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1this
2book
3is
4an
5exploration
6of
7life
8of
9all
10possible
11lives
12that
13could
14be
15lived
16each
17of
18the
19poems
20contained
21herein
22have
23been
24written
25by
26a
27different
28person
29with
30his
31own
32history
33culture
34and
35emotions
36true
37they
38are
39all
40related
41but
42no
43more
44than
45any
46of
47us
48is
49related
50through
51our
52genetics
53our
54shared
55planet
56or
57our
58yearnings
59fernando
60pessoa
61wrote
62poems
63under
64four
65different
66identities
67he
68called
69them
70heteronyms
71that
72were
73known
74during
75his
76lifetime
77though
78after
79his
80death
81over
82sixty
83have
84been
85found
86and
87catalogued
88he
89called
90them
91heteronyms
92as
93opposed
94to
95pseudonyms
96because
97they
98were
99much
100more
101than
102names
103he
104wrote
105under
106they
107were
108truly
109different
110writing
111selves
112concerned
113with
114different
115ideas
116and
117writing
118with
119different
120styles
121alberto
122caeiro
123wrote
124pastorals
125ricardo
126reis
127wrote
128more
129formal
130odes
131lvaro
132de
133campos
134wrote
135these
136long
137whitman-esque
138pieces
139one
140to
141whitman
142himself
143and
144pessoa's
145own
146name
147was
148used
149for
150poems
151that
152are
153kind
154of
155similar
156to
157all
158the
159others
160it
161seems
162as
163though
164pessoa
165found
166it
167inefficient
168to
169try
170and
171write
172everything
173he
174wanted
175only
176in
177his
178own
179self
180rather
181he
182parceled
183out
184the
185different
186pieces
187and
188developed
189them
190into
191full
192identities
193at
194the
195cost
196of
197his
198own
199i
200subsist
201as
202a
203kind
204of
205medium
206of
207myself
208but
209i'm
210less
211real
212than
213the
214others
215less
216substantial
217less
218personal
219and
220easily
221influenced
222by
223them
224all
225de
226campos
227said
228of
229him
230at
231one
232point
233fernando
234pessoa
235strictly
236speaking
237doesn't
238exist
239it's
240not
241just
242pessoa
243i
244strictly
245speaking
246don't
247exist
248both
249as
250the
251specific
252me
253that
254writes
255this
256now
257and
258as
259the
260concept
261of
262selfhood
263the
264ego
265heraclitus
266famously
267said
268that
269we
270can't
271step
272into
273the
274same
275river
276twice
277and
278the
279fact
280of
281the
282matter
283is
284that
285we
286can't
287occupy
288the
289same
290self
291twice
292it's
293constantly
294changing
295and
296adapting
297to
298new
299stimuli
300from
301the
302environment
303from
304other
305selves
306from
307inside
308itself
309and
310each
311time
312it
313forms
314anew
315into
316something
317that's
318never
319existed
320before
321the
322person
323i
324am
325beginning
326a
327poem
328is
329a
330separate
331being
332than
333the
334one
335i
336am
337finishing
338a
339poem
340and
341part
342of
343it
344is
345the
346poem
347i've
348written
349has
350brought
351forth
352some
353other
354dish
355onto
356the
357great
358table
359that
360is
361myself
362in
363the
364same
365way
366with
367each
368poem
369you
370read
371of
372this
373you
374too
375could
376become
377a
378different
379person
380depending
381on
382which
383order
384you
385read
386them
387in
388you
389could
390be
391any
392number
393of
394possible
395people
396if
397you
398follow
399the
400threads
401i've
402laid
403out
404for
405you
406there
407are
408so
409many
410possible
411selves
412if
413you
414disregard
415those
416and
417go
418a
419different
420way
421there
422are
423quite
424a
425few
426more
427however
428at
429the
430end
431of
432the
433journey
434there
435is
436only
437one
438self
439that
440you
441will
442occupy
443the
444others
445disappearing
446from
447this
448universe
449and
450going
451maybe
452somewhere
453else
454maybe
455nowhere
456at
457all
458there
459is
460a
461scene
462in
463the
464neverending
465story
466where
467bastian
468is
469trying
470to
471find
472his
473way
474out
475of
476the
477desert
478he
479opens
480a
481door
482and
483finds
484himself
485in
486the
487temple
488of
489a
490thousand
491doors
492which
493is
494never
495seen
496from
497the
498outside
499but
500only
501once
502someone
503enters
504it
505it
506is
507a
508series
509of
510rooms
511with
512six
513sides
514each
515and
516three
517doors
518one
519from
520the
521room
522before
523and
524two
525choices
526in
527life
528each
529of
530these
531rooms
532is
533a
534moment
535but
536where
537bastian
538can
539choose
540which
541of
542only
543two
544doors
545to
546enter
547each
548time
549in
550life
551there
552can
553be
554any
555number
556of
557doors
558and
559we
560don't
561always
562choose
563which
564to
565go
566through
567in
568fact
569i
570would
571argue
572that
573most
574of
575the
576time
577we
578aren't
579allowed
580the
581luxury
582what
583happens
584to
585those
586other
587doors
588those
589other
590possibilities
591is
592there
593some
594other
595version
596of
597the
598self
599that
600for
601whatever
602complexities
603of
604circumstance
605and
606will
607chose
608a
609different
610door
611at
612an
613earlier
614moment
615the
616answer
617to
618this
619of
620course
621is
622that
623we
624can
625never
626know
627for
628sure
629though
630this
631doesn't
632keep
633us
634from
635trying
636through
637the
638process
639of
640regret
641we
642go
643back
644and
645try
646that
647other
648door
649in
650our
651mind
652extrapolating
653a
654possible
655present
656from
657our
658own
659past
660this
661is
662ultimately
663unsatisfying
664not
665only
666because
667whatever
668world
669is
670imagined
671is
672not
673the
674one
675currently
676lived
677but
678because
679it
680becomes
681obvious
682that
683the
684alternate
685model
686of
687reality
688is
689not
690complete
691we
692can
693only
694extrapolate
695from
696the
697original
698room
699absolutely
700without
701knowledge
702of
703any
704subsequent
705possible
706choices
707this
708causes
709a
710deep
711disappointment
712a
713frustration
714with
715the
716inability
717to
718know
719all
720possible
721timelines
722coupled
723with
724the
725insecurity
726that
727this
728may
729not
730be
731the
732best
733of
734all
735possible
736worlds
737that
738we
739feel
740as
741regret
742in
743this
744way
745every
746moment
747we
748live
749is
750an
751elegy
752to
753every
754possible
755future
756that
757might
758have
759stemmed
760from
761it
762annie
763dillard
764states
765this
766in
767a
768biological
769manner
770when
771she
772says
773in
774pilgrim
775at
776tinker
777creek
778every
779glistening
780egg
781is
782a
783memento
784mori
785nature
786is
787inefficient
788it
789spends
790a
791hundred
792lifetimes
793to
794get
795one
796that
797barely
798works
799the
800fossil
801record
802is
803littered
804with
805the
806failed
807experiments
808of
809evolution
810many
811of
812which
813failed
814due
815only
816to
817blind
818chance
819an
820asteroid
821a
822shift
823in
824weather
825patterns
826an
827inefficient
828copulation
829method
830each
831living
832person
833today
834has
835twenty
836dead
837standing
838behind
839him
840and
841that
842only
843counts
844the
845people
846that
847actually
848lived
849how
850many
851missed
852opportunities
853stand
854behind
855any
856of
857us
858the
859real
860problem
861with
862all
863of
864this
865is
866that
867time
868is
869only
870additive
871there's
872no
873way
874to
875dial
876it
877back
878and
879start
880over
881with
882new
883choices
884or
885new
886environments
887even
888when
889given
890the
891chance
892to
893do
894something
895again
896we
897do
898it
899again
900with
901the
902reality
903given
904by
905our
906previous
907action
908thus
909we
910are
911constantly
912creating
913and
914being
915created
916by
917the
918world
919the
920self
921is
922never
923the
924same
925from
926one
927moment
928to
929the
930next
931a
932poem
933is
934like
935a
936snapshot
937of
938a
939self
940if
941it's
942any
943good
944it
945captures
946the
947emotional
948core
949of
950the
951self
952at
953the
954time
955of
956writing
957for
958communication
959with
960future
961selves
962either
963within
964the
965same
966person
967or
968outside
969of
970it
971thus
972revision
973is
974possible
975and
976the
977new
978poem
979created
980will
981be
982yet
983another
984snapshot
985of
986the
987future
988self
989as
990changed
991by
992the
993original
994poem
995the
996page
997becomes
998a
999window
1000into
1001the
1002past
1003a
1004particular
1005past
1006as
1007experienced
1008by
1009one
1010self
1011the
1012poem
1013is
1014a
1015remembering
1016of
1017a
1018self
1019that
1020no
1021longer
1022exists
1023in
1024other
1025words
1026an
1027elegy
1028a
1029snapshot
1030doesn't
1031capture
1032the
1033entire
1034subject
1035however
1036it
1037leaves
1038out
1039the
1040background
1041as
1042it's
1043obscured
1044by
1045foreground
1046objects
1047it
1048fails
1049to
1050include
1051anything
1052that
1053isn't
1054contained
1055in
1056its
1057finite
1058frame
1059in
1060order
1061to
1062build
1063a
1064working
1065definition
1066of
1067identity
1068we
1069must
1070include
1071all
1072possible
1073selves
1074over
1075all
1076possible
1077timelines
1078combined
1079into
1080one
1081person
1082identity
1083is
1084the
1085combined
1086effect
1087of
1088all
1089possible
1090selves
1091over
1092time
1093a
1094poem
1095leaves
1096much
1097of
1098this
1099out
1100it
1101is
1102the
1103one
1104person
1105standing
1106in
1107front
1108of
1109twenty
1110ghosts
1111a
1112poem
1113is
1114the
1115place
1116where
1117the
1118selves
1119of
1120the
1121reader
1122and
1123the
1124speaker
1125meet
1126in
1127their
1128respective
1129times
1130and
1131places
1132in
1133this
1134way
1135a
1136poem
1137is
1138outside
1139of
1140time
1141or
1142place
1143because
1144it
1145changes
1146its
1147location
1148each
1149time
1150it's
1151read
1152each
1153time
1154it's
1155two
1156different
1157people
1158meeting
1159the
1160problem
1161with
1162a
1163poem
1164is
1165that
1166it's
1167such
1168a
1169small
1170window
1171if
1172we
1173met
1174in
1175real
1176life
1177the
1178way
1179we
1180met
1181in
1182poems
1183we
1184would
1185see
1186nothing
1187of
1188anyone
1189else
1190but
1191a
1192square
1193the
1194size
1195of
1196a
1197postage
1198stamp
1199it
1200has
1201been
1202argued
1203this
1204is
1205the
1206way
1207we
1208see
1209time
1210and
1211ourselves
1212in
1213it
1214as
1215well
1216vonnegut
1217uses
1218the
1219metaphor
1220of
1221a
1222subject
1223strapped
1224to
1225a
1226railroad
1227car
1228moving
1229at
1230a
1231set
1232pace
1233with
1234a
1235six-foot-long
1236metal
1237tube
1238placed
1239in
1240front
1241of
1242the
1243subject's
1244eye
1245the
1246landscape
1247in
1248the
1249distance
1250is
1251time
1252and
1253what
1254we
1255see
1256is
1257the
1258only
1259way
1260in
1261which
1262we
1263interact
1264with
1265it
1266it's
1267the
1268same
1269with
1270a
1271poem
1272and
1273the
1274self
1275we
1276can
1277only
1278see
1279and
1280interact
1281with
1282a
1283small
1284kernel
1285this
1286is
1287why
1288it's
1289possible
1290to
1291write
1292more
1293than
1294one
1295poem
1296due
1297to
1298this
1299kernel
1300nature
1301of
1302poetry
1303a
1304good
1305poem
1306should
1307focus
1308itself
1309to
1310extract
1311as
1312much
1313meaning
1314as
1315possible
1316from
1317that
1318one
1319kernel
1320of
1321identity
1322to
1323which
1324it
1325has
1326access
1327it
1328should
1329be
1330an
1331atom
1332of
1333selfhood
1334irreducible
1335and
1336resistant
1337to
1338paraphrase
1339because
1340it
1341tries
1342to
1343somehow
1344echo
1345the
1346large
1347unsayable
1348part
1349of
1350identity
1351outside
1352the
1353frame
1354of
1355the
1356self
1357it
1358is
1359the
1360kernel
1361that
1362contains
1363a
1364universe
1365or
1366that
1367speaks
1368around
1369one
1370that's
1371hidden
1372if
1373it's
1374a
1375successful
1376poem
1377then
1378it
1379makes
1380the
1381smallest
1382circuit
1383possible
1384this
1385is
1386why
1387the
1388commentary
1389on
1390poems
1391is
1392so
1393voluminous
1394a
1395poem
1396is
1397tightly
1398packed
1399meaning
1400that
1401commentators
1402try
1403to
1404unpack
1405to
1406get
1407at
1408that
1409universality
1410inside
1411it
1412a
1413fortress
1414of
1415dialectic
1416is
1417constructed
1418that
1419ultimately
1420obstructs
1421the
1422meaning
1423behind
1424the
1425poem
1426it
1427becomes
1428the
1429foreground
1430in
1431the
1432photograph
1433that
1434disallows
1435us
1436to
1437view
1438the
1439horizon
1440beyond
1441it
1442with
1443this
1444in
1445mind
1446i
1447collect
1448these
1449poems
1450that
1451were
1452written
1453over
1454a
1455period
1456of
1457four
1458years
1459into
1460this
1461book
1462where
1463i
1464can
1465i
1466insert
1467cross-references
1468like
1469the
1470one
1471above
1472in
1473the
1474margin
1475to
1476other
1477pieces
1478in
1479the
1480text
1481where
1482i
1483think
1484the
1485two
1486resonate
1487in
1488some
1489way
1490you
1491can
1492read
1493this
1494book
1495in
1496any
1497way
1498you'd
1499like
1500you
1501can
1502go
1503front-to-back
1504or
1505back-to-front
1506or
1507you
1508can
1509follow
1510the
1511arrows
1512around
1513or
1514you
1515can
1516work
1517out
1518a
1519complex
1520mathematical
1521formula
1522with
1523merseinne
1524primes
1525and
1526logarithms
1527and
1528the
15292000
1530census
1531information
1532or
1533you
1534can
1535go
1536completely
1537randomly
1538through
1539like
1540a
1541magazine
1542or
1543at
1544least
1545the
1546way
1547i
1548flip
1549through
1550magazines
1551i
1552think
1553writing
1554is
1555a
1556communication
1557of
1558the
1559self
1560and
1561i
1562think
1563this
1564is
1565the
1566best
1567way
1568to
1569communicate
1570mine
1571in
1572all
1573its
1574multiversity