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+ouroboros
+of
+memory
+he
+said
+at
+the
+beginning
+it's
+like
+rolling
+yarn
+into
+a
+too-small
+ball
+sure
+you
+can
+roll
+the
+memories
+around
+for
+a
+while
+and
+maybe
+even
+use
+some
+of
+them
+eventually
+though
+you'll
+wind
+them
+all
+the
+way
+out
+and
+you'll
+be
+left
+with
+nothing
+but
+a
+small
+loop
+you
+can
+tie
+this
+loop
+around
+your
+finger
+and
+start
+wrapping
+your
+body
+but
+this
+is
+an
+extension
+of
+the
+same
+problem
+you'll
+turn
+into
+a
+mummy
+of
+memory
+there'll
+be
+nothing
+left
+underneath
+but
+a
+dead
+body
+but
+what
+does
+it
+mean
+to
+remember
+the
+body
+with
+the
+body
+i
+imagine
+a
+creature
+made
+of
+memory
+putting
+its
+feet
+in
+its
+mouth
+turning
+into
+a
+ball
+in
+this
+way
+it
+could
+roll
+all
+around
+the
+landscape
+of
+its
+memory
+i've
+tried
+explaining
+this
+to
+other
+people
+but
+it
+doesn't
+make
+any
+sense
+to
+them
+the
+task
+of
+eating
+one's
+feet
+is
+to
+them
+an
+unsolvable
+problem
+they
+seem
+to
+forgotten
+that
+as
+babies
+they
+were
+able
+to
+make
+themselves
+into
+loops
+so
+i
+increase
+the
+count
+to
+two
+two
+snakes
+eating
+each
+other's
+tales
+forming
+a
+loop
+in
+this
+way
+they
+are
+able
+to
+put
+two
+heads
+on
+one
+body
+this
+doubles
+the
+number
+of
+memories
+which
+really
+only
+exacerbates
+the
+problem
+it's
+like
+trying
+to
+roll
+two
+different
+materials
+up
+into
+a
+ball
+the
+people
+i
+tell
+this
+to
+don't
+understand
+this
+either
+they
+say
+using
+two
+animals
+makes
+sense
+to
+them
+they
+say
+there
+must
+be
+different
+types
+of
+memory
+i
+disagree
+with
+this
+theory
+of
+memory
+i
+think
+there
+is
+at
+bottom
+only
+one
+type
+of
+anything
+with
+subtypes
+grouped
+together
+along
+the
+edge
+of
+a
+loop
+color
+becomes
+a
+good
+metaphor
+look
+how
+many
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+them
+yet
+they
+are
+all
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+by
+the
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+the
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+are
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+made
+of
+material
+and
+maybe
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+can
+be
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+maybe
+there
+actually
+never
+was
+a
+problem
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+maybe
+and
+this
+is
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+likely
+i
+need
+to
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+the
+problem
+i
+think
+it
+all
+boils
+down
+to
+the
+fact
+that
+i
+have
+a
+truly
+lousy
+memory
+i've
+tried
+different
+mnemonic
+devices
+like
+imagining
+each
+thing
+i
+need
+to
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+visited
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+a
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+need
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+you
+asked
+me
+do
+any
+of
+these
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+i
+would
+have
+to
+answer
+none
+of
+them
+sometimes
+in
+the
+morning
+i
+realize
+dumbly
+i've
+forgotten
+my
+words
+all
+of
+them
+they
+generally
+come
+back
+by
+around
+ten
+o'clock
+but
+the
+frequency
+with
+which
+this
+is
+occurring
+is
+becoming
+a
+problem
+i
+feel
+that
+my
+brain
+is
+being
+separated
+from
+my
+body
+is
+there
+a
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+in
+the
+universe
+for
+a
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+does
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+as
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+shrink
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+and
+become
+lost
+as
+a
+tiny
+ball
+no
+matter
+what
+happens
+eventually
+i
+will
+become
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+i
+lose
+the
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+of
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+memory
+i
+won't
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+of
+my
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+my
+being
+will
+become
+my
+problem
+in
+an
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+loop
+i
+will
+roll
+my
+body
+into
+a
+prenatal
+ball