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author | Case Duckworth | 2015-02-27 15:51:11 -0700 |
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committer | Case Duckworth | 2015-02-27 15:51:11 -0700 |
commit | f402a2b6d43a0411028b14a19cb449a7da0f5314 (patch) | |
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parent | Revise Riptide of memory (diff) | |
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Change line breaks to sentences in prose pieces
57 files changed, 1002 insertions, 1099 deletions
diff --git a/src/TODO.txt b/src/TODO.txt index 0030650..aff6472 100644 --- a/src/TODO.txt +++ b/src/TODO.txt | |||
@@ -2,6 +2,3 @@ TODO: | |||
2 | ----- | 2 | ----- |
3 | 3 | ||
4 | * add in prose stuff from Elegies | 4 | * add in prose stuff from Elegies |
5 | * remove numbers from filenames & links | ||
6 | * add genre to YAML metadata blocks | ||
7 | |||
diff --git a/src/arspoetica.txt b/src/arspoetica.txt index 3014498..60b6ba1 100644 --- a/src/arspoetica.txt +++ b/src/arspoetica.txt | |||
@@ -14,38 +14,33 @@ project: | |||
14 | link: theoceanoverflowswithcamels | 14 | link: theoceanoverflowswithcamels |
15 | ... | 15 | ... |
16 | 16 | ||
17 | What is poetry? [Poetry is.][is] Inasmuch as life is, so is poetry. Here is | 17 | What is poetry? |
18 | the problem: life is very big and complex. Human beings are neither. We | 18 | [Poetry is.][is] |
19 | are small, simple beings that don’t want to know all of the myriad | 19 | Inasmuch as life is, so is poetry. |
20 | interactions happening all around us, within us, as a part of us, all | 20 | Here is the problem: life is very big and complex. |
21 | the hours of every day. We much prefer knowing only that which is just | 21 | Human beings are neither. |
22 | in front of our faces, staring us back with a look of utter contempt. | 22 | We are small, simple beings that don’t want to know all of the myriad interactions happening all around us, within us, as a part of us, all the hours of every day. |
23 | We much prefer knowing only that which is just in front of our faces, staring us back with a look of utter contempt. | ||
23 | This is why many people are depressed. | 24 | This is why many people are depressed. |
24 | 25 | ||
25 | Poetry is an attempt made by some to open up our field of view, to maybe | 26 | Poetry is an attempt made by some to open up our field of view, to maybe check on something else that isn’t staring us in the face so contemptibly. |
26 | check on something else that isn’t staring us in the face so | 27 | Maybe something else is smiling at us, we think. |
27 | contemptibly. Maybe something else is smiling at us, we think. So we | 28 | So we write poetry to force ourselves to look away from the [mirror][] of our existence to see something else. |
28 | write poetry to force ourselves to look away from the [mirror][] of our | ||
29 | existence to see something else. | ||
30 | 29 | ||
31 | This is generally painful. To make it less painful, poetry compresses | 30 | This is generally painful. |
32 | reality a lot to make it more consumable. It takes life, that seawater, | 31 | To make it less painful, poetry compresses reality a lot to make it more consumable. |
33 | and boils it down and boils it down until only the salt remains, the | 32 | It takes life, that seawater, and boils it down and boils it down until only the salt remains, the important parts that we can focus on and make some sense of the senselessness of life. |
34 | important parts that we can focus on and make some sense of the | 33 | Poetry is life bouillon, and to thoroughly enjoy a poem we must put that bouillon back into the seawater of life and make a delicious soup out of it. |
35 | senselessness of life. Poetry is life bouillon, and to thoroughly enjoy | 34 | To make this soup, to decompress the poem into an emotion or life, requires a lot of brainpower. |
36 | a poem we must put that bouillon back into the seawater of life and make | 35 | A good reader will have this brainpower. |
37 | a delicious soup out of it. To make this soup, to decompress the poem | 36 | A good poem will not require it. |
38 | into an emotion or life, requires a lot of brainpower. A good reader | ||
39 | will have this brainpower. A good poem will not require it. | ||
40 | 37 | ||
41 | What this means is: a poem should be self-extracting. It should be a | 38 | What this means is: a poem should be self-extracting. |
42 | rare vanilla in the bottle, waiting only for someone to open it and | 39 | It should be a rare vanilla in the bottle, waiting only for someone to open it and sniff it and suddenly there they are, in the orchid that vanilla came from, in the tropical land where it grew next to its brothers and sister vanilla plants. |
43 | sniff it and suddenly there they are, in the orchid that vanilla came | 40 | They feel the pain of having their children taken from them. |
44 | from, in the tropical land where it grew next to its brothers and sister | 41 | A good poem leaves a feeling of loss and of intense beauty. |
45 | vanilla plants. They feel the pain of having their children taken from | 42 | The reader does nothing to achieve this—they are merely the receptacle of the feeling that the poem forces onto them. |
46 | them. A good poem leaves a feeling of loss and of intense beauty. The | 43 | In a way, poetry is a crime. |
47 | reader does nothing to achieve this—they are merely the receptacle of | ||
48 | the feeling that the poem forces onto them. In a way, poetry is a crime. | ||
49 | But it is the most beautiful crime on this crime-ridden earth. | 44 | But it is the most beautiful crime on this crime-ridden earth. |
50 | 45 | ||
51 | [is]: words-meaning.html | 46 | [is]: words-meaning.html |
diff --git a/src/art.txt b/src/art.txt index c439598..dc6e0bb 100644 --- a/src/art.txt +++ b/src/art.txt | |||
@@ -15,16 +15,18 @@ project: | |||
15 | 15 | ||
16 | Paul was writing in his diary about art. | 16 | Paul was writing in his diary about art. |
17 | 17 | ||
18 | _This is my brain_ he wrote. _This is my brain and all it contains. 'I | 18 | _This is my brain_ he wrote. |
19 | contain multitudes' said Legion. I think it was Legion._ The big heading he | 19 | _This is my brain and all it contains. |
20 | had written at the top of the page (_ART_ it read, but only when looking at it | 20 | 'I contain multitudes' said Legion. |
21 | from his point of view) sat cold and alone, neglected in the white space | 21 | I think it was Legion._ |
22 | surrounding it. He noticed this presently (but not after he had written a | 22 | The big heading he had written at the top of the page (_ART_ it read, but only when looking at it from his point of view) sat cold and alone, neglected in the white space surrounding it. |
23 | little more about multitudes), paused, frowned, and began to write again. | 23 | He noticed this presently (but not after he had written a little more about multitudes), paused, frowned, and began to write again. |
24 | 24 | ||
25 | _ART stands alone at the top of a blank page_ he wrote. _It follows ~~itself | 25 | _ART stands alone at the top of a blank page_ he wrote. |
26 | in circles~~ its own footprints in a circle around its own name. It leads | 26 | _It follows ~~itself in circles~~ its own footprints in a circle around its own name. |
27 | nowhere but is present everywhere. ~~It contains~~ It contains multitudes. | 27 | It leads nowhere but is present everywhere. |
28 | Every painting ever made is a painting of every other painting. Every song is | 28 | ~~It contains~~ It contains multitudes. |
29 | a remix, a cover version._ He crossed out the part about songs for getting | 29 | Every painting ever made is a painting of every other painting. |
30 | off topic. He made a note to himself in the margin---_Music is not ART._ | 30 | Every song is a remix, a cover version._ |
31 | He crossed out the part about songs for getting off topic. | ||
32 | He made a note to himself in the margin---_Music is not ART._ | ||
diff --git a/src/axe.txt b/src/axe.txt index 2c7454b..4643aaf 100644 --- a/src/axe.txt +++ b/src/axe.txt | |||
@@ -18,20 +18,22 @@ project: | |||
18 | link: art | 18 | link: art |
19 | ... | 19 | ... |
20 | 20 | ||
21 | Paul took his axe and went out into the woods to chop trees. Or rather he | 21 | Paul took his axe and went out into the woods to chop trees. |
22 | went into the trees to chop wood. He wasn't sure. Either way it helped him | 22 | Or rather he went into the trees to chop wood. |
23 | think. Last time he'd gone out, he'd had an idea for a shoe-insert company he | 23 | He wasn't sure. |
24 | could start called "Paul's Bunyons." He chuckled to himself as he shouldered | 24 | Either way it helped him think. |
25 | his axe and went into the forest. | 25 | Last time he'd gone out, he'd had an idea for a shoe-insert company he could start called "Paul's Bunyons." |
26 | He chuckled to himself as he shouldered his axe and went into the forest. | ||
26 | 27 | ||
27 | Deep into the woods he admired the organization of the trees. "They grow | 28 | Deep into the woods he admired the organization of the trees. |
28 | wherever they fall" he said "but still none is too close to another." He | 29 | "They grow wherever they fall" he said "but still none is too close to another." |
29 | sounded like Solomon to himself. He imagined he had a beard. | 30 | He sounded like Solomon to himself. |
31 | He imagined he had a beard. | ||
30 | 32 | ||
31 | He walked for a long time in the shadows of the forest, in its coolness. It | 33 | He walked for a long time in the shadows of the forest, in its coolness. |
32 | sounded like snow had fallen but it was still October. The first time the | 34 | It sounded like snow had fallen but it was still October. |
33 | trees seemed to radiate out from him in straight lines he stopped and turned | 35 | The first time the trees seemed to radiate out from him in straight lines he stopped and turned around four times. |
34 | around four times. After he walked on he noticed it happened fairly often. | 36 | After he walked on he noticed it happened fairly often. |
35 | 37 | ||
36 | Still, after he felled his first tree that day he realized they grew from the | 38 | Still, after he felled his first tree that day he realized they grew from the epicenter of his axe. |
37 | epicenter of his axe. He paused in the small dark sound of the forest quiet. | 39 | He paused in the small dark sound of the forest quiet. |
diff --git a/src/building.txt b/src/building.txt index 4ceb244..88cbefc 100644 --- a/src/building.txt +++ b/src/building.txt | |||
@@ -18,25 +18,25 @@ project: | |||
18 | link: axe | 18 | link: axe |
19 | ... | 19 | ... |
20 | 20 | ||
21 | _ART and CRAFT are only the inside and outside of the same building. The | 21 | _ART and CRAFT are only the inside and outside of the same building. |
22 | ceiling is_---here he put his eraser to his bottom lip, thinking. He crossed | 22 | The ceiling is_---here he put his eraser to his bottom lip, thinking. |
23 | out _~~The ceiling is.~~_ _The floor is reality and the ceiling is | 23 | He crossed out _~~The ceiling is.~~_ |
24 | ~~aspiration~~ ~~desire~~ that which is desired. CRAFT is building a chair | 24 | _The floor is reality and the ceiling is ~~aspiration~~ ~~desire~~ that which is desired. |
25 | from wood. ART is using the wood as a substrate for an emotional message to a | 25 | CRAFT is building a chair from wood. |
26 | future person, the READER / VIEWER._ | 26 | ART is using the wood as a substrate for an emotional message to a future person, the READER / VIEWER._ |
27 | 27 | ||
28 | _The important thing is they are both made of wood. The important thing is | 28 | _The important thing is they are both made of wood. |
29 | they were both, at one point, alive natural things that grew and changed and | 29 | The important thing is they were both, at one point, alive natural things that grew and changed and pushed their way out of the dirt into the air. |
30 | pushed their way out of the dirt into the air. They formed buildings out of | 30 | They formed buildings out of the air. |
31 | the air. They didn't even try._ | 31 | They didn't even try._ |
32 | 32 | ||
33 | _What separates us from them, the trees? We have to try. We must labor to | 33 | _What separates us from them, the trees? |
34 | create our ART, our buildings of air. We lay them out brick by brick, we | 34 | We have to try. |
35 | build them up by disintegrating trees and forming them again into what they | 35 | We must labor to create our ART, our buildings of air. |
36 | were before. Why must we do this? are there any advantages to this human | 36 | We lay them out brick by brick, we build them up by disintegrating trees and forming them again into what they were before. |
37 | method?_ | 37 | Why must we do this? are there any advantages to this human method?_ |
38 | 38 | ||
39 | _Our advantage is memory. Our advantage is the reaching-out over space and | 39 | _Our advantage is memory. |
40 | time to others with our words, our ART. Our buildings last for generations, | 40 | Our advantage is the reaching-out over space and time to others with our words, our ART. |
41 | and after they are demolished they are written about, photographs are taken, | 41 | Our buildings last for generations, and after they are demolished they are written about, photographs are taken, we **remember**. |
42 | we **remember**. The act of memory is our only ART._ | 42 | The act of memory is our only ART._ |
diff --git a/src/cereal.txt b/src/cereal.txt index 8a2ba8e..b353644 100644 --- a/src/cereal.txt +++ b/src/cereal.txt | |||
@@ -18,26 +18,24 @@ project: | |||
18 | link: building | 18 | link: building |
19 | ... | 19 | ... |
20 | 20 | ||
21 | He woke up after eleven and didn't go outside all day, not even to his Writing | 21 | He woke up after eleven and didn't go outside all day, not even to his Writing Shack. |
22 | Shack. What did he do? | 22 | What did he do? |
23 | 23 | ||
24 | He watched late morning cartoons meant for children too young to go to school. | 24 | He watched late morning cartoons meant for children too young to go to school. |
25 | He ate bowls of cereal. He watched his mother play dominoes. He played | 25 | He ate bowls of cereal. |
26 | dominoes with her for a little while until she was winning by such a margin it | 26 | He watched his mother play dominoes. |
27 | wasn't fun for either of them. He went down to the basement to do his | 27 | He played dominoes with her for a little while until she was winning by such a margin it wasn't fun for either of them. |
28 | laundry. He pulled the chain for the light and it turned on like magic. | 28 | He went down to the basement to do his laundry. |
29 | "Electricity is like magic" he said to himself. He thought he would like to | 29 | He pulled the chain for the light and it turned on like magic. |
30 | write that down but his Implements were in the Shack. He'd already built up | 30 | "Electricity is like magic" he said to himself. |
31 | so much momentum inside. | 31 | He thought he would like to write that down but his Implements were in the Shack. |
32 | He'd already built up so much momentum inside. | ||
32 | 33 | ||
33 | Inertia? he thought. "What's the difference between inertia and momentum" he | 34 | Inertia? he thought. |
34 | asked himself as he hefted dirty clothes into the washer. "Maybe inertia is | 35 | "What's the difference between inertia and momentum" he asked himself as he hefted dirty clothes into the washer. |
35 | the momentum of not moving" he thought as he measured and poured the blue | 36 | "Maybe inertia is the momentum of not moving" he thought as he measured and poured the blue detergent into the drum. |
36 | detergent into the drum. "Momentum is the inertia of moving forward through | 37 | "Momentum is the inertia of moving forward through time" as he selected WARM-COLD on the dial and pulled it out to start the machine. |
37 | time" as he selected WARM-COLD on the dial and pulled it out to start the | 38 | "What do you think is the difference between inertia and momentum" he asked his mother when he opened the door at the top of the stairs. |
38 | machine. "What do you think is the difference between inertia and momentum" | ||
39 | he asked his mother when he opened the door at the top of the stairs. | ||
40 | 39 | ||
41 | "When you switch over your laundry could you bring up my underwear from the | 40 | "When you switch over your laundry could you bring up my underwear from the dryer" she asked not looking up from her dominoes. |
42 | dryer" she asked not looking up from her dominoes. A thread of smoke curled | 41 | A thread of smoke curled from her cigarette and spread out on the ceiling. |
43 | from her cigarette and spread out on the ceiling. | ||
diff --git a/src/dream.txt b/src/dream.txt index b933977..90312e9 100644 --- a/src/dream.txt +++ b/src/dream.txt | |||
@@ -18,11 +18,12 @@ project: | |||
18 | link: cereal | 18 | link: cereal |
19 | ... | 19 | ... |
20 | 20 | ||
21 | It had gotten cold. He went to lay down in bed with a pad and paper. He | 21 | It had gotten cold. |
22 | began to write. Although he hadn't tried it much in bed before, he liked it | 22 | He went to lay down in bed with a pad and paper. |
23 | mostly. His arm got tired journeying across the page like a series of | 23 | He began to write. |
24 | switchbacks down the wall of the Grand Canyon. He wrote this down in the | 24 | Although he hadn't tried it much in bed before, he liked it mostly. |
25 | margin, for later: | 25 | His arm got tired journeying across the page like a series of switchbacks down the wall of the Grand Canyon. |
26 | He wrote this down in the margin, for later: | ||
26 | 27 | ||
27 | ```hand | 28 | ```hand |
28 | Arm journeying across \ | 29 | Arm journeying across \ |
@@ -32,12 +33,16 @@ backs down the wall \ | |||
32 | of the Grand Canyon \ | 33 | of the Grand Canyon \ |
33 | ``` | 34 | ``` |
34 | 35 | ||
35 | His arm began to pain him. He adjusted his position in the bed. It didn't | 36 | His arm began to pain him. |
36 | help much with the pain. It still hurt as he wrote. He began to be | 37 | He adjusted his position in the bed. |
37 | distracted by his mother's music playing in the next room. | 38 | It didn't help much with the pain. |
39 | It still hurt as he wrote. | ||
40 | He began to be distracted by his mother's music playing in the next room. | ||
38 | 41 | ||
39 | "Could you turn that down please" he hollered across the wall to his mother. | 42 | "Could you turn that down please" he hollered across the wall to his mother. |
40 | She made no reply (music too loud). He gave his arm a break to look at what | 43 | She made no reply (music too loud). |
41 | he'd written. He couldn't make heads or tails of it. It looked like Arabic. | 44 | He gave his arm a break to look at what he'd written. |
45 | He couldn't make heads or tails of it. | ||
46 | It looked like Arabic. | ||
42 | 47 | ||
43 | He woke up gasping in a sweat. | 48 | He woke up gasping in a sweat. |
diff --git a/src/early.txt b/src/early.txt index 04ab997..0553a82 100644 --- a/src/early.txt +++ b/src/early.txt | |||
@@ -18,25 +18,26 @@ project: | |||
18 | link: dream | 18 | link: dream |
19 | ... | 19 | ... |
20 | 20 | ||
21 | _YOU CANNOT DISCOVER ART ART MUST BE CREATED_ he sat on the couch at home | 21 | _YOU CANNOT DISCOVER ART ART MUST BE CREATED_ he sat on the couch at home while his mother watched TV and smoked. |
22 | while his mother watched TV and smoked. Dinner had been chicken and peas with | 22 | Dinner had been chicken and peas with milk and afterward Paul and his mother sat on opposite ends of the couch. |
23 | milk and afterward Paul and his mother sat on opposite ends of the couch. At | 23 | At intervals she would look sideways at Paul writing. |
24 | intervals she would look sideways at Paul writing. He pretended not to notice. | 24 | He pretended not to notice. |
25 | 25 | ||
26 | _ART = ARTIFICE_ he wrote. _ARTIFICE MEANS UNNATURAL. ARTIFICE MEANS BUILT. | 26 | _ART = ARTIFICE_ he wrote. |
27 | TO BUILD MEANS TO FIND A PATTERN & FIND A PATTERN IS WHAT WE ARE GOOD AT._ He | 27 | _ARTIFICE MEANS UNNATURAL. |
28 | thought about this while someone else won a car. | 28 | ARTIFICE MEANS BUILT. |
29 | TO BUILD MEANS TO FIND A PATTERN & FIND A PATTERN IS WHAT WE ARE GOOD AT._ | ||
30 | He thought about this while someone else won a car. | ||
29 | 31 | ||
30 | "Do you think humans are good at finding patterns because we are hunters" he | 32 | "Do you think humans are good at finding patterns because we are hunters" he asked his mother. |
31 | asked his mother. She looked sideways at him and said "Sure Paul." "Early on | 33 | She looked sideways at him and said "Sure Paul." |
32 | in our evolution we were hunters right? And to hunt we had to see the | 34 | "Early on in our evolution we were hunters right? |
33 | patterns in seemingly random events, like where the gazelle went each year" | 35 | And to hunt we had to see the patterns in seemingly random events, like where the gazelle went each year" |
34 | "Paul I'm trying to watch TV. If you're going to write this stuff go do it in | 36 | "Paul I'm trying to watch TV. |
35 | your room you're distracting." Paul got up and went to his room and lay down | 37 | If you're going to write this stuff go do it in your room you're distracting." |
36 | on his bed. | 38 | Paul got up and went to his room and lay down on his bed. |
37 | 39 | ||
38 | "If the gazelle went to the same place every year" he thought "did they know | 40 | "If the gazelle went to the same place every year" he thought "did they know the pattern too? |
39 | the pattern too? Or was it random for them, did they think each year 'This | 41 | Or was it random for them, did they think each year 'This seems like a good spot let's graze here' without knowing?" |
40 | seems like a good spot let's graze here' without knowing?" | ||
41 | 42 | ||
42 | He wrote _PATTERN = MEMORY_ in his notebook. | 43 | He wrote _PATTERN = MEMORY_ in his notebook. |
diff --git a/src/epigraph.txt b/src/epigraph.txt index 1adac49..d99d474 100644 --- a/src/epigraph.txt +++ b/src/epigraph.txt | |||
@@ -16,19 +16,15 @@ project: | |||
16 | ... | 16 | ... |
17 | 17 | ||
18 | I saw my life branching out before me like the green fig tree in the story. | 18 | I saw my life branching out before me like the green fig tree in the story. |
19 | From the tip of every branch, like a fat purple fig, a wonderful future | 19 | From the tip of every branch, like a fat purple fig, a wonderful future beckoned and winked. |
20 | beckoned and winked. One fig was a husband and a happy home and children, and | 20 | One fig was a husband and a happy home and children, |
21 | another fig was a famous poet and another fig was a brilliant professor, and | 21 | and another fig was a famous poet and another fig was a brilliant professor, |
22 | another fig was Ee Gee, the amazing editor, and another fig was Europe and | 22 | and another fig was Ee Gee, the amazing editor, |
23 | Africa and South America, and another fig was Constantin and Socrates and | 23 | and another fig was Europe and Africa and South America, |
24 | Attila and a pack of [other lovers][] and queer names and offbeat professions, | 24 | and another fig was Constantin and Socrates and Attila and a pack of [other lovers][] and queer names and offbeat professions, |
25 | and another fig was an Olympic lady crew champion, and beyond and above these | 25 | and another fig was an Olympic lady crew champion, and beyond and above these figs were many more figs I couldn't quite make out. |
26 | figs were many more figs I couldn't quite make out. I saw myself sitting in | 26 | I saw myself sitting in the crotch of this fig tree, starving to [death][], just because I couldn't make up my mind which of the figs I would choose. |
27 | the crotch of this fig tree, starving to [death][], just because I couldn't | 27 | I wanted each and every one of them, but choosing one meant losing all the rest, and, as I sat there, unable to decide, the figs began to wrinkle and go black, and, one by one, they plopped to the ground at my feet. |
28 | make up my mind which of the figs I would choose. I wanted each and every one | ||
29 | of them, but choosing one meant losing all the rest, and, as I sat there, | ||
30 | unable to decide, the figs began to wrinkle and go black, and, one by one, | ||
31 | they plopped to the ground at my feet. | ||
32 | 28 | ||
33 | [other lovers]: spittle.html | 29 | [other lovers]: spittle.html |
34 | [death]: deathstrumpet.html | 30 | [death]: deathstrumpet.html |
diff --git a/src/father.txt b/src/father.txt index 693a61f..3c4e366 100644 --- a/src/father.txt +++ b/src/father.txt | |||
@@ -18,22 +18,25 @@ project: | |||
18 | link: early | 18 | link: early |
19 | ... | 19 | ... |
20 | 20 | ||
21 | "Is man the natural thing that makes unnatural things" he thought to himself | 21 | "Is man the natural thing that makes unnatural things" he thought to himself as he looked out the kitchen window at the shed. |
22 | as he looked out the kitchen window at the shed. He wondered who built the | 22 | He wondered who built the shed for the first time since he'd been going out there. |
23 | shed for the first time since he'd been going out there. "Mom who built the | 23 | "Mom who built the shed out back" he asked. |
24 | shed out back" he asked. "That was your father" she said. | 24 | "That was your father" she said. |
25 | 25 | ||
26 | His father. Paul had never met him. His mother had said when he was a kid | 26 | His father. |
27 | that his father was caught by a riptide while swimming in the ocean. He | 27 | Paul had never met him. |
28 | hadn't noticed what was happening until the land was a thin line on the | 28 | His mother had said when he was a kid that his father was caught by a [riptide][] while swimming in the ocean. |
29 | horizon. He became exhausted swimming back and drowned. His body was found a | 29 | He hadn't noticed what was happening until the land was a thin line on the horizon. |
30 | week later by the coroner's estimate. Paul never really believed this story | 30 | He became exhausted swimming back and drowned. |
31 | because his mother's face was sad in the wrong way when she told it. | 31 | His body was found a week later by the coroner's estimate. |
32 | Paul never really believed this story because his mother's face was sad in the wrong way when she told it. | ||
32 | 33 | ||
33 | She said he looked like his father but she also said all men look alike. Paul | 34 | She said he looked like his father but she also said all men look alike. |
34 | realized he'd been standing at the kitchen window for a long time looking out | 35 | Paul realized he'd been standing at the kitchen window for a long time looking out at the shed without realizing it. |
35 | at the shed without realizing it. He went out to take an inventory of | 36 | He went out to take an inventory of everything inside. |
36 | everything inside. | ||
37 | 37 | ||
38 | "Where you going" asked his mother. "To the shed. I'll be back in a bit" he | 38 | "Where you going" asked his mother. |
39 | said. | 39 | "To the shed. |
40 | I'll be back in a bit" he said. | ||
41 | |||
42 | [riptide]: riptide_memory.html | ||
diff --git a/src/feedingtheraven.txt b/src/feedingtheraven.txt index ec47846..9095832 100644 --- a/src/feedingtheraven.txt +++ b/src/feedingtheraven.txt | |||
@@ -14,35 +14,31 @@ project: | |||
14 | link: onformalpoetry | 14 | link: onformalpoetry |
15 | ... | 15 | ... |
16 | 16 | ||
17 | You never can tell just when Charlie Sheen will enter your life. For me, | 17 | You never can tell just when Charlie Sheen will enter your life. |
18 | it was last Thursday. I was reading some translation of a Japanese | 18 | For me, it was last Thursday. |
19 | translation of "The Raven" in which the Poe and the raven become | 19 | I was reading some translation of a Japanese translation of "The Raven" in which the Poe and the raven become friends. |
20 | friends. At one point the raven gets very sick and Poe feeds him at his | 20 | At one point the raven gets very sick and Poe feeds him at his bedside and nurses him back to health. |
21 | bedside and nurses him back to health. The story was very heartwarming | 21 | The story was very heartwarming and sad at the same time and my tears were welling up when suddenly I heard a knock on my door. |
22 | and sad at the same time and my tears were welling up when suddenly I | ||
23 | heard a knock on my door. | ||
24 | 22 | ||
25 | I shuffled over, sniffling but managing to keep my cheeks dry to open | 23 | I shuffled over, sniffling but managing to keep my cheeks dry to open it. |
26 | it. Of course Charlie was beaming on the other side, with a bag of | 24 | Of course Charlie was beaming on the other side, with a bag of flowers and a grin like a [dog][]'s. |
27 | flowers and a grin like a [dog][]'s. He bounded in the room without saying | 25 | He bounded in the room without saying hello and threw the flowers in the sink, opened the refrigerator and started poking around. |
28 | hello and threw the flowers in the sink, opened the refrigerator and | 26 | I said "It's nice to see you too" and went to my room to get a camera, as well as a notebook for him to sign. |
29 | started poking around. I said "It's nice to see you too" and went to my | ||
30 | room to get a camera, as well as a notebook for him to sign. | ||
31 | 27 | ||
32 | When I came back he was on the floor, hunched and groaning. I looked on | 28 | When I came back he was on the floor, hunched and groaning. |
33 | the table to see a month-old half-gallon of milk---now cottage | 29 | I looked on the table to see a month-old half-gallon of milk---now cottage cheese---half-empty and dripping. |
34 | cheese---half-empty and dripping. The remnants were on his mouth, and at | 30 | The remnants were on his mouth, and at once I saw my chance to become Poe in this [translation of a translation][] of a translation. |
35 | once I saw my chance to become Poe in this [translation of a translation][] | 31 | I knelt next to Charlie, cradled his head in my lap. |
36 | of a translation. I knelt next to Charlie, cradled his head in my lap. | 32 | He looked up at me with a stare full of terror. |
37 | He looked up at me with a stare full of terror. I returned it levelly, | 33 | I returned it levelly, making cooing noises at him until he calmed down. |
38 | making cooing noises at him until he calmed down. | ||
39 | 34 | ||
40 | When he was calm he excused himself to be sick on my toilet. He wouldn't | 35 | When he was calm he excused himself to be sick on my toilet. |
41 | let me follow but said he would sign whatever I liked when he got back. | 36 | He wouldn't let me follow but said he would sign whatever I liked when he got back. |
42 | After half an hour passed and all I'd had for company was the ticking of | 37 | After half an hour passed and all I'd had for company was the ticking of the [clock][], I went to the bathroom door. |
43 | the [clock][], I went to the bathroom door. I knocked carefully---once, then | 38 | I knocked carefully---once, then twice---to no beaming face, no flowers. |
44 | twice---to no beaming face, no flowers. I opened the door. There was shit | 39 | I opened the door. |
45 | on the floor and the window was open. There was a breeze blowing. | 40 | There was shit on the floor and the window was open. |
41 | There was a breeze blowing. | ||
46 | 42 | ||
47 | [dog]: purpose-dogs.html | 43 | [dog]: purpose-dogs.html |
48 | [translation of a translation]: todaniel.html | 44 | [translation of a translation]: todaniel.html |
diff --git a/src/fire.txt b/src/fire.txt index 4ca2ce7..c68a590 100644 --- a/src/fire.txt +++ b/src/fire.txt | |||
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16 | link: father | 16 | link: father |
17 | ... | 17 | ... |
18 | 18 | ||
19 | His mother ran out of the house in her nightgown. "What the hell do you think | 19 | His mother ran out of the house in her nightgown. |
20 | you're doing" she hollered as Paul watched the shed. "I'm burning the shed | 20 | "What the hell do you think you're doing" she hollered as Paul watched the shed. |
21 | down" he said smiling "isn't it warm?" "It's warm enough out here without | 21 | "I'm burning the shed down" he said smiling "isn't it warm?" |
22 | that burning down" she said "go get the hose and put this thing out." "But | 22 | "It's warm enough out here without that burning down" she said "go get the hose and put this thing out." |
23 | Mom" "Do it" she said in the tone of voice that meant Do it now. He went | 23 | "But Mom---" |
24 | around the side of the house screwed the nozzle on grabbed the end of the hose | 24 | "Do it" she said in the tone of voice that meant Do it now. |
25 | pulled it around the house and waited for water to come out the end. When it | 25 | He went around the side of the house screwed the nozzle on grabbed the end of the hose pulled it around the house and waited for water to come out the end. |
26 | did it was not in a very strong stream. "I don't think this is going to work" | 26 | When it did it was not in a very strong stream. |
27 | Paul said to his mother. "God damn it I have to call the Fire Department" she | 27 | "I don't think this is going to work" Paul said to his mother. |
28 | said and went inside the house. The shed continued in its burning. | 28 | "God damn it I have to call the Fire Department" she said and went inside the house. |
29 | The shed continued in its burning. | ||
29 | 30 | ||
30 | After the Fire Department put out the fire one of the men said "Your mother | 31 | After the Fire Department put out the fire one of the men said "Your mother says you set this building on fire. |
31 | says you set this building on fire. You know Arson is a major offense." "I | 32 | You know Arson is a major offense." |
32 | set it on fire" Paul said. "Why?" "Because ART wants to be random, it wants | 33 | "I set it on fire" Paul said. |
33 | to be natural, but it isn't. Humans create ART because we can't help but see | 34 | "Why?" |
34 | patterns in randomness. But we feel guilty about it." The man nodded to | 35 | "Because ART wants to be random, it wants to be natural, but it isn't. |
35 | another man in a blue uniform. "We want the ART to feel natural, to feel | 36 | Humans create ART because we can't help but see patterns in randomness. |
36 | random, but we can't stop seeing the patterns" as the man in blue walked over | 37 | But we feel guilty about it." |
37 | and put a hand on Paul's shoulder "ART is unnatural by its very nature. I | 38 | The man nodded to another man in a blue uniform. |
38 | took my ART and gave it back to nature" as the man led him over to a black and | 39 | "We want the ART to feel natural, to feel random, but we can't stop seeing the patterns" as the man in blue walked over and put a hand on Paul's shoulder "ART is unnatural by its very nature. |
39 | white car and put him inside. He was saying something about Paul's right. | 40 | I took my ART and gave it back to nature" as the man led him over to a black and white car and put him inside. |
41 | He was saying something about Paul's right. | ||
40 | "No it's my left that was hurt" said Paul "but it's all better now." | 42 | "No it's my left that was hurt" said Paul "but it's all better now." |
diff --git a/src/hands.txt b/src/hands.txt index 3d65193..55fa17e 100644 --- a/src/hands.txt +++ b/src/hands.txt | |||
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18 | link: fire | 18 | link: fire |
19 | ... | 19 | ... |
20 | 20 | ||
21 | He looked down at his hands idly while he was typing. They were dry and | 21 | He looked down at his hands idly while he was typing. |
22 | cracked in places. He thought he might start bleeding so he went inside for | 22 | They were dry and cracked in places. |
23 | some lotion. | 23 | He thought he might start bleeding so he went inside for some lotion. |
24 | 24 | ||
25 | "Do we have any lotion" he asked his mother. "In the medicine cabinet" she | 25 | "Do we have any lotion" he asked his mother. |
26 | said without looking up from the TV. He walked into the bathroom and looked | 26 | "In the medicine cabinet" she said without looking up from the TV. |
27 | at himself in the mirror. "I look strange" he said to himself "I look like a | 27 | He walked into the bathroom and looked at himself in the mirror. |
28 | teenager." He stared into his right eye, then his left. He saw nothing but | 28 | "I look strange" he said to himself "I look like a teenager." |
29 | his own reflection fish-eyed in his pupils. He opened the medicine cabinet. | 29 | He stared into his right eye, then his left. |
30 | He saw nothing but his own reflection fish-eyed in his pupils. | ||
31 | He opened the medicine cabinet. | ||
30 | 32 | ||
31 | Back in his Writing Shack, he started to type. | 33 | Back in his Writing Shack, he started to type. |
32 | 34 | ||
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18 | link: hands | 18 | link: hands |
19 | ... | 19 | ... |
20 | 20 | ||
21 | His mother drove him to the Hardware Store on a Tuesday. "I'm glad to see | 21 | His mother drove him to the Hardware Store on a Tuesday. |
22 | you've taken my advice for once" she said. "What do you mean." "Applying to | 22 | "I'm glad to see you've taken my advice for once" she said. |
23 | work at the Hardware Store. I'm proud of you Paul." | 23 | "What do you mean." |
24 | "Applying to work at the Hardware Store. | ||
25 | I'm proud of you Paul." | ||
24 | 26 | ||
25 | "Oh right. Sure thing." They pulled into the parking lot. "Just be a | 27 | "Oh right. |
26 | minute" he said as he opened the car door. | 28 | Sure thing." |
29 | They pulled into the parking lot. | ||
30 | "Just be a minute" he said as he opened the car door. | ||
27 | 31 | ||
28 | He walked under the door resplendent in its King William orange and white. He | 32 | He walked under the door resplendent in its King William orange and white. |
29 | saw the towering rows of shelves like mountain ridges in Hell. He strolled | 33 | He saw the towering rows of shelves like mountain ridges in Hell. |
30 | among the fixtures, pipes, planks, sheets, plants (Why plants? he thought), | 34 | He strolled among the fixtures, pipes, planks, sheets, plants (Why plants? he thought), switches. |
31 | switches. He realized he didn't know the first thing about building | 35 | He realized he didn't know the first thing about building furniture. |
32 | furniture. "I don't know the first thing" he muttered to himself "about | 36 | "I don't know the first thing" he muttered to himself "about building furniture. |
33 | building furniture. I know the last thing would be a couch or chair or stool | 37 | I know the last thing would be a couch or chair or stool but the first thing is a mystery." |
34 | but the first thing is a mystery." He turned around and walked straight out | 38 | He turned around and walked straight out of the store and to his mother's car without looking up. |
35 | of the store and to his mother's car without looking up. | ||
36 | 39 | ||
37 | "How'd it go" she asked starting the car. "Great" he said. | 40 | "How'd it go" she asked starting the car. |
41 | "Great" he said. | ||
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14 | link: epigraph | 14 | link: epigraph |
15 | ... | 15 | ... |
16 | 16 | ||
17 | This book is an exploration of life, of all possible lives that could be | 17 | This book is an exploration of life, of all possible lives that could be lived. |
18 | lived. Each of the poems contained herein have been written by a different | 18 | Each of the poems contained herein have been written by a different person, with his own history, culture, and emotions. |
19 | person, with his own history, culture, and emotions. True, they are all | 19 | True, they are all related, but no more than any of us is related through our genetics, our shared planet, or our yearnings. |
20 | related, but no more than any of us is related through our genetics, our | ||
21 | shared planet, or our yearnings. | ||
22 | 20 | ||
23 | Fernando Pessoa wrote poems under four different identities---he called | 21 | Fernando Pessoa wrote poems under four different identities---he called them *heteronyms*---that were known during his lifetime, though after his death over sixty have been found and catalogued. |
24 | them *heteronyms*---that were known during his lifetime, though after his | 22 | He called them heteronyms as opposed to pseudonyms because they were much more than names he wrote under. |
25 | death over sixty have been found and catalogued. He called them heteronyms as | 23 | They were truly different writing selves, concerned with different ideas and writing with different styles: |
26 | opposed to pseudonyms because they were much more than names he wrote under. | 24 | Alberto Caeiro wrote pastorals; |
27 | They were truly different writing selves, concerned with different ideas and | 25 | Ricardo Reis wrote more formal odes; |
28 | writing with different styles: Alberto Caeiro wrote pastorals; Ricardo Reis | 26 | Álvaro de Campos wrote these long, Whitman-esque pieces (one to Whitman himself); |
29 | wrote more formal odes; Álvaro de Campos wrote these long, Whitman-esque | 27 | and Pessoa's own name was used for poems that are kind of similar to all the others. |
30 | pieces (one to Whitman himself); and Pessoa's own name was used for poems that | 28 | It seems as though Pessoa found it inefficient to try and write everything he wanted only in his own self; |
31 | are kind of similar to all the others. It seems as though Pessoa found it | 29 | rather he parceled out the different pieces and developed them into full identities, at the cost of his own: |
32 | inefficient to try and write everything he wanted only in his own self; rather | 30 | "I subsist as a kind of medium of myself, but I'm less real than the others, less substantial, less personal, and easily influenced by them all." |
33 | he parceled out the different pieces and developed them into full identities, | 31 | de Campos said of him at one point, "[Fernando Pessoa, strictly speaking, doesn't exist.][pessoa-exist]" |
34 | at the cost of his own: "I subsist as a kind of medium of myself, but I'm less | ||
35 | real than the others, less substantial, less personal, and easily influenced | ||
36 | by them all." de Campos said of him at one point, "[Fernando Pessoa, strictly | ||
37 | speaking, doesn't exist.][pessoa-exist]" | ||
38 | 32 | ||
39 | It's not just Pessoa---I, strictly speaking, don't exist, both as the | 33 | It's not just Pessoa---I, strictly speaking, don't exist, both as the specific me that writes this now and as the concept of selfhood, the ego. |
40 | specific me that writes this now and as the concept of selfhood, the ego. | 34 | Heraclitus famously said that we can't step into the [same river][] twice, and the fact of the matter is that we can't occupy the same self twice. |
41 | Heraclitus famously said that we can't step into the [same river][] twice, and | 35 | It's constantly changing and adapting to new stimuli from the environment, from other selves, from inside itself, and each time it forms anew into something that's never existed before. |
42 | the fact of the matter is that we can't occupy the same self twice. It's | 36 | The person I am beginning a poem is a separate being than the one I am finishing a poem, and part of it is the poem I've written has brought forth some other dish onto the great table that is myself. |
43 | constantly changing and adapting to new stimuli from the environment, from | ||
44 | other selves, from inside itself, and each time it forms anew into something | ||
45 | that's never existed before. The person I am beginning a poem is a separate | ||
46 | being than the one I am finishing a poem, and part of it is the poem I've | ||
47 | written has brought forth some other dish onto the great table that is myself. | ||
48 | 37 | ||
49 | In the same way, with each poem you read of this, you too could become a | 38 | In the same way, with each poem you read of this, you too could become a different person. |
50 | different person. Depending on which order you read them in, you could be any | 39 | Depending on which order you read them in, you could be any number of possible people. |
51 | number of possible people. If you follow the threads I've laid out for you, | 40 | If you follow the threads I've laid out for you, there are so many possible selves; if you disregard those and go a different way there are quite a few more. |
52 | there are so many possible selves; if you disregard those and go a different | 41 | However, at the end of the journey there is only one self that you will occupy, the others disappearing from this universe and going maybe somewhere else, maybe nowhere at all. |
53 | way there are quite a few more. However, at the end of the journey there is | ||
54 | only one self that you will occupy, the others disappearing from this universe | ||
55 | and going maybe somewhere else, maybe nowhere at all. | ||
56 | 42 | ||
57 | There is a scene in *The Neverending Story* where Bastian is trying to find | 43 | There is a scene in *The Neverending Story* where Bastian is trying to find his way out of the desert. |
58 | his way out of the desert. He opens a door and finds himself in the Temple of | 44 | He opens a door and finds himself in the Temple of a Thousand Doors, which is never seen from the outside but only once someone enters it. |
59 | a Thousand Doors, which is never seen from the outside but only once someone | 45 | It is a series of rooms with six sides each and three doors: one from the room before and two choices. |
60 | enters it. It is a series of rooms with six sides each and three doors: one | 46 | In life, each of these rooms is a moment, but where Bastian can choose which of only two doors to enter each time, in life there can be any number of doors and we don't always choose which to go through---in fact, I would argue that most of the time we aren't allowed the luxury. |
61 | from the room before and two choices. In life, each of these rooms is a | ||
62 | moment, but where Bastian can choose which of only two doors to enter each | ||
63 | time, in life there can be any number of doors and we don't always choose | ||
64 | which to go through---in fact, I would argue that most of the time we aren't | ||
65 | allowed the luxury. | ||
66 | 47 | ||
67 | What happens to those other doors, those other possibilities? Is there some | 48 | What happens to those other doors, those other possibilities? |
68 | other version of the self that for whatever complexities of circumstance and | 49 | Is there some other version of the self that for whatever complexities of circumstance and will chose a different door at an earlier moment? |
69 | will chose a different door at an earlier moment? The answer to this, of | 50 | The answer to this, of course, is that we can never know for sure, though this doesn't keep us from trying through the process of regret. |
70 | course, is that we can never know for sure, though this doesn't keep us from | 51 | We go back and try that other door in our mind, extrapolating a possible present from our own past. |
71 | trying through the process of regret. We go back and try that other door in | 52 | This is ultimately unsatisfying, not only because whatever world is imagined is not the one currently lived, but because it becomes obvious that the alternate model of reality is not complete: we can only extrapolate from the original room, absolutely without knowledge of any subsequent possible choices. |
72 | our mind, extrapolating a possible present from our own past. This is | 53 | This causes a deep disappointment, a frustration with the inability to know all possible timelines (coupled with the insecurity that this may not be the best of all possible worlds) that we feel as regret. |
73 | ultimately unsatisfying, not only because whatever world is imagined is not | ||
74 | the one currently lived, but because it becomes obvious that the alternate | ||
75 | model of reality is not complete: we can only extrapolate from the original | ||
76 | room, absolutely without knowledge of any subsequent possible choices. This | ||
77 | causes a deep disappointment, a frustration with the inability to know all | ||
78 | possible timelines (coupled with the insecurity that this may not be the best | ||
79 | of all possible worlds) that we feel as regret. | ||
80 | 54 | ||
81 | In this way, every moment we live is an [elegy][] to every possible future | 55 | In this way, every moment we live is an [elegy][] to every possible future that might have stemmed from it. |
82 | that might have stemmed from it. Annie Dillard states this in a biological | 56 | Annie Dillard states this in a biological manner when she says in *Pilgrim at Tinker Creek*, "Every glistening egg is a memento mori." |
83 | manner when she says in *Pilgrim at Tinker Creek*, "Every glistening egg is a | 57 | Nature is inefficient---it spends a hundred lifetimes to get one that barely works. |
84 | memento mori." Nature is inefficient---it spends a hundred lifetimes to get | 58 | The fossil record is littered with the failed experiments of evolution, many of which failed due only to blind chance: an asteroid, a shift in weather patterns, an inefficient copulation method. |
85 | one that barely works. The fossil record is littered with the failed | 59 | Each living person today has twenty dead standing behind him, and that only counts the people that actually lived. |
86 | experiments of evolution, many of which failed due only to blind chance: an | 60 | How many missed opportunities stand behind any of us? |
87 | asteroid, a shift in weather patterns, an inefficient copulation method. Each | ||
88 | living person today has twenty dead standing behind him, and that only counts | ||
89 | the people that actually lived. How many missed opportunities stand behind | ||
90 | any of us? | ||
91 | 61 | ||
92 | The real problem with all of this is that time is only additive. There's no | 62 | The real problem with all of this is that time is only additive. |
93 | way to dial it back and start over, with new choices or new environments. Even | 63 | There's no way to dial it back and start over, with new choices or new environments. |
94 | when given the chance to do something again, we do it *again*, with the | 64 | Even when given the chance to do something again, we do it *again*, with the reality given by our previous action. |
95 | reality given by our previous action. Thus we are constantly creating and | 65 | Thus we are constantly creating and being created by the world. |
96 | being created by the world. The self is never the same from one moment to the | 66 | The self is never the same from one moment to the next. |
97 | next. | ||
98 | 67 | ||
99 | A poem is like a snapshot of a self. If it's any good, it captures the | 68 | A poem is like a snapshot of a self. |
100 | emotional core of the self at the time of writing for communication with | 69 | If it's any good, it captures the emotional core of the self at the time of writing for communication with future selves, either within the same person or outside of it. |
101 | future selves, either within the same person or outside of it. Thus revision | 70 | Thus revision is possible, and the new poem created will be yet another snapshot of the future self as changed by the original poem. |
102 | is possible, and the new poem created will be yet another snapshot of the | 71 | The page becomes a window into the past, a particular past as experienced by one self. |
103 | future self as changed by the original poem. The page becomes a window into | 72 | The poem is a remembering of a self that no longer exists, in other words, an elegy. |
104 | the past, a particular past as experienced by one self. The poem is a | ||
105 | remembering of a self that no longer exists, in other words, an elegy. | ||
106 | 73 | ||
107 | A snapshot doesn't capture the entire subject, however. It leaves out the | 74 | A snapshot doesn't capture the entire subject, however. |
108 | background as it's obscured by foreground objects; it fails to include | 75 | It leaves out the background as it's obscured by foreground objects; it fails to include anything that isn't contained in its finite frame. |
109 | anything that isn't contained in its finite frame. In order to build a | 76 | In order to build a working definition of identity, we must include all possible selves over all possible timelines, combined into one person: identity is the combined effect of all possible selves over time. |
110 | working definition of identity, we must include all possible selves over all | 77 | A poem leaves much of this out: it is the one person standing in front of twenty ghosts. |
111 | possible timelines, combined into one person: identity is the combined effect | ||
112 | of all possible selves over time. A poem leaves much of this out: it is the | ||
113 | one person standing in front of twenty ghosts. | ||
114 | 78 | ||
115 | A poem is the place where the selves of the reader and the speaker meet, in | 79 | A poem is the place where the selves of the reader and the speaker meet, in their respective times and places. |
116 | their respective times and places. In this way a poem is outside of time or | 80 | In this way a poem is outside of time or place, because it changes its location each time it's read. |
117 | place, because it changes its location each time it's read. Each time it's | 81 | Each time it's two different people meeting. |
118 | two different people meeting. The problem with a poem is that it's such a | 82 | The problem with a poem is that it's such a small window---if we met in real life the way we met in poems, we would see nothing of anyone else but a square the size of a postage stamp. |
119 | small window---if we met in real life the way we met in poems, we would see | 83 | It has been argued this is the way we see time and ourselves in it, as well: Vonnegut uses the metaphor of a subject strapped to a railroad car moving at a set pace, with a six-foot-long metal tube placed in front of the subject's eye; the landscape in the distance is time, and what we see is the only way in which we interact with it. It's the same with a poem and the self: we can only see and interact with a small kernel. |
120 | nothing of anyone else but a square the size of a postage stamp. It has been | 84 | This is why it's possible to write more than one poem. |
121 | argued this is the way we see time and ourselves in it, as well: Vonnegut uses | ||
122 | the metaphor of a subject strapped to a railroad car moving at a set pace, | ||
123 | with a six-foot-long metal tube placed in front of the subject's eye; the | ||
124 | landscape in the distance is time, and what we see is the only way in which we | ||
125 | interact with it. It's the same with a poem and the self: we can only see and | ||
126 | interact with a small kernel. This is why it's possible to write more than | ||
127 | one poem. | ||
128 | 85 | ||
129 | Due to this kernel nature of poetry, a good poem should focus itself to | 86 | Due to this kernel nature of poetry, a good poem should focus itself to extract as much meaning as possible from that one kernel of identity to which it has access. |
130 | extract as much meaning as possible from that one kernel of identity to which | 87 | It should be an atom of selfhood, irreducible and resistant to paraphrase, because it tries to somehow echo the large unsayable part of identity outside the frame of the self. |
131 | it has access. It should be an atom of selfhood, irreducible and resistant to | 88 | It is the [kernel][] that contains a universe, or that speaks around one that's hidden; if it's a successful poem then it makes the smallest circuit possible. |
132 | paraphrase, because it tries to somehow echo the large unsayable part of | 89 | This is why the commentary on poems is so voluminous: a poem is tightly packed meaning that commentators try to unpack to get at that universality inside it. |
133 | identity outside the frame of the self. It is the [kernel][] that contains a | 90 | A fortress of dialectic is constructed that ultimately obstructs the meaning behind the poem; it becomes the foreground in the photograph that disallows us to view the horizon beyond it. |
134 | universe, or that speaks around one that's hidden; if it's a successful poem | ||
135 | then it makes the smallest circuit possible. This is why the commentary on | ||
136 | poems is so voluminous: a poem is tightly packed meaning that commentators try | ||
137 | to unpack to get at that universality inside it. A fortress of dialectic is | ||
138 | constructed that ultimately obstructs the meaning behind the poem; it becomes | ||
139 | the foreground in the photograph that disallows us to view the horizon beyond | ||
140 | it. | ||
141 | 91 | ||
142 | With this in mind, I collect these poems that were written over a period of | 92 | With this in mind, I collect these poems that were written over a period of four years into this book. |
143 | four years into this book. Where I can, I insert cross-references (like the | 93 | Where I can, I insert cross-references (like the one above, in the margin) to other pieces in the text where I think the two resonate in some way. |
144 | one above, in the margin) to other pieces in the text where I think the two | 94 | You can read this book in any way you'd like: you can go front-to-back, or back-to-front, or you can follow the arrows around, or you can work out a complex mathematical formula with Merseinne primes and logarithms and the 2000 Census information, or you can go completely randomly through like a magazine, or at least the way I flip through magazines. |
145 | resonate in some way. You can read this book in any way you'd like: you can | 95 | I think writing is a communication of the self, and I think this is the best way to communicate mine in all its multiversity. |
146 | go front-to-back, or back-to-front, or you can follow the arrows around, or | ||
147 | you can work out a complex mathematical formula with Merseinne primes and | ||
148 | logarithms and the 2000 Census information, or you can go completely randomly | ||
149 | through like a magazine, or at least the way I flip through magazines. I | ||
150 | think writing is a communication of the self, and I think this is the best way | ||
151 | to communicate mine in all its multiversity. | ||
152 | 96 | ||
153 | [pessoa-exist]: philosophy.html | 97 | [pessoa-exist]: philosophy.html |
154 | [same river]: mountain.html | 98 | [same river]: mountain.html |
diff --git a/src/hymnal.txt b/src/hymnal.txt index 199746d..2e1b392 100644 --- a/src/hymnal.txt +++ b/src/hymnal.txt | |||
@@ -18,21 +18,24 @@ project: | |||
18 | link: hardware | 18 | link: hardware |
19 | ... | 19 | ... |
20 | 20 | ||
21 | _It's all jokes_ Paul wrote in what he was now calling his Hymnal. He had | 21 | _It's all [jokes][]_ Paul wrote in what he was now calling his Hymnal. |
22 | been writing non-stop all day, because he didn't count pee- or cigarette- | 22 | He had been writing non-stop all day, because he didn't count pee- or cigarette- breaks. |
23 | breaks. _All art is an inside joke. The symbology involved must be_---and here | 23 | _All art is an inside joke. |
24 | he put down his pen and held his head in his hands. He could never think of | 24 | The symbology involved must be_---and here he put down his pen and held his head in his hands. |
25 | the word---he said often that he had no words. He opened to a new page in his | 25 | He could never think of the word---he said often that he had no words. |
26 | Hymnal. On the top of it was written in bold script _**HYMN 386: JOKES**_. | 26 | He opened to a new page in his Hymnal. |
27 | On the top of it was written in bold script _**HYMN 386: JOKES**_. | ||
27 | 28 | ||
28 | Paul scowled. Who had written in his Hymnal? he wondered. He said it out | 29 | Paul scowled. |
29 | loud a moment after: "Who has written in my Hymnal?" He realized he was alone | 30 | Who had written in his Hymnal? he wondered. |
30 | in his Writing Shack, which was really a shed in the back of his mother's | 31 | He said it out loud a moment after: "Who has written in my Hymnal?" |
31 | garden. He wondered why he had to say his thoughts before they became real to | 32 | He realized he was alone in his Writing Shack, which was really a shed in the back of his mother's garden. |
32 | him (if this was a habit or an inborn trait). He realized simultaneously that | 33 | He wondered why he had to say his thoughts before they became real to him (if this was a habit or an inborn trait). |
34 | He realized simultaneously that | ||
33 | 35 | ||
34 | (a) he could ask someone and | 36 | (a) he could ask someone and |
35 | (b) that this was something he wondered every time he spoke his thoughts out | 37 | (b) that this was something he wondered every time he spoke his thoughts out loud. |
36 | loud. | ||
37 | 38 | ||
38 | He resolved to put the issue to rest by asking someone. | 39 | He resolved to put the issue to rest by asking someone. |
40 | |||
41 | [jokes]: joke.html | ||
diff --git a/src/joke.txt b/src/joke.txt index 00053bd..78e7de3 100644 --- a/src/joke.txt +++ b/src/joke.txt | |||
@@ -18,27 +18,35 @@ project: | |||
18 | link: hymnal | 18 | link: hymnal |
19 | ... | 19 | ... |
20 | 20 | ||
21 | He wrote _**JOKES**_ on the top of a page in his notebook. He had run out of | 21 | He wrote _**JOKES**_ on the top of a page in his notebook. |
22 | notecards and hadn't been able to convince his mother to go to the Office | 22 | He had run out of notecards and hadn't been able to convince his mother to go to the Office Supply Store for him. |
23 | Supply Store for him. He left a space underneath it and wrote. | 23 | He left a space underneath it and wrote. |
24 | 24 | ||
25 | _"Tell us a joke" the listeners say to the clown. They have gather together | 25 | _"Tell us a joke" the listeners say to the clown. |
26 | in the clearing because they have heard he would be there, and they have heard | 26 | They have gather together in the clearing because they have heard he would be there, and they have heard he knew very funny jokes that were also true. |
27 | he knew very funny jokes that were also true. "Tell us a joke that is true" | 27 | "Tell us a joke that is true" they say._ |
28 | they say._ | ||
29 | 28 | ||
30 | _The clown does not move from the stump. He doesn't move at all. The | 29 | _The clown does not move from the stump. |
31 | listeners watch, gap-mouthed, as a butterfly lands on his hat. A breeze | 30 | He doesn't move at all. |
32 | ruffles his coat and the butterfly flies away. Hours pass. The listeners | 31 | The listeners watch, gap-mouthed, as a butterfly lands on his hat. |
33 | grow impatient. Some begin yelling insults at the clown. Eventually, they | 32 | A breeze ruffles his coat and the butterfly flies away. |
34 | begin to walk away into the woods._ | 33 | Hours pass. |
34 | The listeners grow impatient. | ||
35 | Some begin yelling insults at the clown. | ||
36 | Eventually, they begin to walk away into the woods._ | ||
35 | 37 | ||
36 | _The moon rises on the clearing. The only people left are the clown and a | 38 | _The moon rises on the clearing. |
37 | listener, the last listener. She has been waiting for the joke a long time. | 39 | The only people left are the clown and a listener, the last listener. |
38 | The clown opens his mouth and she leans in closer to hear. He closes it as a | 40 | She has been waiting for the joke a long time. |
39 | tear falls onto his coat, then another. He opens his mouth again in a sob. | 41 | The clown opens his mouth and she leans in closer to hear. |
42 | He closes it as a tear falls onto his coat, then another. | ||
43 | He opens his mouth again in a sob. | ||
40 | The listener walks over to him and puts a hand on his shoulder._ | 44 | The listener walks over to him and puts a hand on his shoulder._ |
41 | 45 | ||
42 | _"I'm sorry" says the clown. "Sorry for what" she asks. "I don't know. I | 46 | _"I'm sorry" says the clown. |
43 | don't know any jokes." He disappears. The last listener sits on the log and | 47 | "Sorry for what" she asks. |
44 | looks at the sky. There are no stars._ | 48 | "I don't know. |
49 | I don't know any jokes." | ||
50 | He disappears. | ||
51 | The last listener sits on the log and looks at the sky. | ||
52 | There are no stars._ | ||
diff --git a/src/leaf.txt b/src/leaf.txt index dec253c..eb6941e 100644 --- a/src/leaf.txt +++ b/src/leaf.txt | |||
@@ -18,18 +18,18 @@ project: | |||
18 | link: joke | 18 | link: joke |
19 | ... | 19 | ... |
20 | 20 | ||
21 | He shrugged the wood off his shoulder, letting it fall with a clog onto the | 21 | He shrugged the wood off his shoulder, letting it fall with a clog onto the earth floor of his Writing Shack. |
22 | earth floor of his Writing Shack. He exhaled looking out of the window. He | 22 | He exhaled looking out of the window. |
23 | hoped to see a bird fly by, maybe a blue jay or raven. No bird did. He | 23 | He hoped to see a bird fly by, maybe a blue jay or raven. |
24 | inhaled. He exhaled again in a way that could only be classified as a sigh. | 24 | No bird did. |
25 | He sat down at his writing desk. He began shuffling through what he'd | 25 | He inhaled. |
26 | written, trying to find some sort of pattern. | 26 | He exhaled again in a way that could only be classified as a sigh. |
27 | He sat down at his writing desk. | ||
28 | He began shuffling through what he'd written, trying to find some sort of pattern. | ||
27 | 29 | ||
28 | "*Each piece of paper---each leaf---*" at this he smiled--- "*is like a tree | 30 | "*Each piece of paper---each leaf---*" at this he smiled---"*is like a tree in the forest.*" |
29 | in the forest.*" He was writing as he thought aloud. "*I, as the artist, as | 31 | He was writing as he thought aloud. |
30 | the **writer**, must select which to use, chop down those trees, bring them | 32 | "*I, as the artist, as the **writer**, must select which to use, chop down those trees, bring them back to my shed and*---and---" he frowned as he realized the only end to this metaphor was fire. |
31 | back to my shed and*---and---" he frowned as he realized the only end to this | 33 | He ran his fingers through his hair in a self-soothing gesture. |
32 | metaphor was fire. He ran his fingers through his hair in a self-soothing | ||
33 | gesture. | ||
34 | 34 | ||
35 | "I need to build some furniture" he thought. | 35 | "I need to build some furniture" he thought. |
diff --git a/src/leg.txt b/src/leg.txt index ec09227..22b93e4 100644 --- a/src/leg.txt +++ b/src/leg.txt | |||
@@ -18,14 +18,13 @@ project: | |||
18 | link: leaf | 18 | link: leaf |
19 | ... | 19 | ... |
20 | 20 | ||
21 | His first chair was a stool. It was an uneven wobbly stool that would not | 21 | His first chair was a stool. |
22 | support even forty pounds. "So my first chair is a broken stool" he said | 22 | It was an uneven wobbly stool that would not support even forty pounds. |
23 | after nearly breaking his tailbone on the dirt floor. "Maybe I should start | 23 | "So my first chair is a broken stool" he said after nearly breaking his tailbone on the dirt floor. |
24 | again but this time only with legs." He began again but this time only with | 24 | "Maybe I should start again but this time only with legs." |
25 | legs. He built one leg, which means he cut a straight piece of wood down to | 25 | He began again but this time only with legs. |
26 | four feet in length, whittled the bark off, and sanded it down smooth in what | 26 | He built one leg, which means he cut a straight piece of wood down to four feet in length, whittled the bark off, and sanded it down smooth in what he was now calling his Woodworking Shack. |
27 | he was now calling his Woodworking Shack. He typed up a note on how to make | 27 | He typed up a note on how to make chair legs. |
28 | chair legs. | ||
29 | 28 | ||
30 | ```type | 29 | ```type |
31 | MAKING CHAIR LEGS | 30 | MAKING CHAIR LEGS |
@@ -37,9 +36,7 @@ MAKING CHAIR LEGS | |||
37 | 4. sand smooth the leg | 36 | 4. sand smooth the leg |
38 | ``` | 37 | ``` |
39 | 38 | ||
40 | After he tried remembered tried standing the leg up, failing, and after much | 39 | After he tried remembered tried standing the leg up, failing, and after much thought realizing that the ends needed to be flat, he typed one more line on his notecard: |
41 | thought realizing that the ends needed to be flat, he typed one more line on | ||
42 | his notecard: | ||
43 | 40 | ||
44 | ``` | 41 | ``` |
45 | 5. make ends flat | 42 | 5. make ends flat |
diff --git a/src/likingthings.txt b/src/likingthings.txt index 1c9c15a..7aed52f 100644 --- a/src/likingthings.txt +++ b/src/likingthings.txt | |||
@@ -11,47 +11,28 @@ project: | |||
11 | link: problems | 11 | link: problems |
12 | ... | 12 | ... |
13 | 13 | ||
14 | The definition of happiness is *doing stuff that you really like*. That | 14 | The definition of happiness is *doing stuff that you really like*. |
15 | stuff can be eating soup, going to the bathroom, walking the dog, | 15 | That stuff can be eating soup, going to the bathroom, walking the dog, playing Dungeons and Dragons; whatever keeps your mind off the fact that you're so goddamn unhappy all the time. |
16 | playing Dungeons and Dragons; whatever keeps your mind off the fact that | 16 | That, incidentally, is the definition of like: *that feeling you get when you forget how miserable you are for just a little bit*. |
17 | you're so goddamn unhappy all the time. That, incidentally, is the | 17 | Thus people like doing stuff they like all the time, as often as possible; because if they remember how horrible they really feel at not having a background to put themselves against, they will want to hurt themselves and those around them. |
18 | definition of like: *that feeling you get when you forget how miserable | ||
19 | you are for just a little bit*. Thus people like doing stuff they like | ||
20 | all the time, as often as possible; because if they remember how | ||
21 | horrible they really feel at not having a background to put themselves | ||
22 | against, they will want to hurt themselves and those around them. | ||
23 | 18 | ||
24 | The funny thing is that something we people really like to do is hurt | 19 | The funny thing is that something we people really like to do is hurt ourselves and those around us. |
25 | ourselves and those around us. We do this by thinking other people are | 20 | We do this by thinking other people are more unhappy than we are. |
26 | more unhappy than we are. We convince themselves that we are truly | 21 | We convince themselves that we are truly happy, ecstatic even, while they merely plod around life half-heartedly, or, if they're lucky, incorrectly. |
27 | happy, ecstatic even, while they merely plod around life half-heartedly, | 22 | We take it upon ourselves (seeing as we are so happy, and can spare a little bit of happiness) to help them become happy as well. |
28 | or, if they're lucky, incorrectly. We take it upon ourselves (seeing as | 23 | We fail to realize that the people will probably not appreciate our thinking that we're better than they are somehow, for that is what we do even if we don't mean it. |
29 | we are so happy, and can spare a little bit of happiness) to help them | 24 | We forget that we are also unhappy, and that we are just doing things we like in order to cheer ourselves up a little bit, which really means that this cheering is working; but there is such a thing as working too well. |
30 | become happy as well. We fail to realize that the people will probably | 25 | So in a sense what I'm doing here is cheering myself up by reminding you that you are unhappy; I'm trying to keep you honest in your unhappiness; and I admit this is usually called a dick move. |
31 | not appreciate our thinking that we're better than they are somehow, for | ||
32 | that is what we do even if we don't mean it. We forget that we are also | ||
33 | unhappy, and that we are just doing things we like in order to cheer | ||
34 | ourselves up a little bit, which really means that this cheering is | ||
35 | working; but there is such a thing as working too well. So in a sense | ||
36 | what I'm doing here is cheering myself up by reminding you that you are | ||
37 | unhappy; I'm trying to keep you honest in your unhappiness; and I admit | ||
38 | this is usually called a dick move. | ||
39 | 26 | ||
40 | In fact, the best way to overcome happy-hungering (this is the term as I | 27 | In fact, the best way to overcome happy-hungering (this is the term as I dub it) is commit as many dick moves as possible, to keep people remembering that unhappiness abounds. |
41 | dub it) is commit as many dick moves as possible, to keep people | 28 | If you see someone smiling like a little dog who knows it's about to get pet or get a treat or go to the vet to donate doggy sperm, smile back. |
42 | remembering that unhappiness abounds. If you see someone smiling like a | 29 | Grin toothily (a little too toothily for a little too long). |
43 | little dog who knows it's about to get pet or get a treat or go to the | 30 | Their smile will start to fade if you're doing it right. |
44 | vet to donate doggy sperm, smile back. Grin toothily (a little too | 31 | Saunter to them, slide as if you're an Olympic quality ice-skater, as if you're a really good bowler who knows he's playing against twelve year olds and'll win by a hundred. |
45 | toothily for a little too long). Their smile will start to fade if | 32 | Get really close. |
46 | you're doing it right. Saunter to them, slide as if you're an Olympic | 33 | Far too close for what most people would call comfort. |
47 | quality ice-skater, as if you're a really good bowler who knows he's | 34 | And remind them of how awful life can be: "I really like your [shirt][]---really only children chained to looms can get that tight of a weave," you can say, or "You're not really going to recycle that coffee cup, are you?" |
48 | playing against twelve year olds and'll win by a hundred. Get really | 35 | They will probably get angry, but that's what's supposed to happen. |
49 | close. Far too close for what most people would call comfort. And remind | 36 | By making dick moves, you can overcome what may be the biggest evil on this earth: Happy-Hungering. |
50 | them of how awful life can be: "I really like your [shirt][]---really only | ||
51 | children chained to looms can get that tight of a weave," you can say, | ||
52 | or "You're not really going to recycle that coffee cup, are you?" They | ||
53 | will probably get angry, but that's what's supposed to happen. By making | ||
54 | dick moves, you can overcome what may be the biggest evil on this earth: | ||
55 | Happy-Hungering. | ||
56 | 37 | ||
57 | [shirt]: theoceanoverflowswithcamels.html | 38 | [shirt]: theoceanoverflowswithcamels.html |
diff --git a/src/lovesong.txt b/src/lovesong.txt index e504e14..89a82eb 100644 --- a/src/lovesong.txt +++ b/src/lovesong.txt | |||
@@ -14,28 +14,35 @@ project: | |||
14 | link: roughgloves | 14 | link: roughgloves |
15 | ... | 15 | ... |
16 | 16 | ||
17 | Walking along in the dark is a good way to begin a song. Walking home in | 17 | Walking along in the dark is a good way to begin a song. |
18 | the dark after a long day chasing criminals is another. Running away | 18 | Walking home in the dark after a long day chasing criminals is another. |
19 | from an imagined evil is no way to begin a story. | 19 | Running away from an imagined evil is no way to begin a story. |
20 | 20 | ||
21 | I am telling you this because you wanted to know what it's like to tell | 21 | I am telling you this because you wanted to know what it's like to tell something so beautiful everyone will cry. |
22 | something so beautiful everyone will cry. I am telling you because I | 22 | I am telling you because I want you to know what it is to keep everything inside of you. |
23 | want you to know what it is to keep everything inside of you. I am | 23 | I am telling you. |
24 | telling you. | ||
25 | 24 | ||
26 | Can you see? Can you see into me and reach in your hand and pull me | 25 | Can you see? |
27 | inside out, like an [old shirt][]? Will you wear me until I unravel on your | 26 | Can you see into me and reach in your hand and pull me inside out, like an [old shirt][]? |
28 | shoulders, will you cut me apart and use my skin to clean up the cola | 27 | Will you wear me until I unravel on your shoulders, will you cut me apart and use my skin to clean up the cola you spill on the floor when you're drunk? |
29 | you spill on the floor when you're drunk? | ||
30 | 28 | ||
31 | I want you to know that I want you to know. Do you want me? To know is | 29 | I want you to know that I want you to know. |
32 | to know. I, you want we. We want. That is why we're here. To want is to | 30 | Do you want me? |
33 | be is to want and I want you. Do you also? Check yes or no. | 31 | To know is to know. |
32 | I, you want we. | ||
33 | We want. | ||
34 | That is why we're here. | ||
35 | To want is to be is to want and I want you. | ||
36 | Do you also? | ||
37 | Check yes or no. | ||
34 | 38 | ||
35 | There is a way to end every story, [every song][]. Every criminal must be | 39 | There is a way to end every story, [every song][]. |
36 | caught. Even those who cry dry their tears. I cannot tell you all I want | 40 | Every criminal must be caught. |
37 | because I want to tell you everything. There is no art because there is | 41 | Even those who cry dry their tears. |
38 | no mirror big enough. We wake up every day. Sometimes we sleep. | 42 | I cannot tell you all I want because I want to tell you everything. |
43 | There is no art because there is no mirror big enough. | ||
44 | We wake up every day. | ||
45 | Sometimes we sleep. | ||
39 | 46 | ||
40 | [old shirt]: ronaldmcdonald.html | 47 | [old shirt]: ronaldmcdonald.html |
41 | [every song]: swansong.html | 48 | [every song]: swansong.html |
diff --git a/src/man.txt b/src/man.txt index 686411f..0b82f66 100644 --- a/src/man.txt +++ b/src/man.txt | |||
@@ -18,26 +18,28 @@ project: | |||
18 | link: leg | 18 | link: leg |
19 | ... | 19 | ... |
20 | 20 | ||
21 | _THIS MAN REFUSED TO OPEN HIS EYES_ | 21 | _[THIS MAN REFUSED TO OPEN HIS EYES][man]_ |
22 | 22 | ||
23 | Paul read this on an old mugshot in the library. He had taken the bus into | 23 | Paul read this on an old mugshot in the library. |
24 | town to check out a few books on woodworking and got distracted by the True | 24 | He had taken the bus into town to check out a few books on woodworking and got distracted by the True Crime section. |
25 | Crime section. He found this mugshot in a book titled _Crooks like Us_ that | 25 | He found this mugshot in a book titled _Crooks like Us_ that was published in Sydney. |
26 | was published in Sydney. He liked how cities were named after women, or how | 26 | He liked how cities were named after women, or how women were named after cities, whichever was true. |
27 | women were named after cities, whichever was true. | ||
28 | 27 | ||
29 | The man in the picture's eyes were tightly shut, as though he'd just come into | 28 | The man in the picture's eyes were tightly shut, as though he'd just come into the brightness of day after being dark inside for a long time. |
30 | the brightness of day after being dark inside for a long time. His head was | 29 | His head was tilted up and slightly to the right. |
31 | tilted up and slightly to the right. He was wearing a short light tie with | 30 | He was wearing a short light tie with hash marks, and a pinstripe suit. |
32 | hash marks, and a pinstripe suit. Paul wished the photograph was in color. | 31 | Paul wished the photograph was in color. |
33 | He was standing in front of a plain brown wall covered in fabric. | 32 | He was standing in front of a plain brown wall covered in fabric. |
34 | 33 | ||
35 | The man's eyes were not so tightly shut as Paul first thought. His eyebrows | 34 | The man's eyes were not so tightly shut as Paul first thought. |
36 | lifted away from the eyes, giving the man a bemused look. His mouth was | 35 | His eyebrows lifted away from the eyes, giving the man a bemused look. |
37 | slightly opened in what seemed to Paul like a grin. This was accentuated by | 36 | His mouth was slightly opened in what seemed to Paul like a grin. |
38 | the man's ears, which were large. Paul wasn't sure why the ears made the man | 37 | This was accentuated by the man's ears, which were large. |
39 | look happier. He wondered what crime he had committed. | 38 | Paul wasn't sure why the ears made the man look happier. |
39 | He wondered what crime he had committed. | ||
40 | 40 | ||
41 | Above the man's head was written _T. BEDE.22.11.28 / 203 A_. _THIS MAN | 41 | Above the man's head was written [_T. BEDE.22.11.28 / 203 A_.][emilia] |
42 | REFUSED TO OPEN HIS EYES_ was written over his suit, directly below his | 42 | _THIS MAN REFUSED TO OPEN HIS EYES_ was written over his suit, directly below his ribcage. |
43 | ribcage. | 43 | |
44 | [emilia]: http://emiliaphillips.com/books/signaletics/ | ||
45 | [man]: http://collection.hht.net.au/firsthhtpictures/fullRecordPicture.jsp?recnoListAttr=recnoList&recno=31230 | ||
diff --git a/src/moon-drowning.txt b/src/moon-drowning.txt index 6bb7a8d..0d65d16 100644 --- a/src/moon-drowning.txt +++ b/src/moon-drowning.txt | |||
@@ -20,7 +20,7 @@ project: | |||
20 | link: big-dipper | 20 | link: big-dipper |
21 | ... | 21 | ... |
22 | 22 | ||
23 | The moon is drowning the stars it pushes them \ | 23 | [The moon is drowning][] the stars it pushes them \ |
24 | under into the darkness they cannot breathe \ | 24 | under into the darkness they cannot breathe \ |
25 | they are flailing the moon boasts to my shadow \ | 25 | they are flailing the moon boasts to my shadow \ |
26 | how powerful is the moon how great its light | 26 | how powerful is the moon how great its light |
@@ -39,3 +39,5 @@ My shadow fears the night as it fears death \ | |||
39 | but it remembers the moon's strength is from another \ | 39 | but it remembers the moon's strength is from another \ |
40 | my shadow wants the headlights like an ocean \ | 40 | my shadow wants the headlights like an ocean \ |
41 | might want the moon as a seducer as a lover | 41 | might want the moon as a seducer as a lover |
42 | |||
43 | [The moon is drowning]: moongone.html | ||
diff --git a/src/movingsideways.txt b/src/movingsideways.txt index bc373e2..4b48c83 100644 --- a/src/movingsideways.txt +++ b/src/movingsideways.txt | |||
@@ -14,37 +14,27 @@ project: | |||
14 | link: proverbs | 14 | link: proverbs |
15 | ... | 15 | ... |
16 | 16 | ||
17 | A dog moving sideways is sick; a man moving sideways is drunk. Thus if | 17 | A dog moving sideways is sick; a man moving sideways is drunk. |
18 | you want to be mindful of the movings of the universe sideways, become | 18 | Thus if you want to be mindful of the movings of the universe sideways, become either drunk or sick. |
19 | either drunk or sick. By doing this you remove yourself from the | 19 | By doing this you remove yourself from the equation, and are able to observe, without being observed, the universe as it dances sideways drunkenly. |
20 | equation, and are able to observe, without being observed, the universe | 20 | |
21 | as it dances sideways drunkenly. | 21 | Shit wait. |
22 | 22 | The problem is not that by observing you are observed (although quantum mechanics may disagree[^1]), because obviously dogs don't know we're observing them when we watch them through cameras in their little yard while they play and eat and poop---who poops knowingly on camera? | |
23 | Shit wait. The problem is not that by observing you are observed | 23 | The problem is *the actual act of observing that distorts the world into what we want it to be*. |
24 | (although quantum mechanics may disagree[^1]), because obviously dogs | 24 | |
25 | don't know we're observing them when we watch them through cameras in | 25 | What I want to know is this: Why is this necessarily a problem? |
26 | their little yard while they play and eat and poop---who poops knowingly | 26 | The dog is made, by mankind, to frolic and poop and sniff and growl and dig. |
27 | on camera? The problem is *the actual act of observing that distorts the | 27 | Why cannot the man be made to observe the world incorrectly around him, and worry about it? |
28 | world into what we want it to be*. | 28 | Men have always wandered about the earth; does it not make sense that also they should wonder in their minds what makes it all work?[^2] |
29 | 29 | In fact this is the very center of the creative being: the ability to move sideways, to dance with reality and judge it as it judges you, much like teenagers at the junior prom. | |
30 | What I want to know is this: Why is this necessarily a problem? The dog | 30 | |
31 | is made, by mankind, to frolic and poop and sniff and growl and dig. Why | 31 | Of course, reality doesn't judge us back. |
32 | cannot the man be made to observe the world incorrectly around him, and | 32 | But that doesn't mean that it doesn't! |
33 | worry about it? Men have always wandered about the earth; does it not | 33 | If you think it's judging you, then *observe in your surroundings your own insecurities*. |
34 | make sense that also they should wonder in their minds what makes it all | 34 | It is obvious that this way of doing things is far from vogue; usually projecting [inner pain][] onto the outer world is classified as pathology. |
35 | work?[^2] In fact this is the very center of the creative being: the | 35 | However, this is because it is assumed that the outer world is *on its own terms*, which it obviously isn't, as far as we know. |
36 | ability to move sideways, to dance with reality and judge it as it | 36 | It follows that as [there is no backdrop][backdrop] against which to judge our quirks, the quirks must not exist. |
37 | judges you, much like teenagers at the junior prom. | 37 | Thus all is right with the world. |
38 | |||
39 | Of course, reality doesn't judge us back. But that doesn't mean that it | ||
40 | doesn't! If you think it's judging you, then *observe in your | ||
41 | surroundings your own insecurities*. It is obvious that this way of | ||
42 | doing things is far from vogue; usually projecting [inner pain][] onto the | ||
43 | outer world is classified as pathology. However, this is because it is | ||
44 | assumed that the outer world is *on its own terms*, which it obviously | ||
45 | isn't, as far as we know. It follows that as [there is no backdrop][backdrop] | ||
46 | against which to judge our quirks, the quirks must not exist. Thus all | ||
47 | is right with the world. | ||
48 | 38 | ||
49 | [inner pain]: telemarketer.html | 39 | [inner pain]: telemarketer.html |
50 | [backdrop]: philosophy.html | 40 | [backdrop]: philosophy.html |
@@ -60,4 +50,4 @@ is right with the world. | |||
60 | 50 | ||
61 | [^2]: I attempted to strike this terrible pun from the account, but | 51 | [^2]: I attempted to strike this terrible pun from the account, but |
62 | Hezekiah demanded I keep it if he were to continue the relation of | 52 | Hezekiah demanded I keep it if he were to continue the relation of |
63 | his prophecy-slash-advice column | 53 | his prophecy-slash-advice column. |
diff --git a/src/music-433.txt b/src/music-433.txt index b86098d..d045ba9 100644 --- a/src/music-433.txt +++ b/src/music-433.txt | |||
@@ -5,7 +5,7 @@ title: | | |||
5 | genre: verse | 5 | genre: verse |
6 | 6 | ||
7 | dedication: | | 7 | dedication: | |
8 | [Randall](TODO-xkcd-comic) | 8 | [Randall](https://xkcd.com/1199/) |
9 | 9 | ||
10 | project: | 10 | project: |
11 | title: Stark Raving | 11 | title: Stark Raving |
diff --git a/src/notes.txt b/src/notes.txt index 024d18b..d43c123 100644 --- a/src/notes.txt +++ b/src/notes.txt | |||
@@ -18,15 +18,16 @@ project: | |||
18 | link: man | 18 | link: man |
19 | ... | 19 | ... |
20 | 20 | ||
21 | Paul began typing on notecards. Somehow this felt right to his sensibilities. | 21 | Paul began typing on notecards. |
22 | It was difficult to get the little cards into the typewriter. It was a pain | 22 | Somehow this felt right to his sensibilities. |
23 | to readjust the typewriter for regular paper when he wasn't writing. He | 23 | It was difficult to get the little cards into the typewriter. |
24 | started typing everything on those little notecards: grocery lists, letters to | 24 | It was a pain to readjust the typewriter for regular paper when he wasn't writing. |
25 | his grandmother, even reports for work (which is what got him in trouble). | 25 | He started typing everything on those little notecards: grocery lists, letters to his grandmother, even reports for work (which is what got him in trouble). |
26 | 26 | ||
27 | But this was all later. For now he was writing his ideas, "notes" he now | 27 | But this was all later. |
28 | called them, something for him to combine later into something. He didn't | 28 | For now he was writing his ideas, "notes" he now called them, something for him to combine later into something. |
29 | like to think about it. On this particular cold winter morning, he wrote | 29 | He didn't like to think about it. |
30 | On this particular cold winter morning, he wrote | ||
30 | 31 | ||
31 | ```type | 32 | ```type |
32 | Woke up from a dream I was famous. | 33 | Woke up from a dream I was famous. |
diff --git a/src/options.txt b/src/options.txt index 59f2c93..e6babc4 100644 --- a/src/options.txt +++ b/src/options.txt | |||
@@ -18,26 +18,26 @@ project: | |||
18 | link: notes | 18 | link: notes |
19 | ... | 19 | ... |
20 | 20 | ||
21 | What did he do when he was in the woods? Where did he go? Was there always | 21 | What did he do when he was in the woods? |
22 | one spot, one clearing deep within the heart of them, that he would visit? | 22 | Where did he go? |
23 | Did he talk to the trees or only to himself? When he chopped down trees, did | 23 | Was there always one spot, one clearing deep within the heart of them, that he would visit? |
24 | he leave them there to rot in the quiet or did he drag them out of the woods, | 24 | Did he talk to the trees or only to himself? |
25 | behind his Shack, and dismember them? Did he use any for firewood, or did the | 25 | When he chopped down trees, did he leave them there to rot in the quiet or did he drag them out of the woods, behind his Shack, and dismember them? |
26 | pieces rot behind his Shack, forgotten? When was the last time he built any | 26 | Did he use any for firewood, or did the pieces rot behind his Shack, forgotten? |
27 | furniture? Did he get any better at building it or did he just quit at some | 27 | When was the last time he built any furniture? |
28 | point, let the desire to create fall behind him like a forgotten felled tree? | 28 | Did he get any better at building it or did he just quit at some point, let the desire to create fall behind him like a forgotten felled tree? |
29 | 29 | ||
30 | A tree fell in the forest: did it make a noise? Paul typed his thoughts on | 30 | A tree fell in the forest: did it make a noise? |
31 | cards, or wrote them in a book: did anyone read it? If anyone did, was his | 31 | Paul typed his thoughts on cards, or wrote them in a book: did anyone read it? |
32 | life changed? For the better or the worse? Did he glance at the mess in the | 32 | If anyone did, was his life changed? |
33 | top drawer of his Writing Desk as he cleaned the Shack out long after Paul had | 33 | For the better or the worse? |
34 | quit using it? Did he put tools in there or leave it empty? What did he do | 34 | Did he glance at the mess in the top drawer of his Writing Desk as he cleaned the Shack out long after Paul had quit using it? |
35 | with the desk? Did he add it to the pile of rotting wood out back, or did he | 35 | Did he put tools in there or leave it empty? |
36 | chop it up for a bonfire with friends, or a cozy fire with his wife and | 36 | What did he do with the desk? |
37 | children, or did he take it to the dump three miles away to rot there? Are | 37 | Did he add it to the pile of rotting wood out back, or did he chop it up for a bonfire with friends, or a cozy fire with his wife and children, or did he take it to the dump three miles away to rot there? |
38 | these all the options? | 38 | Are these all the options? |
39 | 39 | ||
40 | Did Paul ever think about any of this? Walking in the woods one afternoon | 40 | Did Paul ever think about any of this? |
41 | after becoming frustrated with his writing, did he sit on a stump and cry? | 41 | Walking in the woods one afternoon after becoming frustrated with his writing, did he sit on a stump and cry? |
42 | Did he wonder whether he should have made other choices? Did he consider | 42 | Did he wonder whether he should have made other choices? |
43 | quitting smoking? | 43 | Did he consider quitting smoking? |
diff --git a/src/paul.txt b/src/paul.txt index e95776b..20d5c7e 100644 --- a/src/paul.txt +++ b/src/paul.txt | |||
@@ -41,14 +41,14 @@ CONTENTS OF THE SHED | |||
41 | - axe | 41 | - axe |
42 | ``` | 42 | ``` |
43 | 43 | ||
44 | He typed the list in the typewriter and looked around some more. He wanted to | 44 | He typed the list in the typewriter and looked around some more. |
45 | make sure he didn't miss anything. Finally it hit him and he smiled. He | 45 | He wanted to make sure he didn't miss anything. |
46 | typed one more line, stood up, and went out of the shed. | 46 | Finally it hit him and he smiled. |
47 | He typed one more line, stood up, and went out of the shed. | ||
47 | 48 | ||
48 | ```type | 49 | ```type |
49 | - Paul Bunyon | 50 | - Paul Bunyon |
50 | ``` | 51 | ``` |
51 | 52 | ||
52 | He got some kerosene from under the house, poured it around the base of the | 53 | He got some kerosene from under the house, poured it around the base of the shed, lit a cigarette. |
53 | shed, lit a cigarette. He smoked half of it and threw it down to start the | 54 | He smoked half of it and threw it down to start the fire. |
54 | fire. | ||
diff --git a/src/philosophy.txt b/src/philosophy.txt index 0ac114f..cdfb360 100644 --- a/src/philosophy.txt +++ b/src/philosophy.txt | |||
@@ -14,25 +14,18 @@ project: | |||
14 | link: purpose-dogs | 14 | link: purpose-dogs |
15 | ... | 15 | ... |
16 | 16 | ||
17 | Importance is important. But meaning is meaningful. Here we are at the | 17 | Importance is important. |
18 | crux of the matter, for both meaning and importance are also | 18 | But meaning is meaningful. |
19 | human-formed. So it would seem that nothing is important or meaningful, | 19 | Here we are at the crux of the matter, for both meaning and importance are also human-formed. |
20 | if importance and meaning are of themselves only products of the | 20 | So it would seem that nothing is important or meaningful, if importance and meaning are of themselves only products of the fallible human intellect. |
21 | fallible human intellect. But here is the great secret: *so is the | 21 | But here is the great secret: *so is the fallibility of the human intellect a mere product of the fallible human intellect.* |
22 | fallibility of the human intellect a mere product of the fallible human | 22 | The question here arises: Is anything real, and not a mere invention of a mistaken human mind? |
23 | intellect.* The question here arises: Is anything real, and not a mere | 23 | By real of course I mean "that which is *on its own terms*," that is, without any [modification][] on the part of mankind by observing it. |
24 | invention of a mistaken human mind? By real of course I mean | 24 | But such a thing is impossible to be known, for if it be known it has certainly been observed by someone, and so it is not on its own terms but on the terms of the observer. |
25 | "that which is *on its own terms*," that is, without any [modification][] on | 25 | So it cannot be known if anything exists on its own terms, for it exists on its own terms we certainly will not know anything about it. |
26 | the part of mankind by observing it. But such a thing is impossible to | ||
27 | be known, for if it be known it has certainly been observed by someone, | ||
28 | and so it is not on its own terms but on the terms of the observer. So | ||
29 | it cannot be known if anything exists on its own terms, for it exists on | ||
30 | its own terms we certainly will not know anything about it. | ||
31 | 26 | ||
32 | By this it is possible to see that nothing is knowable without the | 27 | By this it is possible to see that nothing is knowable without the mediating factor of our mind fucking up the "[raw][]," the "real" world. |
33 | mediating factor of our mind fucking up the "[raw][]," the "real" world. But | 28 | But by this time it would seem that this chapter is far far too philosophical, not to mention pretentious, so I must try again. |
34 | by this time it would seem that this chapter is far far too | ||
35 | philosophical, not to mention pretentious, so I must try again. | ||
36 | 29 | ||
37 | [modification]: i-am.html | 30 | [modification]: i-am.html |
38 | [raw]: spittle.html | 31 | [raw]: spittle.html |
diff --git a/src/phone.txt b/src/phone.txt index 1460180..80da513 100644 --- a/src/phone.txt +++ b/src/phone.txt | |||
@@ -18,25 +18,31 @@ project: | |||
18 | link: paul | 18 | link: paul |
19 | ... | 19 | ... |
20 | 20 | ||
21 | "Hello Paul this is Jill Jill Noe remember me" the voice on the phone was a | 21 | "Hello Paul this is Jill Jill Noe remember me" the voice on the phone was a woman's. |
22 | woman's. He nodded into the receiver. "Hello" Jill asked again "hello?" | 22 | He nodded into the receiver. |
23 | "Hello" Jill asked again "hello?" | ||
23 | Paul remembered that phones work by talking and said "Hello Jill." | 24 | Paul remembered that phones work by talking and said "Hello Jill." |
24 | 25 | ||
25 | "Do you remember me" she asked "we were in school together? How have you | 26 | "Do you remember me" she asked "we were in school together? |
26 | been?" "Pretty well" said Paul "I've been writing and making furniture." "Oh | 27 | How have you been?" |
27 | that's nice" said the woman's voice tinny in the phone "Listen I ran into your | 28 | "Pretty well" said Paul "I've been writing and making furniture." |
28 | mother at the Supermarket the other day and she said you need a job. You | 29 | "Oh that's nice" said the woman's voice tinny in the phone |
29 | still need one?" Paul had to tell the truth. His mother was watching him out | 30 | "Listen I ran into your mother at the Supermarket the other day and she said you need a job. |
30 | of the corner of her eye as she was playing dominoes at the kitchen table. | 31 | You still need one?" |
32 | Paul had to tell the truth. | ||
33 | His mother was watching him out of the corner of her eye as she was playing dominoes at the kitchen table. | ||
31 | "Yes" he said sighing "Although woodworking takes up much of my time." | 34 | "Yes" he said sighing "Although woodworking takes up much of my time." |
32 | 35 | ||
33 | "OK" she laughed uncomortably "I actually have something you could do for me | 36 | "OK" she laughed uncomortably "I actually have something you could do for me if you think you can get away from woodworking a bit. |
34 | if you think you can get away from woodworking a bit. It's just data entry | 37 | It's just data entry really basic stuff entry-level." |
35 | really basic stuff entry-level." "What's it pay" he asked. "Minimum but | 38 | "What's it pay" he asked. |
36 | there is room for movement." "OK" he said. "Start on Monday okay?" "Sure" | 39 | "Minimum but there is room for movement." |
37 | he said "bye" and the tin voice in the phone said "Goodbye Paul see you" by | 40 | "OK" he said. |
38 | the time he put it back on the hook. | 41 | "Start on Monday okay?" |
42 | "Sure" he said "bye" and the tin voice in the phone said "Goodbye Paul see you" by the time he put it back on the hook. | ||
39 | 43 | ||
40 | "Who was that" asked his mother. "Jill Noe" he said. "Oh her was she calling | 44 | "Who was that" asked his mother. |
41 | about a job for you?" "Yes starts Monday" he said. She smiled behind her | 45 | "Jill Noe" he said. |
42 | glasses reflecting dominoes. | 46 | "Oh her was she calling about a job for you?" |
47 | "Yes starts Monday" he said. | ||
48 | She smiled behind her glasses reflecting dominoes. | ||
diff --git a/src/planks.txt b/src/planks.txt index 698f982..648122f 100644 --- a/src/planks.txt +++ b/src/planks.txt | |||
@@ -23,16 +23,20 @@ EVERYTHING CHANGES OR EVERYTHING | |||
23 | STAYS THE SAME | 23 | STAYS THE SAME |
24 | ``` | 24 | ``` |
25 | 25 | ||
26 | This sat alone on a blank notecard in Paul's typewriter. He stared at it, | 26 | This sat alone on a blank notecard in Paul's typewriter. |
27 | sipping at his too-hot coffee. This made sense to him. | 27 | He stared at it, sipping at his too-hot coffee. |
28 | This made sense to him. | ||
28 | 29 | ||
29 | He looked at the spot on the wall where he wanted a window to be, at the rough | 30 | He looked at the spot on the wall where he wanted a window to be, at the rough planks above his desk as they were lit by the bare hanging lightbulb. |
30 | planks above his desk as they were lit by the bare hanging lightbulb. He | 31 | He sipped his coffee again. |
31 | sipped his coffee again. It was still too hot. His Woodworking Shack was | 32 | It was still too hot. |
32 | becoming full of wood that was not furniture. He feared it would never become | 33 | His Woodworking Shack was becoming full of wood that was not furniture. |
33 | so. | 34 | He feared it would never become so. |
34 | 35 | ||
35 | He threw open the door to the snow and the ground below it. He reached for | 36 | He threw open the door to the snow and the ground below it. |
36 | his axe on the wall. He reconsidered. He took a few tentative steps onto the | 37 | He reached for his axe on the wall. |
37 | blankness on his own. He wasn't cold, not yet. He walked into the forest. | 38 | He reconsidered. |
39 | He took a few tentative steps onto the blankness on his own. | ||
40 | He wasn't cold, not yet. | ||
41 | He walked into the forest. | ||
38 | The snow crunched under his feet and did not echo. | 42 | The snow crunched under his feet and did not echo. |
diff --git a/src/prelude.txt b/src/prelude.txt index 91d4541..9cb387b 100644 --- a/src/prelude.txt +++ b/src/prelude.txt | |||
@@ -11,7 +11,10 @@ project: | |||
11 | link: purpose-dogs | 11 | link: purpose-dogs |
12 | ... | 12 | ... |
13 | 13 | ||
14 | Of course, there is a God. Of course, there is no God. Of course, what's | 14 | Of course, there is a God. |
15 | really important is that these aren't important. No, they are; but not | 15 | Of course, there is no God. |
16 | really important. All that's important is the relative importance of | 16 | Of course, what's really important is that these aren't important. |
17 | non-important things. Shit. Never mind; let's start over. | 17 | No, they are; but not really important. |
18 | All that's important is the relative importance of non-important things. | ||
19 | Shit. | ||
20 | Never mind; let's start over. | ||
diff --git a/src/problems.txt b/src/problems.txt index c5de325..9a1e916 100644 --- a/src/problems.txt +++ b/src/problems.txt | |||
@@ -14,45 +14,31 @@ project: | |||
14 | link: movingsideways | 14 | link: movingsideways |
15 | ... | 15 | ... |
16 | 16 | ||
17 | The problem with people is this: we cannot be happy. No matter how hard | 17 | The problem with people is this: we cannot be happy. |
18 | or easy we try, it is not to be. It seems sometimes that, just as the | 18 | No matter how hard or easy we try, it is not to be. |
19 | dog was made for jumping in mud and sniffing out foxholes and having a | 19 | It seems sometimes that, just as the dog was made for jumping in mud and sniffing out foxholes and having a good time all around, man was made for sadness, loneliness and heartache. |
20 | good time all around, man was made for sadness, loneliness and | 20 | |
21 | heartache. | 21 | Being the observant and judgmental people they are, people have for a long time tried to figure out why they aren't happy. |
22 | 22 | Some say it's because we're obviously doing something wrong. | |
23 | Being the observant and judgmental people they are, people have for a | 23 | Some say it's because we think too much. |
24 | long time tried to figure out why they aren't happy. Some say it's | 24 | Some insist that it's because other people have more stuff than we do. |
25 | because we're obviously doing something wrong. Some say it's because we | 25 | These people don't have a clue any more than any of the rest of us. |
26 | think too much. Some insist that it's because other people have more | 26 | At least I don't think they do, and that's good enough for me.[^1] |
27 | stuff than we do. These people don't have a clue any more than any of | 27 | I think that the reason why people are unhappy (and this is a personal opinion) is that they realize on some level (for some it's a pretty shallow level, others it's way down there next to their love for women's stockings[^2]) that there is no background to put themselves against, no "[big picture][]" to get painted into. |
28 | the rest of us. At least I don't think they do, and that's good enough | 28 | This makes sense, because on one level, the level of everyday life, the level of *observation*, there is always a background---look in a pair of binoculars sometime. |
29 | for me.[^1] I think that the reason why people are unhappy (and this is | 29 | But on another level, that of ... shit, wait. |
30 | a personal opinion) is that they realize on some level (for some it's a | 30 | There are no other levels.[^3] |
31 | pretty shallow level, others it's way down there next to their love for | 31 | |
32 | women's stockings[^2]) that there is no background to put themselves | 32 | What's more, people try to explain how to get happy again (although it's doubtful they were ever happy in the first place---people are very good at fooling). |
33 | against, no "[big picture][]" to get painted into. This makes sense, because | 33 | Some say standing or [sitting in a building][] with a lot of other unhappy people helps. |
34 | on one level, the level of everyday life, the level of *observation*, | 34 | Some say that you can't stop there; you also need to sing with those other unhappy people about how unhappy you are, and how you wish someone would come along and help you out, I guess by giving you money or something. |
35 | there is always a background---look in a pair of binoculars sometime. But | 35 | I say all you really need to be happy is a good stiff drink.[^4] |
36 | on another level, that of ... shit, wait. There are no other levels.[^3] | 36 | |
37 | 37 | In any case, people have for some reason or another, and to some end or another, always been unhappy. | |
38 | What's more, people try to explain how to get happy again (although it's | 38 | And people have always tried to figure out ways to be less unhappy---one of the most important things to people everywhere is called "the pursuit of happiness." |
39 | doubtful they were ever happy in the first place---people are very good at | 39 | I think that calling it a pursuit makes people feel more like dogs, who are the most happy beings most people can think of. |
40 | fooling). Some say standing or [sitting in a building][] with a lot of other | 40 | By pursuing happiness, they're like a dog pursuing a possum or a bone on a fishing rod: two activities that sound like a lot of fun to most people. |
41 | unhappy people helps. Some say that you can't stop there; you also need | 41 | I think most people wish they were dogs. |
42 | to sing with those other unhappy people about how unhappy you are, and | ||
43 | how you wish someone would come along and help you out, I guess by | ||
44 | giving you money or something. I say all you really need to be happy is | ||
45 | a good stiff drink.[^4] | ||
46 | |||
47 | In any case, people have for some reason or another, and to some end or | ||
48 | another, always been unhappy. And people have always tried to figure out | ||
49 | ways to be less unhappy---one of the most important things to people | ||
50 | everywhere is called "the pursuit of happiness." I think that calling it | ||
51 | a pursuit makes people feel more like dogs, who are the most happy | ||
52 | beings most people can think of. By pursuing happiness, they're like a | ||
53 | dog pursuing a possum or a bone on a fishing rod: two activities that | ||
54 | sound like a lot of fun to most people. I think most people wish they | ||
55 | were dogs. | ||
56 | 42 | ||
57 | [big picture]: ronaldmcdonald.html | 43 | [big picture]: ronaldmcdonald.html |
58 | [sitting in a buiding]: feedingtheraven.html | 44 | [sitting in a buiding]: feedingtheraven.html |
diff --git a/src/proverbs.txt b/src/proverbs.txt index d0ae38f..5b4e30a 100644 --- a/src/proverbs.txt +++ b/src/proverbs.txt | |||
@@ -14,24 +14,22 @@ project: | |||
14 | link: philosophy | 14 | link: philosophy |
15 | ... | 15 | ... |
16 | 16 | ||
17 | [Nothing matters; everything is sacred. Everything matters; nothing is | 17 | [Nothing matters; everything is sacred. |
18 | sacred][sacred].[^1] This is the only way we can move forward: by moving | 18 | Everything matters; nothing is sacred][sacred].[^1] |
19 | sideways. Life is a great big rugby game, and the entire field has to be run | 19 | This is the only way we can move forward: by moving sideways. |
20 | for a goal. The fact that the beginning two verses of this chapter have the | 20 | Life is a great big rugby game, and the entire field has to be run for a goal. |
21 | same number of characters proves that they are a tautological pair, that is, | 21 | The fact that the beginning two verses of this chapter have the same number of characters proves that they are a tautological pair, that is, they *complete each other*. |
22 | they *complete each other*. Sometimes life seems like a dog wagging its tail, | 22 | Sometimes life seems like a dog wagging its tail, smiling up at you and wanting you to love it, just wanting that, simple simple love, oblivious to the fact that it just ran through your immaculately groomed flower garden and tracked all the mud in onto your freshly steamed carpet. |
23 | smiling up at you and wanting you to love it, just wanting that, simple simple | 23 | Life is not life in a suburb. |
24 | love, oblivious to the fact that it just ran through your immaculately groomed | 24 | [There are no rosebushes, groomed never. There is no carpet, steamed at any time.][rosebush] |
25 | flower garden and tracked all the mud in onto your freshly steamed carpet. | 25 | The dog looks at you wanting you to love it. |
26 | Life is not life in a suburb. [There are no rosebushes, groomed never. There | 26 | It wants to know that you know that it's there. |
27 | is no carpet, steamed at any time.][rosebush] The dog looks at you wanting you | 27 | *It wants to be observed*.[^2] |
28 | to love it. It wants to know that you know that it's there. *It wants to be | ||
29 | observed*.[\^2] | ||
30 | 28 | ||
31 | [sacred]: words-meaning.html | 29 | [sacred]: words-meaning.html |
32 | [rosebush]: lovesong.html | 30 | [rosebush]: lovesong.html |
33 | 31 | ||
34 | [^1]: Thank you Tom Stoppard. Ha ha ho ho and hee hee. | 32 | [^1]: Thank you [Tom Stoppard][]. Ha ha ho ho and hee hee. |
35 | 33 | ||
36 | [^2]: Ah ha! I knew this was going to happen at some point. Now things | 34 | [^2]: Ah ha! I knew this was going to happen at some point. Now things |
37 | are going to get more interesting because the dog wants what we | 35 | are going to get more interesting because the dog wants what we |
@@ -45,3 +43,5 @@ observed*.[\^2] | |||
45 | seem important? Doesn't it seem like a fish and a drop of water here | 43 | seem important? Doesn't it seem like a fish and a drop of water here |
46 | are connected? It helps, of course, that the fish represents Reality | 44 | are connected? It helps, of course, that the fish represents Reality |
47 | here.) | 45 | here.) |
46 | |||
47 | [Tom Stoppard]: http://www.thesatirist.com/books/CowGirlBlues.html | ||
diff --git a/src/punch.txt b/src/punch.txt index 9509143..b2677d8 100644 --- a/src/punch.txt +++ b/src/punch.txt | |||
@@ -20,20 +20,23 @@ project: | |||
20 | 20 | ||
21 | When he finally got back to work he was surprised they threw him a party. | 21 | When he finally got back to work he was surprised they threw him a party. |
22 | _**WELCOME BACK PAUL!**_ was written on a big banner across the back wall. | 22 | _**WELCOME BACK PAUL!**_ was written on a big banner across the back wall. |
23 | Someone had ordered a confectioner's-sugar cake with frosting flowers on the | 23 | Someone had ordered a confectioner's-sugar cake with frosting flowers on the corners. |
24 | corners. It said the same thing as the banner. "Welcome back, Paul" said | 24 | It said the same thing as the banner. |
25 | Jill as he was at the punch bowl. The cup was on the table as he ladled punch | 25 | "Welcome back, Paul" said Jill as he was at the punch bowl. |
26 | in with his right hand. His left was wrapped in gauze. | 26 | The cup was on the table as he ladled punch in with his right hand. |
27 | His left was wrapped in gauze. | ||
27 | 28 | ||
28 | "Let me help you with that" said Jill. Paul had a strange feeling this had | 29 | "Let me help you with that" said Jill. |
29 | happened before. She took the ladle and their hands touched. She picked the | 30 | Paul had a strange feeling this had happened before. |
30 | cup up in her right hand and used her left to lift the spoon. "You know" she | 31 | She took the ladle and their hands touched. |
31 | said "we were worried about you. When Jerry heard about your hand he said | 32 | She picked the cup up in her right hand and used her left to lift the spoon. |
32 | 'There goes one of our best data entry men.'" "I still can't really move my | 33 | "You know" she said "we were worried about you. |
33 | left hand" said Paul. "That's alright you can take your time with the entry." | 34 | When Jerry heard about your hand he said 'There goes one of our best data entry men.'" |
35 | "I still can't really move my left hand" said Paul. | ||
36 | "That's alright you can take your time with the entry." | ||
34 | "I'm sorry." | 37 | "I'm sorry." |
35 | 38 | ||
36 | "Sorry for what" she looked at his eyes. He imagined her seeing fisheye | 39 | "Sorry for what" she looked at his eyes. |
37 | versions of herself in them. "I don't know" he said because it was true. | 40 | He imagined her seeing fisheye versions of herself in them. |
38 | "It's alright anyway" she said and placed the full punch cup in his right | 41 | "I don't know" he said because it was true. |
39 | hand. | 42 | "It's alright anyway" she said and placed the full punch cup in his right hand. |
diff --git a/src/purpose-dogs.txt b/src/purpose-dogs.txt index 052b656..dae785a 100644 --- a/src/purpose-dogs.txt +++ b/src/purpose-dogs.txt | |||
@@ -14,29 +14,24 @@ project: | |||
14 | link: prelude | 14 | link: prelude |
15 | ... | 15 | ... |
16 | 16 | ||
17 | Okay, so as we said in [the Prelude][], there either is or isn't a God. This | 17 | Okay, so as we said in [the Prelude][], there either is or isn't a God. |
18 | has been one of the main past times of humanity, ever since ... since the | 18 | This has been one of the main past times of humanity, ever since ... since the first man (or woman) climbed out of whatever slime or swamp he thumbed his way out of. |
19 | first man (or woman) climbed out of whatever slime or swamp he thumbed his way | 19 | What humanity has failed to realize is that an incredibly plausible third, and heretofore unknown, hypothesis also exists: There is a dog. |
20 | out of. What humanity has failed to realize is that an incredibly plausible | ||
21 | third, and heretofore unknown, hypothesis also exists: There is a dog. | ||
22 | 20 | ||
23 | In fact, there are many dogs, and not only that. There are also many types of | 21 | In fact, there are many dogs, and not only that. |
24 | dogs; these are called breeds, and each breed was created by man in order to | 22 | There are also many types of dogs; these are called breeds, and each breed was created by man in order to fulfill some use that man thought he needed. |
25 | fulfill some use that man thought he needed. Some dogs are for chasing birds, | 23 | Some dogs are for chasing birds, and some are for chasing badgers. |
26 | and some are for chasing badgers. Some are for laying in your lap and being | 24 | Some are for laying in your lap and being petted all day. |
27 | petted all day. Some dogs don't seem to be really for anything, besides being | 25 | Some dogs don't seem to be really for anything, besides being fucking stupid and chewing up your one-of-a-kind collectible individually-numbered King Kong figurine from the Peter Jackson film. |
28 | fucking stupid and chewing up your one-of-a-kind collectible | 26 | But the important thing is, (and here we go with important things again) all dogs have been bred by people for performing some certain function that we think is important. |
29 | individually-numbered King Kong figurine from the Peter Jackson film. But the | ||
30 | important thing is, (and here we go with important things again) all dogs have | ||
31 | been bred by people for performing some certain function that we think is | ||
32 | important. | ||
33 | 27 | ||
34 | Note: *Just because we think it's important doesn't mean it is | 28 | Note: *Just because we think it's important doesn't mean it is important.* |
35 | important.* But it might as well be, because what we as humans think is | 29 | But it might as well be, because what we as humans think is important is important. |
36 | important is important. But be careful! just because something's important | 30 | But be careful! |
37 | doesn't mean it means anything, or that it actually makes anything happen. | 31 | Just because something's important doesn't mean it means anything, or that it actually makes anything happen. |
38 | Even though just because something makes something else happen doesn't mean | 32 | Even though just because something makes something else happen doesn't mean it's important. |
39 | it's important. [Shit][]. Let me start again. | 33 | [Shit][]. |
34 | Let me start again. | ||
40 | 35 | ||
41 | [the Prelude]: prelude.html | 36 | [the Prelude]: prelude.html |
42 | [Shit]: feedingtheraven.html | 37 | [Shit]: feedingtheraven.html |
diff --git a/src/question.txt b/src/question.txt index edaea2f..1581b6f 100644 --- a/src/question.txt +++ b/src/question.txt | |||
@@ -18,26 +18,34 @@ project: | |||
18 | link: punch | 18 | link: punch |
19 | ... | 19 | ... |
20 | 20 | ||
21 | "Do you have to say your thoughts out loud for them to mean anything" Paul | 21 | "Do you have to say your thoughts out loud for them to mean anything" Paul asked Jill on his first coffee break at work. |
22 | asked Jill on his first coffee break at work. It was in the city and his | 22 | It was in the city and his mother told him she wouldn't drive him so he'd had to take the bus. |
23 | mother told him she wouldn't drive him so he'd had to take the bus. Number 3 | 23 | Number 3 he thought it was. |
24 | he thought it was – he couldn't quite remember. Jill said "Sorry what?" Paul | 24 | [He couldn't quite remember.][remember] |
25 | realized that she hadn't really noticed him there in the break room as he was | 25 | Jill said "Sorry what?" |
26 | hunched behind the refrigerator a little and she was busy pouring coffee and | 26 | Paul realized that she hadn't really noticed him there in the break room as he was hunched behind the refrigerator a little and she was busy pouring coffee and exactly two tablespoons of both milk and sugar into her mug before she put the coffee in. |
27 | exactly two tablespoons of both milk and sugar into her mug before she put the | 27 | He decided to repeat the question. |
28 | coffee in. He decided to repeat the question. | ||
29 | 28 | ||
30 | "How do you think" he asked. "Like everyone else I guess" she said "I have a | 29 | "How do you think" he asked. |
31 | thought and if it's important I write it down." "Do you have to say them out | 30 | "Like everyone else I guess" she said "I have a thought and if it's important I write it down." |
32 | loud for them to make sense?" "Are you asking if I talk to myself?" A pause. | 31 | "Do you have to say them out loud for them to make sense?" |
33 | "I guess so" he said looking down. He had a feeling this was a bad thing. | 32 | "Are you asking if I talk to myself?" |
34 | "Sometimes" she said and walked out of the break room. She didn't understand | 33 | A pause. |
35 | the importance of his question. She popped her head back in a moment later and | 34 | "I guess so" he said looking down. |
36 | his heart leaped in his chest. | 35 | He had a feeling this was a bad thing. |
36 | "Sometimes" she said and walked out of the break room. | ||
37 | She didn't understand the importance of his question. | ||
38 | She popped her head back in a moment later and his heart leaped in his chest. | ||
37 | 39 | ||
38 | "How's your first day going so far" she asked. "Can you understand everything | 40 | "How's your first day going so far" she asked. |
39 | okay?" "Yes" he said "you were right it's pretty basic." "Good" she said. | 41 | "Can you understand everything okay?" |
40 | "Paul?" "Yes." "Do you have to say all of your thoughts out loud to remember | 42 | "Yes" he said "you were right it's pretty basic." |
41 | them?" He shook his head. | 43 | "Good" she said. |
44 | "Paul?" | ||
45 | "Yes." | ||
46 | "Do you have to say all of your thoughts out loud to remember them?" | ||
47 | He shook his head. | ||
42 | 48 | ||
43 | Only all of the time, Paul thought to himself but didn't speak. | 49 | Only all of the time, Paul thought to himself but didn't speak. |
50 | |||
51 | [remember]: riptide_memory.html | ||
diff --git a/src/reports.txt b/src/reports.txt index 61f7e12..e43c6b0 100644 --- a/src/reports.txt +++ b/src/reports.txt | |||
@@ -18,9 +18,8 @@ project: | |||
18 | link: question | 18 | link: question |
19 | ... | 19 | ... |
20 | 20 | ||
21 | "Paul, you can't turn in your reports on four-by-six notecards" Jill told him | 21 | "Paul, you can't turn in your reports on four-by-six notecards" Jill told him after he handed her his reports, typed carefully on twelve four-by-six notecards. |
22 | after he handed her his reports, typed carefully on twelve four-by-six | 22 | He had spent the weekend |
23 | notecards. He had spent the weekend | ||
24 | 23 | ||
25 | 1. going to the Office Supply Store to buy notecards and typewriter ribbon (he | 24 | 1. going to the Office Supply Store to buy notecards and typewriter ribbon (he |
26 | found it surprisingly easily) after his first payday | 25 | found it surprisingly easily) after his first payday |
@@ -33,8 +32,10 @@ notecards. He had spent the weekend | |||
33 | notecards (he made many mistakes and threw away many notecards, though | 32 | notecards (he made many mistakes and threw away many notecards, though |
34 | later he used them for kindling) | 33 | later he used them for kindling) |
35 | 34 | ||
36 | so understandably he was upset. He told Jill all the work he'd gone to to | 35 | so understandably he was upset. |
37 | type those notecard reports for her, for the company. She shook her head. | 36 | He told Jill all the work he'd gone to to type those notecard reports for her, for the company. |
38 | "Paul, you don't have to do all that work at home. Just type it up on the | 37 | She shook her head. |
39 | computers here, that's all you need to do. Thanks for the work though." He | 38 | "Paul, you don't have to do all that work at home. |
40 | nodded as she threw the notecards into the trashcan and left his cubicle. | 39 | Just type it up on the computers here, that's all you need to do. |
40 | Thanks for the work though." | ||
41 | He nodded as she threw the notecards into the trashcan and left his cubicle. | ||
diff --git a/src/riptide_memory.txt b/src/riptide_memory.txt index 60a42dc..da6257a 100644 --- a/src/riptide_memory.txt +++ b/src/riptide_memory.txt | |||
@@ -20,32 +20,32 @@ project: | |||
20 | link: i-think-its-you | 20 | link: i-think-its-you |
21 | ... | 21 | ... |
22 | 22 | ||
23 | Inside of my memory, the poem is another memory. | 23 | Inside of my memory, the poem is another memory. \ |
24 | The air up here is thin, but the wind blows harder | 24 | The air up here is thin, but the wind blows harder \ |
25 | than anywhere else I know. It threatens to rip | 25 | than anywhere else I know. It threatens to rip \ |
26 | my body away, like an angel of death, to the stars. | 26 | my body away, like an angel of death, to the stars. |
27 | 27 | ||
28 | In Arizona, I thought I would forget the rain, | 28 | In Arizona, I thought I would forget the rain, \ |
29 | forget its sound on a roof like a hard wind, forget | 29 | forget its sound on a roof like a hard wind, forget \ |
30 | its smell like a far away ocean. Luckily for me | 30 | its smell like a far away ocean. Luckily for me \ |
31 | it rains here. Luckily, because I forget too easily. | 31 | it rains here. Luckily, because I forget too easily. |
32 | 32 | ||
33 | In a dream, my father is caught by a riptide off-shore. | 33 | In a dream, my father is caught by a riptide off-shore. \ |
34 | He's pulled far out, far enough that the shoreline's | 34 | He's pulled far out, far enough that the shoreline's \ |
35 | a line in his memory on the horizon. I can see him | 35 | a line in his memory on the horizon. I can see him \ |
36 | swimming, hand over hand, pulling his small weight | 36 | swimming, hand over hand, pulling his small weight |
37 | 37 | ||
38 | back to land. I see him as another shipwreck victim, | 38 | back to land. I see him as another shipwreck victim, \ |
39 | coughing sand and seawater, beard woven with seaweed. | 39 | coughing sand and seawater, beard woven with seaweed. \ |
40 | I see him laying there a long time. I see all this | 40 | I see him laying there a long time. I see all this \ |
41 | as he tells me the story, years later, the riptide | 41 | as he tells me the story, years later, the riptide |
42 | 42 | ||
43 | only a ghost in his memory, I only a child falling | 43 | only a ghost in his memory, I only a child falling \ |
44 | asleep. My mother's making mayonnaise rolls | 44 | asleep. My mother's making mayonnaise rolls \ |
45 | in the kitchen, a recipe I'll send for years later, | 45 | in the kitchen, a recipe I'll send for years later, \ |
46 | in Arizona, in the monsoon season, when my thirst | 46 | in Arizona, in the monsoon season, when my thirst |
47 | 47 | ||
48 | pulls me back home, my memory's lonesome twinkle | 48 | pulls me back home, my memory's lonesome twinkle \ |
49 | like stars above the mountains. I'll send for it | 49 | like stars above the mountains. I'll send for it \ |
50 | and try to make them, but in the thin air they'll | 50 | and try to make them, but in the thin air they'll \ |
51 | crumble into dust like desert air, like a memory. | 51 | crumble into dust like desert air, like a memory. |
diff --git a/src/sapling.txt b/src/sapling.txt index e61d3ea..6cc1939 100644 --- a/src/sapling.txt +++ b/src/sapling.txt | |||
@@ -18,26 +18,26 @@ project: | |||
18 | link: reports | 18 | link: reports |
19 | ... | 19 | ... |
20 | 20 | ||
21 | He chopped down a sapling pine tree and looked at his watch. From first chop | 21 | He chopped down a sapling pine tree and looked at his watch. |
22 | to fall it had taken him eight minutes and something like twenty seconds. | 22 | From first chop to fall it had taken him eight minutes and something like twenty seconds. |
23 | Maybe a little change. He leaned against another tree and fished in his | 23 | Maybe a little change. |
24 | pocket for a cigarette. He lifted it out of its box and fished in his other | 24 | He leaned against another tree and fished in his pocket for a cigarette. |
25 | pocket for his lighter, failing to find it. He searched his other pockets. | 25 | He lifted it out of its box and fished in his other pocket for his lighter, failing to find it. |
26 | He came to the realization that he had forgotten it in his Shack (in confusion | 26 | He searched his other pockets. |
27 | over his True Vocation, he'd resorted to calling it simply the Shack until he | 27 | He came to the realization that he had forgotten it in his Shack (in confusion over his True Vocation, he'd resorted to calling it simply the Shack until he could figure it out). |
28 | could figure it out). He sighed and put his hands in his pockets. | 28 | He sighed and put his hands in his pockets. |
29 | 29 | ||
30 | "I wonder if trees are protective of their young" he said to himself, then | 30 | "I wonder if trees are protective of their young" he said to himself, then wondered if why he had to think his thoughts out loud, then remembered he always did this, then remembered his conversation with Jill. |
31 | wondered if why he had to think his thoughts out loud, then remembered he | 31 | He hoped she didn't. |
32 | always did this, then remembered his conversation with Jill. He hoped she | 32 | He hoped that conversation was like the tree that fell in the forest with no one around. |
33 | didn't. He hoped that conversation was like the tree that fell in the forest | 33 | "I wonder if a thought said out loud isn't heard by anyone, if it was made. |
34 | with no one around. "I wonder if a thought said out loud isn't heard by | 34 | I think maybe this is what Literature (big L) is all about, if it's trying to make a connection because no idea matters unless it's connected to something else, or to someone else. |
35 | anyone, if it was made. I think maybe this is what Literature (big L) is all | 35 | Maybe no wood matters unless it's bound to another by upholstery nails. |
36 | about, if it's trying to make a connection because no idea matters unless it's | 36 | If 'the devil is in the details,' as they say (who are 'they' anyway?), the details are the connections? |
37 | connected to something else, or to someone else. Maybe no wood matters unless | 37 | That doesn't make sense. |
38 | it's bound to another by upholstery nails. If 'the devil is in the details,' | 38 | Details are details. |
39 | as they say (who are 'they' anyway?), the details are the connections? That | 39 | Connections are connections. |
40 | doesn't make sense. Details are details. Connections are connections. | ||
41 | 40 | ||
42 | "Still, a neuron by itself means nothing. Put them all together though and | 41 | "Still, a neuron by itself means nothing. |
43 | connect them. You've got a brain." | 42 | Put them all together though and connect them. |
43 | You've got a brain." | ||
diff --git a/src/shed.txt b/src/shed.txt index f312cd4..abdab6b 100644 --- a/src/shed.txt +++ b/src/shed.txt | |||
@@ -18,18 +18,23 @@ project: | |||
18 | link: sapling | 18 | link: sapling |
19 | ... | 19 | ... |
20 | 20 | ||
21 | "What do you do all day in that shed out back" his mother asked one night | 21 | "What do you do all day in that shed out back" his mother asked one night while they ate dinner in front of the TV. |
22 | while they ate dinner in front of the TV. "Write" he answered. "Write what" | 22 | "Write" he answered. |
23 | she asked in that way that means he'd better not say I don't know. "I don't | 23 | "Write what" she asked in that way that means he'd better not say I don't know. |
24 | know" he said. | 24 | "I don't know" he said. |
25 | 25 | ||
26 | "Goddammit Paul" his mother said. "You're wasting your life out in that shed. | 26 | "Goddammit Paul" his mother said. |
27 | You need to go out and get---" "I chop down trees too" he said. "I make | 27 | "You're wasting your life out in that shed. |
28 | furniture out of them." His mother's face did a Hitchcock zoom as she | 28 | You need to go out and get---" |
29 | considered this new information. "Is it any good" she asked, eyes narrowed. | 29 | "I chop down trees too" he said. |
30 | "I make furniture out of them." | ||
31 | His mother's face did a Hitchcock zoom as she considered this new information. | ||
32 | "Is it any good" she asked, eyes narrowed. | ||
30 | 33 | ||
31 | "It's getting there" he answered. "I'm getting better every day." "When is | 34 | "It's getting there" he answered. |
32 | it going to be there" she asked. "When are you going to sell this furniture | 35 | "I'm getting better every day." |
33 | of yours?" "It'll be a while" he answered. | 36 | "When is it going to be there" she asked. |
37 | "When are you going to sell this furniture of yours?" | ||
38 | "It'll be a while" he answered. | ||
34 | 39 | ||
35 | "Then you'd better get a job until then" she said. | 40 | "Then you'd better get a job until then" she said. |
diff --git a/src/snow.txt b/src/snow.txt index 3bb250a..dda1ede 100644 --- a/src/snow.txt +++ b/src/snow.txt | |||
@@ -18,26 +18,30 @@ project: | |||
18 | link: shed | 18 | link: shed |
19 | ... | 19 | ... |
20 | 20 | ||
21 | _I don't care if they burn_ he wrote on his last blank notecard. He'd have to | 21 | _I don't care if they burn_ he wrote on his last blank notecard. |
22 | go to the Office Supply Store tomorrow after work. | 22 | He'd have to go to the Office Supply Store tomorrow after work. |
23 | 23 | ||
24 | He looked at what he'd written. He'd been thinking about this for a while, | 24 | He looked at what he'd written. |
25 | felt the frustration build slowly like a thundercloud in the back of his mind. | 25 | He'd been thinking about this for a while, felt the frustration build slowly like a thundercloud in the back of his mind. |
26 | He thought he should write something else on the card, but everything he | 26 | He thought he should write something else on the card, but everything he thought of seemed too confessional or too real compromising. |
27 | thought of seemed too confessional or too real compromising. He didn't want | 27 | He didn't want anyone, not even the notecards, to know what he was thinking. |
28 | anyone, not even the notecards, to know what he was thinking. He decided to | 28 | He decided to try for more of an interview with the paper. |
29 | try for more of an interview with the paper. | ||
30 | 29 | ||
31 | _Why?_ asked the notecard. _Because there is nothing important on any of | 30 | _Why?_ asked the notecard. |
32 | them_ he wrote back. _What do you mean? You have some good stuff in that top | 31 | _Because there is nothing important on any of them_ he wrote back. |
33 | drawer there._ He looked in the top drawer. It was stuffed full of notecards | 32 | _What do you mean? |
34 | in no organization. He could see bits and pieces of thoughts like leaves | 33 | You have some good stuff in that top drawer there._ |
35 | crunched underfoot in autumn. _It will take so much organization_ he wrote. | 34 | He looked in the top drawer. |
35 | It was stuffed full of notecards in no organization. | ||
36 | He could see bits and pieces of thoughts like leaves crunched underfoot in autumn. | ||
37 | _It will take so much organization_ he wrote. | ||
36 | 38 | ||
37 | _Why is organization important? Remember the trees, how they formed rows | 39 | _Why is organization important? |
38 | without trying. No matter how the ideas fall, they make something. The snow | 40 | Remember the trees, how they formed rows without trying. |
39 | does that too_ he wrote. _It doesn't try to make anything but it does._ | 41 | No matter how the ideas fall, they make something. |
42 | The snow does that too_ he wrote. | ||
43 | _It doesn't try to make anything but it does._ | ||
40 | 44 | ||
41 | _No the snow is different_ the notecard was annoyed. _The snow is a blank | 45 | _No the snow is different_ the notecard was annoyed. |
42 | canvas that humans build into shapes or doppelgangers. It makes nothing on | 46 | _The snow is a blank canvas that humans build into shapes or doppelgangers. |
43 | its own._ | 47 | It makes nothing on its own._ |
diff --git a/src/stagnant.txt b/src/stagnant.txt index 6de7875..121f4fe 100644 --- a/src/stagnant.txt +++ b/src/stagnant.txt | |||
@@ -18,22 +18,20 @@ project: | |||
18 | link: snow | 18 | link: snow |
19 | ... | 19 | ... |
20 | 20 | ||
21 | "Riding the bus to work is a good way to think or to read" Paul thought to | 21 | "Riding the bus to work is a good way to think or to read" Paul thought to himself on the bus ride to work. |
22 | himself on the bus ride to work. His thoughts couldn't become real to him | 22 | His thoughts couldn't become real to him because he didn't want to look insane to everyone else on the bus. |
23 | because he didn't want to look insane to everyone else on the bus. His | 23 | His thoughts came to him like someone yelling over a hard wind. |
24 | thoughts came to him like someone yelling over a hard wind. He was trying to | 24 | He was trying to write them on his memory but the act of writing was easier and more immediate than that of listening. |
25 | write them on his memory but the act of writing was easier and more immediate | 25 | He was afraid that when he looked at his memory later he wouldn't be able to read what was written. |
26 | than that of listening. He was afraid that when he looked at his memory later | ||
27 | he wouldn't be able to read what was written. | ||
28 | 26 | ||
29 | "Thoughts are like the wind outside a moving bus" he thought "or rather the | 27 | "Thoughts are like the wind outside a moving bus" he thought "or rather the bus is a brain slamming into columns of stagnant air causing them to whistle past in a confusion of something." |
30 | bus is a brain slamming into columns of stagnant air causing them to whistle | 28 | He could barely hear the voice yelling to him over the wind. |
31 | past in a confusion of something." He could barely hear the voice yelling to | 29 | "Speak up" he thought to the voice, then remembered it was his own. |
32 | him over the wind. "Speak up" he thought to the voice, then remembered it was | 30 | He wished he'd remembered a book to read. |
33 | his own. He wished he'd remembered a book to read. | ||
34 | 31 | ||
35 | He looked at his hands to pass the time. They were dry in the winter air that | 32 | He looked at his hands to pass the time. |
36 | had seeped its way into the bus. He tried to figure out how many hours they | 33 | They were dry in the winter air that had seeped its way into the bus. |
37 | would make it before cracking and bleeding. "Maybe three or four" he thought | 34 | He tried to figure out how many hours they would make it before cracking and bleeding. |
38 | accidentally out loud. He looked around expecting stares from everyone on the | 35 | "Maybe three or four" he thought accidentally out loud. |
39 | seat. He was surprised that he was the only one on the bus. | 36 | He looked around expecting stares from everyone on the seat. |
37 | He was surprised that he was the only one on the bus. | ||
diff --git a/src/statements-frag.txt b/src/statements-frag.txt index a3c40a1..9d734a1 100644 --- a/src/statements-frag.txt +++ b/src/statements-frag.txt | |||
@@ -11,62 +11,53 @@ project: | |||
11 | I. Eli {#i.-eli .unnumbered} | 11 | I. Eli {#i.-eli .unnumbered} |
12 | ------ | 12 | ------ |
13 | 13 | ||
14 | "Can one truly describe an emotion?" Eli asked me over the | 14 | "Can one truly describe an emotion?" Eli asked me over the walkie-talkie. |
15 | walkie-talkie. He was in the bathroom, & had taken the walkie-talkie in | 15 | He was in the bathroom, & had taken the walkie-talkie in with him absent-mindedly. |
16 | with him absent-mindedly. I could hear sounds of his piss hitting the | 16 | I could hear sounds of his piss hitting the toilet water. |
17 | toilet water. | 17 | |
18 | 18 | "I can hear you peeing," I said. | |
19 | "I can hear you peeing," I said. He didn't answer so I said in apology, | 19 | He didn't answer so I said in apology, "It's okay. Humans are sexually dimorphic." |
20 | "It's okay. Humans are sexually dimorphic." I was sitting on my blue | 20 | I was sitting on my blue baby blanket texting Jon, who was funny and amicable over the phone. |
21 | baby blanket texting Jon, who was funny and amicable over the phone. He | 21 | He made a three-message joke about greedy lawyers and I would have been laughing if not for my embarrassment toward Eli. |
22 | made a three-message joke about greedy lawyers and I would have been | 22 | He finally came out of the bathroom and kept his eyes straight ahead, toward the wall calendar and not at me, as he passed through the family room into his bedroom, were he shut the door quietly. |
23 | laughing if not for my embarrassment toward Eli. He finally came out of | 23 | Presently I heard some muffled noise as he turned on his iPod. |
24 | the bathroom and kept his eyes straight ahead, toward the wall calendar | 24 | I guessed he didn't feel like talking so I stayed on my blanket watching the Price is Right and texting Jon. |
25 | and not at me, as he passed through the family room into his bedroom, | 25 | |
26 | were he shut the door quietly. Presently I heard some muffled noise as | 26 | Drew Carrey was doing his wrap-up speech on TV when Eli finally came out of his room, red puffy streaks covering his face. |
27 | he turned on his iPod. I guessed he didn't feel like talking so I stayed | 27 | His eyes and nose were red too, which was almost festive against the pale green and white of the wallpaper. |
28 | on my blanket watching the Price is Right and texting Jon. | 28 | I had been laughing at the goofy costumes on the Price is Right and the jokes Jon was texting me, but when Eli came out of the room I stopped and just looked at him as well as I could. |
29 | 29 | He was staring at my right shoulder as he said, "Go home now." | |
30 | Drew Carrey was doing his wrap-up speech on TV when Eli finally came out | ||
31 | of his room, red puffy streaks covering his face. His eyes and nose were | ||
32 | red too, which was almost festive against the pale green and white of | ||
33 | the wallpaper. I had been laughing at the goofy costumes on the Price is | ||
34 | Right and the jokes Jon was texting me, but when Eli came out of the | ||
35 | room I stopped and just looked at him as well as I could. He was staring | ||
36 | at my right shoulder as he said, "Go home now." | ||
37 | 30 | ||
38 | "What?" | 31 | "What?" |
39 | 32 | ||
40 | "I said go home now. I don't want you here anymore, because I just | 33 | "I said go home now. |
41 | remembered I have someone coming over and I have to clean." | 34 | I don't want you here anymore, because I just remembered I have someone coming over and I have to clean." |
42 | 35 | ||
43 | "Look, Eli, I'm sorry---" | 36 | "Look, Eli, I'm sorry---" |
44 | 37 | ||
45 | "It doesn't have anything to do with you, I swear. Just go, okay? Go | 38 | "It doesn't have anything to do with you, I swear. |
46 | home now." | 39 | Just go, okay? Go home now." |
47 | 40 | ||
48 | I got up and tried to give him a hug but he withdrew from me sharply. So | 41 | I got up and tried to give him a hug but he withdrew from me sharply. |
49 | I walked around the coffee table as he sat down, not looking at me | 42 | So I walked around the coffee table as he sat down, not looking at me anymore, and stared at the blank TV. |
50 | anymore, and stared at the blank TV. The blanket I had been sitting in | 43 | The blanket I had been sitting in was crumpled next to him like a dead bird. |
51 | was crumpled next to him like a dead bird. I opened my mouth but thought | 44 | I opened my mouth but thought better of talking, and closed the door behind me slowly. |
52 | better of talking, and closed the door behind me slowly. | ||
53 | 45 | ||
54 | II. Dimorphic {#ii.-dimorphic .unnumbered} | 46 | II. Dimorphic {#ii.-dimorphic .unnumbered} |
55 | ------------- | 47 | ------------- |
56 | 48 | ||
57 | Oranges. Poison. A compromise | 49 | Oranges. Poison. A compromise \ |
58 | between Mary & Judas. Blue | 50 | between Mary & Judas. Blue \ |
59 | baby blankets swaddling greedy lawyers. | 51 | baby blankets swaddling greedy lawyers. |
60 | 52 | ||
61 | Can one truly describe an emotion? | 53 | Can one truly describe an emotion? \ |
62 | I cut my ankle with a razor blade. | 54 | I cut my ankle with a razor blade. \ |
63 | I can only go one at a time. Humanity | 55 | I can only go one at a time. Humanity \ |
64 | has a seething mass of eels | 56 | has a seething mass of eels \ |
65 | for a brain, mating in the water so forcefully | 57 | for a brain, mating in the water so forcefully \ |
66 | that it could drown you under the moon. | 58 | that it could drown you under the moon. |
67 | 59 | ||
68 | III. Declaration of Poetry {#iii.-declaration-of-poetry .unnumbered} | 60 | III. Declaration of Poetry {#iii.-declaration-of-poetry .unnumbered} |
69 | -------------------------- | 61 | -------------------------- |
70 | 62 | ||
71 | You have to go one line at a time, and you have to start on the first or | 63 | You have to go one line at a time, and you have to start on the first or second line. |
72 | second line. | ||
diff --git a/src/stump.txt b/src/stump.txt index aae6084..b9d9837 100644 --- a/src/stump.txt +++ b/src/stump.txt | |||
@@ -18,24 +18,25 @@ project: | |||
18 | link: stagnant | 18 | link: stagnant |
19 | ... | 19 | ... |
20 | 20 | ||
21 | He walked into the woods for the first time in months. It was a bright summer | 21 | He walked into the woods for the first time in months. |
22 | day but under the canopy of leaves it was cool and quiet and twilight. There | 22 | It was a bright summer day but under the canopy of leaves it was cool and quiet and twilight. |
23 | was no sound but his footsteps, his breathing. Instead of an axe, his right | 23 | There was no sound but his footsteps, his breathing. |
24 | hand clutched his notebook. His left was in his pocket. A pencil perched | 24 | Instead of an axe, his right hand clutched his notebook. |
25 | behind his ear. | 25 | His left was in his pocket. |
26 | A pencil perched behind his ear. | ||
26 | 27 | ||
27 | He walked aimlessly until coming over a short rise he saw a stump. He | 28 | He walked aimlessly until coming over a short rise he saw a stump. |
28 | recognized his handiwork in the way the stump made a kind of chair back---flat | 29 | He recognized his handiwork in the way the stump made a kind of chair back---flat until the axe had gone through far enough, then a frayed edge like a torn page. |
29 | until the axe had gone through far enough, then a frayed edge like a torn | 30 | Paul walked over to the stump and sat down. |
30 | page. Paul walked over to the stump and sat down. | ||
31 | 31 | ||
32 | He looked up and tried to find a pattern in the placement of the trees. There | 32 | He looked up and tried to find a pattern in the placement of the trees. |
33 | was none. They grew randomly, beginning nowhere and ending in the same place. | 33 | There was none. |
34 | A squirrel ran down one and up another for no reason. He opened his notebook | 34 | They grew randomly, beginning nowhere and ending in the same place. |
35 | and took his pencil from his ear but could think of nothing to write. | 35 | A squirrel ran down one and up another for no reason. |
36 | He opened his notebook and took his pencil from his ear but could think of nothing to write. | ||
36 | 37 | ||
37 | A crow called hoarsely to another, something important. Paul looked up but | 38 | A crow called hoarsely to another, something important. |
38 | could not see the black bird in the leaves of the trees. He looked back down | 39 | Paul looked up but could not see the black bird in the leaves of the trees. |
39 | to the cream-colored pages of his notebook. | 40 | He looked back down to the cream-colored pages of his notebook. |
40 | 41 | ||
41 | He was surprised that he'd written _YOU CANNOT DISCOVER ART_. | 42 | He was surprised that he'd written _YOU CANNOT DISCOVER ART_. |
diff --git a/src/swear.txt b/src/swear.txt index 3dc80d7..57ffe3c 100644 --- a/src/swear.txt +++ b/src/swear.txt | |||
@@ -51,8 +51,7 @@ round like the Earth. | |||
51 | ``` | 51 | ``` |
52 | 52 | ||
53 | Paul pushed his chair away from the Writing Desk and stared at the notecard. | 53 | Paul pushed his chair away from the Writing Desk and stared at the notecard. |
54 | He stood up, knocked his head on the lightbulb, swore. He pulled the notecard | 54 | He stood up, knocked his head on the lightbulb, swore. |
55 | from his typewriter and crumpled it up with his left hand. With his right hand | 55 | He pulled the notecard from his typewriter and crumpled it up with his left hand. |
56 | he reached in his pocket and pulled out his cigarettes. He put one in his | 56 | With his right hand he reached in his pocket and pulled out his cigarettes. |
57 | mouth, threw the paper in the corner, grabbed his axe, went out into the | 57 | He put one in his mouth, threw the paper in the corner, grabbed his axe, went out into the woods. |
58 | woods. | ||
diff --git a/src/tapestry.txt b/src/tapestry.txt index ab87e19..6909a8c 100644 --- a/src/tapestry.txt +++ b/src/tapestry.txt | |||
@@ -18,25 +18,35 @@ project: | |||
18 | link: swear | 18 | link: swear |
19 | ... | 19 | ... |
20 | 20 | ||
21 | _Apparently typewriters need ribbon. Apparently ribbon is incredibly hard to | 21 | _Apparently typewriters need ribbon. |
22 | find anymore because no one uses typewriters. Apparently I am writing my | 22 | Apparently ribbon is incredibly hard to find anymore because no one uses typewriters. |
23 | hymns from now on._ So he was back to calling his notes "hymns." He looked | 23 | Apparently I am writing my hymns from now on._ |
24 | up "hymns" in the dictionary. It said that a hymn was "an ode or song of | 24 | So he was back to calling his notes "hymns." |
25 | praise or adoration." Praise or adoration to what? he asked himself. He | 25 | He looked up "hymns" in the dictionary. |
26 | thought maybe furniture. There was still a lot of notfurniture in what he was | 26 | It said that a hymn was "an ode or song of praise or adoration." |
27 | again calling his Writing Shack. | 27 | Praise or adoration to what? he asked himself. |
28 | He thought maybe furniture. | ||
29 | There was still a lot of notfurniture in what he was again calling his Writing Shack. | ||
28 | 30 | ||
29 | The dictionary also had this to say about "hymn": that it was possibly related | 31 | The dictionary also had this to say about "hymn": that it was possibly related to the old Greek word for "weave." |
30 | to the old Greek word for "weave." "Weave what" Paul wondered to himself. He | 32 | "Weave what" Paul wondered to himself. |
31 | wrote this down on a new notecard. _Apparently "hymn" means weave somehow. | 33 | He wrote this down on a new notecard. |
32 | Or it used to. Or its cousin did. What is it weaving? Who is it weaving for? | 34 | _Apparently "hymn" means weave somehow. |
33 | I remember in school we talked about Odysseus and his wife Penelope, who wove | 35 | Or it used to. |
34 | a tapestry every day just to take it apart at night. I forget why._ | 36 | Or its cousin did. |
37 | What is it weaving? | ||
38 | Who is it weaving for? | ||
39 | I remember in school we talked about Odysseus and his wife Penelope, who wove a tapestry every day just to take it apart at night. | ||
40 | I forget why._ | ||
35 | 41 | ||
36 | _Maybe she wove the tapestry for Odysseus. Maybe she wove it for herself. | 42 | _Maybe she wove the tapestry for Odysseus. |
37 | What did she weave it of? Memory, maybe? Or dream? I think these words make | 43 | Maybe she wove it for herself. |
38 | a kind of tapestry, or at least the thread it will be made of. I will weave a | 44 | What did she weave it of? |
39 | hymn to the gods of Literature, out of fiction. My furniture was a try at | 45 | Memory, maybe? |
40 | weaving, but I am shit at furniture. So writing it is again._ | 46 | Or dream? |
47 | I think these words make a kind of tapestry, or at least the thread it will be made of. | ||
48 | I will weave a hymn to the gods of Literature, out of fiction. | ||
49 | My furniture was a try at weaving, but I am shit at furniture. | ||
50 | So writing it is again._ | ||
41 | 51 | ||
42 | He wrote _**NOTES FOR A HYMN**_ at the top of this notecard. | 52 | He wrote _**NOTES FOR A HYMN**_ at the top of this notecard. |
diff --git a/src/telemarketer.txt b/src/telemarketer.txt index e43b87c..53a5f68 100644 --- a/src/telemarketer.txt +++ b/src/telemarketer.txt | |||
@@ -14,73 +14,48 @@ project: | |||
14 | link: weplayedthosegamestoo | 14 | link: weplayedthosegamestoo |
15 | ... | 15 | ... |
16 | 16 | ||
17 | It was one of those nameless gray buildings that could be seen from the | 17 | It was one of those nameless gray buildings that could be seen from the street only if Larry craned his neck to almost vertical. |
18 | street only if Larry craned his neck to almost vertical. He never had, | 18 | He never had, of course, having heard when he first arrived in the city that only tourists unaccustomed to tall buildings did so. |
19 | of course, having heard when he first arrived in the city that only | 19 | He'd never thought about it until he'd heard the social injunction against such a thing; it was now one of the things he thought about almost every day as he rode to and from work in gritty blue buses. |
20 | tourists unaccustomed to tall buildings did so. He'd never thought about | ||
21 | it until he'd heard the social injunction against such a thing; it was | ||
22 | now one of the things he thought about almost every day as he rode to | ||
23 | and from work in gritty blue buses. | ||
24 | 20 | ||
25 | Inside the building, the constant sound of recirculating dry air made | 21 | Inside the building, the constant sound of recirculating dry air made Larry feel as though he were at some beach in hell, listening to the [ocean][], or more accurately at a gift shop in a landlocked state in hell listening to the ocean as represented by the sound a conch shell makes when he holds it up to his ear. |
26 | Larry feel as though he were at some beach in hell, listening to the | 22 | The buzz of the fluorescent bulbs overhead sounded like the hot sun bearing down all day in this metaphor, a favorite of Larry's. |
27 | [ocean][], or more accurately at a gift shop in a landlocked state in hell | ||
28 | listening to the ocean as represented by the sound a conch shell makes | ||
29 | when he holds it up to his ear. The buzz of the fluorescent bulbs | ||
30 | overhead sounded like the hot sun bearing down all day in this metaphor, | ||
31 | a favorite of Larry's. | ||
32 | 23 | ||
33 | His cubicle was made of that cheap, grayish-blue plywood that cubicles | 24 | His cubicle was made of that cheap, grayish-blue plywood that cubicles are made of; inside it, his computer sat on his desk as Larry liked to think an [eagle perched][] on a mountainous crag much like the crag that was his desktop wallpaper. |
34 | are made of; inside it, his computer sat on his desk as Larry liked to | 25 | The walls were unadorned except for a few tacked-up papers in report covers explaining his script. |
35 | think an [eagle perched][] on a mountainous crag much like the crag that was | 26 | When Larry made a call to a potential customer it always went the same way: |
36 | his desktop wallpaper. The walls were unadorned except for a few | ||
37 | tacked-up papers in report covers explaining his script. When Larry made | ||
38 | a call to a potential customer it always went the same way: | ||
39 | 27 | ||
40 | "Hi, Mr/Mrs (customer's name). My name is Larry and I'm with (client's | 28 | "Hi, Mr/Mrs (customer's name). |
41 | name), and was just wondering if I could have a minute of your time?" | 29 | My name is Larry and I'm with (client's name), and was just wondering if I could have a minute of your time?" |
42 | 30 | ||
43 | "Oh, no, sir; I don't want whatever it is you're selling." (customer | 31 | "Oh, no, sir; I don't want whatever it is you're selling." (customer terminates call). |
44 | terminates call). | ||
45 | 32 | ||
46 | Larry had only ever read the first line of the script on the wall. | 33 | Larry had only ever read the first line of the script on the wall. |
47 | Sometimes he had an urge to read more of it, to be ready when a customer | 34 | Sometimes he had an urge to read more of it, to be ready when a customer expressed interest in whatever it was Larry was selling, but something in him---he liked to think it was an actor's intuition that told him it was best to improvise, though he worried it was the futility of it---kept him from reading further into the script. |
48 | expressed interest in whatever it was Larry was selling, but something | 35 | So when Jane said, "Sure, I have nothing better to do," he was thrown completely off guard. |
49 | in him---he liked to think it was an actor's intuition that told him it | ||
50 | was best to improvise, though he worried it was the futility of it---kept | ||
51 | him from reading further into the script. So when Jane said, "Sure, I | ||
52 | have nothing better to do," he was thrown completely off guard. | ||
53 | 36 | ||
54 | "Um, alright Mrs ... Mrs. Loring, I was wondering---" | 37 | "Um, alright Mrs ... Mrs. Loring, I was wondering---" |
55 | 38 | ||
56 | "It's Ms, not Mrs. Em ess. Miz. No ‘r,' Larry." She sounded patient, as | 39 | "It's Ms, not Mrs. |
57 | if she were used to correcting people about the particulars of her | 40 | Em ess. |
58 | title. But how often can that happen? Larry thought, and he was suddenly | 41 | Miz. |
59 | deeply confused. | 42 | No ‘r,' Larry." |
60 | 43 | She sounded patient, as if she were used to correcting people about the particulars of her title. | |
61 | "Oh, sorry, ma'am, uh, Miz Loring, but I wanted to know whether you'd like to, | 44 | But how often can that happen? |
62 | ah, buy some..." Larry put his head in his hand and started twirling his hair | 45 | Larry thought, and he was suddenly deeply confused. |
63 | in his finger, a nervous habit he'd had since childhood, and closed his eyes | 46 | |
64 | tightly. "Why don't you have anything better to do?" | 47 | "Oh, sorry, ma'am, uh, Miz Loring, but I wanted to know whether you'd like to, ah, buy some..." |
65 | 48 | Larry put his head in his hand and started twirling his hair in his finger, a nervous habit he'd had since childhood, and closed his eyes tightly. | |
66 | Immediately he knew it was the wrong question. Even before the silence | 49 | "Why don't you have anything better to do?" |
67 | on the other end moved past impatience and into stunned, Larry had a | 50 | |
68 | mini-drama written and staged within his mind: she would call customer | 51 | Immediately he knew it was the wrong question. |
69 | service and complain loudly into the representative's ear. The rep would | 52 | Even before the silence on the other end moved past impatience and into stunned, Larry had a mini-drama written and staged within his mind: she would call customer service and complain loudly into the representative's ear. |
70 | send a memo to the head of telemarketing requesting disciplinary action, | 53 | The rep would send a memo to the head of telemarketing requesting disciplinary action, and the head would delegate the action to Larry's immediate supervisor, David. |
71 | and the head would delegate the action to Larry's immediate supervisor, | 54 | David would saunter over to Larry's cubicle sometime within the next week, depending on when he got the memo and when he felt like crossing fifty feet of office space, and have one of what David liked to call "chats" but what Larry knew were lectures. |
72 | David. David would saunter over to Larry's cubicle sometime within the | 55 | After about half an hour of "chatting" David would give Larry a warning and ask him to come in for overtime to make up for the discretion, and walk back slowly to his office, making small talk with the cubicled workers on the way. |
73 | next week, depending on when he got the memo and when he felt like | 56 | The world suddenly felt too small for Larry, or he too big for it. |
74 | crossing fifty feet of office space, and have one of what David liked to | 57 | |
75 | call "chats" but what Larry knew were lectures. After about half an hour | 58 | Quietly, with the same patience but with a [bigger pain][], Jane said, "My husband just left me and I thought you could take my mind off of him for just a minute," and hung up. |
76 | of "chatting" David would give Larry a warning and ask him to come in | ||
77 | for overtime to make up for the discretion, and walk back slowly to his | ||
78 | office, making small talk with the cubicled workers on the way. The | ||
79 | world suddenly felt too small for Larry, or he too big for it. | ||
80 | |||
81 | Quietly, with the same patience but with a [bigger pain][], Jane said, "My | ||
82 | husband just left me and I thought you could take my mind off of him for | ||
83 | just a minute," and hung up. | ||
84 | 59 | ||
85 | [ocean]: theoceanoverflowswithcamels.html | 60 | [ocean]: theoceanoverflowswithcamels.html |
86 | [eagle perched]: mountain.html | 61 | [eagle perched]: mountain.html |
diff --git a/src/toilet.txt b/src/toilet.txt index 90ae836..4cf97b7 100644 --- a/src/toilet.txt +++ b/src/toilet.txt | |||
@@ -20,17 +20,17 @@ project: | |||
20 | 20 | ||
21 | Paul only did his reading on the toilet. | 21 | Paul only did his reading on the toilet. |
22 | 22 | ||
23 | He read in a magazine that the universe as we know it is actually a hologram, | 23 | He read in a magazine that the universe as we know it is actually a hologram, a three-dimensional projection of a lower, two-dimensional, "realer" reality. |
24 | a three-dimensional projection of a lower, two-dimensional, "realer" reality. | 24 | The article said that this model explains things like quantum entanglement, what it called "spooky action at a distance." |
25 | The article said that this model explains things like quantum entanglement, | ||
26 | what it called "spooky action at a distance." | ||
27 | 25 | ||
28 | After he finished, he ran back out to his Writing Shack and hammered out a | 26 | After he finished, he ran back out to his Writing Shack and hammered out a Treatise on Literature as Spooky Action. |
29 | Treatise on Literature as Spooky Action. His mind was reeling. He typed out | 27 | His mind was reeling. |
30 | an entire notecard on the subject. | 28 | He typed out an entire [notecard][] on the subject. |
31 | 29 | ||
32 | He stopped to catch his breath. Reading it over, he realized he was | 30 | He stopped to catch his breath. |
33 | completely wrong. "Paper is made from trees" he thought "and so is | 31 | Reading it over, he realized he was completely wrong. |
34 | furniture." He had thought that ART and CRAFT were two separate enterprises | 32 | "Paper is made from trees" he thought "and so is furniture." |
35 | but he realized in a flash that they were two sides of the same building. | 33 | He had thought that ART and CRAFT were two separate enterprises but he realized in a flash that they were two sides of the same building. |
36 | Were there other walls? | 34 | Were there other walls? |
35 | |||
36 | [notecard]: treatise.html | ||
diff --git a/src/toothpaste.txt b/src/toothpaste.txt index f8cd231..2fb3ad6 100644 --- a/src/toothpaste.txt +++ b/src/toothpaste.txt | |||
@@ -18,23 +18,24 @@ project: | |||
18 | link: toilet | 18 | link: toilet |
19 | ... | 19 | ... |
20 | 20 | ||
21 | He couldn't find a shirt to go to work in. They all had stains on them | 21 | He couldn't find a shirt to go to work in. |
22 | somewhere. He pulled out a vest to put on over the stains but somehow all of | 22 | They all had stains on them somewhere. |
23 | them were still visible. Most of them were unidentifiable but one he thought | 23 | He pulled out a vest to put on over the stains but somehow all of them were still visible. |
24 | could have come from that peach he ate two weeks before. Another looked like | 24 | Most of them were unidentifiable but one he thought could have come from that peach he ate two weeks before. |
25 | toothpaste but he was paranoid it was something else. | 25 | Another looked like toothpaste but he was paranoid it was something else. |
26 | 26 | ||
27 | When he took the bus into work he couldn't relax. He was paranoid everyone | 27 | When he took the bus into work he couldn't relax. |
28 | was staring at his stain and kept looking out the corners of his eyes to make | 28 | He was paranoid everyone was staring at his stain and kept looking out the corners of his eyes to make sure they weren't. |
29 | sure they weren't. They didn't seem to be but they could also be looking away | 29 | They didn't seem to be but they could also be looking away just as he looked at them. |
30 | just as he looked at them. "The Observation Paradox" he muttered to himself. | 30 | "The Observation Paradox" he muttered to himself. |
31 | 31 | ||
32 | Jill was the only one to notice the stain at work. She came around to his | 32 | Jill was the only one to notice the stain at work. |
33 | cubicle during a break because he dared not show his stain in the break room. | 33 | She came around to his cubicle during a break because he dared not show his stain in the break room. |
34 | "You have a stain on your shoulder" she said "it looks like toothpaste." "Do | 34 | "You have a stain on your shoulder" she said "it looks like toothpaste." |
35 | I" he feigned ignorance but went red at the same time "I didn't see that there | 35 | "Do I" he feigned ignorance but went red at the same time "I didn't see that there this morning." |
36 | this morning." "How do you get toothpaste on your shoulder?" "I don't know | 36 | "How do you get toothpaste on your shoulder?" |
37 | skills I guess" he said and she grinned. "You know vinegar will take that | 37 | "I don't know skills I guess" he said and she grinned. |
38 | out" she said "although I think I like it. You should start a museum of shirt | 38 | "You know vinegar will take that out" she said "although I think I like it. |
39 | stains!" "I don't have that many shirts with stains" he said frowning. "Yes | 39 | You should start a museum of shirt stains!" |
40 | you do" she said. | 40 | "I don't have that many shirts with stains" he said frowning. |
41 | "Yes you do" she said. | ||
diff --git a/src/underwear.txt b/src/underwear.txt index 7caedd9..952d7c3 100644 --- a/src/underwear.txt +++ b/src/underwear.txt | |||
@@ -18,23 +18,20 @@ project: | |||
18 | link: treatise | 18 | link: treatise |
19 | ... | 19 | ... |
20 | 20 | ||
21 | He dropped the penny in the dryer, turned it on, and turned around. "What" he | 21 | He dropped the penny in the dryer, turned it on, and turned around. |
22 | called upstairs, pretending not to hear his mother's question over the noise | 22 | "What" he called upstairs, pretending not to hear his mother's question over the noise of the dryer. |
23 | of the dryer. He had heard her ask "Could you bring up my underwear from the | 23 | He had heard her ask "Could you bring up my underwear from the dryer" but didn't want to touch her underwear any more than he had to. |
24 | dryer" but didn't want to touch her underwear any more than he had to. "I | 24 | "I don't want to bring up your underwear" he said to himself, and walked back upstairs as his mother was calling down again for her underwear. |
25 | don't want to bring up your underwear" he said to himself, and walked back | ||
26 | upstairs as his mother was calling down again for her underwear. | ||
27 | 25 | ||
28 | "Did you get them" she asked when he opened the basement door to the kitchen. | 26 | "Did you get them" she asked when he opened the basement door to the kitchen. |
29 | She was sitting at the table playing dominoes. "Get what" he asked. She | 27 | She was sitting at the table playing dominoes. |
30 | peered at him and said "my underwear." | 28 | "Get what" he asked. |
29 | She peered at him and said "my underwear." | ||
31 | 30 | ||
32 | "Oh I didn't see them" he answered. He reflexively opened the refrigerator, | 31 | "Oh I didn't see them" he answered. |
33 | reflexively bent down, reflexively tried to feign non-disappointment | 32 | He reflexively opened the refrigerator, reflexively bent down, reflexively tried to feign non-disappointment (appointment? he thought) at seeing the same disappointing empty pickle jar, old head of lettuce, crusty mayonnaise he'd seen already on the way down to switch his laundry over. |
34 | (appointment? he thought) at seeing the same disappointing empty pickle jar, | 33 | "Paul" she said in that way that means Look at me. |
35 | old head of lettuce, crusty mayonnaise he'd seen already on the way down to | ||
36 | switch his laundry over. "Paul" she said in that way that means Look at me. | ||
37 | Paul looked at her. | 34 | Paul looked at her. |
38 | 35 | ||
39 | "You had to get them out of the dryer to put your clothes in. Where did you | 36 | "You had to get them out of the dryer to put your clothes in. |
40 | put them?" | 37 | Where did you put them?" |
diff --git a/src/wallpaper.txt b/src/wallpaper.txt index 45de63c..ace1101 100644 --- a/src/wallpaper.txt +++ b/src/wallpaper.txt | |||
@@ -19,22 +19,24 @@ project: | |||
19 | ... | 19 | ... |
20 | 20 | ||
21 | 21 | ||
22 | He didn't go back into the shed for a long time. His hatchet was in there, | 22 | He didn't go back into the shed for a long time. |
23 | and his axe. He didn't want to face them. His papers, he decided, could wait | 23 | His hatchet was in there, and his axe. |
24 | in the top drawer for a while before being looked at again. The pain | 24 | He didn't want to face them. |
25 | medication made him loopy. He couldn't think as well as he was used to, which | 25 | His papers, he decided, could wait in the top drawer for a while before being looked at again. |
26 | wasn't well to begin with. Even saying his thoughts out loud, it was as | 26 | The pain medication made him loopy. |
27 | though they were on the TV in the next room. Someone was cheering. They had | 27 | He couldn't think as well as he was used to, which wasn't well to begin with. |
28 | just won a car. | 28 | Even saying his thoughts out loud, it was as though they were on the TV in the next room. |
29 | Someone was cheering. | ||
30 | They had just won a car. | ||
29 | 31 | ||
30 | His mother came in with lunch on a tray. It was hot tomato soup and a grilled | 32 | His mother came in with lunch on a tray. |
31 | cheese sandwich. "What have you been doing all day" she asked "you haven't | 33 | It was hot tomato soup and a grilled cheese sandwich. |
32 | just been staring at the wall have you?" He had been staring at the wall most | 34 | "What have you been doing all day" she asked "you haven't just been staring at the wall have you?" |
33 | of the day. The wall without the window on it, with the woodgrain wallpaper. | 35 | He had been staring at the wall most of the day. |
34 | "No" he said. "What have you been doing then" she asked setting the tray down | 36 | The wall without the window on it, with the woodgrain wallpaper. |
35 | on his lap. He sat up and almost upset it, but she caught it before it | 37 | "No" he said. |
36 | spilled anything. "Composing in my head" he lied. "A novel of my | 38 | "What have you been doing then" she asked setting the tray down on his lap. |
37 | experience." | 39 | He sat up and almost upset it, but she caught it before it spilled anything. |
40 | "Composing in my head" he lied. "A novel of my experience." | ||
38 | 41 | ||
39 | "Do you really think anyone will want to read about you" she asked and walked | 42 | "Do you really think anyone will want to read about you" she asked and walked out of the room. |
40 | out of the room. | ||
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20 | 20 | ||
21 | _**HYMN 386: JOKES**_ | 21 | _**HYMN 386: JOKES**_ |
22 | 22 | ||
23 | _"Tell us a joke" everyone asks of the clown. He sits on a log and begins to | 23 | _"Tell us a joke" everyone asks of the clown. |
24 | think. Everyone waits gap-mouthed in anticipation. A slight breeze ruffles | 24 | He sits on a log and begins to think. |
25 | the clown's coat, his pompom buttons, his bright red hair. His nose becomes | 25 | Everyone waits gap-mouthed in anticipation. |
26 | redder in the cold. Hours pass. All but the most dedicated of joke listeners | 26 | A slight breeze ruffles the clown's coat, his pompom buttons, his bright red hair. |
27 | leave him to rot ~~for all they may care~~._ | 27 | His nose becomes redder in the cold. |
28 | Hours pass. | ||
29 | All but the most dedicated of joke listeners leave him to rot ~~for all they may care~~._ | ||
28 | 30 | ||
29 | _The clown opens his mouth to speak but no words come out. A tear falls down | 31 | _The clown opens his mouth to speak but no words come out. |
30 | his cheek, and another. He begins to sob. The last joke listener comes over | 32 | A tear falls down his cheek, and another. |
31 | to comfort him. She puts a hand on his shoulder. He looks up at her, red | 33 | He begins to sob. |
32 | face, red nose, white lips, and says ~~"Thank you."~~ He vanishes from the | 34 | The last joke listener comes over to comfort him. |
33 | clearing. The last joke listener sits on the log and looks up at the sky. | 35 | She puts a hand on his shoulder. |
34 | The moon is full. The world creaks on its axis._ | 36 | He looks up at her, red face, red nose, white lips, and says ~~"Thank you."~~ |
37 | He vanishes from the clearing. | ||
38 | The last joke listener sits on the log and looks up at the sky. | ||
39 | The moon is full. | ||
40 | The world creaks on its axis._ | ||
35 | 41 | ||
36 | Paul looked up to the space on the wall where a window should be. The shadow | 42 | Paul looked up to the space on the wall where a window should be. |
37 | of his face wavered in the candle light. He looked back down at the card he'd | 43 | The shadow of his face wavered in the candle light. |
38 | been writing on. He read the card. He crossed out the _for all they may | 44 | He looked back down at the card he'd been writing on. |
39 | care_ in the first paragraph, and _"Thank you"_ from the second one. "What | 45 | He read the card. |
40 | could he say" he thought to himself. "What could he possibly say to her." He | 46 | He crossed out the _for all they may care_ in the first paragraph, and _"Thank you"_ from the second one. |
41 | went outside to clear his head with a cigarette. He took his axe with him | 47 | "What could he say" he thought to himself. |
42 | this time. | 48 | "What could he possibly say to her." |
49 | He went outside to clear his head with a cigarette. | ||
50 | He took his axe with him this time. | ||
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14 | link: apollo11 | 14 | link: apollo11 |
15 | ... | 15 | ... |
16 | 16 | ||
17 | "How astonishing it is that language can almost mean, / and frightening | 17 | "How astonishing it is that language can almost mean, / and frightening that it does not quite," Jack Gilbert opens his poem "The Forgotten Dialect of the Heart." |
18 | that it does not quite," Jack Gilbert opens his poem "The Forgotten | 18 | In a similar vein, Hass's "Meditation at Legunitas" states, "A word is elegy to what it signifies." |
19 | Dialect of the Heart." In a similar vein, Hass's "Meditation at | 19 | These poems get to the heart of language, and express the old duality of thought: by giving a word to an entity, it is both tethered and made meaningful. |
20 | Legunitas" states, "A word is elegy to what it signifies." These poems | ||
21 | get to the heart of language, and express the old duality of thought: by | ||
22 | giving a word to an entity, it is both tethered and made meaningful. | ||
23 | 20 | ||
24 | Words are the inevitable byproduct of an analytic mind. Humans are | 21 | Words are the inevitable byproduct of an analytic mind. |
25 | constantly classifying and reclassifying ideas, objects, animals, | 22 | Humans are constantly classifying and reclassifying ideas, objects, animals, people, into ten thousand arbitrary categories. |
26 | people, into ten thousand arbitrary categories. A favorite saying of | 23 | A favorite saying of mine is that "Everything is everything," a tautology that I like, because it gets to the core of the human linguistic machine, and because every time I say it people think I'm being [disingenuous][]. |
27 | mine is that "Everything is everything," a tautology that I like, | 24 | But what I mean by "everything is everything" is that there is a continuity to existence that works beyond, or rather underneath, our capacity to understand it through language. |
28 | because it gets to the core of the human linguistic machine, and because | 25 | Language by definition compartmentalizes reality, sets this bit apart from that bit, sets up boundaries as to what is and is not a stone, a leaf, a door. |
29 | every time I say it people think I'm being [disingenuous][]. But what I mean | 26 | Most of the time I think of language as limiting, as defining a thing as the [inverse of everything][] is not. |
30 | by "everything is everything" is that there is a continuity to existence | ||
31 | that works beyond, or rather underneath, our capacity to understand it | ||
32 | through language. Language by definition compartmentalizes reality, sets | ||
33 | this bit apart from that bit, sets up boundaries as to what is and is | ||
34 | not a stone, a leaf, a door. Most of the time I think of language as | ||
35 | limiting, as defining a thing as the [inverse of everything][] is not. | ||
36 | 27 | ||
37 | In this way, "everything is everything" becomes "everything is nothing," | 28 | In this way, "everything is everything" becomes "everything is nothing," which is another thing I like to say and something that pisses people off. |
38 | which is another thing I like to say and something that pisses people | 29 | To me, infinity and zero are the same, two ways of looking at the same point on the circle–of numbers, of the universe, whatever. |
39 | off. To me, infinity and zero are the same, two ways of looking at the | 30 | Maybe it's because I wear an analogue watch, and so my view of time is cyclical, or maybe it's some brain trauma I had in vitro, but whatever it is that's how I see the world, because I'm working against the limitations that language sets upon us. |
40 | same point on the circle–of numbers, of the universe, whatever. Maybe | 31 | I think that's the role of the poet, or of any artist: to take the over-expansive experience of existing and to boil it down, boil and boil away until there is the ultimate concentrate at the center that is what the poem talks around, at, etc., but never of, because it is ultimately made of language and cannot get to it. |
41 | it's because I wear an analogue watch, and so my view of time is | 32 | A poem is getting as close as possible to the speed of light, to absolute zero, to God, while knowing that it can't get all the way there, and never will. |
42 | cyclical, or maybe it's some brain trauma I had in vitro, but whatever it | 33 | A poem is doing this and coming back and showing what happened as it happened. |
43 | is that's how I see the world, because I'm working against the | 34 | Exegesis is hard because a really good poem will be just that, it will be the most basic and best way to say what it's saying, so attempts to say the same thing differently will fail. |
44 | limitations that language sets upon us. I think that's the role of the | 35 | A poem is a kernel of existence. |
45 | poet, or of any artist: to take the over-expansive experience of | 36 | It is a description of the kernel. [It is][]. |
46 | existing and to boil it down, boil and boil away until there is the | ||
47 | ultimate concentrate at the center that is what the poem talks around, | ||
48 | at, etc., but never of, because it is ultimately made of language and | ||
49 | cannot get to it. A poem is getting as close as possible to the speed of | ||
50 | light, to absolute zero, to God, while knowing that it can't get all the | ||
51 | way there, and never will. A poem is doing this and coming back and | ||
52 | showing what happened as it happened. Exegesis is hard because a really | ||
53 | good poem will be just that, it will be the most basic and best way to | ||
54 | say what it's saying, so attempts to say the same thing differently will | ||
55 | fail. A poem is a kernel of existence. It is a description of the | ||
56 | kernel. [It is][]. | ||
57 | 37 | ||
58 | [disingenuous]: likingthings.html | 38 | [disingenuous]: likingthings.html |
59 | [inverse of everything]: i-am.html | 39 | [inverse of everything]: i-am.html |
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18 | link: window | 18 | link: window |
19 | ... | 19 | ... |
20 | 20 | ||
21 | He sat down at his writing desk and removed his new pen from its plastic | 21 | He sat down at his writing desk and removed his new pen from its plastic wrapping. |
22 | wrapping. He remembered how to fill it from _The View from Saturday_, which | 22 | He remembered how to fill it from _The View from Saturday_, which he'd read as a kid. |
23 | he'd read as a kid. It had been one of his favorite books. He remembered the | 23 | It had been one of his favorite books. |
24 | heart puzzle they completed, the origin of the word "posh," and most of all | 24 | He remembered the heart puzzle they completed, the origin of the word "posh," and most of all his fourth-grade teacher [Ms. (Mrs? He could never remember)][ms] Samovar. |
25 | his fourth-grade teacher Ms. (Mrs? He could never remember) Samovar. He | 25 | He smiled as he opened the lid on the ink well he'd just bought. |
26 | smiled as he opened the lid on the ink well he'd just bought. | ||
27 | 26 | ||
28 | He dipped his pen in the inkwell, screwed the converter piston up, and watched | 27 | He dipped his pen in the inkwell, screwed the converter piston up, and watched as nothing entered the chamber. |
29 | as nothing entered the chamber. He screwed it back down and up again, while | 28 | He screwed it back down and up again, while dipping the nib more deeply into the ink well. |
30 | dipping the nib more deeply into the ink well. He watched as again nothing | 29 | He watched as again nothing filled the capsule. |
31 | filled the capsule. He screwed it down a third time. His thumb knocked the | 30 | He screwed it down a third time. |
32 | inkwell over somehow by accident. | 31 | His thumb knocked the inkwell over somehow by accident. |
33 | 32 | ||
34 | As he swore, stood up and away from the table, and went into the house proper | 33 | As he swore, stood up and away from the table, and went into the house proper for paper towels, he resolved to buy a typewriter. |
35 | for paper towels, he resolved to buy a typewriter. | 34 | |
35 | [ms]: telemarketer.html | ||
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18 | link: writing | 18 | link: writing |
19 | ... | 19 | ... |
20 | 20 | ||
21 | While chopping a tree in the woods with his hatchet (a Christmas gift from his | 21 | While chopping a tree in the woods with his hatchet (a Christmas gift from his mother) a bird he'd never heard before cried out. |
22 | mother) a bird he'd never heard before cried out. He jerked his head up and | 22 | He jerked his head up and to the right as the hatchet fell down and to the left. |
23 | to the right as the hatchet fell down and to the left. It cut deep into the | 23 | It cut deep into the back of his left hand. |
24 | back of his left hand. A low thud didn't echo in the forest because all the | 24 | A low thud didn't echo in the forest because all the needles and snow absorbed ~~sound well~~ the sound. |
25 | needles and snow absorbed ~~sound well~~ the sound. | ||
26 | 25 | ||
27 | When he got back to the house his hand wrapped in the end of his shirt he | 26 | When he got back to the house his hand wrapped in the end of his shirt he still felt no pain. |
28 | still felt no pain. He called for his mother and found her watching TV in the | 27 | He called for his mother and found her watching TV in the main room. |
29 | main room. He stayed in the kitchen not wanting to get blood on the carpet. | 28 | He stayed in the kitchen not wanting to get blood on the carpet. |
30 | She turned around cigarette dangling from her open mouth said "Oh god what | 29 | She turned around cigarette dangling from her open mouth said "Oh god what happened." |
31 | happened." | ||
32 | 30 | ||
33 | She drove him to the hospital in the car. The radio stayed off the entire | 31 | She drove him to the hospital in the car. |
34 | way. Paul wanted to turn it on but ~~he didn't want~~ the desire not to annoy | 32 | The radio stayed off the entire way. |
35 | his mother was stronger. They drove in silence. | 33 | Paul wanted to turn it on but ~~he didn't want~~ the desire not to annoy his mother was stronger. |
34 | They drove in silence. | ||
36 | 35 | ||
37 | At the hospital after the X-rays and stitching and pain medication | 36 | At the hospital after the X-rays and stitching and pain medication prescription the doctor said "You got lucky, son. |
38 | prescription the doctor said "You got lucky, son. If that axe had hit a | 37 | If that axe had hit a half-inch lower you'd have lost your hand. |
39 | half-inch lower you'd have lost your hand. You won't get full mobility back | 38 | You won't get full mobility back because we had to tie the tendons, but with therapy you should be able to work it pretty well." |
40 | because we had to tie the tendons, but with therapy you should be able to work | ||
41 | it pretty well." | ||
42 | 39 | ||
43 | On the drive back home all he could think was that he was glad he didn't hit | 40 | On the drive back home all he could think was that he was glad he didn't hit his writing hand. |
44 | his writing hand. | ||
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16 | link: x-ray | 16 | link: x-ray |
17 | ... | 17 | ... |
18 | 18 | ||
19 | He would enter data at work for fifty minutes and then go on break. He would | 19 | He would enter data at work for fifty minutes and then go on break. |
20 | walk down the hallway to the breakroom, which had a white refrigerator, a | 20 | He would walk down the hallway to the breakroom, which had a white refrigerator, a black microwave on a brown plyboard cart stocked with powdered creamer, sugar, and swizzle sticks, a dark red coffee maker, and yellow paint on the wall. |
21 | black microwave on a brown plyboard cart stocked with powdered creamer, sugar, | 21 | He'd remember that somewhere he'd read an article about yellow walls being calming. |
22 | and swizzle sticks, a dark red coffee maker, and yellow paint on the wall. | 22 | "They use yellow in asylums" he'd say to himself. |
23 | He'd remember that somewhere he'd read an article about yellow walls being | ||
24 | calming. "They use yellow in asylums" he'd say to himself. | ||
25 | 23 | ||
26 | He would sit down at the round table covered in newspapers that took up the | 24 | He would sit down at the round table covered in newspapers that took up the half of the room not occupied by the refrigerator, microwave, or counter with coffee pot and sink. |
27 | half of the room not occupied by the refrigerator, microwave, or counter with | 25 | He didn't drink coffee but he would think about starting. |
28 | coffee pot and sink. He didn't drink coffee but he would think about | 26 | He would shuffle the newspapers around on the table and see they were all the same ones as an hour ago. |
29 | starting. He would shuffle the newspapers around on the table and see they | 27 | "Or technically fifty minutes ago" he would say to himself. |
30 | were all the same ones as an hour ago. "Or technically fifty minutes ago" he | 28 | Sometimes Jill would come in for a cup of coffee. |
31 | would say to himself. Sometimes Jill would come in for a cup of coffee. She | 29 | She would always check that her lunch, which she brought each morning in a Tupperware container with a blue lid with her name written on it in black sharpie, was still there. |
32 | would always check that her lunch, which she brought each morning in a | 30 | Once he asked her why she checked. |
33 | Tupperware container with a blue lid with her name written on it in black | ||
34 | sharpie, was still there. Once he asked her why she checked. | ||
35 | 31 | ||
36 | "Why do you always check if your lunch is in the fridge" he asked. "I don't" | 32 | "Why do you always check if your lunch is in the fridge" he asked. |
37 | she said. "Oh I thought you did." "I don't think so." "Why do you check at | 33 | "I don't" she said. |
38 | all?" "Once it was stolen out of the fridge and returned empty before I had a | 34 | "Oh I thought you did." |
39 | chance to eat my lunch" she said. "So you make sure it won't happen again." | 35 | "I don't think so." |
36 | "Why do you check at all?" | ||
37 | "Once it was stolen out of the fridge and returned empty before I had a chance to eat my lunch" she said. | ||
38 | "So you make sure it won't happen again." | ||
40 | "No I'm waiting for the day that it does." | 39 | "No I'm waiting for the day that it does." |