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-there
-is
-a
-cave
-just
-outside
-of
-flagstaff
-made
-from
-ancient
-lava
-flows
-we
-went
-inside
-it
-to
-where
-the
-darkness
-was
-a
-presence
-it
-walked
-with
-us
-like
-a
-christ
-our
-footsteps
-fell
-dead
-on
-its
-walls
-we
-learned
-what
-space
-felt
-like
-and
-drowning
-and
-being
-crushed
-and
-going
-blind
-and
-deaf
-we
-made
-up
-words
-to
-push
-the
-feeling
-away
-to
-goad
-it
-like
-mockingbirds
-fighting
-hawks
-we
-called
-it
-creepy
-to
-its
-face
-it
-stared
-back
-dispassionate
-in
-a
-bathroom
-i
-know
-there
-is
-a
-low
-thrumming
-that
-comes
-from
-the
-air
-ducts
-in
-the
-ceiling
-it
-comforts
-me
-in
-the
-same
-way
-the
-smell
-of
-toilet-water
-calms
-my
-stomach
-it
-is
-a
-sound
-so
-close
-to
-quiet
-so
-close
-to
-the
-porcelain
-whiteness
-of
-the
-toilet
-it
-pushes
-all
-other
-noise
-away
-it
-is
-deafening
-quiet
-in
-its
-most
-real
-form
-its
-most
-realizable
-form
-the
-eggs
-on
-the
-floor
-broken
-not
-the
-eggs
-in
-their
-journey
-to
-the
-floor
-or
-from
-the
-farm
-or
-from
-the
-hen
-on
-the
-farm
-in
-the
-cage
-glowing
-under
-fluorescent
-lights
-its
-neighbors
-pressed
-to
-its
-body
-rotten-smelling
-grotesque
-not
-the
-fateful
-meeting
-with
-the
-floor
-not
-the
-long
-wait
-in
-darkness
-for
-the
-fluorescent
-dawn
-cacophonous
-with
-pain
-and
-smell
-none
-of
-this
-the
-sunlight
-on
-the
-kitchen
-tile
-the
-refrigerator
-softly
-humming
-the
-eggs
-on
-the
-floor
-the
-yolks
-glistening
-i
-compose
-with
-music
-best
-under
-its
-meaninglessness
-i
-am
-able
-to
-hear
-the
-silence
-a
-different
-meaninglessness
-a
-somehow-deeper
-meaninglessness
-the
-inverse
-of
-repeating
-a
-word
-until
-it
-is
-only
-sound
-i
-can
-hear
-the
-taboo
-the
-never-spoken
-unacknowledged
-i
-write
-to
-drown
-its
-sound
-with
-the
-scratching
-of
-my
-pen
-silence
-lies
-underneath
-us
-all
-in
-the
-same
-way
-the
-nile
-has
-a
-river
-underneath
-ten
-times
-as
-large
-though
-this
-is
-an
-urban
-legend
-apparently
-i
-threw
-a
-party
-in
-my
-dream
-and
-went
-to
-the
-bathroom
-down
-a
-long
-dark
-hallway
-i
-began
-to
-leave
-and
-noticed
-the
-bathtub
-full
-of
-stuffed
-animals
-in
-a
-heap
-i
-examined
-them
-each
-in
-turn
-an
-elephant
-a
-tiger
-each
-backgrounded
-by
-white
-tile
-a
-warthog
-sat
-at
-the
-top
-of
-the
-heap
-it
-caught
-my
-eye
-i
-stared
-it
-slowly
-winked
-sneering
-i
-reached
-out
-my
-finger
-and
-poked
-it
-like
-the
-pillsbury
-doughboy
-it
-responded
-in
-kind
-chuckling
-i
-woke
-with
-a
-start
-terrified
-it
-had
-made
-no
-sound
-there
-are
-at
-least
-two
-kinds
-of
-silence
-in
-the
-same
-way
-that
-there
-are
-at
-least
-two
-kinds
-of
-sadness
-there
-is
-the
-silence
-of
-after
-the
-staring
-open-mouthed
-silence
-the
-what-do-we-do-now
-silence
-there
-is
-the
-silence
-of
-before
-the
-still
-before
-rainfall
-the
-just-woken-up
-there
-is
-now
-i'm
-thinking
-about
-it
-the
-silence
-of
-between
-the
-waiting
-room
-after
-the
-heart
-attack
-after
-the
-phone
-call
-after
-the
-hurried
-drive
-the
-fast
-walking
-down
-hospital
-hallways
-the
-finding
-the
-room
-my
-family
-their
-faces
-the
-silence
-of
-after
-the
-tv
-quietly
-playing
-maurie
-the
-silence
-underneath
-that
-the
-waiting
-room
-before
-the
-doctor
-comes
-in
-tells
-us
-what
-happened
-the
-chances
-before
-my
-parents
-drive
-down
-their
-three
-long
-hours
-in
-the
-car
-before
-we
-become
-the
-hospital
-people
-for
-five
-days
-camped-out
-loud
-cackling
-crying
-doing
-crosswords
-watching
-her
-die
-the
-silence
-of
-wondering
-whether
-we
-could've
-known
-each
-other
-better
-the
-silence
-of
-the
-long
-trip
-we
-prefer
-to
-believe
-she's
-gone
-on
-which
-is
-really
-the
-silence
-of
-her
-absence
-the
-eggs
-on
-the
-floor
-broken
-in
-other
-dreams
-all
-i've
-watched
-all
-of
-my
-family
-dying
-my
-father
-i
-remember
-best
-he
-was
-on
-the
-wicker
-rocking
-chair
-on
-the
-porch
-staring
-at
-the
-back
-yard
-the
-evergreen
-trees
-in
-a
-magic
-triangle
-their
-branches
-intertwined
-we
-were
-all
-on
-the
-porch
-and
-i
-heard
-like
-a
-far-away
-bell
-the
-moment
-of
-his
-death
-i
-woke
-up
-crying
-my
-throat
-closed
-with
-grief
-leaving
-after
-the
-goodbye
-at
-the
-hotel
-realizing
-i
-wo
-not
-be
-home
-until
-christmas
-that
-i'm
-on
-my
-own
-long
-trip
-someone
-on
-the
-radio
-station
-i'm
-listening
-to
-in
-the
-car
-screws
-up
-transferring
-tapes
-broadcasts
-dead
-air
-the
-silence
-yawns
-like
-a
-chasm
-lasting
-for
-years
-the
-wind
-picks
-me
-up
-and
-carries
-me
-away
-i
-see
-everything
-from
-a
-great
-height
-i
-see
-the
-future
-i'm
-waiting