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1 | ouroboros | ||
2 | of | ||
3 | memory | ||
4 | he | ||
5 | said | ||
6 | at | ||
7 | the | ||
8 | beginning | ||
9 | it's | ||
10 | like | ||
11 | rolling | ||
12 | yarn | ||
13 | into | ||
14 | a | ||
15 | too-small | ||
16 | ball | ||
17 | sure | ||
18 | you | ||
19 | can | ||
20 | roll | ||
21 | the | ||
22 | memories | ||
23 | around | ||
24 | for | ||
25 | a | ||
26 | while | ||
27 | and | ||
28 | maybe | ||
29 | even | ||
30 | use | ||
31 | some | ||
32 | of | ||
33 | them | ||
34 | eventually | ||
35 | though | ||
36 | you'll | ||
37 | wind | ||
38 | them | ||
39 | all | ||
40 | the | ||
41 | way | ||
42 | out | ||
43 | and | ||
44 | you'll | ||
45 | be | ||
46 | left | ||
47 | with | ||
48 | nothing | ||
49 | but | ||
50 | a | ||
51 | small | ||
52 | loop | ||
53 | you | ||
54 | can | ||
55 | tie | ||
56 | this | ||
57 | loop | ||
58 | around | ||
59 | your | ||
60 | finger | ||
61 | and | ||
62 | start | ||
63 | wrapping | ||
64 | your | ||
65 | body | ||
66 | but | ||
67 | this | ||
68 | is | ||
69 | an | ||
70 | extension | ||
71 | of | ||
72 | the | ||
73 | same | ||
74 | problem | ||
75 | you'll | ||
76 | turn | ||
77 | into | ||
78 | a | ||
79 | mummy | ||
80 | of | ||
81 | memory | ||
82 | there'll | ||
83 | be | ||
84 | nothing | ||
85 | left | ||
86 | underneath | ||
87 | but | ||
88 | a | ||
89 | dead | ||
90 | body | ||
91 | but | ||
92 | what | ||
93 | does | ||
94 | it | ||
95 | mean | ||
96 | to | ||
97 | remember | ||
98 | the | ||
99 | body | ||
100 | with | ||
101 | the | ||
102 | body | ||
103 | i | ||
104 | imagine | ||
105 | a | ||
106 | creature | ||
107 | made | ||
108 | of | ||
109 | memory | ||
110 | putting | ||
111 | its | ||
112 | feet | ||
113 | in | ||
114 | its | ||
115 | mouth | ||
116 | turning | ||
117 | into | ||
118 | a | ||
119 | ball | ||
120 | in | ||
121 | this | ||
122 | way | ||
123 | it | ||
124 | could | ||
125 | roll | ||
126 | all | ||
127 | around | ||
128 | the | ||
129 | landscape | ||
130 | of | ||
131 | its | ||
132 | memory | ||
133 | i've | ||
134 | tried | ||
135 | explaining | ||
136 | this | ||
137 | to | ||
138 | other | ||
139 | people | ||
140 | but | ||
141 | it | ||
142 | doesn't | ||
143 | make | ||
144 | any | ||
145 | sense | ||
146 | to | ||
147 | them | ||
148 | the | ||
149 | task | ||
150 | of | ||
151 | eating | ||
152 | one's | ||
153 | feet | ||
154 | is | ||
155 | to | ||
156 | them | ||
157 | an | ||
158 | unsolvable | ||
159 | problem | ||
160 | they | ||
161 | seem | ||
162 | to | ||
163 | forgotten | ||
164 | that | ||
165 | as | ||
166 | babies | ||
167 | they | ||
168 | were | ||
169 | able | ||
170 | to | ||
171 | make | ||
172 | themselves | ||
173 | into | ||
174 | loops | ||
175 | so | ||
176 | i | ||
177 | increase | ||
178 | the | ||
179 | count | ||
180 | to | ||
181 | two | ||
182 | two | ||
183 | snakes | ||
184 | eating | ||
185 | each | ||
186 | other's | ||
187 | tales | ||
188 | forming | ||
189 | a | ||
190 | loop | ||
191 | in | ||
192 | this | ||
193 | way | ||
194 | they | ||
195 | are | ||
196 | able | ||
197 | to | ||
198 | put | ||
199 | two | ||
200 | heads | ||
201 | on | ||
202 | one | ||
203 | body | ||
204 | this | ||
205 | doubles | ||
206 | the | ||
207 | number | ||
208 | of | ||
209 | memories | ||
210 | which | ||
211 | really | ||
212 | only | ||
213 | exacerbates | ||
214 | the | ||
215 | problem | ||
216 | it's | ||
217 | like | ||
218 | trying | ||
219 | to | ||
220 | roll | ||
221 | two | ||
222 | different | ||
223 | materials | ||
224 | up | ||
225 | into | ||
226 | a | ||
227 | ball | ||
228 | the | ||
229 | people | ||
230 | i | ||
231 | tell | ||
232 | this | ||
233 | to | ||
234 | don't | ||
235 | understand | ||
236 | this | ||
237 | either | ||
238 | they | ||
239 | say | ||
240 | using | ||
241 | two | ||
242 | animals | ||
243 | makes | ||
244 | sense | ||
245 | to | ||
246 | them | ||
247 | they | ||
248 | say | ||
249 | there | ||
250 | must | ||
251 | be | ||
252 | different | ||
253 | types | ||
254 | of | ||
255 | memory | ||
256 | i | ||
257 | disagree | ||
258 | with | ||
259 | this | ||
260 | theory | ||
261 | of | ||
262 | memory | ||
263 | i | ||
264 | think | ||
265 | there | ||
266 | is | ||
267 | at | ||
268 | bottom | ||
269 | only | ||
270 | one | ||
271 | type | ||
272 | of | ||
273 | anything | ||
274 | with | ||
275 | subtypes | ||
276 | grouped | ||
277 | together | ||
278 | along | ||
279 | the | ||
280 | edge | ||
281 | of | ||
282 | a | ||
283 | loop | ||
284 | color | ||
285 | becomes | ||
286 | a | ||
287 | good | ||
288 | metaphor | ||
289 | look | ||
290 | how | ||
291 | many | ||
292 | of | ||
293 | them | ||
294 | yet | ||
295 | they | ||
296 | are | ||
297 | all | ||
298 | consumed | ||
299 | by | ||
300 | the | ||
301 | same | ||
302 | part | ||
303 | of | ||
304 | the | ||
305 | body | ||
306 | maybe | ||
307 | two | ||
308 | different | ||
309 | materials | ||
310 | are | ||
311 | still | ||
312 | made | ||
313 | of | ||
314 | material | ||
315 | and | ||
316 | maybe | ||
317 | they | ||
318 | can | ||
319 | be | ||
320 | rolled | ||
321 | into | ||
322 | a | ||
323 | ball | ||
324 | maybe | ||
325 | there | ||
326 | actually | ||
327 | never | ||
328 | was | ||
329 | a | ||
330 | problem | ||
331 | or | ||
332 | maybe | ||
333 | and | ||
334 | this | ||
335 | is | ||
336 | more | ||
337 | likely | ||
338 | i | ||
339 | need | ||
340 | to | ||
341 | restate | ||
342 | the | ||
343 | problem | ||
344 | i | ||
345 | think | ||
346 | it | ||
347 | all | ||
348 | boils | ||
349 | down | ||
350 | to | ||
351 | the | ||
352 | fact | ||
353 | that | ||
354 | i | ||
355 | have | ||
356 | a | ||
357 | truly | ||
358 | lousy | ||
359 | memory | ||
360 | i've | ||
361 | tried | ||
362 | different | ||
363 | mnemonic | ||
364 | devices | ||
365 | like | ||
366 | imagining | ||
367 | each | ||
368 | thing | ||
369 | i | ||
370 | need | ||
371 | to | ||
372 | remember | ||
373 | being | ||
374 | visited | ||
375 | by | ||
376 | a | ||
377 | bouncing | ||
378 | ball | ||
379 | i've | ||
380 | tried | ||
381 | trying | ||
382 | string | ||
383 | into | ||
384 | finger-loops | ||
385 | i've | ||
386 | even | ||
387 | tried | ||
388 | writing | ||
389 | the | ||
390 | things | ||
391 | i | ||
392 | need | ||
393 | to | ||
394 | remember | ||
395 | on | ||
396 | my | ||
397 | body | ||
398 | if | ||
399 | you | ||
400 | asked | ||
401 | me | ||
402 | do | ||
403 | any | ||
404 | of | ||
405 | these | ||
406 | work | ||
407 | i | ||
408 | would | ||
409 | have | ||
410 | to | ||
411 | answer | ||
412 | none | ||
413 | of | ||
414 | them | ||
415 | sometimes | ||
416 | in | ||
417 | the | ||
418 | morning | ||
419 | i | ||
420 | realize | ||
421 | dumbly | ||
422 | i've | ||
423 | forgotten | ||
424 | my | ||
425 | words | ||
426 | all | ||
427 | of | ||
428 | them | ||
429 | they | ||
430 | generally | ||
431 | come | ||
432 | back | ||
433 | by | ||
434 | around | ||
435 | ten | ||
436 | o'clock | ||
437 | but | ||
438 | the | ||
439 | frequency | ||
440 | with | ||
441 | which | ||
442 | this | ||
443 | is | ||
444 | occurring | ||
445 | is | ||
446 | becoming | ||
447 | a | ||
448 | problem | ||
449 | i | ||
450 | feel | ||
451 | that | ||
452 | my | ||
453 | brain | ||
454 | is | ||
455 | being | ||
456 | separated | ||
457 | from | ||
458 | my | ||
459 | body | ||
460 | is | ||
461 | there | ||
462 | a | ||
463 | place | ||
464 | in | ||
465 | the | ||
466 | universe | ||
467 | for | ||
468 | a | ||
469 | misplaced | ||
470 | memory | ||
471 | does | ||
472 | it | ||
473 | eat | ||
474 | its | ||
475 | own | ||
476 | tail | ||
477 | and | ||
478 | roll | ||
479 | around | ||
480 | the | ||
481 | universe | ||
482 | as | ||
483 | it | ||
484 | loops | ||
485 | does | ||
486 | it | ||
487 | shrink | ||
488 | down | ||
489 | and | ||
490 | become | ||
491 | lost | ||
492 | as | ||
493 | a | ||
494 | tiny | ||
495 | ball | ||
496 | no | ||
497 | matter | ||
498 | what | ||
499 | happens | ||
500 | eventually | ||
501 | i | ||
502 | will | ||
503 | become | ||
504 | them | ||
505 | as | ||
506 | i | ||
507 | lose | ||
508 | the | ||
509 | last | ||
510 | of | ||
511 | my | ||
512 | memory | ||
513 | i | ||
514 | won't | ||
515 | be | ||
516 | able | ||
517 | to | ||
518 | solve | ||
519 | the | ||
520 | problem | ||
521 | of | ||
522 | my | ||
523 | being | ||
524 | and | ||
525 | my | ||
526 | being | ||
527 | will | ||
528 | become | ||
529 | my | ||
530 | problem | ||
531 | in | ||
532 | an | ||
533 | eternal | ||
534 | loop | ||
535 | i | ||
536 | will | ||
537 | roll | ||
538 | my | ||
539 | body | ||
540 | into | ||
541 | a | ||
542 | prenatal | ||
543 | ball | ||