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18 link: death-zone 18 link: death-zone
19... 19...
20 20
21I didn't write this sestina yesterday. \ 21I didn't write this sestina yesterday. \
22It's the first time I fell behind in my task \ 22It's the first time I fell behind in my task \
23and hopefully, the only time it will. \ 23and hopefully, the only time it will. \
24This means that today I must write two \ 24This means that today I must write two \
25sestinas. If I don't write them today, I \ 25sestinas. If I don't write them today, I \
26will have to write two later down the line. 26will have to write two later down the line.
27 27
28Although I feel I'm slogging through each line \ 28Although I feel I'm slogging through each line \
@@ -30,36 +30,42 @@ I think I'm doing better every day, \
30though maybe this is wishful thinking: I \ 30though maybe this is wishful thinking: I \
31showed my friend my just-completed task \ 31showed my friend my just-completed task \
32two days ago (my God, was it two \ 32two days ago (my God, was it two \
33entire days? I've no idea what I'll 33entire days? I've no idea what I'll
34 34
35do after thirty-nine days. I think I'll \ 35do [after thirty-nine days][]. I think I'll \
36feel like Inigo Montoya, who'd been in the line \ 36feel like [Inigo Montoya][], who'd been in the line \
37of revenging for so long, he didn't know what to \ 37of revenging for so long, he didn't know what to \
38do with the rest of his life), and he deigned \ 38do with the rest of his life), and he deigned \
39to be polite, but I could tell the task \ 39to be polite, but I could tell the task \
40was hard for him. He told me finally that I 40was hard for him. He told me finally that I
41 41
42had made a noble effort, but that ultimately I \ 42had made a noble effort, but that ultimately I \
43failed. So my question: when will \ 43failed. [So my question][]: when will \
44I be a decent sestina writer? For this is my task. \ 44I be a decent sestina writer? For this is my task. \
45Maybe if I just keep cranking out line after line \ 45Maybe if I just keep cranking out line after line \
46I'll finally figure it out. Maybe one more day \ 46I'll finally figure it out. Maybe one more day \
47or another week will do it, or maybe I'll need two, 47or another week will do it, or maybe I'll need two,
48 48
49or maybe it'll never happen. Maybe a sestina's too \ 49or maybe it'll never happen. Maybe a sestina's too \
50involved, too much weaving of words too fine, and I \ 50involved, too much [weaving][] of words too fine, and I \
51will never write a good one, even on my best day, \ 51will never write a good one, even on my best day, \
52even if I employ all my skill and all my will. \ 52even if I employ all my skill and all my will. \
53I'm not used to writing poems with thirty-nine lines, \ 53I'm not used to writing poems with thirty-nine lines, \
54that must be the problem, must be why this task 54that must be the problem, must be why this task
55 55
56is Herculean. He only had to finish twelve tasks, \ 56is Herculean. He only had to finish twelve tasks, \
57and I have one less one thousand, five hundred twenty-two, \ 57and I have one less one thousand, five hundred twenty-two, \
58and it's nothing but complaining lines \ 58and it's nothing but complaining lines \
59about how hard it is to be a person. I \ 59about [how hard it is to be a person][]. I \
60am getting sick of myself with these poems, and will \ 60am getting sick of myself with these poems, and will \
61soon be loathe to get out of bed every day. 61soon be loathe to get out of bed every day.
62 62
63But I tasked myself with this, which may be the worst I \ 63But I tasked myself with this, which may be the worst I \
64ever do to myself. I thought a poem NaNoWriMo would \ 64ever do to myself. I thought a poem NaNoWriMo would \
65be fun, would line my resume, give me something I could publish someday. 65be fun, would line my resume, give me something I could publish someday.
66
67[after thirty-nine days]: http://biblehub.com/2_corinthians/11-24.htm
68[Inigo Montoya]: death-zone.html
69[So my question]: question.html
70[weaving]: tapestry.html
71[how hard it is to be a person]: deathstrumpet.html