full
+punch
+cup
+in
+his
+right
+hand
@@ -0,0 +1,259 @@
+the
+purpose
+of
+dogs
+okay
+so
+as
+we
+said
+in
+the
+prelude
+there
+either
+is
+or
+isn't
+a
+god
+this
+has
+been
+one
+of
+the
+main
+past
+times
+of
+humanity
+ever
+since
+since
+the
+first
+man
+or
+woman
+climbed
+out
+of
+whatever
+slime
+or
+swamp
+he
+thumbed
+his
+way
+out
+of
+what
+humanity
+has
+failed
+to
+realize
+is
+that
+an
+incredibly
+plausible
+third
+and
+heretofore
+unknown
+hypothesis
+also
+exists
+there
+is
+a
+dog
+in
+fact
+there
+are
+many
+dogs
+and
+not
+only
+that
+there
+are
+also
+many
+types
+of
+dogs
+these
+are
+called
+breeds
+and
+each
+breed
+was
+created
+by
+man
+in
+order
+to
+fulfill
+some
+use
+that
+man
+thought
+he
+needed
+some
+dogs
+are
+for
+chasing
+birds
+and
+some
+are
+for
+chasing
+badgers
+some
+are
+for
+laying
+in
+your
+lap
+and
+being
+petted
+all
+day
+some
+dogs
+don't
+seem
+to
+be
+really
+for
+anything
+besides
+being
+fucking
+stupid
+and
+chewing
+up
+your
+one-of-a-kind
+collectible
+individually-numbered
+king
+kong
+figurine
+from
+the
+peter
+jackson
+film
+but
+the
+important
+thing
+is
+and
+here
+we
+go
+with
+important
+things
+again
+all
+dogs
+have
+been
+bred
+by
+people
+for
+performing
+some
+certain
+function
+that
+we
+think
+is
+important
+note
+just
+because
+we
+think
+it's
+important
+doesn't
+mean
+it
+is
+important
+but
+it
+might
+as
+well
+be
+because
+what
+we
+as
+humans
+think
+is
+important
+is
+important
+but
+be
+careful
+just
+because
+something's
+important
+doesn't
+mean
+it
+means
+anything
+or
+that
+it
+actually
+makes
+anything
+happen
+even
+though
+just
+because
+something
+makes
+something
+else
+happen
+doesn't
+mean
+it's
+important
+shit
+let
+me
+start
+again
@@ -0,0 +1,268 @@
+question
+do
+you
+have
+to
+say
+your
+thoughts
+out
+loud
+for
+them
+to
+mean
+anything
+paul
+asked
+jill
+on
+his
+first
+coffee
+break
+at
+work
+it
+was
+in
+the
+city
+and
+his
+mother
+told
+him
+she
+wouldn't
+drive
+him
+so
+he'd
+had
+to
+take
+the
+bus
+number
+3
+he
+thought
+it
+was
+he
+couldn't
+quite
+remember
+jill
+said
+sorry
+what
+paul
+realized
+that
+she
+hadn't
+really
+noticed
+him
+there
+in
+the
+break
+room
+as
+he
+was
+hunched
+behind
+the
+refrigerator
+a
+little
+and
+she
+was
+busy
+pouring
+coffee
+and
+exactly
+two
+tablespoons
+of
+both
+milk
+and
+sugar
+into
+her
+mug
+before
+she
+put
+the
+coffee
+in
+he
+decided
+to
+repeat
+the
+question
+how
+do
+you
+think
+he
+asked
+like
+everyone
+else
+i
+guess
+she
+said
+i
+have
+a
+thought
+and
+if
+it's
+important
+i
+write
+it
+down
+do
+you
+have
+to
+say
+them
+out
+loud
+for
+them
+to
+make
+sense
+are
+you
+asking
+if
+i
+talk
+to
+myself
+a
+pause
+i
+guess
+so
+he
+said
+looking
+down
+he
+had
+a
+feeling
+this
+was
+a
+bad
+thing
+sometimes
+she
+said
+and
+walked
+out
+of
+the
+break
+room
+she
+didn't
+understand
+the
+importance
+of
+his
+question
+she
+popped
+her
+head
+back
+in
+a
+moment
+later
+and
+his
+heart
+leaped
+in
+his
+chest
+how's
+your
+first
+day
+going
+so
+far
+she
+asked
+can
+you
+understand
+everything
+okay
+yes
+he
+said
+you
+were
+right
+it's
+pretty
+basic
+good
+she
+said
+paul
+yes
+do
+you
+have
+to
+say
+all
+of
+your
+thoughts
+out
+loud
+to
+remember
+them
+he
+shook
+his
+head
+only
+all
+of
+the
+time
+paul
+thought
+to
+himself
+but
+didn't
+speak
@@ -0,0 +1,293 @@
+a
+real
+writer
+sometimes
+i
+feel
+as
+though
+i
+am
+not
+a
+real
+writer
+i
+don't
+smoke
+i
+don't
+wake
+up
+early
+but
+i
+don't
+sleep
+all
+day
+either
+i
+find
+myself
+increasingly
+interested
+in
+dumb
+luck
+chance
+i've
+found
+two
+dimes
+in
+as
+many
+days
+does
+this
+mean
+i've
+found
+twenty
+lucky
+pennies
+i
+want
+you
+to
+participate
+you
+the
+reader
+you
+the
+probabilistic
+god
+of
+my
+dreams
+i've
+been
+having
+strange
+dreams
+lately
+i
+don't
+remember
+them
+but
+they
+leave
+impressions
+a
+bare
+foot
+a
+tunnel
+of
+hair
+from
+her
+face
+to
+mine
+a
+boat
+stranded
+in
+a
+living-room
+something
+warm
+something
+like
+the
+sun
+through
+my
+eyelids
+a
+hand
+with
+all
+its
+dead
+symbology
+my
+teeth
+have
+fallen
+out
+no
+you
+pulled
+them
+out
+with
+your
+hands
+threw
+them
+over
+your
+left
+shoulder
+like
+salt
+to
+wish
+away
+bad
+luck
+i
+have
+something
+to
+tell
+you
+bad
+luck
+follows
+like
+a
+dog
+it
+lets
+you
+get
+ahead
+for
+a
+few
+days
+a
+week
+a
+year
+you'll
+see
+it'll
+bite
+your
+sleeping
+face
+when
+you're
+not
+looking
+i've
+been
+dreaming
+about
+the
+future
+i
+know
+in
+my
+dream
+i
+am
+not
+a
+writer
+i
+live
+in
+a
+place
+with
+rain
+you
+are
+sunning
+yourself
+as
+you
+read
+this
+on
+a
+beach
+or
+maybe
+a
+desert
+let
+me
+move
+in
+with
+you
+i
+can
+cook
+or
+clean
+or
+take
+care
+of
+your
+dog
+while
+you're
+out
+i'll
+never
+have
+to
+write
+again
+i'll
+watch
+television
+do
+i
+want
+to
+become
+a
+writer
+tell
+me
+should
+i
+smoke
+i
+can
+sleep
+all
+day
+in
+your
+attic
+if
+you
+want
+become
+your
+god
+lose
+my
+own
+settle
+to
+the
+bottom
+of
+the
+bed
+like
+a
+boat
+in
+a
+river
+dream
+about
+nothing
+but
+furniture
@@ -0,0 +1,203 @@
+reports
+paul
+you
+can't
+turn
+in
+your
+reports
+on
+four-by-six
+notecards
+jill
+told
+him
+after
+he
+handed
+her
+his
+reports
+typed
+carefully
+on
+twelve
+four-by-six
+notecards
+he
+had
+spent
+the
+weekend
+going
+to
+the
+office
+supply
+store
+to
+buy
+notecards
+and
+typewriter
+ribbon
+he
+found
+it
+surprisingly
+easily
+after
+his
+first
+payday
+replacing
+the
+ribbon
+in
+his
+typewriter
+this
+took
+approximately
+half
+an
+hour
+because
+he
+had
+to
+figure
+it
+all
+out
+on
+his
+own
+opening
+the
+package
+of
+notecards
+this
+took
+approximately
+four
+seconds
+although
+he
+still
+had
+to
+figure
+out
+how
+to
+do
+it
+on
+his
+own
+it
+was
+just
+easier
+carefully
+typing
+the
+reports
+he'd
+handwritten
+on
+letter
+paper
+onto
+the
+notecards
+he
+made
+many
+mistakes
+and
+threw
+away
+many
+notecards
+though
+later
+he
+used
+them
+for
+kindling
+so
+understandably
+he
+was
+upset
+he
+told
+jill
+all
+the
+work
+he'd
+gone
+to
+to
+type
+those
+notecard
+reports
+for
+her
+for
+the
+company
+she
+shook
+her
+head
+paul
+you
+don't
+have
+to
+do
+all
+that
+work
+at
+home
+just
+type
+it
+up
+on
+the
+computers
+here
+that's
+all
+you
+need
+to
+do
+thanks
+for
+the
+work
+though
+he
+nodded
+as
+she
+threw
+the
+notecards
+into
+the
+trashcan
+and
+left
+his
+cubicle
@@ -0,0 +1,235 @@
+riptide
+of
+memory
+inside
+of
+my
+memory
+the
+poem
+is
+another
+memory
+the
+air
+up
+here
+is
+thin
+but
+the
+wind
+blows
+harder
+than
+anywhere
+else
+i
+know
+it
+threatens
+to
+rip
+my
+body
+away
+like
+an
+angel
+of
+death
+to
+the
+stars
+in
+arizona
+i
+thought
+i
+would
+forget
+the
+rain
+forget
+its
+sound
+on
+a
+roof
+like
+a
+hard
+wind
+forget
+its
+smell
+like
+a
+far
+away
+ocean
+luckily
+for
+me
+it
+rains
+here
+luckily
+because
+i
+forget
+too
+easily
+in
+a
+dream
+my
+father
+is
+caught
+by
+a
+riptide
+off-shore
+he's
+pulled
+far
+out
+far
+enough
+that
+the
+shoreline's
+a
+line
+in
+his
+memory
+on
+the
+horizon
+i
+can
+see
+him
+swimming
+hand
+over
+hand
+pulling
+his
+small
+weight
+back
+to
+land
+i
+see
+him
+as
+another
+shipwreck
+victim
+coughing
+sand
+and
+seawater
+beard
+woven
+with
+seaweed
+i
+see
+him
+laying
+there
+a
+long
+time
+i
+see
+all
+this
+as
+he
+tells
+me
+the
+story
+years
+later
+the
+riptide
+only
+a
+ghost
+in
+his
+memory
+i
+only
+a
+child
+falling
+asleep
+my
+mother's
+making
+mayonnaise
+rolls
+in
+the
+kitchen
+a
+recipe
+i'll
+send
+for
+years
+later
+in
+arizona
+in
+the
+monsoon
+season
+when
+my
+thirst
+pulls
+me
+back
+home
+my
+memory's
+lonesome
+twinkle
+like
+stars
+above
+the
+mountains
+i'll
+send
+for
+it
+and
+try
+to
+make
+them
+but
+in
+the
+thin
+air
+they'll
+crumble
+into
+dust
+like
+desert
+air
+like
+a
+memory
@@ -0,0 +1,234 @@
+ronald
+mcdonald
+when
+ronald
+mcdonald
+takes
+off
+his
+striped
+shirt
+his
+coveralls
+his
+painted
+face
+when
+he
+no
+longer
+looks
+like
+anyone
+or
+anything
+special
+sitting
+next
+to
+women
+in
+bars
+or
+standing
+in
+the
+aisle
+at
+the
+grocery
+is
+he
+no
+longer
+ronald
+is
+he
+no
+longer
+happy
+to
+kick
+a
+soccer
+ball
+around
+with
+the
+kids
+in
+the
+park
+is
+he
+suddenly
+unable
+to
+enjoy
+the
+french
+fries
+he
+gets
+for
+his
+fifty
+percent
+off
+i'd
+like
+to
+think
+that
+he
+takes
+ronald
+off
+like
+a
+shirt
+hangs
+him
+in
+a
+closet
+where
+he
+breathes
+darkly
+in
+the
+musk
+i'd
+like
+to
+believe
+that
+we
+are
+able
+to
+slough
+off
+selves
+like
+old
+skin
+and
+still
+retain
+some
+base
+self
+of
+course
+we
+all
+know
+this
+is
+not
+what
+happens
+the
+ronald
+leering
+at
+women
+drunkenly
+is
+the
+same
+who
+the
+next
+day
+kicks
+at
+a
+ball
+the
+size
+of
+a
+head
+he
+is
+the
+same
+that
+hugs
+his
+children
+at
+night
+who
+has
+sex
+with
+his
+wife
+on
+the
+weekends
+when
+they're
+not
+so
+tired
+to
+make
+it
+work
+who
+smiles
+holding
+a
+basket
+of
+fries
+in
+front
+of
+a
+field
+he
+cannot
+take
+off
+the
+facepaint
+or
+the
+yellow
+gloves
+they
+are
+stuck
+to
+him
+like
+so
+many
+feathers
+with
+the
+tar
+of
+his
+everyday
+associations
+his
+plight
+is
+that
+of
+everyone's
+we
+are
+what
+we
+do
+who
+we
+are
@@ -0,0 +1,118 @@
+rough
+gloves
+i
+lost
+my
+hands
+&
+knit
+replacement
+ones
+from
+spiders
+threads
+stronger
+than
+steel
+but
+soft
+as
+lambs
+wool
+catching
+as
+they
+do
+on
+nails
+&
+your
+collarbone
+you
+don't
+seem
+to
+like
+their
+rough
+warm
+presence
+on
+your
+cheek
+or
+thigh
+i've
+asked
+you
+if
+you
+minded
+you've
+said
+no
+your
+face
+a
+table
+laid
+with
+burnt
+meat
+bread
+so
+stale
+it
+could
+break
+a
+hand
+remember
+your
+senile
+mother's
+face
+above
+that
+table
+i'd
+say
+she
+got
+the
+meaning
+of
+that
+look
+you'd
+rather
+not
+be
+touched
+by
+these
+rough
+gloves
+the
+only
+way
+i
+have
+to
+knit
+a
+love
+against
+whatever
+winters
+we
+may
+enter
+like
+a
+silkworm
+in
+a
+spider's
+blackened
+maw
@@ -0,0 +1,280 @@
+sapling
+he
+chopped
+down
+a
+sapling
+pine
+tree
+and
+looked
+at
+his
+watch
+from
+first
+chop
+to
+fall
+it
+had
+taken
+him
+eight
+minutes
+and
+something
+like
+twenty
+seconds
+maybe
+a
+little
+change
+he
+leaned
+against
+another
+tree
+and
+fished
+in
+his
+pocket
+for
+a
+cigarette
+he
+lifted
+it
+out
+of
+its
+box
+and
+fished
+in
+his
+other
+pocket
+for
+his
+lighter
+failing
+to
+find
+it
+he
+searched
+his
+other
+pockets
+he
+came
+to
+the
+realization
+that
+he
+had
+forgotten
+it
+in
+his
+shack
+in
+confusion
+over
+his
+true
+vocation
+he'd
+resorted
+to
+calling
+it
+simply
+the
+shack
+until
+he
+could
+figure
+it
+out
+he
+sighed
+and
+put
+his
+hands
+in
+his
+pockets
+i
+wonder
+if
+trees
+are
+protective
+of
+their
+young
+he
+said
+to
+himself
+then
+wondered
+if
+why
+he
+had
+to
+think
+his
+thoughts
+out
+loud
+then
+remembered
+he
+always
+did
+this
+then
+remembered
+his
+conversation
+with
+jill
+he
+hoped
+she
+didn't
+he
+hoped
+that
+conversation
+was
+like
+the
+tree
+that
+fell
+in
+the
+forest
+with
+no
+one
+around
+i
+wonder
+if
+a
+thought
+said
+out
+loud
+isn't
+heard
+by
+anyone
+if
+it
+was
+made
+i
+think
+maybe
+this
+is
+what
+literature
+big
+l
+is
+all
+about
+if
+it's
+trying
+to
+make
+a
+connection
+because
+no
+idea
+matters
+unless
+it's
+connected
+to
+something
+else
+or
+to
+someone
+else
+maybe
+no
+wood
+matters
+unless
+it's
+bound
+to
+another
+by
+upholstery
+nails
+if
+the
+devil
+is
+in
+the
+details
+as
+they
+say
+who
+are
+they
+anyway
+the
+details
+are
+the
+connections
+that
+doesn't
+make
+sense
+details
+are
+details
+connections
+are
+connections
+still
+a
+neuron
+by
+itself
+means
+nothing
+put
+them
+all
+together
+though
+and
+connect
+them
+you've
+got
+a
+brain
@@ -0,0 +1,105 @@
+seasonal
+affective
+disorder
+on
+your
+desk
+i
+set
+a
+tangerine
+a
+relic
+of
+a
+winter
+quickly
+passing
+i'm
+reminded
+fiercely
+of
+a
+summer
+i
+watched
+the
+cemetery
+grass
+on
+my
+stomach
+you
+hate
+the
+wind
+blowing
+through
+buildings
+the
+coldness
+of
+fire
+blister
+of
+a
+mountain
+stream
+when
+you
+broke
+down
+that
+night
+your
+aunt
+/
+you
+never
+have
+been
+/
+you
+shook
+that
+night
+/
+seasonal
+affective
+disorder
+is
+real
+you
+mutter
+under
+your
+breath
+on
+the
+highway
+the
+ant
+carries
+an
+orange
+peel
+past
+a
+headstone
+it
+carries
+her
+nearly
+as
+often
+i
+set
+a
+tangerine
+on
+your
+desk
+an
+engagement
+ring
+winter-returned
@@ -0,0 +1,152 @@
+sense
+of
+it
+i
+only
+write
+poems
+on
+the
+bus
+anymore
+i
+sit
+far
+in
+the
+back
+to
+be
+alone
+i
+mark
+black
+things
+on
+white
+things
+in
+a
+black
+thing
+i
+try
+to
+make
+sense
+of
+it
+every
+time
+i
+see
+a
+plastic
+bag
+in
+the
+wind
+i
+think
+this
+is
+the
+most
+beautiful
+thing
+i've
+ever
+seen
+most
+of
+my
+life
+i
+relate
+to
+something
+on
+the
+tv
+this
+is
+how
+i
+try
+to
+make
+sense
+of
+it
+the
+talking
+heads
+song
+stop
+making
+sense
+is
+about
+a
+girlfriend
+caught
+cheating
+and
+willed
+oblivion
+the
+song's
+real
+title
+is
+girlfriend
+is
+better
+but
+lying
+about
+it
+is
+a
+way
+i
+try
+to
+make
+sense
+of
+it
+the
+day
+after
+i
+lost
+her
+i
+found
+you
+again
+your
+face
+made
+a
+plastic
+bag
+of
+my
+heart
+your
+eyes
+were
+the
+wind
+pushing
+the
+bus
+forward
+i
+couldn't
+make
+sense
+of
+it
@@ -0,0 +1,108 @@
+serengeti
+the
+self
+is
+a
+serengeti
+a
+wide
+grassland
+with
+baobab
+trees
+reaching
+their
+roots
+deep
+into
+earth
+like
+a
+child
+into
+a
+clay
+pot
+a
+wind
+blows
+there
+or
+seems
+to
+blow
+if
+he
+holds
+it
+up
+to
+his
+ear
+the
+air
+shifts
+like
+stones
+in
+a
+stream
+uncovering
+a
+crawfish
+it
+finds
+another
+hiding
+place
+watching
+you
+its
+eyes
+are
+blacker
+than
+wind
+on
+the
+serengeti
+they
+are
+the
+eyes
+of
+a
+predator
+they
+are
+coming
+toward
+you
+or
+receding
+a
+storm
+cloud
+builds
+on
+the
+horizon
+are
+you
+running
+toward
+the
+rain
+or
+away
+from
+it
+do
+you
+stand
+still
+and
+crouch
+hoping
+for
+silence
@@ -0,0 +1,149 @@
+shed
+what
+do
+you
+do
+all
+day
+in
+that
+shed
+out
+back
+his
+mother
+asked
+one
+night
+while
+they
+ate
+dinner
+in
+front
+of
+the
+tv
+write
+he
+answered
+write
+what
+she
+asked
+in
+that
+way
+that
+means
+he'd
+better
+not
+say
+i
+don't
+know
+i
+don't
+know
+he
+said
+goddammit
+paul
+his
+mother
+said
+you're
+wasting
+your
+life
+out
+in
+that
+shed
+you
+need
+to
+go
+out
+and
+get
+i
+chop
+down
+trees
+too
+he
+said
+i
+make
+furniture
+out
+of
+them
+his
+mother's
+face
+did
+a
+hitchcock
+zoom
+as
+she
+considered
+this
+new
+information
+is
+it
+any
+good
+she
+asked
+eyes
+narrowed
+it's
+getting
+there
+he
+answered
+i'm
+getting
+better
+every
+day
+when
+is
+it
+going
+to
+be
+there
+she
+asked
+when
+are
+you
+going
+to
+sell
+this
+furniture
+of
+yours
+it'll
+be
+a
+while
+he
+answered
+then
+you'd
+better
+get
+a
+job
+until
+then
+she
+said
@@ -0,0 +1,159 @@
+the
+shipwright
+he
+builds
+a
+ship
+as
+if
+it
+were
+the
+last
+thing
+holding
+him
+together
+as
+if
+when
+he
+stops
+his
+body
+will
+fall
+onto
+the
+plate-glass
+water
+and
+shatter
+into
+sand
+to
+keep
+his
+morale
+up
+he
+whistles
+and
+sings
+but
+the
+wind
+whistles
+louder
+and
+taunts
+him
+your
+ship
+will
+build
+itself
+if
+you
+throw
+yourself
+into
+the
+sea
+time
+has
+a
+way
+of
+growing
+your
+beard
+for
+you
+soon
+you'll
+find
+yourself
+on
+a
+rocking
+chair
+on
+some
+porch
+made
+from
+your
+ship's
+timbers
+the
+window
+behind
+you
+is
+made
+from
+a
+sail
+thick
+canvas
+and
+no
+one
+inside
+will
+hear
+your
+calling
+for
+milk
+or
+a
+chamberpot
+your
+children
+will
+have
+all
+sailed
+to
+the
+new
+world
+and
+left
+you
+but
+he
+tries
+not
+to
+listen
+continues
+to
+hammer
+nail
+after
+nail
+into
+timber
+after
+timber
+but
+the
+wind
+finally
+blows
+him
+into
+the
+growling
+ocean
+and
+the
+ship
+falls
+apart
+on
+its
+own
@@ -0,0 +1,352 @@
+the
+sixteenth
+chapel
+if
+justin
+bieber
+isn't
+going
+for
+the
+sixteenth
+chapel
+i'm
+not
+either
+i
+admit
+he
+is
+my
+role
+model
+he's
+so
+current
+so
+fresh
+and
+so
+new
+and
+michelangelo
+is
+so
+old
+his
+art
+so
+dated
+where
+is
+the
+love
+in
+those
+old
+paintings
+all
+i
+see
+is
+creation
+judgment
+and
+death
+and
+i
+don't
+get
+the
+preoccupation
+with
+death
+i'm
+about
+life
+ever
+since
+my
+sixteenth
+birthday
+when
+me
+and
+my
+two
+sisters
+all
+nearly
+died
+when
+the
+car
+i
+was
+driving
+rolled
+into
+a
+creek
+even
+though
+i've
+forgotten
+the
+date
+i
+think
+it
+keeps
+me
+thinking
+on
+the
+new
+something
+biebs
+would
+be
+proud
+of
+if
+he
+knew
+i
+look
+at
+him
+and
+see
+the
+opposite
+of
+death
+in
+his
+eyes
+his
+youthful
+smile
+though
+someday
+he
+may
+be
+a
+father
+and
+later
+host
+a
+sweet
+sixteen
+for
+his
+daughter
+who
+i
+know
+he'll
+buy
+a
+rolls
+death
+will
+never
+find
+him
+living
+will
+be
+all
+he'll
+ever
+do
+because
+it
+will
+be
+all
+he'll
+ever
+need
+to
+do
+he
+is
+the
+eternal
+new
+the
+forever
+youth
+this
+is
+the
+simple
+role
+of
+every
+celebrity
+to
+let
+us
+forget
+death
+bieber
+didn't
+make
+a
+mistake
+on
+the
+sistine
+chapel's
+name
+he
+merely
+showed
+that
+someday
+all
+old
+names
+must
+go
+that
+on
+some
+day
+a
+name
+must
+die
+so
+that
+the
+thing
+which
+is
+all
+that
+matters
+can
+stay
+as
+it
+was
+in
+the
+sixteenth
+century
+fresh
+ostentatious
+and
+brand
+new
+in
+a
+way
+the
+name
+becomes
+a
+christ
+experiencing
+death
+so
+the
+world
+doesn't
+have
+to
+but
+i
+am
+wary
+of
+this
+role
+for
+a
+name
+it
+seems
+a
+name
+gives
+meaning
+rolls
+the
+general
+idea
+together
+with
+the
+concrete
+daily
+toil
+of
+the
+mundane
+are
+not
+life
+and
+death
+intertwined
+is
+not
+everything
+tied
+up
+all
+with
+everything
+i
+guess
+i'm
+saying
+the
+new
+necessarily
+comes
+from
+the
+old
+as
+every
+sixteen
+year-old
+has
+a
+parent
+life
+rolls
+to
+death
+and
+all
+is
+tied
+together
+each
+day
+is
+born
+of
+night
+and
+dies
+so
+new
+morning
+can
+occur
+even
+the
+sixteenth
+chapel
+holds
+death
@@ -0,0 +1,235 @@
+snow
+i
+don't
+care
+if
+they
+burn
+he
+wrote
+on
+his
+last
+blank
+notecard
+he'd
+have
+to
+go
+to
+the
+office
+supply
+store
+tomorrow
+after
+work
+he
+looked
+at
+what
+he'd
+written
+he'd
+been
+thinking
+about
+this
+for
+a
+while
+felt
+the
+frustration
+build
+slowly
+like
+a
+thundercloud
+in
+the
+back
+of
+his
+mind
+he
+thought
+he
+should
+write
+something
+else
+on
+the
+card
+but
+everything
+he
+thought
+of
+seemed
+too
+confessional
+or
+too
+real
+compromising
+he
+didn't
+want
+anyone
+not
+even
+the
+notecards
+to
+know
+what
+he
+was
+thinking
+he
+decided
+to
+try
+for
+more
+of
+an
+interview
+with
+the
+paper
+why
+asked
+the
+notecard
+because
+there
+is
+nothing
+important
+on
+any
+of
+them
+he
+wrote
+back
+what
+do
+you
+mean
+you
+have
+some
+good
+stuff
+in
+that
+top
+drawer
+there
+he
+looked
+in
+the
+top
+drawer
+it
+was
+stuffed
+full
+of
+notecards
+in
+no
+organization
+he
+could
+see
+bits
+and
+pieces
+of
+thoughts
+like
+leaves
+crunched
+underfoot
+in
+autumn
+it
+will
+take
+so
+much
+organization
+he
+wrote
+why
+is
+organization
+important
+remember
+the
+trees
+how
+they
+formed
+rows
+without
+trying
+no
+matter
+how
+the
+ideas
+fall
+they
+make
+something
+the
+snow
+does
+that
+too
+he
+wrote
+it
+doesn't
+try
+to
+make
+anything
+but
+it
+does
+no
+the
+snow
+is
+different
+the
+notecard
+was
+annoyed
+the
+snow
+is
+a
+blank
+canvas
+that
+humans
+build
+into
+shapes
+or
+doppelgangers
+it
+makes
+nothing
+on
+its
+own
@@ -0,0 +1,115 @@
+let's
+start
+with
+something
+simple
+in
+mammals
+the
+ratio
+between
+bladder
+size
+and
+urethra
+is
+such
+that
+it
+takes
+all
+of
+them
+the
+same
+time
+to
+piss
+take
+for
+example
+the
+fact
+that
+fibonnacci
+numbers
+show
+up
+everywhere
+how
+can
+you
+look
+at
+this
+at
+all
+of
+this
+all
+of
+these
+facts
+and
+tell
+me
+to
+my
+face
+there
+is
+no
+god
+and
+yet
+there
+isn't
+you
+murmer
+quietly
+into
+my
+ear
+over
+and
+over
+like
+a
+low
+tide
+sounding
+its
+lonely
+waves
+on
+an
+abandoned
+beach
+the
+ocean
+that
+birthed
+us
+holds
+us
+still
+we
+are
+tied
+you
+and
+i
+together
+in
+her
+arms
+the
+moon
+caring
+father
+looks
+down
+from
+a
+dispassionate
+sky
@@ -0,0 +1,117 @@
+spittle
+my
+body
+is
+attached
+to
+your
+body
+by
+a
+thin
+spittle
+of
+thought
+when
+you
+turn
+away
+from
+me
+my
+thought
+is
+broken
+and
+forms
+anew
+with
+something
+else
+ideas
+are
+drool
+beauty
+has
+been
+slobbered
+over
+far
+too
+long
+god
+is
+a
+tidal
+wave
+of
+bodily
+fluid
+even
+the
+flea
+has
+some
+vestigial
+wetness
+we
+live
+in
+a
+world
+fleshy
+and
+dark
+and
+moist
+as
+a
+nostril
+is
+conciousness
+only
+a
+watery-eyed
+romantic
+crying
+softly
+into
+his
+shirt-sleeve
+is
+not
+reason
+a
+square-jawed
+businessman
+with
+a
+briefcase
+full
+of
+memory
+i
+want
+to
+kiss
+the
+world
+to
+make
+it
+mine
+i
+want
+to
+become
+a
+judas
+to
+reality
+betray
+it
+with
+the
+wetness
+of
+emotion
@@ -0,0 +1,129 @@
+the
+squirrel
+he
+is
+so
+full
+in
+himself
+how
+far
+down
+the
+branch
+to
+run
+how
+long
+to
+jump
+when
+to
+grab
+the
+air
+and
+catch
+in
+it
+and
+turn
+and
+land
+on
+branch
+so
+gracefully
+it's
+like
+dying
+alone
+and
+warm
+in
+a
+bed
+next
+to
+a
+summer
+window
+and
+the
+birds
+singing
+and
+on
+that
+branch
+there
+is
+the
+squirrel
+dancing
+among
+the
+branches
+and
+you
+think
+what
+if
+he
+fell
+but
+he
+won't
+because
+he's
+a
+squirrel
+and
+that's
+what
+they
+do
+dance
+and
+never
+fall
+it
+was
+erased
+long
+ago
+from
+the
+squirrel
+even
+the
+possibility
+of
+falling
+was
+erased
+from
+his
+being
+by
+the
+slow
+inexorable
+evolution
+of
+squirrels
+that
+is
+why
+all
+squirrels
+are
+so
+full
+in
+themselves
+full
+in
+who
+they
+are
@@ -0,0 +1,238 @@
+stagnant
+riding
+the
+bus
+to
+work
+is
+a
+good
+way
+to
+think
+or
+to
+read
+paul
+thought
+to
+himself
+on
+the
+bus
+ride
+to
+work
+his
+thoughts
+couldn't
+become
+real
+to
+him
+because
+he
+didn't
+want
+to
+look
+insane
+to
+everyone
+else
+on
+the
+bus
+his
+thoughts
+came
+to
+him
+like
+someone
+yelling
+over
+a
+hard
+wind
+he
+was
+trying
+to
+write
+them
+on
+his
+memory
+but
+the
+act
+of
+writing
+was
+easier
+and
+more
+immediate
+than
+that
+of
+listening
+he
+was
+afraid
+that
+when
+he
+looked
+at
+his
+memory
+later
+he
+wouldn't
+be
+able
+to
+read
+what
+was
+written
+thoughts
+are
+like
+the
+wind
+outside
+a
+moving
+bus
+he
+thought
+or
+rather
+the
+bus
+is
+a
+brain
+slamming
+into
+columns
+of
+stagnant
+air
+causing
+them
+to
+whistle
+past
+in
+a
+confusion
+of
+something
+he
+could
+barely
+hear
+the
+voice
+yelling
+to
+him
+over
+the
+wind
+speak
+up
+he
+thought
+to
+the
+voice
+then
+remembered
+it
+was
+his
+own
+he
+wished
+he'd
+remembered
+a
+book
+to
+read
+he
+looked
+at
+his
+hands
+to
+pass
+the
+time
+they
+were
+dry
+in
+the
+winter
+air
+that
+had
+seeped
+its
+way
+into
+the
+bus
+he
+tried
+to
+figure
+out
+how
+many
+hours
+they
+would
+make
+it
+before
+cracking
+and
+bleeding
+maybe
+three
+or
+four
+he
+thought
+accidentally
+out
+loud
+he
+looked
+around
+expecting
+stares
+from
+everyone
+on
+the
+seat
+he
+was
+surprised
+that
+he
+was
+the
+only
+one
+on
+the
+bus
@@ -0,0 +1,470 @@
+statements
+a
+fragment
+i
+eli
+can
+one
+truly
+describe
+an
+emotion
+eli
+asked
+me
+over
+the
+walkie-talkie
+he
+was
+in
+the
+bathroom
+&
+had
+taken
+the
+walkie-talkie
+in
+with
+him
+absent-mindedly
+i
+could
+hear
+sounds
+of
+his
+piss
+hitting
+the
+toilet
+water
+i
+can
+hear
+you
+peeing
+i
+said
+he
+didn't
+answer
+so
+i
+said
+in
+apology
+it's
+okay
+humans
+are
+sexually
+dimorphic
+i
+was
+sitting
+on
+my
+blue
+baby
+blanket
+texting
+jon
+who
+was
+funny
+and
+amicable
+over
+the
+phone
+he
+made
+a
+three-message
+joke
+about
+greedy
+lawyers
+and
+i
+would
+have
+been
+laughing
+if
+not
+for
+my
+embarrassment
+toward
+eli
+he
+finally
+came
+out
+of
+the
+bathroom
+and
+kept
+his
+eyes
+straight
+ahead
+toward
+the
+wall
+calendar
+and
+not
+at
+me
+as
+he
+passed
+through
+the
+family
+room
+into
+his
+bedroom
+were
+he
+shut
+the
+door
+quietly
+presently
+i
+heard
+some
+muffled
+noise
+as
+he
+turned
+on
+his
+ipod
+i
+guessed
+he
+didn't
+feel
+like
+talking
+so
+i
+stayed
+on
+my
+blanket
+watching
+the
+price
+is
+right
+and
+texting
+jon
+drew
+carrey
+was
+doing
+his
+wrap-up
+speech
+on
+tv
+when
+eli
+finally
+came
+out
+of
+his
+room
+red
+puffy
+streaks
+covering
+his
+face
+his
+eyes
+and
+nose
+were
+red
+too
+which
+was
+almost
+festive
+against
+the
+pale
+green
+and
+white
+of
+the
+wallpaper
+i
+had
+been
+laughing
+at
+the
+goofy
+costumes
+on
+the
+price
+is
+right
+and
+the
+jokes
+jon
+was
+texting
+me
+but
+when
+eli
+came
+out
+of
+the
+room
+i
+stopped
+and
+just
+looked
+at
+him
+as
+well
+as
+i
+could
+he
+was
+staring
+at
+my
+right
+shoulder
+as
+he
+said
+go
+home
+now
+what
+i
+said
+go
+home
+now
+i
+don't
+want
+you
+here
+anymore
+because
+i
+just
+remembered
+i
+have
+someone
+coming
+over
+and
+i
+have
+to
+clean
+look
+eli
+i'm
+sorry
+it
+doesn't
+have
+anything
+to
+do
+with
+you
+i
+swear
+just
+go
+okay
+go
+home
+now
+i
+got
+up
+and
+tried
+to
+give
+him
+a
+hug
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+stayed
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+or
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@@ -0,0 +1,219 @@
+stump
+he
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+into
+the
+woods
+for
+the
+first
+time
+in
+months
+it
+was
+a
+bright
+summer
+day
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+the
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+of
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+it
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+his
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+instead
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+an
+axe
+his
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+hand
+clutched
+his
+notebook
+his
+left
+was
+in
+his
+pocket
+a
+pencil
+perched
+behind
+his
+ear
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+a
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+his
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+the
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+the
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+gone
+through
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+enough
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+a
+frayed
+edge
+like
+a
+torn
+page
+paul
+walked
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+to
+the
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+down
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+looked
+up
+and
+tried
+to
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+a
+pattern
+in
+the
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+trees
+there
+was
+none
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+and
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+in
+the
+same
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+a
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+ran
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+one
+and
+up
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+for
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+his
+notebook
+and
+took
+his
+pencil
+from
+his
+ear
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+think
+of
+nothing
+to
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+a
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+another
+something
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+looked
+up
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+not
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+the
+black
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+in
+the
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+he
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+to
+the
+cream-colored
+pages
+of
+his
+notebook
+he
+was
+surprised
+that
+he'd
+written
+you
+cannot
+discover
+art
@@ -0,0 +1,156 @@
+swansong
+alternate
+version
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+dry
+like
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+as
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+the
+tapping
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+the
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+do
+not
+have
+teeth
+nor
+do
+they
+sing
+a
+honking
+over
+the
+cliff
+is
+all
+they
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+do
+and
+that
+they
+do
+badly
+you
+don't
+know
+where
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+going
+you
+want
+to
+tell
+me
+you
+are
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+you
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+are
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+you
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+swan
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+you
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+i
+have
+both
+nothing
+and
+everything
+at
+once
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+own
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+and
+nothing
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+it
@@ -0,0 +1,114 @@
+swan
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+to
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+swear
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+and
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+on
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+out
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+my
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+enough
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+recording
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+the
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+longer
+the
+ribbon
+will
+run
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+again
+on
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+different
+bodies
+that's
+what
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+thing
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+same
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+and
+local
+differences
+add
+up
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+identities
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+a
+hoop
+right
+and
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+around
+and
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+it's
+flat
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+up
+with
+his
+left
+hand
+with
+his
+right
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+his
+pocket
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+in
+his
+mouth
+threw
+the
+paper
+in
+the
+corner
+grabbed
+his
+axe
+went
+out
+into
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@@ -0,0 +1,195 @@
+table
+of
+contents
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+she
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+me
+4
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+7
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+at
+the
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+a
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+box
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+buck
+and
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+in
+the
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+11
+two
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+an
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+men
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@@ -0,0 +1,255 @@
+tapestry
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+typewriters
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+am
+writing
+my
+hymns
+from
+now
+on
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+was
+back
+to
+calling
+his
+notes
+hymns
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+looked
+up
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+in
+the
+dictionary
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+said
+that
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+was
+an
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+song
+of
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+of
+notfurniture
+in
+what
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+again
+calling
+his
+writing
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+the
+dictionary
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+the
+old
+greek
+word
+for
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+what
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+himself
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+wrote
+this
+down
+on
+a
+new
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+did
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+of
+this
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@@ -0,0 +1,689 @@
+telemarketer
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+inside
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+the
+constant
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+dry
+air
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+in
+hell
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+the
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+all
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+this
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+a
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+as
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+client's
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+it's
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+ma'am
+uh
+miz
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+but
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+whether
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+to
+ah
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+his
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+in
+his
+hand
+and
+started
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+his
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+in
+his
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+why
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+anything
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+to
+do
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+was
+the
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+even
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+on
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+mini-drama
+written
+and
+staged
+within
+his
+mind
+she
+would
+call
+customer
+service
+and
+complain
+loudly
+into
+the
+representative's
+ear
+the
+rep
+would
+send
+a
+memo
+to
+the
+head
+of
+telemarketing
+requesting
+disciplinary
+action
+and
+the
+head
+would
+delegate
+the
+action
+to
+larry's
+immediate
+supervisor
+david
+david
+would
+saunter
+over
+to
+larry's
+cubicle
+sometime
+within
+the
+next
+week
+depending
+on
+when
+he
+got
+the
+memo
+and
+when
+he
+felt
+like
+crossing
+fifty
+feet
+of
+office
+space
+and
+have
+one
+of
+what
+david
+liked
+to
+call
+chats
+but
+what
+larry
+knew
+were
+lectures
+after
+about
+half
+an
+hour
+of
+chatting
+david
+would
+give
+larry
+a
+warning
+and
+ask
+him
+to
+come
+in
+for
+overtime
+to
+make
+up
+for
+the
+discretion
+and
+walk
+back
+slowly
+to
+his
+office
+making
+small
+talk
+with
+the
+cubicled
+workers
+on
+the
+way
+the
+world
+suddenly
+felt
+too
+small
+for
+larry
+or
+he
+too
+big
+for
+it
+quietly
+with
+the
+same
+patience
+but
+with
+a
+bigger
+pain
+jane
+said
+my
+husband
+just
+left
+me
+and
+i
+thought
+you
+could
+take
+my
+mind
+off
+of
+him
+for
+just
+a
+minute
+and
+hung
+up
@@ -0,0 +1,181 @@
+the
+night
+we
+met
+i
+was
+out
+of
+my
+mind
+or
+lying
+in
+the
+dark
+my
+head
+is
+full
+of
+fire
+my
+tongue
+swollen
+pregnant
+with
+all
+the
+things
+i
+should've
+said
+but
+didn't
+last
+night
+we
+met
+each
+other
+in
+the
+dark
+remember
+you
+told
+me
+time
+was
+pregnant
+with
+all
+things
+i
+should've
+said
+something
+to
+draw
+you
+out
+from
+your
+place
+in
+the
+dark
+remember
+you
+told
+me
+time
+was
+only
+an
+illusion
+and
+memory
+was
+only
+something
+to
+draw
+you
+out
+from
+your
+place
+i
+out
+from
+mine
+that
+night
+i
+believed
+in
+you
+only
+illusion
+and
+memory
+were
+one
+lying
+down
+on
+your
+couch
+through
+the
+night
+you
+drew
+me
+out
+from
+mine
+that
+night
+i
+believed
+in
+you
+when
+you
+told
+me
+you
+loved
+me
+i
+lay
+down
+on
+your
+couch
+through
+the
+night
+you
+drew
+a
+picture
+of
+our
+future
+together
+when
+you
+told
+me
+you
+loved
+me
+i
+lied
+in
+the
+dark
+remember
+you
+told
+me
+time
+was
+a
+picture
+of
+our
+future
+together
+my
+head
+is
+full
+of
+fire
+my
+tongue
+swollen
@@ -0,0 +1,141 @@
+the
+sea
+and
+the
+beach
+waiting
+for
+a
+reading
+to
+start
+when
+there's
+nobody
+coming
+anyway
+is
+like
+waiting
+for
+the
+tide
+to
+make
+some
+meaning
+of
+the
+beach
+the
+sea
+doesn't
+know
+or
+care
+what
+the
+beach
+even
+is
+let
+alone
+its
+cares
+or
+its
+troubles
+its
+little
+nagging
+under-the-skin
+annoyances
+that
+make
+the
+beach
+the
+beach
+sandworms
+for
+example
+or
+those
+crabs
+with
+big
+pincers
+on
+one
+side
+but
+not
+the
+other
+those
+really
+get
+the
+beach's
+gander
+up
+but
+the
+sea
+doesn't
+care
+the
+sea
+only
+wants
+to
+caress
+the
+beach
+with
+its
+soft
+arms
+to
+tell
+the
+beach
+how
+much
+it's
+loved
+by
+the
+sea
+that
+complex
+of
+water
+salt
+and
+the
+moon's
+gravity
+the
+mercury
+rising
+up
+and
+down
+slowly
+like
+a
+yawn
+the
+sea
+only
+cares
+about
+itself
+the
+beach
+lays
+there
+and
+takes
+it
@@ -0,0 +1,161 @@
+the
+ocean
+overflows
+with
+camels
+we
+found
+your
+shirt
+deep
+in
+the
+dark
+water
+caught
+on
+the
+clothesline
+of
+sleeping
+pills
+your
+head
+on
+the
+shore
+was
+streaming
+tears
+like
+sleeves
+or
+the
+coronas
+of
+saints
+saved
+from
+fire
+the
+burning
+bush
+began
+crying
+like
+a
+child
+who
+misses
+his
+mother
+traffic
+slammed
+shut
+like
+an
+eye
+god's
+mean
+left
+hook
+knocked
+us
+out
+and
+we
+began
+swimming
+bruises
+bloomed
+like
+algae
+on
+a
+lake
+your
+father
+beat
+your
+chest
+and
+screamed
+for
+someone
+to
+open
+a
+window
+the
+air
+stopped
+breathing
+fish
+clogged
+its
+gills
+birds
+sang
+too
+loudly
+trying
+to
+drown
+out
+your
+father's
+cries
+but
+all
+their
+sweetness
+was
+not
+enough
+no
+polite
+noises
+will
+be
+made
+anymore
+he
+told
+us
+clawing
+your
+breastbone
+he
+opened
+your
+heart
+to
+air
+again
+camels
+flowed
+from
+you
+both
+like
+water
+from
+the
+rock
+god
+spoke
+up
+but
+nobody
+listened
+to
+him
+we
+hung
+you
+up
+on
+the
+line
+to
+dry
@@ -0,0 +1,167 @@
+time
+looks
+up
+to
+the
+sky
+i
+wish
+i'd
+kissed
+you
+when
+i
+had
+the
+chance
+your
+face
+hovering
+there
+so
+near
+to
+mine
+your
+mouth
+pursed
+what
+word
+was
+it
+you
+pronounced
+when
+i
+think
+about
+you
+something
+in
+my
+pants
+tightens
+and
+my
+thoughts
+run
+and
+i
+realize
+i
+should've
+kissed
+you
+when
+i
+had
+the
+chance
+i
+want
+that
+moment
+never
+to
+be
+past
+like
+keats's
+lovers
+on
+the
+grecian
+urn
+his
+mouth
+pursed
+her
+figure
+turned
+to
+pronounce
+her
+hips
+in
+ways
+that
+are
+not
+feminist
+but
+time
+strolls
+mildly
+on
+not
+glancing
+at
+my
+wish
+to
+kiss
+you
+when
+i
+had
+the
+chance
+whispered
+like
+a
+beggar
+to
+a
+prince
+outside
+his
+palace
+time
+looks
+up
+to
+the
+sky
+purses
+his
+lips
+and
+hears
+what
+i
+pronounce
+but
+pays
+it
+little
+mind
+if
+he
+would
+just
+turn
+back
+bend
+down
+and
+follow
+my
+design
+i
+would
+have
+kissed
+you
+when
+i
+had
+the
+chance
+as
+your
+mouth
+pursed
+and
+you
+pronounced
+goodbye
@@ -0,0 +1,105 @@
+to
+daniel
+an
+elaboration
+of
+a
+previous
+comment
+there
+are
+more
+modern
+ideals
+of
+beauty
+than
+yours
+young
+padowan
+jessica
+has
+some
+assets
+that
+i'll
+give
+you
+easily
+but
+in
+my
+women
+i
+prefer
+pizzazz
+i
+don't
+want
+to
+bring
+you
+down
+or
+make
+you
+think
+that
+your
+perfected
+woman
+isn't
+so
+it's
+just
+that
+like
+adam
+said
+2006
+has
+come
+and
+gone
+what
+did
+she
+do
+in
+that
+year
+anyway
+imdb
+has
+surprisingly
+none
+though
+in
+05
+she's
+in
+four
+titles
+sin
+city
+i've
+never
+seen
+although
+from
+many
+i've
+heard
+it's
+good
+but
+it's
+still
+irrelevant
+no
+matter
+how
+comely
+she
+lacks
+talent
@@ -0,0 +1,143 @@
+toilet
+paul
+only
+did
+his
+reading
+on
+the
+toilet
+he
+read
+in
+a
+magazine
+that
+the
+universe
+as
+we
+know
+it
+is
+actually
+a
+hologram
+a
+three-dimensional
+projection
+of
+a
+lower
+two-dimensional
+realer
+reality
+the
+article
+said
+that
+this
+model
+explains
+things
+like
+quantum
+entanglement
+what
+it
+called
+spooky
+action
+at
+a
+distance
+after
+he
+finished
+he
+ran
+back
+out
+to
+his
+writing
+shack
+and
+hammered
+out
+a
+treatise
+on
+literature
+as
+spooky
+action
+his
+mind
+was
+reeling
+he
+typed
+out
+an
+entire
+notecard
+on
+the
+subject
+he
+stopped
+to
+catch
+his
+breath
+reading
+it
+over
+he
+realized
+he
+was
+completely
+wrong
+paper
+is
+made
+from
+trees
+he
+thought
+and
+so
+is
+furniture
+he
+had
+thought
+that
+art
+and
+craft
+were
+two
+separate
+enterprises
+but
+he
+realized
+in
+a
+flash
+that
+they
+were
+two
+sides
+of
+the
+same
+building
+were
+there
+other
+walls
@@ -0,0 +1,248 @@
+toothpaste
+he
+couldn't
+find
+a
+shirt
+to
+go
+to
+work
+in
+they
+all
+had
+stains
+on
+them
+somewhere
+he
+pulled
+out
+a
+vest
+to
+put
+on
+over
+the
+stains
+but
+somehow
+all
+of
+them
+were
+still
+visible
+most
+of
+them
+were
+unidentifiable
+but
+one
+he
+thought
+could
+have
+come
+from
+that
+peach
+he
+ate
+two
+weeks
+before
+another
+looked
+like
+toothpaste
+but
+he
+was
+paranoid
+it
+was
+something
+else
+when
+he
+took
+the
+bus
+into
+work
+he
+couldn't
+relax
+he
+was
+paranoid
+everyone
+was
+staring
+at
+his
+stain
+and
+kept
+looking
+out
+the
+corners
+of
+his
+eyes
+to
+make
+sure
+they
+weren't
+they
+didn't
+seem
+to
+be
+but
+they
+could
+also
+be
+looking
+away
+just
+as
+he
+looked
+at
+them
+the
+observation
+paradox
+he
+muttered
+to
+himself
+jill
+was
+the
+only
+one
+to
+notice
+the
+stain
+at
+work
+she
+came
+around
+to
+his
+cubicle
+during
+a
+break
+because
+he
+dared
+not
+show
+his
+stain
+in
+the
+break
+room
+you
+have
+a
+stain
+on
+your
+shoulder
+she
+said
+it
+looks
+like
+toothpaste
+do
+i
+he
+feigned
+ignorance
+but
+went
+red
+at
+the
+same
+time
+i
+didn't
+see
+that
+there
+this
+morning
+how
+do
+you
+get
+toothpaste
+on
+your
+shoulder
+i
+don't
+know
+skills
+i
+guess
+he
+said
+and
+she
+grinned
+you
+know
+vinegar
+will
+take
+that
+out
+she
+said
+although
+i
+think
+i
+like
+it
+you
+should
+start
+a
+museum
+of
+shirt
+stains
+i
+don't
+have
+that
+many
+shirts
+with
+stains
+he
+said
+frowning
+yes
+you
+do
+she
+said
@@ -0,0 +1,204 @@
+treatise
+treatise
+on
+literature
+as
+spooky
+action
+from
+a
+distance
+there
+is
+this
+thing
+called
+spooky
+action
+at
+a
+distance
+einstein
+mentioned
+it
+first
+i
+believe
+it
+is
+about
+how
+two
+electrons
+can
+act
+like
+they
+are
+right
+next
+to
+each
+other
+although
+they
+are
+very
+far
+away
+lightyears
+even
+for
+a
+long
+time
+this
+puzzled
+scientists
+until
+someone
+not
+einstein
+figured
+out
+that
+maybe
+the
+universe
+is
+a
+hologram
+or
+projection
+so
+what
+appears
+to
+be
+very
+far
+apart
+in
+the
+hologram
+might
+actually
+be
+very
+close
+in
+the
+substrate
+reality
+i
+want
+to
+talk
+about
+this
+effect
+in
+literature
+in
+literature
+the
+writer
+writes
+words
+on
+a
+substrate
+paper
+and
+later
+the
+reader
+reads
+the
+same
+words
+off
+the
+substrate
+although
+the
+writer
+and
+reader
+might
+be
+very
+far
+apart
+from
+each
+other
+in
+time
+and
+space
+they
+experience
+the
+same
+effect
+from
+reading
+the
+words
+even
+the
+writer
+reading
+his
+own
+words
+after
+he
+has
+written
+them
+becomes
+a
+reader
+and
+feels
+who
+he
+was
+at
+that
+time
+like
+a
+ghost
+problems
+maybe
+the
+substrate
+isn't
+paper
+it's
+what
+the
+writing
+is
+about
+where
+is
+the
+hologram
+are
+physics
+and
+literature
+comparable
+what
+if
+the
+universe
+isn't
+a
+hologram
+what
+then
@@ -0,0 +1,202 @@
+underwear
+he
+dropped
+the
+penny
+in
+the
+dryer
+turned
+it
+on
+and
+turned
+around
+what
+he
+called
+upstairs
+pretending
+not
+to
+hear
+his
+mother's
+question
+over
+the
+noise
+of
+the
+dryer
+he
+had
+heard
+her
+ask
+could
+you
+bring
+up
+my
+underwear
+from
+the
+dryer
+but
+didn't
+want
+to
+touch
+her
+underwear
+any
+more
+than
+he
+had
+to
+i
+don't
+want
+to
+bring
+up
+your
+underwear
+he
+said
+to
+himself
+and
+walked
+back
+upstairs
+as
+his
+mother
+was
+calling
+down
+again
+for
+her
+underwear
+did
+you
+get
+them
+she
+asked
+when
+he
+opened
+the
+basement
+door
+to
+the
+kitchen
+she
+was
+sitting
+at
+the
+table
+playing
+dominoes
+get
+what
+he
+asked
+she
+peered
+at
+him
+and
+said
+my
+underwear
+oh
+i
+didn't
+see
+them
+he
+answered
+he
+reflexively
+opened
+the
+refrigerator
+reflexively
+bent
+down
+reflexively
+tried
+to
+feign
+non-disappointment
+appointment
+he
+thought
+at
+seeing
+the
+same
+disappointing
+empty
+pickle
+jar
+old
+head
+of
+lettuce
+crusty
+mayonnaise
+he'd
+seen
+already
+on
+the
+way
+down
+to
+switch
+his
+laundry
+over
+paul
+she
+said
+in
+that
+way
+that
+means
+look
+at
+me
+paul
+looked
+at
+her
+you
+had
+to
+get
+them
+out
+of
+the
+dryer
+to
+put
+your
+clothes
+in
+where
+did
+you
+put
+them
@@ -0,0 +1,217 @@
+wallpaper
+he
+didn't
+go
+back
+into
+the
+shed
+for
+a
+long
+time
+his
+hatchet
+was
+in
+there
+and
+his
+axe
+he
+didn't
+want
+to
+face
+them
+his
+papers
+he
+decided
+could
+wait
+in
+the
+top
+drawer
+for
+a
+while
+before
+being
+looked
+at
+again
+the
+pain
+medication
+made
+him
+loopy
+he
+couldn't
+think
+as
+well
+as
+he
+was
+used
+to
+which
+wasn't
+well
+to
+begin
+with
+even
+saying
+his
+thoughts
+out
+loud
+it
+was
+as
+though
+they
+were
+on
+the
+tv
+in
+the
+next
+room
+someone
+was
+cheering
+they
+had
+just
+won
+a
+car
+his
+mother
+came
+in
+with
+lunch
+on
+a
+tray
+it
+was
+hot
+tomato
+soup
+and
+a
+grilled
+cheese
+sandwich
+what
+have
+you
+been
+doing
+all
+day
+she
+asked
+you
+haven't
+just
+been
+staring
+at
+the
+wall
+have
+you
+he
+had
+been
+staring
+at
+the
+wall
+most
+of
+the
+day
+the
+wall
+without
+the
+window
+on
+it
+with
+the
+woodgrain
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+he
+said
+what
+have
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+doing
+then
+she
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+setting
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+on
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+upset
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+but
+she
+caught
+it
+before
+it
+spilled
+anything
+composing
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+my
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+he
+lied
+a
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+of
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+do
+you
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+think
+anyone
+will
+want
+to
+read
+about
+you
+she
+asked
+and
+walked
+out
+of
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+we
+played
+those
+games
+too
+i
+saw
+two
+eskimo
+girls
+playing
+a
+game
+blowing
+on
+each
+other's
+vocal
+chords
+to
+make
+music
+on
+the
+tundra
+i
+thought
+about
+how
+once
+we
+played
+the
+same
+game
+and
+the
+sounds
+blowing
+over
+the
+chords
+of
+our
+throats
+was
+the
+same
+as
+a
+wind
+over
+frozen
+prairie
+we
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+the
+eskimo
+girls
+who
+played
+the
+game
+that
+night
+to
+keep
+ourselves
+warm
+i
+run
+my
+hands
+over
+my
+daughter's
+voicebox
+as
+she
+hums
+a
+song
+about
+a
+seal
+and
+about
+killing
+the
+seal
+and
+about
+skinning
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+and
+rendering
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+blubber
+into
+clear
+oil
+to
+light
+lamps
+i
+remember
+you
+are
+my
+lamp
+she
+remembers
+you
+although
+you
+left
+before
+she
+arrived
+i
+can
+never
+tell
+her
+about
+you
+i
+will
+never
+be
+able
+to
+express
+that
+taste
+of
+your
+oil
+as
+we
+pushed
+our
+throats
+together
+i
+will
+never
+be
+able
+to
+say
+how
+we
+share
+this
+blemish
+like
+conjoined
+twins
+i
+will
+fail
+you
+always
+to
+remember
+you
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+when
+i'm
+sorry
+i
+wash
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+your
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+it
+has
+some
+baked-in
+crust
+from
+when
+you
+cooked
+chicken
+last
+night
+washing
+it
+allows
+me
+to
+think
+about
+this
+poem's
+title
+and
+the
+first
+few
+lines
+now
+that
+i've
+written
+them
+down
+i've
+forgotten
+the
+rest
+while
+scraping
+at
+something
+with
+my
+finger
+nail
+i
+catch
+myself
+wondering
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+thank
+me
+for
+washing
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+realize
+that
+this
+would
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+of
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+that
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+destroyed
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+saying
+i'm
+sorry
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+the
+reason
+why
+i
+am
+always
+apologizing
+because
+i
+never
+mean
+it
+because
+there
+is
+always
+in
+some
+attic
+a
+thought
+roaming
+that
+says
+insists
+i've
+done
+nothing
+wrong
+and
+i
+deserve
+all
+i
+can
+take
+and
+more
+than
+that
@@ -0,0 +1,243 @@
+window
+hymn
+386
+jokes
+tell
+us
+a
+joke
+everyone
+asks
+of
+the
+clown
+he
+sits
+on
+a
+log
+and
+begins
+to
+think
+everyone
+waits
+gap-mouthed
+in
+anticipation
+a
+slight
+breeze
+ruffles
+the
+clown's
+coat
+his
+pompom
+buttons
+his
+bright
+red
+hair
+his
+nose
+becomes
+redder
+in
+the
+cold
+hours
+pass
+all
+but
+the
+most
+dedicated
+of
+joke
+listeners
+leave
+him
+to
+rot
+for
+all
+they
+may
+care
+the
+clown
+opens
+his
+mouth
+to
+speak
+but
+no
+words
+come
+out
+a
+tear
+falls
+down
+his
+cheek
+and
+another
+he
+begins
+to
+sob
+the
+last
+joke
+listener
+comes
+over
+to
+comfort
+him
+she
+puts
+a
+hand
+on
+his
+shoulder
+he
+looks
+up
+at
+her
+red
+face
+red
+nose
+white
+lips
+and
+says
+thank
+you
+he
+vanishes
+from
+the
+clearing
+the
+last
+joke
+listener
+sits
+on
+the
+log
+and
+looks
+up
+at
+the
+sky
+the
+moon
+is
+full
+the
+world
+creaks
+on
+its
+axis
+paul
+looked
+up
+to
+the
+space
+on
+the
+wall
+where
+a
+window
+should
+be
+the
+shadow
+of
+his
+face
+wavered
+in
+the
+candle
+light
+he
+looked
+back
+down
+at
+the
+card
+he'd
+been
+writing
+on
+he
+read
+the
+card
+he
+crossed
+out
+the
+for
+all
+they
+may
+care
+in
+the
+first
+paragraph
+and
+thank
+you
+from
+the
+second
+one
+what
+could
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+say
+he
+thought
+to
+himself
+what
+could
+he
+possibly
+say
+to
+her
+he
+went
+outside
+to
+clear
+his
+head
+with
+a
+cigarette
+he
+took
+his
+axe
+with
+him
+this
+time
@@ -0,0 +1,472 @@
+words
+and
+meaning
+how
+astonishing
+it
+is
+that
+language
+can
+almost
+mean
+/
+and
+frightening
+that
+it
+does
+not
+quite
+jack
+gilbert
+opens
+his
+poem
+the
+forgotten
+dialect
+of
+the
+heart
+in
+a
+similar
+vein
+hass's
+meditation
+at
+legunitas
+states
+a
+word
+is
+elegy
+to
+what
+it
+signifies
+these
+poems
+get
+to
+the
+heart
+of
+language
+and
+express
+the
+old
+duality
+of
+thought
+by
+giving
+a
+word
+to
+an
+entity
+it
+is
+both
+tethered
+and
+made
+meaningful
+words
+are
+the
+inevitable
+byproduct
+of
+an
+analytic
+mind
+humans
+are
+constantly
+classifying
+and
+reclassifying
+ideas
+objects
+animals
+people
+into
+ten
+thousand
+arbitrary
+categories
+a
+favorite
+saying
+of
+mine
+is
+that
+everything
+is
+everything
+a
+tautology
+that
+i
+like
+because
+it
+gets
+to
+the
+core
+of
+the
+human
+linguistic
+machine
+and
+because
+every
+time
+i
+say
+it
+people
+think
+i'm
+being
+disingenuous
+but
+what
+i
+mean
+by
+everything
+is
+everything
+is
+that
+there
+is
+a
+continuity
+to
+existence
+that
+works
+beyond
+or
+rather
+underneath
+our
+capacity
+to
+understand
+it
+through
+language
+language
+by
+definition
+compartmentalizes
+reality
+sets
+this
+bit
+apart
+from
+that
+bit
+sets
+up
+boundaries
+as
+to
+what
+is
+and
+is
+not
+a
+stone
+a
+leaf
+a
+door
+most
+of
+the
+time
+i
+think
+of
+language
+as
+limiting
+as
+defining
+a
+thing
+as
+the
+inverse
+of
+everything
+is
+not
+in
+this
+way
+everything
+is
+everything
+becomes
+everything
+is
+nothing
+which
+is
+another
+thing
+i
+like
+to
+say
+and
+something
+that
+pisses
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+off
+to
+me
+infinity
+and
+zero
+are
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+ways
+of
+looking
+at
+the
+same
+point
+on
+the
+circle
+of
+numbers
+of
+the
+universe
+whatever
+maybe
+it's
+because
+i
+wear
+an
+analogue
+watch
+and
+so
+my
+view
+of
+time
+is
+cyclical
+or
+maybe
+it's
+some
+brain
+trauma
+i
+had
+in
+vitro
+but
+whatever
+it
+is
+that's
+how
+i
+see
+the
+world
+because
+i'm
+working
+against
+the
+limitations
+that
+language
+sets
+upon
+us
+i
+think
+that's
+the
+role
+of
+the
+poet
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+of
+any
+artist
+to
+take
+the
+over-expansive
+experience
+of
+existing
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+to
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+down
+boil
+and
+boil
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+until
+there
+is
+the
+ultimate
+concentrate
+at
+the
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+that
+is
+what
+the
+poem
+talks
+around
+at
+etc
+but
+never
+of
+because
+it
+is
+ultimately
+made
+of
+language
+and
+cannot
+get
+to
+it
+a
+poem
+is
+getting
+as
+close
+as
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+to
+the
+speed
+of
+light
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+absolute
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+to
+god
+while
+knowing
+that
+it
+can't
+get
+all
+the
+way
+there
+and
+never
+will
+a
+poem
+is
+doing
+this
+and
+coming
+back
+and
+showing
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+as
+it
+happened
+exegesis
+is
+hard
+because
+a
+really
+good
+poem
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+be
+just
+that
+it
+will
+be
+the
+most
+basic
+and
+best
+way
+to
+say
+what
+it's
+saying
+so
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+say
+the
+same
+thing
+differently
+will
+fail
+a
+poem
+is
+a
+kernel
+of
+existence
+it
+is
+a
+description
+of
+the
+kernel
+it
+is
@@ -0,0 +1,148 @@
+worse
+looking
+over
+the
+radio
+is
+screaming
+the
+man
+on
+the
+radio
+will
+not
+be
+quiet
+he
+is
+pushed
+far
+into
+the
+background
+while
+some
+npr
+talkers
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+over
+his
+screaming
+he
+lost
+something
+very
+important
+he
+says
+it
+over
+and
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+but
+they
+do
+not
+listen
+they
+think
+of
+their
+children
+at
+home
+lying
+in
+bed
+dreaming
+sweet
+childhood
+one
+of
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+is
+staying
+over
+at
+a
+friend's
+house
+they
+are
+staying
+up
+late
+they
+never
+want
+it
+to
+be
+over
+not
+like
+the
+man
+his
+life
+on
+the
+radio
+will
+be
+the
+only
+one
+he
+ever
+has
+his
+life
+it
+is
+wasted
+he's
+being
+spoken
+over
+such
+pain
+is
+in
+his
+voice
+i
+wish
+you
+could
+hear
+it
+it's
+something
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+over
+suffering
+everywhere
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+same
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+murmur
+of
+the
+comfortable
+distracted
+or
+worse
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+over
+the
+shoulder
+and
+quietly
+looking
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+writing
+he
+sat
+down
+at
+his
+writing
+desk
+and
+removed
+his
+new
+pen
+from
+its
+plastic
+wrapping
+he
+remembered
+how
+to
+fill
+it
+from
+the
+view
+from
+saturday
+which
+he'd
+read
+as
+a
+kid
+it
+had
+been
+one
+of
+his
+favorite
+books
+he
+remembered
+the
+heart
+puzzle
+they
+completed
+the
+origin
+of
+the
+word
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+fourth-grade
+teacher
+ms
+mrs
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+could
+never
+remember
+samovar
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+smiled
+as
+he
+opened
+the
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+the
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+he'd
+just
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+he
+dipped
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+pen
+in
+the
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+screwed
+the
+converter
+piston
+up
+and
+watched
+as
+nothing
+entered
+the
+chamber
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+screwed
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+down
+and
+up
+again
+while
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+the
+nib
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+deeply
+into
+the
+ink
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+as
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+nothing
+filled
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+he
+screwed
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+down
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+the
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+for
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+resolved
+to
+buy
+a
+typewriter
@@ -0,0 +1,250 @@
+x-ray
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+tree
+in
+the
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+a
+christmas
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+his
+mother
+a
+bird
+he'd
+never
+heard
+before
+cried
+out
+he
+jerked
+his
+head
+up
+and
+to
+the
+right
+as
+the
+hatchet
+fell
+down
+and
+to
+the
+left
+it
+cut
+deep
+into
+the
+back
+of
+his
+left
+hand
+a
+low
+thud
+didn't
+echo
+in
+the
+forest
+because
+all
+the
+needles
+and
+snow
+absorbed
+sound
+well
+the
+sound
+when
+he
+got
+back
+to
+the
+house
+his
+hand
+wrapped
+in
+the
+end
+of
+his
+shirt
+he
+still
+felt
+no
+pain
+he
+called
+for
+his
+mother
+and
+found
+her
+watching
+tv
+in
+the
+main
+room
+he
+stayed
+in
+the
+kitchen
+not
+wanting
+to
+get
+blood
+on
+the
+carpet
+she
+turned
+around
+cigarette
+dangling
+from
+her
+open
+mouth
+said
+oh
+god
+what
+happened
+she
+drove
+him
+to
+the
+hospital
+in
+the
+car
+the
+radio
+stayed
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+the
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+way
+paul
+wanted
+to
+turn
+it
+on
+but
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+want
+the
+desire
+not
+to
+annoy
+his
+mother
+was
+stronger
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+drove
+in
+silence
+at
+the
+hospital
+after
+the
+x-rays
+and
+stitching
+and
+pain
+medication
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+the
+doctor
+said
+you
+got
+lucky
+son
+if
+that
+axe
+had
+hit
+a
+half-inch
+lower
+you'd
+have
+lost
+your
+hand
+you
+won't
+get
+full
+mobility
+back
+because
+we
+had
+to
+tie
+the
+tendons
+but
+with
+therapy
+you
+should
+be
+able
+to
+work
+it
+pretty
+well
+on
+the
+drive
+back
+home
+all
+he
+could
+think
+was
+that
+he
+was
+glad
+he
+didn't
+hit
+his
+writing
+hand
@@ -0,0 +1,272 @@
+yellow
+he
+would
+enter
+data
+at
+work
+for
+fifty
+minutes
+and
+then
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+he
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+to
+the
+breakroom
+which
+had
+a
+white
+refrigerator
+a
+black
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+on
+a
+brown
+plyboard
+cart
+stocked
+with
+powdered
+creamer
+sugar
+and
+swizzle
+sticks
+a
+dark
+red
+coffee
+maker
+and
+yellow
+paint
+on
+the
+wall
+he'd
+remember
+that
+somewhere
+he'd
+read
+an
+article
+about
+yellow
+walls
+being
+calming
+they
+use
+yellow
+in
+asylums
+he'd
+say
+to
+himself
+he
+would
+sit
+down
+at
+the
+round
+table
+covered
+in
+newspapers
+that
+took
+up
+the
+half
+of
+the
+room
+not
+occupied
+by
+the
+refrigerator
+microwave
+or
+counter
+with
+coffee
+pot
+and
+sink
+he
+didn't
+drink
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+but
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+would
+think
+about
+starting
+he
+would
+shuffle
+the
+newspapers
+around
+on
+the
+table
+and
+see
+they
+were
+all
+the
+same
+ones
+as
+an
+hour
+ago
+or
+technically
+fifty
+minutes
+ago
+he
+would
+say
+to
+himself
+sometimes
+jill
+would
+come
+in
+for
+a
+cup
+of
+coffee
+she
+would
+always
+check
+that
+her
+lunch
+which
+she
+brought
+each
+morning
+in
+a
+tupperware
+container
+with
+a
+blue
+lid
+with
+her
+name
+written
+on
+it
+in
+black
+sharpie
+was
+still
+there
+once
+he
+asked
+her
+why
+she
+checked
+why
+do
+you
+always
+check
+if
+your
+lunch
+is
+in
+the
+fridge
+he
+asked
+i
+don't
+she
+said
+oh
+i
+thought
+you
+did
+i
+don't
+think
+so
+why
+do
+you
+check
+at
+all
+once
+it
+was
+stolen
+out
+of
+the
+fridge
+and
+returned
+empty
+before
+i
+had
+a
+chance
+to
+eat
+my
+lunch
+she
+said
+so
+you
+make
+sure
+it
+won't
+happen
+again
+no
+i'm
+waiting
+for
+the
+day
+that
+it
+does
@@ -0,0 +1 @@
+zzyzzx
@@ -0,0 +1,18 @@
+THINGS STILL TO DO FOR AUTOCENTO.ME
+===================================
+
+- Link old poems to new poems
+- add colors & background-colors to projects' css
+- add a "notes" or "about" page
+- do something about verse:
+    - `s,<p>\(.*<br />\),<div class="stanza"><p class="line">\1,` ?
+    - `s,<br />,</p><p class="line">,` ?
+
+- think about --html-q-tags option for pandoc
+- think about changing nav links::after to borders
+    - and change :hover thing to contrast hovered navlinks
+
+Done
+----
+
+- ~~add index page with all pieces~~
@@ -1,10 +0,0 @@
-THINGS STILL TO DO FOR AUTOCENTO.ME
-===================================
-
-- Link old poems to new poems
-- add colors to projects' css
-    - and background colors
-- add index page with all pieces
-- add a "notes" or "about" page
-- think about --html-q-tags option for pandoc
-    - and --ascii option
@@ -19,7 +19,7 @@ project:
 ...
 
 _It's all [jokes][]_ Paul wrote in what he was now calling his Hymnal.
-He had been writing non-stop all day, because he didn't count pee- or cigarette- breaks.
+He had been writing non-stop all day, because he didn't count pee or cigarette breaks.
 _All art is an inside joke.
 The symbology involved must be_---and here he put down his pen and held his head in his hands.
 He could never think of the word---he said often that he had no words.